One more day to the end of October 2008.
how time flies.
This whole week no matter how early i sleep i will still feel sleepy at work. I dont know why. I feel restless. Aunty coming?
This week son is going over to his place, i feel sad & moodless, thinking he is not around my side.
Last night before i sleep, i asked son
Me: Will you dont want mummy when i grow old?
Son: NO, i only want mummy.
Me: Really?
Son: Yes la
Me: Will you dont want me when you are old & i am a girl cant share things with you?
Son: NO
Son: Aiyo, i go Daddy (ex) house, i will tell him i only want mummy lar
=_='
He said so because i tell him must tell his daddy that he wants mummy so he will come back home early.
I read an article today, about a guy who is in his 40+ but is blind. He is still taking care of his mum who is 90 years old. The worst part is that they have in total 10 siblings including himself. The other 9 siblings only contributed $230 per month for him & mum.
They asked: Why did you want to take care of your mum when you cant even see properly?
He: I will love my mother as long as she is alive and treat her the way like how she treat us with love & attention when we are young.
After i read this i felt like crying.
I love my mum & family too yet they cant feel it and we dont do it and act like as before.
I am sad of this but no one can understand unless they are the one who felt it before.
I emphasis alot on family love because i dont want son to have the same feeling as i am even when i m this old.
My mum is getting better now but there is still some BASTARD who is making her to change and i ahte that fella. I will curse & swear if needed but at the end of the day i cant say much. =[
I went to the temple already during lunch today and i felt better as i agree on something i must return. =]
Brought my new skincare too. Tried the BB cream, nice thou can cover but i felt oily. Maybe i apply too much? Will try to apply lesser tml and see how.
I passed some mask to my mum as she say she wanted and since i ordered alot and i'm so lazy to apply when i reached home. Dont waste. If it's good for her then i will order more for her in future since it is so cheap.
I wanted to have steamboat on Saturday but i cant. I cant even make it to Maggie gal's birthday (maybe) =[
All because he wants to fetch Isaac zzz. I know i cant be selfish and have all but he is my everything.
I feel EMO now as i think of Isaac and when he is not around me.
I wanted to go out meet my friends & have free time so i wont have to nag at him, but once he is not around me. I felt lost.
I think i need to have my son with me 24 hours, 365 days per year.
=]
I cant imagine a day without him la.
I am my son mummy boy. haha
Still thinking what to get for Maggie Gal, she say no clothes lei.
Cracking my brains.........
BTW i lost 5kg while on the pills for 3 weeks and i felt like OMG.... # more weeks means another 5 kg?
Dream more i think
=]
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
SINGAPORE'S Agri-Food and Veterinary Authority (AVA) has expanded its checks on milk and dairy products from China for melamine contamination.
China-made dairy items sold in Singapore include ice cream from Youcan.
China-made dairy items sold in Singapore include candy bars from Rabbit.
Dangers of melamine MELAMINE'S level of toxicity is not very high, but it is known to cause urinary problems and bladder stones when consumed, according to Dr Leong Lai Peng, a senior lecturer in the food science and technology programme at the National University of Singapore.It may also cause cancer, said DrLeong, adding that a research paper has shown that male rats exposed to high dosages developed carcinomas, which are malignant cancers. ... more Daily imports from China China-made dairy items sold in Singapore include ice cream from Youcan. -- PHOTO: YOUCAN China-made dairy items sold in Singapore include candy bars from Rabbit. -- PHOTO: ST FILE PHOTO China-made dairy items sold in Singapore include dairy fruit bars from Yili. -- PHOTO: AVA Daily imports from China · Condensed milk: Black and White (from Hong Kong), Diamond ... moreMeng Niu Group, which produces Monmilk, and the Yili Group have been implicated in the scandal in China. There is no China-produced infant formula or milk powder available on shelves in Singapore; however, manufacturers here do use un-branded milk powder and other dairy products made in China, the AVA said. When contacted about this, Singapore Food Manufacturers' Association president Allan Tan said it would find out more details from AVA before deciding on a course of action. He added that if needed, the association might send out a circular advising members to be wary of ingredients sourced from China.
The AVA has already advised retailers to yank a China-made dairy product from shelves - Yili's Natural Choice Yogurt Flavoured Ice Bar with Real Fruit - as a sample of it here was found by the AVA to be tainted with melamine - the chemical found in the tainted infant formula in China. Customers who had bought the ice bar should dispose of it or return it, said the AVA, although it maintained that other products still undergoing testing were safe to eat. AVA spokesman Goh Shih Yong said that it approves only milk powder products that are manufactured in establishments regulated by the authorities from the country of origin. Imported infant formula products are required to be accompanied by a health certificate as well as a laboratory test report at the time of import to show that the products are safe and comply with standards. Supermarket chains said they are following the AVA's directive and have recalled only the Yili yogurt ice bar, with no plans to pull other types of China-made dairy products from their shelves. But FairPrice, the largest supermarket chain here, has gone one step further by recalling all Yili yogurt and ice cream products, said Ms Chong Nyet Chin, FairPrice's director of food safety and quality. 'As for other milk products from China, we have requested and obtained written confirmation from suppliers that the products are safe for consumption. As a precautionary measure, we have instructed suppliers of all dairy products to provide verification that their product is free of melamine,' she said. Nevertheless, consumers here are not taking any chances. A Straits Times check with 20 customers at three supermarkets here found that all are shunning dairy products from China. Housewife Lilian Chau, 57, said she had stopped buying Yili yoghurt bars and milk for her two daughters and would stick to trusted local brands instead. Housewife Celia Lim, 30, used to be a big fan of Monmilk but has stopped buying it since 'just to be safe'. Mrs Lim said: 'The packaging makes it sound quite convincing, of how they manufacture their product and have collaborations with overseas companies. Now, though, I don't think that I will go back to drinking milk from China.' Meanwhile, the AVA is also conducting further checks on samples of rice and other rice-based products from Japan. This is in the light of the recent scandal involving Osaka-based rice miller Mikasa Foods, which was found to have distributed pesticide-tainted rice to a total of about 370 firms in Japan for edible purposes. The tainted rice, imported from China, is designated for inedible purposes - such as in making glue or other industrial products - due to fungal contamination or pesticide residue.
