Monday, 8 days old Kyden

Today is already 31 August 2009.
Kyden is born on 23 August.

Kyden progress:

He is 1.6kg today and he is drinking 30 ml of milk every 3 hours now, but not on bottle yet as his sucking reflex is still weak, not strong yet.
He might be able to get off the drip soon as the doctor will mointor this tonight and if he is ok they will remove the drip which is good that means tat he can fully drink milk and no longer depend on the drip.
Hopefully he can be off the drip.
if Kyden is off the drip i will go visit him as i can carry him without fear of hurting him as got tube ma.
=)
God please pray and make sure that he can remove his drip tonight.
He opened his eyes more frequent already haha, i got his pictures but waiting to download la.

I wished him faster gain weight so can come home earlier, i kinda missed him alot, i want him to be attached with me as much as possible as i only have 4 months maternity haha. But i chose to take only 3 months as i wan to bring him to doctor for jab myself if i can so i don't wanna waste the 1 mth maternity.

I can pump around 60 to 70 ml of milk each time every 3 hours but then the thing is that the milk don't seems to increase le since 2 days ago can someone tell me if this is normal?

I wan more milk so i can feed Kyden and not on formula at all but i am trying my best but I'm not waking up in the middle of the night la.
Sleeping all the way but i Wake up every morning around 6 am to 7am to at least pump before i go back slp till 12 plus.

The 1st thing i wake up i never eat OK, i pump milk so i can have at least 8 bottle of milk for Kyden everyday when he bring milk to him daily.

I want to increase my milk flow to at least 100ml can someone tell me how?

My wound is getting better already and i can sleep better now, not so pain at least can sleep onmy side but when i wake up, i feel sore all over.

Maid is irritating and i tell her off today that why she is so BLUR/ FORGETFUL/ LAZY.
She said NO!!!
Expected from her answer la.

I told her that if she got any problems, must tell us so that we know what is going on and we can understand.

She is so blur and i tell her I'm so afraid that she will be more blur and get worst and harbour danger to my Kyden. She said NO.

Sigh!!!!

When she first came she is not like that DE, recently after i went hospital she went crazy and till now not yet recover.
She is forgetful and also things i tell her she cant remember. OMFG!

I told her to boil my soup so i can have it for lunch and she forget about it and tell me the thing is still frozen!
Fuck!

I buy veg for her asked her why she never cook she no answer then i said cook tomorrow then she wanna cook on the spot as she mentioned i tell her DE, when i told her to cook for tml DE.
Heart wanna puke blood. Thus i chose not to talk to her and ignore her.
Wasting my time. I asked him to do Appraisal with her as i don't want to do with her.
I told her her face changes as she knew it is him who is going to do with her instead of me.

I delay this appraisal with her as i realised tat she is still OK but recently i think i need to embark on this already as she is getting worst.

i have this thoughts of sending her back and getting a new maid but son is attracted to her and i am afraid the new maid will abuse my kids and not honest as her. Which is the good points of this maid la.

Dilemma

Going to pump milk soon as I'm leaking haha, my shirt is wet now! So funny!!!!

Sunday at home rotting with my sweet family =)

It is a moody day for me to receive call from my mum and still said that I'm so poor thing do confinement till like that. i mean if she can said that why cant she come and help me to cook rather then go out. I mean she can don't do this de, but if u don't want to cook so don said all this which make people feel sad already.

His mum cooked for me but then she is wking daily so what do u expect?
U cant expect someone to work at 11am then she get everything cooked ready by the time that u wanna eat MA, if u are good u should not think of going out now as YOUR DAUGHTER just gave birth also right.

I just feel sad hearten la to realised that she still cared about going out more then me. In the end it is still the same. So please stop calling and telling me rubbish which make me feel worst and more lousy!

I tin i will get depression because of her.
Lucky his mum is taking 2 week leave after baby is out from hospital to help look after baby as he is till very small in size and young.
I appreciated it very much.

So NOW my confinement is not the same like last time when i hired the people home to look after and cook.

I remember with Isaac the same things happen when i am going to labour already.
I thought thing happen once only who knows twice.
=(

Life is always the same not much pleasure i think u can jolly well expect what to come in hand man!
I gave up already.

Now i eat whatever his mum cook and maid cook i don want care already just want to make sure that i pump my milk on time and Kyden get the best that all.

My fren cared more then my own family member which is disheartening, =(

Reali!!!!!

Now waiting to fetch Kyden back from hospital already and i don wan care about others already. sian liao, why bother!

Kyden progress as of 30 August 2009:

He is drinking at least 24 ml per feed, every 3 hours once, but no bottle feed as his sucking reflex is still weak so is pump into the stomach then to make him full and gain weight too lo.

His weight now i s1.55kg, gain 0.05 gram today and it is a good sign which means that he already gaining rather then the 1st few day losing as he is drying up haha.

He is no more on the Blue light which means that his Jaundice level is 125 only today, which is good.

He opened his eyes today too, but i cant load the pictures maybe tomorrow then i load bah.

Currently i realised that he look so much like him haha, not abit me yet but then will still change DE la.
=)

i am confident he will look like me too.
too bad i cant go see him daily as my 1 mth is still not up yet and then it is not Gd too.
No choice so he will update me when he go there lo.

Daily i am pumping about 8 bottles of 60 ml milk for him as night time i am sleeping cant wake up as i wake up i feel the pain i cant go back to sleep
=(

I will try to pump more before i slp that why i usually sleep around 1 am plus to get the last pump!

Baby Kyden mummy love u!!!!!!

BTW, his sister brought me a Avent breast pump and it works so well that i feel so relived man!!!!
No More using hand and i feel better!
=)
Thanks Cindy!!!!
Although it is manual but the strength used is still not as much as before man!
Relieved!

Going to pump milk already
=)

In pain

i took the courage to tear off the sticker/ gauge yesterday night as the itch is killing me la.
Then i tried to sleep after my last pump at 1am then he is still working so i asked him to wake me up at 3am when he going bed, haha he is sneaky, tried not to wake me up i tin because im too tired or what, but i realised he is in the room, slack for around 30 minutes then i wake up to pump my k\milk and managed to pump 50ml, which is good.

First few days is less then 10 ml then 20 ml then 30 ml then 40 ml then 50 ml till date when it is already like 6 days after i gave birth is it normal to have just this amount i reali not sure as i last breast feed is 5 years ago and son actually latch on rather then pumping so i cant guage the ml.

Well hopefully the milk level increase lo, more la, but no more engoged please.
I leak this morning abit only la, but then after when i wanna handpump, not much milk. LOLssss

I am going to get the breastpump soon like maybe by tomorrow or wad, double de lo.
I think it is better and it save time.

I calculate already even if i breastfeed for 6 months it might still be worhwhile la the amount. I actually asked my sister to sponsor me the breastpumo but i think the chances are slim when i need it urgently now.
I cant hand expressed daily as mhy hand are reali tired and my muscle are getting so big man, the amount of force needed to hand express as the milk is blocked and harden reali tires me off.
Somtimes ir ealli wished to stop breastfeed but when i think of Kyden in hospital i wanted to continued.

I want him to hve the best of all he can get now as he is really small and poor boy in hospital alone.
My milk will serve him the best then the formula that the nurses give him, but i wonder will the nurse really feed him?

he cant finsished 50 ml throw away after feeding i also happy at least he drink my milk rather then formual got no antibotics mah naturally.

I will continued to pump as much milk as i can till the day he reached home and i can latch him on then it will better thus i can still pump when i get back work etc.

hopepfully Kyden can come home fast.

It seems funny ma when u give birth then ur house got no babies cries and fuss haha.

No choice la

Now counting down as Sep is drawing near already.
another 14 days or more? depending on how much weight he gain!
=)

God pls pray that he can gain weight fast enuff and reaches 2kg pretty soon.

Im goign to be busy thinking about the BB 1 mth, cakes, etc, arrival of him to home and also the maid to remind her not to be so careless and espically when Kyden is home.
She cant rem things that she did or asked to do.

I want honey to do apprasial with her as i cant stand to do with her i tin, she is getting from bad to worst in term of her memory. WHY IS THIS SO?
can someone tell me?

Going to pump milk Good bye

Im a full time milk cow!

Old pictures

I saw some of my old pictures when i was slim i realised that i need to lose all this weight after alll this and i cant be slack in my dressing and make up already.
Almost all the times i will said so but when come to my kids i let go again sigh, now i got maid i think i should be better then last time haha.
Jia you.

Stressful again

Today no taking pictures of Kyden as he is having Jaundice thus on the blue light and no pictures lo.

I said im stress why le, because i am wondering what breastpump i should get for myself, after talking to Eling agin i felt relieved, haha, should be buying Medela.
But which model now, shit
I am so confused haha.

i have the determination to breastfeed for at least 6 months and more but then i was thinking that the office got no room how ar if i return work, shit.

brest is not so swollen now as earlier maybe i used real hard force to actually press it all the way near to the aerola.
I hope this can continued.
Pls GOD give me the courage.
i am trying to wake up tonight to pump but sometimes i just fall asleep and wake up at 6am instead haha.

i duno why when i slp my wound feel like stretching and pain but i seat down not pain, why ar?
Suddenly also gt more blood discharge come out then normal is this common?
Im so going to google on this, i wonder if people dont invent internet how ar.
Can people know so much thing?
Hmm i am so thanking Internet

im looking for people to sponsor me a breastpump any kind soul?

I am going to pump milk later at 3 hours later so im not gg to slp now tong till 3 hours later.

Son fell asleep while i was at hospital then wake up say he want bread then KO agian now zzz, good la he sleep so late everyday and wake up so early.
He is not sleeping early because i am awake unlike last time i slp early as i was tired now i never as i wan to delay the time and also i scare i oversleep then nv pump wake up breast like rock again mah, haha.

Being a mother is not easy haha..

We are thinking to arrange Kyden baby 1 mth on 20 Sep but then we need to see if he can be discharge already anot from hospital.
he is so far around 1.55kg again as he lost weight due to crying and shrinking la no more water already mah haha.

he is so cute but i think he look more like him then me now unlike Isaac who look so mucbh like me when he is borned haha.
I think he will still change, hopefully can look more like me la, haha, i carreid him for 8 months de le don look like me i will be sad lo.

Sister is irritaing call me every hour asked about wk esp when im pumping milk LOL.
Good timing she can choose lo haha.

I duno wan to do what now, looking for breastpump and compared.

he worst doing his work but said he want to slp and smoke so much and i curse him got Tb he scold me haha.

i heard from him mum that his brother wife got cancer or duno what lump la.
Scary hor nowadays all this illnes.
I will not smoke back i think im determined this time since i can quit for 8 months why cant i quit forever.

For the sake of myself nad Bbaby iw ill do so in not SMOKING, best is i can stop him form smoking too so can save $$ an more healthy but i know it is hard for him la, maybe 1 day he will stop himself from smoking!
We shall see.
Going to check why i gt bleeding now.
Bye

I miss Kyden and i love Isaac

Engoged breast

Im having engoged breast now and im feelin like shit.

Baby is not here to latch on and i pump is no the same de haha, sure will blocked, but if it still happen and dont stop i think i have to do down to TMC to asked them to remove the blocked dut for me already.

i am going crazy any moment from now, the pain is killing me.
No choice as i wan the best for my son thus i have to continued and late going to do my hot towel again and massage.
My hands are so tired and also, pain, as the pump cant pumop anything out,
KKH asked me to use cold cabbage but i think i will not as i read that it stop the milk flow, i dont want that to happen before my son come home.

I am pumping at least 10 bottles per day for honey to bring to Kyden every night. i cant follow as i am abit in pain thus i might go only next Monday with honey.

i wanted to see Kyden although i can see him as honey take pictures daily la when he go but the feeling is different la.

Well, all i hope now is that Kyden can gain weight to 2 KG soon and then come back soon thus mummy will not suffer, and u can have the best of all and all ple to dote on u.

im waiting for u baby Kyden.

im trying to unblocked my duct asap too!

=)

Back from hospital

i m back from hospital already.

It all started on Saturday.
Honey came and visit me and everything went smoothly. I update my pictures, amend pictures and chat wtih honey before i went bed.
I was tossing all night and i wonder why i though maybe i oversleep too much thus i cant fall asleep.
NO
I AM WRONG.

Tummy feel pain already since like 1 am but i thought is normal tummyache. Who know it is the start of my contraction.
Well....

It happen when i am still awake at 2am, went toilet. Nothing unusual just cramp type, 4am, it came all too fast.

I told the nurse that i think im experiencing contraction, checked me and wheel me to labour ward.
I called honey 27 times before i called the house to look for him.
He stil got the cheeks to asked me why i called so many times, OMFG. i was so angry at that time and i nearly thought of divorcing him haha.

I told him, im having contractions and he said he will be on his way.

I was on pain killer from 4am to 6pm, as Baby is still only 32 weeks old, no much pain killer can be used as they are scare that he might be drowsy if deliver him.

Then i was asked to wait and see if i can prolong the contraction and etc, then the worst thing happen, i have FEVER, WHITE BLOOD CELLs went up too 29 which is very high and doctor said that they need to do Cset on me already asap to have a healthy baby rather then infected baby.

The only things is that i have to wait till 10 pm then can go thearte ward as i had abit of porridge at 4pm, and they are afraid that i might have side effect and vomit and causes breathing diffculties.

So all i have from 6 to 10pm was just the smoke gas or what gas they called it, it was not working just making me dizzy. I was in pain like hell. I remembered i cried and asked can i just PLease deliver now, and i told him i hate him, its all his fault. He is at his wits end too i think.

Finally im pushed in fr delivery after that is fainted and 5 am i woke up to find mysef gg back to my ward with morphine as pain killer which is nice!!!!
I regret almost after that. I slept and lost concious and the morphine is not cheap too.
I asked the nurse where is my husband, they said dunno, i think i got post natal deprecssion, haha i keep scolding him and blame him said why he was not there for me when i wake up etc, i called home and he is still sleeping. I flar when he said that he will beat hospital in the morning at 6plus am but when i dont see him around 10 lus i started to get so angry that i wanted to dvoirce him until i saw him with his mum lols.

then the worst things is that he spoilt my Hp and i was like THUNDER.

haha

now im back hme and he did his part also la, but cant blame much on man as they also dunno much and not senstive too la.

Trying to pump as much milk as possible now nothing else is on my mind, oh ya Isaac la of cas.
Maid see me she stress i think. LOLSssss

Going to watch my DVD already and rest my tummy and back which hurts like fuck.

Part 2

Just edited some pictures, cant watch the DVD as the disc is faulty la, sigh.
Mum disc always spoilt my mood.
=)

She say she watch is fine, dunno real anot.

honey is at JB pumping petrol, he came alone just now without Mr Pok, haha as he went to his place then he called me said wanna come see me then i say cant as he got ulcers and honey is already here thus cant go bk and fetch him, he sound sad then i told him that i am going to buy sweet for him bcas he cant come, then immediately he is fine already. GOD!

He missed me i know haha. I also missed him bt honey said try not to let him come often as he is still young then gt virus this i agree la.

No choice, 15 days more u can see mummy everyday already with DIDI also OK.
Bear with it Isaac and NB!!
Uploading pictures of Isaac later haha as i found in my laptop.

The lady beside me is back already, think she have given birth, when the day i give birth i wonder Will i have enough slp like what i am doing now haha. Eat sleep.

Maid is irritating, but thanks for her help rendered la.
=)

i wrote a list of things for honey to do and buy haha, u cant trust man if u don't write isn't it.
Haha they tend to forget.

I was talking to him about video caming the BB delivery and he seems scared haha. he said DON NEED la etc. i think he is scared almost all man are scared de la.
Haha i tell him don't faint le.
Hee

I'm actually counting down to the arrival of my BB as I'm pretty excited to see how handsome he look like as he is pretty active inside me haha. He seems to be sleeping now as he never kick me le.
Hmmmm
Sometimes i am scare if he never kick me but he kick me too much i will be in pain. Haha.