香港检测的 不合格名单 Not qualified list 樣本名稱 Manufacturer's name & address 製造商名稱及地址
1 . KLIM Instant Full Cream Milk Powder (1.8 kg) 克寧即溶奶粉 ( 淨重 : 1.8 千克 ) Manufacturer: Nestle Shuangcheng Ltd. Address: Friendship Road , Shuangcheng City , Heilongjiang Province, PRC
2. Nestle Carnation Calcium Plus Non Fat Milk Powder (1.6 kg) 三花高鈣脫脂奶粉 ( 淨重 : 1600 克 ) Manufacturer: Nestle Shuangcheng Ltd. Address: Friendship Road , Shuangcheng City , Heilongjiang Province, PRC
3. Nespray 雀巢兒童奶粉 3 + 歲以上 ( 淨重 : 900 克 ) Manufacturer: Nestle Shuangcheng Ltd Address: Nestle Shuangcheng Ltd., PRC
4. Nestle Dairy Farm Pure Milk 雀巢牛奶公司純牛奶 ( 淨容量 : 1 升 ) Manufacturer: Nestle Qingdao Ltd. Address: Weihai Xi Lu, Laixi City , Qingdao , P.R. China
5. Mengniu Pure Milk 蒙牛純牛奶 ( 淨體積 : 250 毫升 ) 製造商：中國內蒙古蒙牛乳業 ( 集團 ) 股份有限公司 地址 : 中國內蒙古呼和浩特市和林格爾盛樂經濟園區
6. Monmilk Breakfast Milk Walnut Milk Beverage 蒙牛早餐奶核桃奶類飲品 ( 淨體積 : 250 毫升 ) 製造商：中國內蒙古蒙牛乳業 ( 集團 ) 股份有限公司 地址 : 中國內蒙古呼和浩特市和林格爾盛樂經濟園區
7. Monmilk Suan Suan Ru Sour Milk Beverage (Mango Flavour) 蒙牛酸酸乳酸味奶類飲品 ( 芒果味 ) ( 淨體積 : 250 毫升 ) 製造商：中國內蒙古蒙牛乳業 ( 集團 ) 股份有限公司 地址 : 中國內蒙古呼和浩特市和林格爾盛樂經濟園區
8. Monmilk Milk Deluxe Pure Milk 蒙牛特侖蘇純牛奶 ( 淨體積 : 250 毫升 ) 製造商：中國內蒙古蒙牛乳業 ( 集團 ) 股份有限公司 地址 : 中國內蒙古呼和浩特市和林格爾盛樂經濟園區
9. Yili High Calcium Low Fat Milk Beverage 伊利高鈣低脂奶類飲品 ( 淨體積 : 250 毫升 ) 製造商：內蒙古伊利實業集團股份有限公司 地址 : 中國內蒙古呼和浩特市金川開發區金三道 2 號
10. Dutch Lady Pure Milk 子母純牛奶 ( 淨容量 : 1 公升 ) Manufacturer: Tianjian Dutch Lady Dairy Foods Co., Ltd. Address: South of Dongting Road , Hexi District, Tianjin , PRC
11. Vita Fresh Milk 維他純鮮牛奶 ( 淨容量 : 236 毫升 ) 製造商：維他奶國際集團有限公司 地址 : 中國廣東省深圳市光明華僑畜牧場
12. Nestle Vanilla Flavour Ice Cream Cone 雀巢雲呢拿味雪糕甜筒 (8 支盒裝 ) Manufacturer: Nestle Tianjin Ltd. Address: No.149 Nanhai Road , TEDA, Tianjin , PRC
13. Nestle Chocolate Flavour Ice Cream Cone 雀巢朱古力味雪糕甜筒 (8 支盒裝 ) Manufacturer: Nestle Tianjin Ltd. Address: No.149 Nanhai Road , TEDA, Tianjin , PRC
14. Meiji Ujikintoki (red bean and green tea frozen confection) 明治紅豆綠茶雪條 (6 支盒裝 :6 x 75 克 ) Manufacturer: Guangdong M&F- Yan Tang Dairy Products Co., Ltd Address: Datanggang Shahe, Guangzhou , China
15. Meiji Hokkaido Azuki (red bean ice cream) 明治北海道紅豆雪糕 (6 支盒裝 :6 x 70 克 ) Manufacturer: Guangdong M&F- Yan Tang Dairy Products Co., Ltd Address: Datanggang Shahe, Guangzhou , China
16. Trappist Dairy Low Fat Yogurt Drink 十字牌鮮乳酪低脂飲品 ( 淨容量 : 200 毫升 ) 經銷商：神樂院牛奶廠有限公司 地址 : 香港元朗青山公路二十八咪半
17. Strawberry Sorbet 戀愛果實士多啤梨雪巴 ( 淨重 : 54 克 ) Manufacturer: Xincheng Greenearth Food Co., Ltd Address: No.62 Xingjianzhai, Huazhou Road , Pudong, Shanghai , China
18. Natural Choice Milk Ice Bar 伊利牧場香濃布丁雪條 ( 淨體積 : 85 毫升 ) Manufacturer: Shanghai Yili AB Foods Co., Ltd Address: No. 269 Beidou Road , Minhang Zone, Shanghai P.R. of China
19. 牛奶木瓜口味飲料 (Papaya Milk Drink) (350ml) -- 尚効 製造商：春喬食品興業股份有限公司 ( 地址 : 台灣彰化縣員林鎮鎮興里山腳路 3 段 25 巷 72 號 )
20. 阿薩姆奶茶 (Assam Milk Tea) (350ml) -- 尚効 製造商：春喬食品興業股份有限公司 ( 地址 : 台灣彰化縣員林鎮鎮興里山腳路 3 段 25 巷 72 號 )
21. 藍山炭燒咖啡 (Carbonize Coffee) (280ml) -- 尚効 製造商：春喬食品興業股份有限公司 ( 地址 : 台灣彰化縣員林鎮鎮興里山腳路 3 段 25 巷 72 號 )
Read this article from an email send by friends.