I wonder what time honey will be back from JB, this noon i got take nap thus not so sleepy now haha, but i woke up again same in SWEAT!!!

I saw alot of BB in the room so cute la.

As i was seeing Thu son BB pictures and realised that he is so cute last time and so chubby now he is still chubby la and cute but soon he will be a big boy already, think i will missed his look le. Haha.

I always wonder what will happen when son is in Primary 1 and he got friends will he don't wan me already, don't stick to me as often then now.
Lesser talk to me.

Or getting jealous when NB is out.
Hmm all this flashing Thu my mind 24/7
I wished my son stay as close to me as possible and also tell me everything that he need/ do.
But well boys are boys they will not stay this way forever if they gt GF, friends etc.
Sad

I am always getting EMO here when i though of this, i though i am strong to overcome this but then i think i am not DE, i am weak in this expressing DE. I cant said it out but i will tend t cry silently if in need but i will not show others, haha this is not called strong i think this is called weak.
I cant let others see my weak side.

Just like that day when son left for home during my 1st 2 days stay, i cried after he left, as i rarely left him alone except when i go trip which is not so long the most is only 5 days.
Then i think back why am i crying when i should be strong haha.
I hold me tears then calm down then called him haha.
Then the following days i get used to it then i stopped crying but when i see his sad face when he is gg home, i tend wanted to cry again, but i know i cant need to be strong fr NB and myself.

Mum went to see master today and he claimed that i will give birth in 3 weeks times, everything will be smooth.
Master also said that mum will be very attached to this BB as the Yuan is there and BB will let her win alot of 4D and listen to her more then Isaac, She seems happy, which is Gd as previous she said she Don like the BB as she scare others bully Isaac when BB is out, u know old people.
I tried to re ensure her times and times but then she cant listen but now what master said have made her wake up lols.
Well hope they can really blend in well and Isaac also la.

Isaac don't listen to her as she always asked him off TV, etc then Isaac complained haha. thus sometimes they both keep quarrel.LOL
Very funny De.

Son will go tell maid that, Hais. Pls tell Ah Ma, why she don't understand me.
Mum will go tell me, Hais, your son hor don't listen to me.
Both complain here and there haha.
Then later they will make up again when they gained something from one another.

I love my family but then sometimes i hate it too when everyone is pre occupied with their own things and tend to forget about family ties.
Now it is getting better already in our family unlike last time everyone do their own things and don't care DE.
Now we at least cared and concerned is being shown which i like.
I love my family this way.

There are times when we do quarrel la again over small matter and rubbish but it is over pretty fast.
I believe everyone grow up as they grow.

now i understand why my mother last time keep nagging as I'm a mother now. It is for our own good but when we don't listen we think they are Nagy.

i really wished to spend more time with my family members, as we never know when it time to depart de.
Ok bad point here.

I mean i finally understand how my mum feel already although last time she hardly take care of me as i was in my grandmother care most of the time as she work and sister with nanny.

I still think of last time and sometimes i still hate her for not giving me the best of my childhood memories but then i cant force certain things.

That is the reason why i am giving my kids the best of what i can give. I don't care i have no $, no food to eat but wan them to have the best memories every when they are young and not blame me when they are old like what i do now.

I know my mum cared for me and i appreciated it but then i cant expressed myself out.

Mummy i love u so much also. Although i don't said it out, deep down i really cared about you. Please stay healthy and strong and happy.

I love u

Day 7

Bathe already here i am blogging about today life again haha. This seems to be the life of Karen Chen for the next 2 more weeks haha.

Waiting for honey to come now, he can come out so he is coming with DVD and also some food that my mum cooked.

I called home and told the maid to start preparing the BB items then her reactions was that hyou gg give birth?
OMG!!!

She realli scared la.
Haha. No choice i told her dont be scare already but she dont listen la. Hais worried for nothing de la.
Siao!!!

I also tell honey tat he hve to buy the BB items that i hven finished buying and he said tell him later,
MAN!!!!

Tomorrow will be offically 32 weeks big for my BB and i told him that 14 days more we can see each other and how pretty and handsome we are. haha

Pls listen to me darling.

Yesterday scare me as my water leak more then usual, one whole pad while i was having dinner with honey, informed the nurse and changed then later on no more liao, hopoe it stay this way, as doctor took my blood test and everything seems fine as per mentioned.

Now waiting for honey to come lo, he so stupid asked me a question tat i want to slap him.

Did u brush ur teeth anot de har?
I was like OF CAS!!!
I BATHE TOO!
unlike u haha

I wan to go home ASAP!!!!
14 days more, im so going to endure it. Son might not be coming tonight as he is bringing him for dinner and then honey said that son come too often no good as hospital got alot of virus.
On the other hand i think YA also but then i wan to see my son, aiyosss.
Dilema, nevermind, we gg have internet on Monday already dunno honey laptop gt web cam anot gt then can see each other already lo, provided that he have one, =)

32 weeks and BB is 8 months old already, we have made it so far, just a little bit more to go and im sure that we can make it de.
It is just about luck and time that we need, endurement is also part of it.

Being sleeping, EATING , WATCHING DVD, resting all the time.
I hve not really seen the sun like fr 1 week already.

Sometimes i tend to wonder why both my pregnancy there is problems but after when i look at my kids i realised that somehow or rather it is worth it de. Some might said it is not worth it but when i look into the eyes of Isaac i tell myself what a beautiful son i hve and it is the best gift from GOD. I need to realised that i am actually blessful already, i shouldnt have asked for more.

Maybe another 5 years down the road, son will grow up and hve his own friends and tend to forget me or dont love me as much as before like now already, sticking to me. Well i have to said i will have to let go already lo by the time he is eaching secondary school.

If he can still love me as before i will be defintely be glad la. Who will not be happy right?
I will delicated my most upmost precious time to only my 2 son and no one else already, nthing is more important then them.
I can give up shopping time, clubbing time and own lesiure time just for both of them, people think i cant do it well maybe ur wrong about me already lo. haha
when i wan to do something i can always do it just that if i want to do it anot.
I have done it for son for 5 years already why cant i do it for another 5 years.
=)

Family is very important to me also, so i treasure alot about family life de, haha. I can forgo luxury and been beautiful but not my family.

Ok im getting to emo here already. chao.

Mum cooked soup for me already haha.

Waiting
=)

Day 6

Today mum came for lunch and stayed till 4.30 then she left as uncle came liao.
She brought me lunch and dessert and before she left we walked to buy MAC fries.
=)
She is sweet today, hope she can be this sweet always.
=)

Today went for scanning and also took blood test again.
water level is 4.2 as earlier doctor said was 5.4. So i wonder is the difference alot anot. Waiting for doctor to come and tell me lo.
took blood test to test for infection etc, but the doctor is newbie and he made me real pain.
=(
I text honey and said i shall slash him prety soon. Haha

After that i took CTG but bb is naughty haha, he keep moving thus i was on CTG for at least 2 hours as cant catch the heartbeat, haha naughty BB.

Doctor mentioned this morning, if everything goes smoothly, i shall be inducing in 2 weeks time, no longer then that already as there might be a risk of infections.
So i tell my BB that we have to bear for another 2 weeks then we can see each other and go home already.
=)
Hopefully my BB coorporate and listen to his mummy,
Mummy is doing all this for ur sake so BB pls listen and we overcome this together ok.

BTW i requested for malay food today and i wonder is it nice anot haha as the chinese de not nice de, no taste,LOLsss

I wanted to name my son, Troy, Kyden, haha,this 2 choosen by him and i am still thinking, see if there is a better one anot,
haha

It for life mah so no rush!
But time is not much left also la.

Haven watch any DVD today as mum was here since lunch time so i shall blog before i forget then later i watch at night or sleep earlier lo, since i never really nap at all today.

I had wierd dream last night and i was not sleeping well like before. Waking up to pass urine and heavness at my vaginal there as BB head is there.
No choice.
Head down is a gd thing too.

Now i am awaiting for 2 weeks time to see my dear BB and bring him home with me.

Mum and me talked about maid and then our conclusion is that she is really blur and really sometimes we will have high blood pressure taliking to her.

I dunno what she is thinking almost all the time and also why she like so blur when they said Indo maid are blur but i think not to this extend la.
I did not asked much frm her already since im in hospital but she shouldnt slack as she know that i am gg to give birth in another 2 weeks time.
Sigh.
She should get herself prepared instead of behaving this way.
how should i approached her and tell her.
Sigh

I miss my house.
I miss my bed
I miss sleeping with my 2 pigs
I miss everything.

Sooon it shall be over and rainbow will be seen.
=)

God pray!
bb STAY WITH MUMMY!!!!

Part 2

Son and husband came earlier.
Maid did not come as she claimed she is tired.
Hmmm
I wonder why she is so tired hais when there should be lesser housework for her since i am not around and only 2 man.

i wonder why, They reached home before 10pm, she already asleep lo.

She is lazy? Sick? Tired?
Can someone please tell me what wrong with her since im in hospital she is tired see her yawning all the way even when she is here to visit me.
So sian see already.

She is not a bad maid but overall honey also wanna puke blood when talked to her, she always blur blur like that. Aiyo like on drugs or what de. Scary, better dont behave this way with my NB i sure cant take it de.
Sian

Today is the 1st day of 7th month thus i asked honey to bring son home earlier as it is not good to be outside till so late for kids la, I pang tang mah, so i asked them go back lo.

Asked honey to asked the maid tml also if she did feed son full full anot as he always come here then like hungry de like not eaten enuff like that.
Sigh

how i wished i can be there for my kids but no choice now i cant hands on so i gog to wait lo.
Waiting for honey to bathe then call me and he needs to do his work too as he too lobng nv work already then slack haha.
Wait no good mah.

Tml he can /might not be able to come see me for lunch as ple might have things to said ma, so i telll him nvm lo.
Night time u come the saME ALSO AS long as u come can liao.

Think tonight is a rainy day cooling and heard thunder but now no more thunder already haha.
Funny weather.
I wished im at home with my husband and son sleeping rather then alone, well.
When the time for me to go home we will be 4 some sleeping together not 3 anymore.

=)

Going to call my husband already good night\.

Day 6

I woke up at 8am as the doctor come and checked on me. No pain no nothing means GOOD!

Honey is still sleeping as he text me at 6am haha, he workde overnight again,
Maid called after that and said no GAS, asked her to wake him up and asked for $$ lo.

She really sometimes pissed me off, asked her got what at home no more tell him so he can go buy then yesterday she write a list already, today something is missing no more de, i wonder later he will go buy anot since he still have to work later.

She seems tired when she come yesterday, keep yawning, hmmm, i wonder she really so tired?
She have to make son sleep first if he is not around then she can go bathe, but that is not everyday le, only like yesterday, i wonder why she so tired.

I am not home nothing much to do already what plus it is wothout my clothing ok.

Well it is her tired not me anyway and i wonder can she cope when the BB is out at the rate i see her, sometimes i feel she is lazy. Sometimes not rather, sigh.

I wonder honey will come visit me during lunch anot, see how as i dont wan to call him wanna let him sleep. i duuno wanna do what now, boring, tiring and drowsy.

Today is another day again and then the happy thing is that after tml, it will be weekend and meaning that i am nearer to my goal and also they dont have to work on weekend can spend more time with me haha.

I dunno wanna slp or watch DVD haha, actually i replied some office email la, i realised like when someone is sick or what they are bad people trying to create and get ride of u if possible or maybe i think too much, now i hope my sister will go replace me asap till i get bk to work. I dont like things hanging around and no one to help out espically my team, they are a piece of crap.
=)

I mean they are really this way de.

This morning breakfast is chee chong fan, and 2 siew mai. Standard 1 cup of milo which is sometimes rather tasteless.

Tea break is milo and cake also la.
But before tea break and lunch there will be barley water but it is like plain water haha.

I wonder what nightmare the lunch might be today.
Scary!

I realised since day 1 i ate the rice once till now i have not eaten the rice le, my mouth is too picky!

People in my ward come and go as in giving birth la haha.

Today is the 1st day of 7th month and i asked maid to be careful in whatever she do with son and no laundry after 6pm and no anyhow step or peeing or etc as this is very dabgerous.
She said OK i think i got to keep remind her la.
She came with them every night but i think without her here same la, when she is here her face like keep want to slp or go home, OMG see already i also wan to slp.

Craving for sweet stuff again, maybe my BB loves it.
Haha
the waffles, bobo cha cha, malay rice, scissor rice, so many things on mind la, haha.

Choices in life

Sometimes i really wonder do human make error in choices they have in life?
Or simply they choose to avoid?

I don't denied that i might have make certain choices that might be wrong or even worst still but still we have to overcome it ma right?

I told him off earlier as i saw something that i don like and he don't seems happy but no choice i have to say so.
Hais

I know Ur tired and sometimes saying might not be the best choice after all.
Well u have to understand why u have to keep saying instead of using the old methods, things are different now,
how can i make u understand?

i don't want people to have else wise talking about u nor me.
Do u understand?
*_*""

Son left already after bringing his schoolbag here haha.
He teaches me how to do math earlier and mark my work haha. Big boy already. No matter what how naughty or what he is my beloved and nothing Can be compared to him as important as all.
I am not saying that i will not love my NB but then Isaac will still be My No.1 no matter how many kids i have in future.
i went Thur so much to have my kids thus all my kids are precious to me.

no matter No.1 or No.2, they are always my precious.

Son push me in wheelchair haha and he refused others to push me partly i think to him its something new and fun secondly he cared about me.

he scold me la, wad else.

Son just now called me and told me he wanted to bring apple and lizard for me to eat lo. In the end i asked him the apple le?
He blamed the maid for not bringing, OMG!

Haha, anyway he always surprised me with the things he bring de la, i loved him to the core la.

now i hope days passed by smoothly and soon i will be reunited with my family.

My dad came and visit me earlier also, he came a short while and left although there was nothing much to talked about or what but i know he cared and this care is enough already for me, i felt blessed,
sometimes i wonder what can i still asked for when i have a Happy family which nni yearned for and also a family that cared and sometimes maybe not but in life nothing is equally good and you have to let go of some in order to gain some back.

i hope this type of life will continued and i will be blessed all the while.

Saturday got son sport day but sadly to said i cant joined as i am still in bound in hospital got to give it a miss already lo. NVM next time bah which will be next year already haha.

Sister will be gg BKK on Friday, good luck.
I think my water bag burst bcas i walked to much in HK?
That wad my mum said de!
Well I'm not sure.

Anyway, i just took off the drip as it is 3 days old already and its dropping out thus i scare got infection. If needed will re insert lo.
See how.

I just ate Yong Tao Foo int he food court and i felt so thirsty now lo i think the food got alot of MSG, which i think i will not eat it ever again.
=(
I hate this type of ple DE but on the other hand i tin they gt no choice as it is their living.

i am smsing with him now, he asked me what am i blogging haha.

Going to call son later already, so fast tml is already Thursday. Another 3 days means i am in hospital for 1 week already, good maintain this way for another 2 weeks.

First time heard people in hospital so happy de hor Can last longer, well for my case i think this is the best now. After 3rd week i will wished to get out of hospital already
:D

I got craving for Bobo cha cha now omg!

i am eating too much already

going to call and check on son in about another 20 minutes as he just drop him home with the maid

Part 2

I seriously hate the drip on my hand and it is coming off and the nurse just anyhow stick sigh!

I wonder can remove it anot de lo. But i doubt so la. waiting for husband and son to come so we can go dinner
today dinner is sucks...
Beansprouts, chicken and some funny soup, well at least the banana pleased me =)

I am waiting see if i can remove the drip as it is really uncomfortable and making it wet and dry is another things that i hate/ dread!

I dont wan to repoke it but i rather remove it now as it is really irritating.
I know who care who dont care well be it, i want be myself.

haha i blog said my dad wanna come right?
Hmmm i think my dad lost his way to KKH i have not since him since the day he called me haha. NVM at least he called or maybe he is busy.