I wonder how much food we cant really eat and also the news also have other products which is like Julie, etc are posion.
Die what is the world becoming?
Fri
Work. Home. Sleep
Sat
Home. Sleep
Sun
Woke up early, then breakfast at Chinatown.
Cooked Laska, Son art class.
MOn
JB
Eat. Sleep. Home
China-made dairy items sold in Singapore include candy bars from Rabbit.
Dangers of melamine MELAMINE'S level of toxicity is not very high, but it is known to cause urinary problems and bladder stones when consumed, according to Dr Leong Lai Peng, a senior lecturer in the food science and technology programme at the National University of Singapore.It may also cause cancer, said DrLeong, adding that a research paper has shown that male rats exposed to high dosages developed carcinomas, which are malignant cancers. ... more Daily imports from China China-made dairy items sold in Singapore include ice cream from Youcan. -- PHOTO: YOUCAN China-made dairy items sold in Singapore include candy bars from Rabbit. -- PHOTO: ST FILE PHOTO China-made dairy items sold in Singapore include dairy fruit bars from Yili. -- PHOTO: AVA Daily imports from China · Condensed milk: Black and White (from Hong Kong), Diamond ... moreMeng Niu Group, which produces Monmilk, and the Yili Group have been implicated in the scandal in China. There is no China-produced infant formula or milk powder available on shelves in Singapore; however, manufacturers here do use un-branded milk powder and other dairy products made in China, the AVA said. When contacted about this, Singapore Food Manufacturers' Association president Allan Tan said it would find out more details from AVA before deciding on a course of action. He added that if needed, the association might send out a circular advising members to be wary of ingredients sourced from China.
The AVA has already advised retailers to yank a China-made dairy product from shelves - Yili's Natural Choice Yogurt Flavoured Ice Bar with Real Fruit - as a sample of it here was found by the AVA to be tainted with melamine - the chemical found in the tainted infant formula in China. Customers who had bought the ice bar should dispose of it or return it, said the AVA, although it maintained that other products still undergoing testing were safe to eat. AVA spokesman Goh Shih Yong said that it approves only milk powder products that are manufactured in establishments regulated by the authorities from the country of origin. Imported infant formula products are required to be accompanied by a health certificate as well as a laboratory test report at the time of import to show that the products are safe and comply with standards. Supermarket chains said they are following the AVA's directive and have recalled only the Yili yogurt ice bar, with no plans to pull other types of China-made dairy products from their shelves. But FairPrice, the largest supermarket chain here, has gone one step further by recalling all Yili yogurt and ice cream products, said Ms Chong Nyet Chin, FairPrice's director of food safety and quality. 'As for other milk products from China, we have requested and obtained written confirmation from suppliers that the products are safe for consumption. As a precautionary measure, we have instructed suppliers of all dairy products to provide verification that their product is free of melamine,' she said. Nevertheless, consumers here are not taking any chances. A Straits Times check with 20 customers at three supermarkets here found that all are shunning dairy products from China. Housewife Lilian Chau, 57, said she had stopped buying Yili yoghurt bars and milk for her two daughters and would stick to trusted local brands instead. Housewife Celia Lim, 30, used to be a big fan of Monmilk but has stopped buying it since 'just to be safe'. Mrs Lim said: 'The packaging makes it sound quite convincing, of how they manufacture their product and have collaborations with overseas companies. Now, though, I don't think that I will go back to drinking milk from China.' Meanwhile, the AVA is also conducting further checks on samples of rice and other rice-based products from Japan. This is in the light of the recent scandal involving Osaka-based rice miller Mikasa Foods, which was found to have distributed pesticide-tainted rice to a total of about 370 firms in Japan for edible purposes. The tainted rice, imported from China, is designated for inedible purposes - such as in making glue or other industrial products - due to fungal contamination or pesticide residue.