I cant watch my DVD now i duno why. SIAN.

i want to eat the waffle that honey buy for me at Prima Deli. Nice but $1.50 per waffle.

I just talked to son and told him that i want to buy him waffle guess what he told me?

No mummy u cannot buy i asked daddy buy for u then i was like why?
He said, doctor said u cant move around. My silly.
Haha
He said will called his father and asked him buy for me.
=)

he brought me a present yesterday guess what is it, its is a calculator and he said can punch number for me to see, each day he come he want to use the laptop and watch cartoon haha, i wonder \he is here to visit me or?

Haha, that day he told me said , i got a secret i asked him what, he said, muumy not home i can watch TV haha.
He told the maid that my mum dont understand him as he said he will off the cartoon on time and my mum keep nagging, Haha, he said Sigh and my mum dont undersatnd him at all.


I am here for a couple of days alaready and without me at son side he have grown up abit but i still want to be at his side whenever i can, 24/7 i dont mind too.
I simply missed his nagging and crying and rubbish!

I wished i can end all this pretty soon and get back home to my family and rejoyced, =)

Waiting is the word now.

i told honey just now i gg swimming and he so stupid still can asked me did u bring ur swimming coustume?
Haha i told him now dont have my size maybe 2 to 3 mths later haha. Why i said so is bcas i can only bathe using one hand as my other hand got drip jab mah, thus i got to be gentle ma. So i took longer then usual to bathe and get changed la.

haha

He wheeled me down just now after lunch as i wanted a breather, better then staying here all the while it is killing me man haha.

Saw a doctor maybe i can checked if i can remove the drip haha. or do something about it.

=)

life goes on and on i love u

Day 5

Last night i slept after i blog as i was tired and he fell asleep already so i did not called him, till morning when nurse come and do CTG on me and tell me that i am having very mild contractions once in awhile, it scares me, woke up to have breakfast then the shower and text him also.

After that tummy ache scared, haha but nothing la, just normal tumymache.
=)

Now waiting for him to come with my lunch as i asked his mum to cook mah, eating fish, good can produce more milk.

During my this pregnancy i did not drink/ eat much fish as my BB dont like it. Once i eat, i will puke or etc.
Now i keep forcing myself to eat even if i reali see liao want to puke. it is good ma.

Waiting for doctor to come and see got anything ant lo.

I don wan to delivered now!

BB dont come out.

Part 2 night

Honey, maid, son came and left already earlier as i see that son look tired.

I had Mac for dinner and honey helped me buy tonnes of pad and panties lol. Think the lady must think he is crazy haha.

Now i am so full that i wanna VOMIT!

I sleep then eat then eat again la.
Tummy pain now also haha.

Watching my DVD, lady beside me one by one went for delivery but i keep telling BB relax it is not out time yet haha.

=)

We must relaz.
Time not ripe.

Asked honey to tell him mum i want fish porridge tomorrow noon.
i so sick of hospital food not nice de then sometimes it is the same things omg, worst sometimes no taste.
Dinner he will be coming also but we will be going down to eat lo.
He said wanna wheelchair me down haha as i must try not to walk too much mah.
LOLsss

I got tummyache now, bye.

i missed my family and my home so much.
We will be reunited soon.
=)

God pray!
=)

Day 4

Here i am blogging again haha, i just woke up after my scanning done around 1plus.
I slept all the way till now only to wake up in sweat again lo.

Honey came this afternoon to have lunch with me and brought me my noodle that I'm craving for and also my chicken wing, did not finished the chicken wing earlier as i was sleepy, just finished, YUMMY!!
Hospital dinner was here, warm, but i did not eat, just finished the fish as it is good for the BB thus i forced myself to eat although there are abit of smell, no choice, Honey will be coming with maid and son later.

Waiting for him to finished his meeting with his boss bah!

Tml lunch honey dunno can come already anot liao, so praying lo.

I got craving for Malay rice, haha. Like so long already last time before i go0t pregnant i everyday eat after i got pregnant then i stopped altogether haha, for no reason or i start bringing food cant really remember.

I have been telling my BB daily that he have to stay inside for at least another 20 ++ days to be safe to come home with me together.
I think my BB can understand and can heard my voice.

I miss son again.

I dunno why i am so tired, is it the medicine or what i seriously dunno.

Anyway a good things is that i am off the IV drip but still under monitor lo.

Today i took blood test again, 3 tubes.

yesterday change the tube too as it is already 3 days and the risk of infection is there. It hurts so badly, then since last night each time they drip me on IV, it bleed. Now there is no IV but the wound and needle is still there.

Endure is the word i need.

Bathe this morning with another hand haha. So not used to it lo. Can only bathe with one hand.
Hahha
No choice cant make it wet la, dangerous and pain also.
I told honey that there are some husband who bathe for their wife and he said tml he come bathe fr me lo, LOLS. Stupid him.

I can see that he is very tired, having to come here every night after work and only eat dinner after he reaches home which is already 10 plus.
Thanks honey!

I love u!
=)

I always asked him to sleep early he said NO not tired then the next day if he came i can tell he is tired!
=(
We both shall work hard together to overcome this OK?

Boss called and asked for work, lucky i asked my colleagues to help out lo, as usual the other cant do anything, which is js so simple and easy DE. well, it is nature and we knew it la.

Sister will be gg up to work next week after her trip and hope everything goes well for her.
=)

She came and pray yesterday haha with Gordon!
=)

I appreciate it all dear!

Waiting for honey to finished meeting and text me bah, as i don't want to disturbed him as he is with his boss now at Club 21 office.

GG to continued my DVD, weather is hot today. But i just continued to sleep and cant cared much already as i was awoken everyday at 1am, 4am, 6am, and every 4 hours interval haha. Waiting for doctor to come tell me about my water bag level is it normal also anot.

Trying to eat as much as possible thus my BB can grow.
Currently is only 1.6 kg, grow more BB,mummy love u
Jiayou!
=)

Day 3

Husband did not come this afternoon as something cropped.
Sister came instead.

Dinner husband came, left already as it is already 10pm.
Mum came together but insist on going home and husbnad was pissed, bcas he was not prepared yet.

I SAW SON, I CRIED after he left, that is how much i missed him.
No choice i still got to stay here till im ready.
here i am tying, while waiting for doctor to come and re insert my tube as there was blood and the tube can only last 3 days, so now got to swop hand.
Pain is the word but no choice, i still got bear with it.

I need to stop crying as it is not good fr the BB also, went for scan earlier and doctor told me BB weight 1.6kg compared to my last scanning on Jul which was only 1.1kg. At least BB grow, i was telling BB daily that he should not come out now as it is still early and he have to wait hope he heard my prayer and i have to be strong.

I am trying my very best to control my emo and when i saw Isaac i just cant and i seems to break down once he left.

I took a shower today also as i was sleeping and then i woke up with sweat when the nurse came with my antibotic. The weather is hot and sticky.

Tml will be another good day i supposed, i hope so.
BB listen dont come out till it's ready. We shall both bear with it together OK.
Jiayou BB and myself.

Waiting for doctor and them to reach home then call me.
I missed you all badly!

All this will pass by very fast de if i stop thinking about it.
I will overcome it i know de
God will bless me witht he things that i wished for.
I have to stay strong and last till the storm is over.

My family is my greatest support that i can have now and i shall be strong.

Son mummy will be home soon dont worry, thanks for coming to see me daily. I love u and hubby!

GTG.. wait for doctor to come and my antibotic then i shall go bed as they will come again at 4am fr my next dose.
Tml will be blood drawing day and it is 3 tubes.
=(

Life is fragile but it depends on how u overcome and see it and i know in order to have a healthy BB i have to suffer now but it shall be all worthwhile!
=)

karen u can do it de!

=)

I am actually surpised that my dad is coming to visit me today as he is usually not this type of person, i felt blessed.
=)

Maybe my collegues will be coming later.

=)

I have internet access here and also watch DVD but then sleeping not much as the drip comes every 4 hourly and it is pain. For my BB sake i will have to bear with it and continued all this till my BB is safely delived!

BB Jiayou.

Water bag leak

I am styaing at the hospital for at least 3 weeks from 15 Aug onwards as my water bag leak.

I was happily attendin Eling girl absh then during dinner it just came.
I am only 31 weeks pregnant thus doctor is trying to prolong my delivery date to at least 34 weeks so BB wont b so small.
Sigh
I am so sad that this happen but no choice.

Prior to this happen, my eye have been twitching, i asked him and mum if its good. His reply was that it good lo, mum reply was that might be bad or good, on the road be careful. Chey then i know why it is twitching for 3 days so many time and serious de liao lo. Hais!

Now i am here, Mum, him and son came earlier to visit me and brought my things as yesterday i came with nothing then asked him go home to rest mah. Better then seating here, at least he can watch son and maid and make sure things are fine when i m in hospital.

They will be coming later with my smelly pillow and panties. And other things and my drink, dinner.

I am realli sad that i hve to stay here, no choice, i keep telling BB that he have to wait dont come out now it is no good as advice given by Eling. I hope he can understand and listen to me for once.
Too small is no good meaning he cant go home with me once i delivered thus i dont like and i wished it does not happen.

Honey say he will bring dinner for me everyday if possible but i wonder maid cook i will FAINT anot, asked my mum not to go badmintion but then i knw the answer already. She can only go when she is free when this type of things happen thyen she still do it i am really sad and disappointed.

Hais, wad to do can only depend on him and maid already and my millions of HP calls home to check lo.

i wonder why some people only cared for themselves when we are their kinship and closet people around?
Hais i think this is their attitude thus i cant blame them lo. lucky he is around when this happen else io really dunno what to do already like last night, as son was induced labour thus i have not experience this before.

I sms Maggie, Eling and April they gave me good advice haha.
Lucky i got gd frends around. i told them haha noon time i saw u then night i at KKh liao.

i told my boss already all he said wad tke care haha man!


I was on jab, draw bloood and drip since yesterday, so sad! Pain!
No choice for my BB sake i have to endure all this and i told him it is all ur fault la see, want BB make me suffer
=)

i brought laptop and dvd to watch as here no TV really bored me like hell!
Sigh!

Please pray that all things goes by smoothly and i can wai till 3 weeks later.
BB i am depending on u already don give up half way ok!

I love u BB

Need to crack my brain for BB name already,

BTW now is 5pm dinner is been served haha. I sure hungry tonight de la!Q

i brought milk, biscuit, bread and soya milk haha, Kiasu
bye

This is random,

I wished to have lots of money

I wished to have a rich husband

I wished i cant dont work and shake leg at home

All i wished,
Suddenly i feel so ke lian for myself. i dont know why, just not in the right mood. Alot of things pile up and yet im helpless in doing anything, just can wished that time stopped at this moment then i can slowly take my time and do what i want and clearing mess?

Well.... Its diffcult.

Everybody think that money drop from heaven when it is not, it is given to you only after a hard month of working and tiredness and in a blink of eye its gone again.
I hate it when people that i cared for felt that i am stingy.
It is not, liek i have said so many times, you all dont have a family to worry etc can spend any amount that you earned and when we have kids and family, they come first rather then ourself already.
i am so sian of this kind of suitation again and again.
Money money. when will people realised that it is not free?
I am working my guts out for thsi amount of money and every month after paying son school etc i left with that peanuts and it is enough for me? NO its is no but what to do, hope for a better life or grumble all the way?
It depend on individual on how u want to think and take it.

People might said you got a rich husband last time but u chose to leave him then now u are poor again and i dont resent my current husband, i divorce because he dont care and he is the type that hack care but can give u money and that is not the life that i want thus i left, i dont regret at all that now im poorer by half, so what at least i lead my life in colourful rainbow poor be it,
my current husband migth not be as rich as my ex husband so what, i have what i want, love care and concern although sometimes he do neglect me but my life is more fulfiling then ever.

Life is never equal i find.

You give or take and it depends on how your mind works, if you want the best then source for it before u commit else dont regret.

Alot of people said i surely regret etc, yes and no is my answer.
Well overall im glad i made this move, maybe 20 years later when my sons are big enough i might regret but no worries as i did my part as a mother and life will be the same and the only thing i hope is that my son next time when he grow old will treat me good like how i treat them now. Not wanting any rewards or what for bringing them up, just want them to be good im glad.

i am so pissed off today, my mood is not there at all.

There are alot of things that cocked ipup, work, office, etc.

It happen not once not twice and i think next time i should just keep my mouth shut and then let others do the rest else today i wont be in this mess again needing to clear up before i go...
Shit work!

I am just feeling bloody moodless!
Small people can just get off my back?

I want a good rest during maternity and before i go, dont want to overwork myself again due to some issue, which is happening again like before.

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I duno what i am craping but i am just so tired of the things around me and i want to be clear headed but i cant. It keep haunting me like nobody business!

F***

Please dont make empty promises if u cant fulfil and dont lie also.
I have enough of lies....
Dont u feel tired?
Dont u feel remoseful?

I hate u, we aint that close afterall isnt it?

Looking for subsitute now, anyone to help?
=)

Emoing,,,,, writting rubbish!

bye

We are good, we slept early last night haha, all KO around 10 plus as the pig who started it was HIM!
Snorzing all the way, so irritaing thus i forced son to sleep too lo.
Haha.

Awoke middle halfway as i was drenched in sweat and on the bloody aircon as when i go bed it wasnt hot at all. Suddenly the weather change and horrible!
=(

I have the run since last night, plus today, total 5 times already, i told him , he said i eat too much and too much waste.
OMG!

During lunch yesterday i did not talked to her much as im not petty but once i think of what she text me i feel furitated!
It is too LAME and STUPID i mean i can see the ma, whether ur lying anot.
Since we are friend for so long coming 3 years yet this is the attitude that u protray then i am sorry i shall not be so close to you already. There are times when i feel that ur making use of me maybe i did so to you too but i treat it as nothing, but this time round i feel really troubled by this, i mean if u dont wan to help in the 1st place just said so i wont force you and you wont have to rush me as u know the timing for me also de.
I mean just a small thing can take up the whole space of ur storeroom that ur husband will nag that it is so messy?
I dont think so unless ur storeroom is as small as the cupbord lo.
Stupid right?
Dont be lame!

Either u help or u dont help, simple as that.
No need help then lame thing come out as i cant stand that.
You changed maybe i did too!
Who cares.
U dont step into me neither do i also can liao. We just keep this distance its the best i think.

I nagged too much already.

Well i need to nagged as this type of people are fuckers!
I dont want to used this type of words but u made me do so!
Fook off la.

Son was so angry i asked him to sleep last night and he wanted to watch his movie then i tell him if he wants to watch now tomorrow morning i will bring the whole TV to work and immediately he walked to the TV and off it!
=)

We did math revision last night and it is about PLUS and MINUS.
He did a very good job and he told me he want to bring to school and showed his teacher and his teacher will be very happy, haha SILLY boy!

I realised that he is not so interested in English but MATH wor, maybe interest start later ba.
Haha at least he learnt and want me to teached i am glad, BTW he does not want him to teached at all, LOL i asked him pass to him while im BUSY, HE SAID I DONT WANT!
I wondered why, maybe the bonding is not there as he is not home most of the times and missed out the things and bonding time thus the distance.
No wonder they always said Mother is the best and most people celebrate Mother's Day rather then Father's Day haha.

it is a kind of fulfilment that u get after a long day at work and seeing ur kids love and enjoyed ur company no matter if u cane them anot haha when they are naughty but they still LOVED u.
I am glas to know that my son loved me as much as i love him although he is really a crazy mushroom.

Why i said that is because his hair look so much like a mushroom now as it is long and fat haha. My sister la!
No time....

I tie his hair when it is hot weather.

Today am late for work as i am really tired oversleep. Sleep early more tired then sleep late i wont be late. Stupid!

Boss not around, relax abit, bye

I am feeling so angry now.

I finally know the defination of SELFISH and LYING!
It is a kind of art taht human conserve in within themself and also they show when the time is ripe.

My coll, i finally seen thru her and i am really sad this time, i thought she change who knows it is not true. I am nice but times i think she really take me for granted and also not true to herself.