香港检测的 不合格名单 Not qualified list 樣本名稱 Manufacturer's name & address 製造商名稱及地址
1 . KLIM Instant Full Cream Milk Powder (1.8 kg) 克寧即溶奶粉 ( 淨重 : 1.8 千克 ) Manufacturer: Nestle Shuangcheng Ltd. Address: Friendship Road , Shuangcheng City , Heilongjiang Province, PRC
2. Nestle Carnation Calcium Plus Non Fat Milk Powder (1.6 kg) 三花高鈣脫脂奶粉 ( 淨重 : 1600 克 ) Manufacturer: Nestle Shuangcheng Ltd. Address: Friendship Road , Shuangcheng City , Heilongjiang Province, PRC
3. Nespray 雀巢兒童奶粉 3 + 歲以上 ( 淨重 : 900 克 ) Manufacturer: Nestle Shuangcheng Ltd Address: Nestle Shuangcheng Ltd., PRC
4. Nestle Dairy Farm Pure Milk 雀巢牛奶公司純牛奶 ( 淨容量 : 1 升 ) Manufacturer: Nestle Qingdao Ltd. Address: Weihai Xi Lu, Laixi City , Qingdao , P.R. China
5. Mengniu Pure Milk 蒙牛純牛奶 ( 淨體積 : 250 毫升 ) 製造商：中國內蒙古蒙牛乳業 ( 集團 ) 股份有限公司 地址 : 中國內蒙古呼和浩特市和林格爾盛樂經濟園區
6. Monmilk Breakfast Milk Walnut Milk Beverage 蒙牛早餐奶核桃奶類飲品 ( 淨體積 : 250 毫升 ) 製造商：中國內蒙古蒙牛乳業 ( 集團 ) 股份有限公司 地址 : 中國內蒙古呼和浩特市和林格爾盛樂經濟園區
7. Monmilk Suan Suan Ru Sour Milk Beverage (Mango Flavour) 蒙牛酸酸乳酸味奶類飲品 ( 芒果味 ) ( 淨體積 : 250 毫升 ) 製造商：中國內蒙古蒙牛乳業 ( 集團 ) 股份有限公司 地址 : 中國內蒙古呼和浩特市和林格爾盛樂經濟園區
8. Monmilk Milk Deluxe Pure Milk 蒙牛特侖蘇純牛奶 ( 淨體積 : 250 毫升 ) 製造商：中國內蒙古蒙牛乳業 ( 集團 ) 股份有限公司 地址 : 中國內蒙古呼和浩特市和林格爾盛樂經濟園區
9. Yili High Calcium Low Fat Milk Beverage 伊利高鈣低脂奶類飲品 ( 淨體積 : 250 毫升 ) 製造商：內蒙古伊利實業集團股份有限公司 地址 : 中國內蒙古呼和浩特市金川開發區金三道 2 號
10. Dutch Lady Pure Milk 子母純牛奶 ( 淨容量 : 1 公升 ) Manufacturer: Tianjian Dutch Lady Dairy Foods Co., Ltd. Address: South of Dongting Road , Hexi District, Tianjin , PRC
11. Vita Fresh Milk 維他純鮮牛奶 ( 淨容量 : 236 毫升 ) 製造商：維他奶國際集團有限公司 地址 : 中國廣東省深圳市光明華僑畜牧場
12. Nestle Vanilla Flavour Ice Cream Cone 雀巢雲呢拿味雪糕甜筒 (8 支盒裝 ) Manufacturer: Nestle Tianjin Ltd. Address: No.149 Nanhai Road , TEDA, Tianjin , PRC
13. Nestle Chocolate Flavour Ice Cream Cone 雀巢朱古力味雪糕甜筒 (8 支盒裝 ) Manufacturer: Nestle Tianjin Ltd. Address: No.149 Nanhai Road , TEDA, Tianjin , PRC
14. Meiji Ujikintoki (red bean and green tea frozen confection) 明治紅豆綠茶雪條 (6 支盒裝 :6 x 75 克 ) Manufacturer: Guangdong M&F- Yan Tang Dairy Products Co., Ltd Address: Datanggang Shahe, Guangzhou , China
15. Meiji Hokkaido Azuki (red bean ice cream) 明治北海道紅豆雪糕 (6 支盒裝 :6 x 70 克 ) Manufacturer: Guangdong M&F- Yan Tang Dairy Products Co., Ltd Address: Datanggang Shahe, Guangzhou , China
16. Trappist Dairy Low Fat Yogurt Drink 十字牌鮮乳酪低脂飲品 ( 淨容量 : 200 毫升 ) 經銷商：神樂院牛奶廠有限公司 地址 : 香港元朗青山公路二十八咪半
17. Strawberry Sorbet 戀愛果實士多啤梨雪巴 ( 淨重 : 54 克 ) Manufacturer: Xincheng Greenearth Food Co., Ltd Address: No.62 Xingjianzhai, Huazhou Road , Pudong, Shanghai , China
18. Natural Choice Milk Ice Bar 伊利牧場香濃布丁雪條 ( 淨體積 : 85 毫升 ) Manufacturer: Shanghai Yili AB Foods Co., Ltd Address: No. 269 Beidou Road , Minhang Zone, Shanghai P.R. of China
19. 牛奶木瓜口味飲料 (Papaya Milk Drink) (350ml) -- 尚効 製造商：春喬食品興業股份有限公司 ( 地址 : 台灣彰化縣員林鎮鎮興里山腳路 3 段 25 巷 72 號 )
20. 阿薩姆奶茶 (Assam Milk Tea) (350ml) -- 尚効 製造商：春喬食品興業股份有限公司 ( 地址 : 台灣彰化縣員林鎮鎮興里山腳路 3 段 25 巷 72 號 )
21. 藍山炭燒咖啡 (Carbonize Coffee) (280ml) -- 尚効 製造商：春喬食品興業股份有限公司 ( 地址 : 台灣彰化縣員林鎮鎮興里山腳路 3 段 25 巷 72 號 )
Read this article from an email send by friends.
I wonder how much food we cant really eat and also the news also have other products which is like Julie, etc are posion.
Die what is the world becoming?
Fri
Work. Home. Sleep
Sat
Home. Sleep
Sun
Woke up early, then breakfast at Chinatown.
Cooked Laska, Son art class.
MOn
JB
Eat. Sleep. Home
Friday, October 24, 2008
Friday
Todayis Friday again.
Moodless as the weather is really nice to be lying on bed rater then working today. No choice.
Tomorrow willbe my son big day haha. I am looking forward to the show man.
Morning will be waking up early as we wanted to go Delifrance breakfast buffet then he has to reach at 11 also.
Alot of things to do.
Doctor, temple, breakfast etc......