There is an incident which happen last nght and i dont wished to talked about it anymore. it kinda pissed me off.

I shall not be nice anymore. To anyone, except my FAMILY and KIDS.

Son made me so angry last night, he was not asleep even at 1am can u imagine as he say he is building his house with my pillow on bed, i was ZZZZ.....
Dots, next, he found a ball and claim that there is no one playing ball with him, hes SAD! No one kick and play throwing with him, then he went to maid, FAINT!
Told him that maid is asleep haha, he came back with a sad face.
=)

I sometimes wonder where he get all his energy from.
He sleep so late, wake up daily at 9 or 10am then go school then later at home play, sleep.
Haha how wonderful is it to be a kids life hor.
=)

I wished i can turned back time too liek last time when i was in Primary school and Secondary school.
Life was easy with no worries about $, anything.

Now i realised that why my mum and dad are so worried about me when i was a teenager and when i created trouble witht the law or school, they are the one who will be attending and supporting me when i think it is the right thing for me to do also.
Think back i am so SCARE that Isaac and BB will behave the same way as me and i worried about alot of other things too.

I know the hardship of being a MOTHER and parents as my mind is always filled with them althought i yearned for free time alone but then when i am out, i think of them, want to be home immediately.
Contradicting la, haha.
Mother is like that i think.

It has been very long time since i let my hair down not to said im pregnant now la, even when i am not, i have never thought of that le, haha, when my sister said im a MOUNTAIN TORTOISE already,. last time that is my hobby le, but i changed and stopped after i have Isaac, just naturally like that. No forcing nor anything de, it is a blessing i think, so i can be a better mother althought there are still people who thinks that i am not a good mother, or too young still dunno how to think, in fact i think so much that i sleep also think!
=)
Make me have sleepness night.

I think because my husband is a busy man with work and he cared, but not as much as before because of work thus there are alot of things that he have missed out and thus i need to fill him in and also do the FATHER part for him too!
Haha
I am a very busy woman OK!
There are times i am lazy too, as i am really tire but nevertheless, i tried my best in all i can fulfil in.
Last time i wasnt like that OK, i hack care let him do the job but now i know i cant as he is BUSY!

No choice one have to be hardworking then the other have to be a KPO like me haha, so this balance.

I told him that BB is out, he dont help me i will chase him out of the house.
Haha.
I told him the maid will make me angry and i confrimed that haha.
He told me see how.
Yesterday i told him i need a change of pants as im wet, he SHOCKED!
Jump up and asked me...
GG to deliver already?
His face turned Green haha.
I said no la.
Just common de haha

then he was back to normal like less then 1 min of freaking out. Oh man!!!!!!

Maid wasnt late this morning.
Good!

I am going to call on son later, this few days he never called me also lo. So sad!~

BB items almost all gotten already except clothings. There are fren who are giving me but i dont hve time to go collect as timing must depend on him de haha.
See how.

Excited to go Eling gal birthday this Saturday, make him took leave already.
Else i will be going with maid again so boring and tiring.

Bye

I am like finally back to work after so long break since Wednesday.
rotting my bones already.
=)
I saw this from a mummy blog. I find it is quite true lo.

Guys r not only jerks .. They are a kind of species that we Ladies are getting more n more sick of them .. rating out of 10 ..Only 2/10 is good guy , e rest is a bull of shit ..When he is chasing you , he make u feel like a princess that u always dream for .. agree to everyday things you say .. buy gifts for you , fetch you on n off work .. take u for a walk .. hug you .. say 'I Love You' ...sooner or later .. Their behavior slowly start to change .. In their eyes , their 'brothers' is e most important friends but whenever things happen , only e family will b there not them ..Guys alw like to try out new things.. it will bored them to death if they stick to one thing for long .. When they wanna break with you , they will find 101 reasons just to get rid of you ..Worse .. When a lady doesn't want to let go , e guy will start using her mentality n physical .. This is e stupidness of women .. What is true love ?? can anyone tell mi? This reality is without money , you wont have honey .. but Guys willing to spend money on you if they like you ..
Fcuking piece of shit .. Guys .. You never know when ur retribution coming ...
Independent women ruleZzzz~

Let us talk about this topics today which I long want to post it...
When a guy like you , he will do anything to please you even if it is against his wish ..He will do alot of sweet things n get Ur attention or to impress you ..He will b like a real gentleman just to win your heart .. When you r attached to him , he will start showing his true colour .. He wont b so nice toward you .. start to go out with his friends n ignore your present but he still bring you out for lunch or movie when you nag about all this .. We girls need attention too .. we need someone to care n shower us with love , not just when we are together .. When you r married , worst !!!!! He will totally stop bringing you out , put you at home , disrespect you n do what he like .. stop showering you with care n concern , he would rather spend time with his friends n not you ..He would rather talk to his friends than you .. This is reality about guys ...They get sick of things easily which Y now women tend not to get married n b independent .. Men r so shallow that Women are banning them from e world ..
Don't you girls agree with what i write here ?

OK now i shall flash back what i did for the pass week that i spend at home no need to work.

Wednesday:
Went home after work at 1pm plus, meet my sister then shop for Eling gal birthday, then home sweet home as i am feeling damn tired!
Sister, mum, Gordon was at home and said the noodles i cooked taste like SHIT!
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Later on they went home and he came back early.
retreat to sweet dream as no work the next day.

Thursday:
Woke up late and did nothing except to slack around then off to Cathay to buy movie for Friday but cant so shopped at NTUC then boss called, went back office then home again. Thanks him for fetching me there and i was panic like Fook!

Friday:
Woke up same timing like i am going to work, do office work and emailed all parties related.
After that went to buy Movie tickets, UP and i queue for like 45 minutes all thanks to the crowd of kids that are celebrating National Day or half day school. My leg was aching and it hurts so badly lo. wanted to fetch son from school DE but then the queue made me late lo, then a rush lunch as the movie is at 1.05 PM. Guess what our show is the first row haha, son don't mind la, as he enjoyed it while i was sleeping int he cinema haha, damn tired as i slept at 4 am the previous night while waiting for him to come back from work ended up i KO! Woke up at 8 when i slept at 4am.
Then after that we went to do painting as i agree to son that is our bonding day since i got no work and i don't wanna waste the day away as most of the time weekday i am working thus i wanted to make up to him lo.
Then dinner at home.

Saturday:
Hmmmm.... he is working then dinner thus son went class as normal then home, after that i train to meet my sister, mum at Tampines, wanted to get BB stuff but ended up a few only as the price is not cheap and i want more variety then after that train home. Tired!
ZZZZ

Sunday:
We woke up late and slack then JB, then trouble came then JB like finally haha.
Weather sucks to the max, dinner, grocery then out to Singapore.
Home ZZ, DVD

Monday:
DVD day as son was at his place but awhile later he asked me to go fetch him telling me he no car!
I SAW his car parked at the car park, Damn idiot fool!
=)
Hope u have swollen tongue!
Went 501 to collect some of my stuff and BB mattress, fixed the cot and then half way give up, as i threw the screw away haha. Clever me i think.

Tuesday:
Back to work sian.

On a gentle note, i think son really grow up already and have his mind of his own but he is still a BB to me no matter what happen or how old he is, he talked like adult and his actions make me really don't know want to beat him or scold him but until i cannot tahan then i will scream and i don't hit him anymore now unlike last time i really cane him, Now i don't even use the cane, SCARED him only. I feel that he is old enough to be spared from the rot already unless he really cannot la.
he can understand what i tell him but stubborn like me la, cannot take it then attitude haha.
I think he look like me lo, haha.

He is coping well in school, learning fast enough but still playful, wants to play games more then studies, but when he got mood to study, i tell u he can captured very fast till sometimes i buay tahan him as his timing for learning is weird timing like after 10 pm when my eyes start to get sleepy.

I will try to teaches and go library and read him the books whenever i can but sometimes i am just too tired to continued then he will sulk.

Son i love u.

i am trying my best to balance all this, my pregnancy, son, family and work already.
i hope i can do my very best in all this aspect!
When BB is out i need to balance more and i think i can do it De!
I need confidence and determination, Praise me with that!