Sunday might be going for movie. "Coffin"
I love horror movie & yes i hope this will be a good one not the lame lame type where it is so boring.
Monday is holiday, but honey might have to work son not around also. Damm boring liao lo. What to do lei.
My mum wanted to go out but depends on her la.
Saw Sister b yesterday when i was leaving mum home.
Hmmm hope she dont regret.
=]
Was on killing spree yesterday haha, guess teh mossie is dead but duno where is their bodies la. Cant find man. My clothes stink x1000000 times lo, well never mind lar, as long as they are dead i am happy =]
I tout she stole & purposely opened my yougurt. No not her but his mum accidently.
Well i dont like you so fark off.
I ate teh pill but today i felt hungry for something, so i decided to share Mac Wings with April. I wanted to get a weighting machine.
I need to weight myself & see how much in total i have lost man. Or i have eaten the pill in vain. I hope not so la.
Anyway i am still craving for lots of seafood buffet & steamboat, since the weather is so nice to eat steamboat where i can warm my body. Haha
I am greedy i know =]
lovemy son more & more because he is a good boy and is listening to me more & not so notti already.
last time he dont listen when i talk to him and he cant be bothered, now he is older already i guess so he will listen. I hope he will behave this way & be nice to mummy.
Mummy love you deeply.
=]
Moodless as the weather is really nice to be lying on bed rater then working today. No choice.
Tomorrow willbe my son big day haha. I am looking forward to the show man.
Morning will be waking up early as we wanted to go Delifrance breakfast buffet then he has to reach at 11 also.
Alot of things to do.
Doctor, temple, breakfast etc......
Sunday might be going for movie. "Coffin"
I love horror movie & yes i hope this will be a good one not the lame lame type where it is so boring.
Monday is holiday, but honey might have to work son not around also. Damm boring liao lo. What to do lei.
My mum wanted to go out but depends on her la.
Saw Sister b yesterday when i was leaving mum home.
Hmmm hope she dont regret.
=]
Was on killing spree yesterday haha, guess teh mossie is dead but duno where is their bodies la. Cant find man. My clothes stink x1000000 times lo, well never mind lar, as long as they are dead i am happy =]
I tout she stole & purposely opened my yougurt. No not her but his mum accidently.
Well i dont like you so fark off.
I ate teh pill but today i felt hungry for something, so i decided to share Mac Wings with April. I wanted to get a weighting machine.
I need to weight myself & see how much in total i have lost man. Or i have eaten the pill in vain. I hope not so la.
Anyway i am still craving for lots of seafood buffet & steamboat, since the weather is so nice to eat steamboat where i can warm my body. Haha
I am greedy i know =]
lovemy son more & more because he is a good boy and is listening to me more & not so notti already.
last time he dont listen when i talk to him and he cant be bothered, now he is older already i guess so he will listen. I hope he will behave this way & be nice to mummy.
Mummy love you deeply.
=]
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
I'm sad & disappointed
This morning i seriously hope that i dont walk to the ATM machine.
I have no choice but to walk there.
I have an ugly shock and i felt that i can trust no one in this world or maybe just myself that all.
The person that is closet to you might not be the one who you can lean on or trust.
I try not to believe what others have said or claimed how you are. Yet the truth is always the ugliest.
I have forgive you once and yet you repeat the same thing again and again, there is no more trust in us.
I learnt to protect myself harder then before as i realised in this world nothing is important.
After pouring out i felt better, i am not angry with you for taking. I know when we are in need it's OK, but times & times i have to keep saying. Please inform me dont let me find out.
When i find out it means diaster.
I hate this feeling early in the morning and i am seriously moodless.
I don like it when this type of trust between us and i felt that if this is to continue, there is no way we can communicate and tell the truth.
What i want is very simple.
TRUTH
I am ok already haha, as i blog stop then continued. As long as i know it is coming back to me and safetly tugged inside i m OK
Hopefully it wont happen again.
Son is actually getting more well behaved recently already, maybe is he is growing up & more sensible?
I hope so.
His big show will be this Saturday.
I shall enjoy what he have learn all this while.
Maggie BB Kayleen1 year old is this 1st Nov, dun know what to get for her.
=]
I have no choice but to walk there.
I have an ugly shock and i felt that i can trust no one in this world or maybe just myself that all.
The person that is closet to you might not be the one who you can lean on or trust.
I try not to believe what others have said or claimed how you are. Yet the truth is always the ugliest.
I have forgive you once and yet you repeat the same thing again and again, there is no more trust in us.
I learnt to protect myself harder then before as i realised in this world nothing is important.
After pouring out i felt better, i am not angry with you for taking. I know when we are in need it's OK, but times & times i have to keep saying. Please inform me dont let me find out.
When i find out it means diaster.
I hate this feeling early in the morning and i am seriously moodless.
I don like it when this type of trust between us and i felt that if this is to continue, there is no way we can communicate and tell the truth.
What i want is very simple.
TRUTH
I am ok already haha, as i blog stop then continued. As long as i know it is coming back to me and safetly tugged inside i m OK
Hopefully it wont happen again.
Son is actually getting more well behaved recently already, maybe is he is growing up & more sensible?
I hope so.
His big show will be this Saturday.
I shall enjoy what he have learn all this while.
Maggie BB Kayleen1 year old is this 1st Nov, dun know what to get for her.
=]
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Tuesday
Today i will be giving myself a break from the diet pill.
Honey wanted to bring me to Japanese buffet at Kushinbo which is at Suntec.
I was excited. LOL
have craving for buffet since the longest time man.
Honey is making it up to me i guess, as he is tired everyday after work & he throw temper easily.
I blame him & scold him for that but i felt bad also, because, he have to wake up at 6.30 am to fetch son to schol then go work. Where i can sleep till 8am then make my way to work with the breakfast ready for me.
I feel bad sometimes but then sometimes, i cant i need to rent out loud as i am tired also.
I am a person without patience and i cant stand things or rubbish at the faster rate you can name.
I can teach son to write or draw yet after 10 minutes i am gone. I cant ...
That is why he go to school & also supplementary classes.
This way he will actually learn more then he will in school.
I sometimes think whyup to my age i still dont have patience.
I guess this is the ME.
I did something very very bad yesterday & today.
I say i wil stop smoking right?
NO i never i smoke at home, please slap me can?
I PROMISE i will not already after this last stick that i ahve in my bag.
I promise.
I will walk to the temple tomorrow during lunch time myself to pray. If not i will go on Sat when i drop son at school for his concert. father & Mother only have to reach the place at 2.15pm.
Heard the mum say that his brother GF dont want to marry again, i think this is good also la.
Dont know how many lies have she said already.
Told his mum, this is the 1st time she is in Singapore to work yet she tell me another story.
Long story.
Anyway she is just a LIAR..
I felt good after sleeping so early last night.
Suddenly i miss honey. I love u. =]
I realised that my blog is full of words no more pictures.
I am lazy ok
Heard that his dad want to g Genting but bring the 2 rascals go. Want us to follow & rent a 7 seater. I dont really like the idea as i know i will be really tired as they love to go casino and i will be left to look after the kids.
I know son wanted to go so much. I can bring him on my own with honey.
I really dont like the idea la.
His kids i dont like ONE WORD
His dad stealer
That is the reason.
I know i should not have hate his son because his dad did something wrong but then i cant drop the idea la.
i am LOSO in the morning
Honey wanted to bring me to Japanese buffet at Kushinbo which is at Suntec.
I was excited. LOL
have craving for buffet since the longest time man.
Honey is making it up to me i guess, as he is tired everyday after work & he throw temper easily.
I blame him & scold him for that but i felt bad also, because, he have to wake up at 6.30 am to fetch son to schol then go work. Where i can sleep till 8am then make my way to work with the breakfast ready for me.
I feel bad sometimes but then sometimes, i cant i need to rent out loud as i am tired also.
I am a person without patience and i cant stand things or rubbish at the faster rate you can name.
I can teach son to write or draw yet after 10 minutes i am gone. I cant ...
That is why he go to school & also supplementary classes.
This way he will actually learn more then he will in school.
I sometimes think whyup to my age i still dont have patience.
I guess this is the ME.
I did something very very bad yesterday & today.
I say i wil stop smoking right?
NO i never i smoke at home, please slap me can?
I PROMISE i will not already after this last stick that i ahve in my bag.
I promise.
I will walk to the temple tomorrow during lunch time myself to pray. If not i will go on Sat when i drop son at school for his concert. father & Mother only have to reach the place at 2.15pm.
Heard the mum say that his brother GF dont want to marry again, i think this is good also la.
Dont know how many lies have she said already.
Told his mum, this is the 1st time she is in Singapore to work yet she tell me another story.
Long story.
Anyway she is just a LIAR..
I felt good after sleeping so early last night.
Suddenly i miss honey. I love u. =]
I realised that my blog is full of words no more pictures.
I am lazy ok
Heard that his dad want to g Genting but bring the 2 rascals go. Want us to follow & rent a 7 seater. I dont really like the idea as i know i will be really tired as they love to go casino and i will be left to look after the kids.
I know son wanted to go so much. I can bring him on my own with honey.
I really dont like the idea la.
His kids i dont like ONE WORD
His dad stealer
That is the reason.
I know i should not have hate his son because his dad did something wrong but then i cant drop the idea la.
i am LOSO in the morning
Monday, October 20, 2008
Monday =]
Today i have Monday blues yes and i was at office at 8am & i woke up at 7am lo.Boss need me to come in and do the presentation so no choice.
My heart was panting so badly this whole morning, as i know the report will be out, OK
I am fine.
I still think it is purely luck that's all.
I need to be careful & watch out already.
I need to treasure what is given to me and i shall not abuse it anymore.
Sat
We went visiting to our company malays collegue house.
Was like marathon haha, as we were going to 5 people house in one day haha
I back out last minute after Akbar house, too tired and also honey was rushing to catch the bus to Genting, so we headed home.
I was alone with son lo till Sunday
Sunday
I woke up as early as 10plus am as i need to changed and walked to interchange and catch the bus to Parkway
I took 135 from AMK interchange at 12.10pm and i reached around 1.15pm. Long?
I drop off opposite at Parkway instead of making the BIG turn then infront Parkway
It takes another 15 to 20 minutes more i think
I need to rush because i promise son to have Mac and also his class start at 2pm
I dont want to be late and break his promise
I watched son attend his art class and yes he saw me peeking haha, i told him to walked back & seat
he listened to the teacher and attentive
I can see that he love to do art N craft but i am going to enrol him for piano soon, starting in January
I love my son more then myself and everything he has have to be the best and i will forgo whatever things i have i order to give it to him.
Nothing in this world can compared my love for him & honey la. LOL
Just in case he is wreading this blog.
I need to return my prayers N stop smoking already.
I need to do so, not always people are given 2nd chance.
I need to treasure in case.
I love my family
Muacks
Now the next thing to worry will be:
Will HDB call me?
Will i get the house that i want?
Will all this happen?
I dun know, seriously.
=[
My heart was panting so badly this whole morning, as i know the report will be out, OK
I am fine.
I still think it is purely luck that's all.
I need to be careful & watch out already.
I need to treasure what is given to me and i shall not abuse it anymore.
Sat
We went visiting to our company malays collegue house.