BTW the maid woke up at 6.45am when she is supposed to wake up at 6am and wake him up at 6.15am, god 45 minutes late and she was freaked out when she saw him at 6.55am when he went to pick up his clothing,
I dunno what to say about her already.
Maybe i should closed one eyes since she is nice to Isaac and Isaac is attached to her.
I know i cant have the best of all in 2 hands, that is the problem with all maids,
SIGH!

i am working from home thus i shall not blog till next week.

Boss is kind but i am not lazy at home, i do my reports lo, tired!

Bringing son to movies tomorrow already as i promised him and Cathay is offering one for one which is worth it lo.

Anyway he is having school only from 10 to 12 as they are celebrating National Day.

Son can said the National Pledge now and i am so proud of him and almost all people agree with me that he learn more in PAP then in previous childcare.
I am glad he is adapting well.

Shall continued my work and not be lazy as i want to enjoyed my Long Weekend.

BTW, Eling gal present i brought liao, heng, as i am so scare to buy present de haha.

hope they can fit.

GG shop for BB items this weekend already and it Maid offday too!

Bye, am so tired and he is not home to massage my leg now as he got to clear up some other people shit work.
hate his collegues badly.

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Like finally i watched the movie that he agree to bring me already la.

The show is damn funny lo and BTW, Cathay is so much cheaper then GV Le in terms of prices and cinema why har?
I watched and the ticket for 2 costs only like $12, while at GV it might cost even more.
We watched the show at 9.35pm as we wanted to have dinner first and we choose New York New York, alright i should said for the food.
Not really that fantastic nor what la, depending on what you are looking for lo.
Full after that and the $$ was worth it la i can said,

We headed home after the movie and showered and dead beat by the time we finished and hit the sack immediately!

Son was already asleep when i went home as the maid told me he slept at 10plus which was early!
=)
Well he was so cute when sleeping haha.
My little angel la.

He is so noisy when he is awake
But i still love him.

I called him yesterday and asked him, DO U MISS ME?
He reply NO!!!
Faint!
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I asked him why he told me nothing lo, because u haven buy toys for me i was like!
=_=""""
then i say can i bring u go choose ur toys that u like?
He said I MISS U MUMMY!
So Sad!
Only miss me when i m buying toys but i know deep down he cared and loved me de!
=)

He kicked me in the tummy last night and it is so pain la, aiyo but i cant scold him as it is not his fault too what. he is asleep already also.

i cant sleep well recently dunno is it too heavy or what, i will sleep fast and wake up fast too la.
Sigh!
Then i will be like so tired when i come work and also no energy!
Pelvis there hurt more then before but there is no medicine to stop the pain and will only stop when i give birth then what to do except ENDURE lo!

He will be home late tonight as he said got something on.
Sister they all coming over as they are gg swimming and also dinner.

Maid is so irritating sometimes i think. Keep asking thing when she only need to do it later like after 4pm or what sigh!

There is an incident i wanna blog before i forget!
PEERs, PLEASE DO NOT GO TO

CASUARINA CURRY
126 Casuarina Rd (off Upper Thomson)
Telephone: (65) 6455-9093

OMG i was there last Saturday i think and then i got a rude shock as we were there like at 11.30 and they are closing at 12am i think, we seat outside and wanted to placed order, they CLAIMED NO!
Outside is closed while they take orders for others.
ZZ!!!
Then he asked them and we managed to order but the worst is not yet here lo.

Son was enjoying his prata and then they started clearing the place close to 12am, then they were standing in front of us waiting for us to leave while son is still eating his prata.
I was like WTF!
Son was so stressed up that he dont wanna eat anymore.
I was like i PAID for my food even if youb are closing shouldnt you wait?
Are INDIANS rude people or without brains?
Retarted?
Fookers?

I tell u, never go back there again and the thing is that the prata is not that fantastic too!
Jalan Kayu is much better then there lo.

Overall the service
SUCKs
ATTITUDEs
RUDE
ILL BREED
NO MANNERS!

Never ever step in there unless u want the same to happen to u and btw their utenstil are really damm oily!
Damm dirty!

I am going to call and complaint later.
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So dead as i need to do my report later on and i kinda hate it la.
This week we will have a long weekend thanks to Singapore Birthday =)

Sat to tue then work.

I calculate another 40 days im bursting already.
Haha
wished me good luck as i cant remember and dont wished to remember the contractions time and period!
Serious!
It just hurt badly and the pain, sweat and cooldness OMG!

BB pls be a gd boy and dnt let mummy have long contractions time like Isaac, 18 hours!

Going out this Sunday to get BB items!
A list to get...

BB is so expensive la!

Sister is going Thailand, wonder can she help me buy things?
haha
i also want to go but i cant!
=(

Next year bah!!

BBQ on Sunday

Finally BBQ is over already after awaiting for so long and booking and it was a blast although it was only family members included, but it was fun and no hiccups this time unlike last time. All people are cooperative and considerate!

What make me said so, only family people will know shall not elaborate already haha, long story la.

Anyway, today is back to work and i am feeling so tired then usual maybe because i am due in another 2 months and i am really feeling so heavy then before and swollen leg and disturbed sleep as i suddenly become so light sleeper. OMG!
Will this stop when i give birth?

Brought the Fridge to Go already, thanks Gordon for collecting on my behalf!
=)

It can store 4 small bottles and 2-3 standard bottles.
Was asking Eling advice on it and i decide on this as I'm scare i will use it not long and waste alot of $ thus get this smaller version and main reason office don't have breast pump room thus i wonder how I'm gg to pump my milk when I'm bk to work force. Haha will write in a comment and see hw it is.

My maternity leave already sort of confirmed already.
taking full 3months in a row, starting in Oct 1 which is clearing leave first then maternity then will be bk in Dec 31 officially but i will tk leave la, haha back only in Jan lo. Dec come bk work so sian de haha. Like dead office like that no point and 31 DEC is half day also! Wasting my time i ratehr stay home and pei my kids.

He is nice, brought me breakfast and we had it together although i need to wake up early but it worth while.
I suddenly so nice lol, something is so wrong with me,
i am not the lovely dovey person yet suddenly i changed to it omg, pregnancy hormones is making the changes.

I am still waiting for him to bring me to movies la, he so BUSY MAN!
I wanted to watch as my sister say the show is rating 5/5 haha.
Damn funny!
I will wanna watch it soon!

Updates on son:
He is very good boy, listen to me almost all the times and not when he is lacking of sleep.
Do his homework as per instructed, can see that he really grown up already.
Need praises when he do his work well and last time asked him do his homework is like wanted his life or something.
Changing him to PAP is a good choice after all and i don't regret only problem is that the school lack of discipline as they got alot of kids to worried about i guess, no choice, make him learn and prepared for Primary 1 bah!

there are issue with the school that i made complaint la, shall not mentioned it here and i will need to get back to teacher!
Not to forget!
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Son will still called for the maid very lazy, but he love her and listen to her but not all the times as the maid is not fierce as i told her cannot!
I wonder the NB is out son will JEALOUS?
Maid don't have full time with her already ma, haha.
I will make it all up and make sure that all are equal DE!
Both are my precious and i cant afford to let others make them different and unfair to either one.
If there is anyone doing that i shall not hesitate to stop them from seeing my kids and coming in contact with me be it my mum his mum or whoever. I said what i mean DE!
I don't care who the person are and as long as the person don't listen and do my commands I'M SORRY get outta of my life!
=)

Haha

Brought a trolley cupboard for BB clothing last Saturday and sad to said, IT FULL!!!!
Maid is neat but then never fully use the space and then i got to buy another one again! darn!
Colleagues gave me clothings and almost alot are new but all are rompers haha.
My colleagues have twins thus the clothing are 2 pieces the same LOLS so funny.
Now need to buy the basic BB items and i think i am done, like the mattress, pillow etc!
I am planning to go out with him this Sunday as Monday is a PH then we can come back late haha.

I hope he don't last minute got thing to do lo, make me sad again!
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Talking to son noqw, he say he duno got MISS me anot, SAD!