Was like marathon haha, as we were going to 5 people house in one day haha
I back out last minute after Akbar house, too tired and also honey was rushing to catch the bus to Genting, so we headed home.
I was alone with son lo till Sunday
Sunday
I woke up as early as 10plus am as i need to changed and walked to interchange and catch the bus to Parkway
I took 135 from AMK interchange at 12.10pm and i reached around 1.15pm. Long?
I drop off opposite at Parkway instead of making the BIG turn then infront Parkway
It takes another 15 to 20 minutes more i think
I need to rush because i promise son to have Mac and also his class start at 2pm
I dont want to be late and break his promise
I watched son attend his art class and yes he saw me peeking haha, i told him to walked back & seat
he listened to the teacher and attentive
I can see that he love to do art N craft but i am going to enrol him for piano soon, starting in January
I love my son more then myself and everything he has have to be the best and i will forgo whatever things i have i order to give it to him.
Nothing in this world can compared my love for him & honey la. LOL
Just in case he is wreading this blog.
I need to return my prayers N stop smoking already.
I need to do so, not always people are given 2nd chance.
I need to treasure in case.
I love my family
Muacks
Now the next thing to worry will be:
Will HDB call me?
Will i get the house that i want?
Will all this happen?
I dun know, seriously.
=[
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Blessful
I felt blessed when i took the train to work this morning.
I was standing and suddenly i EMO again, thinking about my life all this years.
Last time i might not have to work and i got house, money and very thing that i can think of but not love & care. Yet now is the opposite, everything have to be done slowly but i get love & care that i yearn for.
Every morning, i dont have to wake up very early to change Son or make milk for hima s honey and his mum will be doing, i can tucked myself to bed until like 8am then i wake up.
Then i woke up, mostly i will have my breakfast prepared for me and ready.
I will slowly get myself to work.
Yes, at nights, now i might have to take public transport and its kinda long and sometimes its tiring as i have a long day at work. Tired =[
I was thinking earlier, why did i grumble so much when my happiness is right infront of my eyes, yet i dont treasure.
Human are like this i guess.
My mum is extremly good this 2 weeks too, Yesterday she brought son to cut his hair etc, mae dinner.
She is nice and yet sometimes she make me hate her yet love her as there is a man who is disturbing our family.
He is someone who steped in and she changed till like this.
i thought she will change after last year, yes awhile... After that the same again.
=[
I was thinking sometimes i cant blame her ba, she likes freedom & life which dont need to take care of children de.
Yet i am always thinking, is her only grandson why she cant treasure family life?
I cant force people to think the same way as me as not all people are not the same.
I cant expec much lo.
Well hope she is good all the way and not revert back the old ways.
i am sad to see my sister behave this way. She changed!!!!!!!
I duno the sudden change but i know it is no good and she is not herself when i saw her last night. I dun want her to changed just because she has too much free time now as its holiday. She should learnt to treasure things which are before her eyes, but she is still young. We cant expect much but ....
I dont want her to folo my steps which i think is bad but i dont regret la, =]
HDB called me yesterday and i was =] =]
They say about the queue etc la, in my heart i was thinking if they will call me but all this depend on lucks much more then hoping.
Seriously i keep thinking about the house etc haha, i dream too much this is the way i am behaving like 4 years ago when i am supposed to get the tampines house, i hope i really can get lo.
I have taken doen the price and unit haha. Really hope i can get the house. I wanan move.
=]
I was standing and suddenly i EMO again, thinking about my life all this years.
Last time i might not have to work and i got house, money and very thing that i can think of but not love & care. Yet now is the opposite, everything have to be done slowly but i get love & care that i yearn for.
Every morning, i dont have to wake up very early to change Son or make milk for hima s honey and his mum will be doing, i can tucked myself to bed until like 8am then i wake up.
Then i woke up, mostly i will have my breakfast prepared for me and ready.
I will slowly get myself to work.
Yes, at nights, now i might have to take public transport and its kinda long and sometimes its tiring as i have a long day at work. Tired =[
I was thinking earlier, why did i grumble so much when my happiness is right infront of my eyes, yet i dont treasure.
Human are like this i guess.
My mum is extremly good this 2 weeks too, Yesterday she brought son to cut his hair etc, mae dinner.
She is nice and yet sometimes she make me hate her yet love her as there is a man who is disturbing our family.
He is someone who steped in and she changed till like this.
i thought she will change after last year, yes awhile... After that the same again.
=[
I was thinking sometimes i cant blame her ba, she likes freedom & life which dont need to take care of children de.
Yet i am always thinking, is her only grandson why she cant treasure family life?
I cant force people to think the same way as me as not all people are not the same.
I cant expec much lo.
Well hope she is good all the way and not revert back the old ways.
i am sad to see my sister behave this way. She changed!!!!!!!
I duno the sudden change but i know it is no good and she is not herself when i saw her last night. I dun want her to changed just because she has too much free time now as its holiday. She should learnt to treasure things which are before her eyes, but she is still young. We cant expect much but ....
I dont want her to folo my steps which i think is bad but i dont regret la, =]
HDB called me yesterday and i was =] =]
They say about the queue etc la, in my heart i was thinking if they will call me but all this depend on lucks much more then hoping.
Seriously i keep thinking about the house etc haha, i dream too much this is the way i am behaving like 4 years ago when i am supposed to get the tampines house, i hope i really can get lo.
I have taken doen the price and unit haha. Really hope i can get the house. I wanan move.
=]
Friday, October 10, 2008
Scared
Scared as i will be going to Gleneagles later at 12 to do my pap smear. After hearing what Maggie say i think i should be firm and do it. Not wait till it too late then maybe i will die and nobody will know the reason also.
I am really scare, everytime i go look for Doc Chong, i feel scared!!!!!
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After i finished the treatment in his clinic everytime, i will be very scared that he will call my HP as if he call means that something is WRONG.
i always hope that he rather dont call. Just mail me the report.
Please pray for me that everything will be smoothly as planned.
Just received a call from Isaac Music school, they said that my Giro deduction is not successful & i will have to made payment this Sunday while he have class. I guess so as i never saw the deduction in my account statement. We are going to be alone tomorrow haha, Honey is busy with work so i shll have to go shopping with Isaac alone lo. To shop for his stationery as my this very clever son, left his pencil case in school after his class and ended up the blur me did not know about it untill last Sunday class, Pencil case missing lo. =]
Have to check his bag already.
My this son is not paying attention to me when he is engrossed in his cartoon or toys.
I find it sould not be this way as he is growing and learning.
I really need to limit his cartoon time as he really dont like to study and do his work. He rather watch cartoon.
My mum keep saying it is bad, i think so.
The experts claim that, when children are below 7,t hey should play all they want as after they go to primary school, they wont have time to play anymore.
I agreed, but they should learn more when they are in pre school i think, so they wont have a hard time catching up when they are in Primary 1.
Yesterday, honey pop me a question and i was liked....
The whole thing is Isaac is born in December so he is so called bad date 1 year from his current age la.
Then honey asked me, Next year Son study what level already har?
I said K1 lo, then he exclaimed with his big eyes.
So fast meh, not K3?
I was like, wanted to slap his face haha.
In Singapore, where got K3?
OMG =]
i explained to him lo.
By right Son should be 4 years old this year.
Next year is 5 already ma, but because he is born in Dec so he will only be offically 5 in Dec.
2 more months, my son will be officially 4 haha, but Jan he is already 5 years old.
Times flies so fast, without realising, son going to be 5 no more small baby already haha.
Seriously if you asked me if i have any regrets giving birth to him. I have non.
Seriously, i felt he is the love, joy and everything that the god gave me, this is nothing that i can have compared to what ever result i have gained all this year. Nothing can be compared to my precious.
Yes he can be naughty, dont listen to me.
Overall, he is my pride, my joy.
I will never let anything happen to him.
I love you son.
Emo agian..
haha, recently always like that like to any how think. hais...
I was never like that before dont know why suddenly like that. Zzz
Son will/ can join the piano class in Dec already.
I am excited haha.
Seeing my son learn Piano...
Like i always dream.
I dont care if i have to spend less every month due to his classes but i need to understand what i have been doing his purely for his benifits in future.
I dont want him to walk the path i have chose.
He need to be a carrer man in future when he grow up regards weather he still care about me when he have a new girl friend or so.
I was sad also to see that my family is not complete.
I mean my own family.
Everybody is busy with their own things.
There is no more warmth anymore.
I sometimes hope how good would it be if i can go back to the age of 7 or 8 till like 10 years old?
My family is close, warmth can be felt without saying but now.
NO
There are always a cause for certain things to take place but we cant fully blame the person.
If the person do not start, i guess today our family might not be like this.
I went back home yesterday, mum was alone at home with Isaac. Sister And dad not around.
It is quiet.
We had dinner together then honey came to fetch me.
The time is 8plus yet dad n sister is not at home.
I can feel the loneliess in her but some how she will get over it as she will get to go out with her "frens" and for that moment she will forget about us like how she used to.
Sometimes i feel my mum is the best woman in this world then sometimes i dont.
Sometimes i hate her.
Sometimes i love her.
I love the warmth in home, yet i cant get, over at honey place it is filled with it all times althought all people are working.
My mum and sister are someone who wont realised that someone is caring for them. that iswhy sometimes i called them selfish.
There are times when i am really angry with them as i needed help yet i cant get any cas they want the times to do their own thing.
I always angry because, i am your daughter n sister, you dont help me who is going to help me right?
I have too much to say already i guess, it can never finished de la.
They dont realised it because they are not the one, and they dont put themselves in others shoes. I will know how it feel as i observed this rule.
Well like the chinese always say,
"A kind of rice can rare different types of people"
This is true thou.
Well i just hope mum will be nice all this way not just for the past few days when she have no place to go them i/son is the one to Pei her. Then when she have time & place to go, me & son out of the picture again.
I seriously hope what i said will not happen and it is not the way i think.
Waiting for 11 plus to take bus NO 7 to Gleneagles, feeling EMO and scared.
Honey i am scare.
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I am really scare, everytime i go look for Doc Chong, i feel scared!!!!!
=[
After i finished the treatment in his clinic everytime, i will be very scared that he will call my HP as if he call means that something is WRONG.
i always hope that he rather dont call. Just mail me the report.
Please pray for me that everything will be smoothly as planned.
Just received a call from Isaac Music school, they said that my Giro deduction is not successful & i will have to made payment this Sunday while he have class. I guess so as i never saw the deduction in my account statement. We are going to be alone tomorrow haha, Honey is busy with work so i shll have to go shopping with Isaac alone lo. To shop for his stationery as my this very clever son, left his pencil case in school after his class and ended up the blur me did not know about it untill last Sunday class, Pencil case missing lo. =]
Have to check his bag already.
My this son is not paying attention to me when he is engrossed in his cartoon or toys.
I find it sould not be this way as he is growing and learning.
I really need to limit his cartoon time as he really dont like to study and do his work. He rather watch cartoon.
My mum keep saying it is bad, i think so.
The experts claim that, when children are below 7,t hey should play all they want as after they go to primary school, they wont have time to play anymore.
I agreed, but they should learn more when they are in pre school i think, so they wont have a hard time catching up when they are in Primary 1.
Yesterday, honey pop me a question and i was liked....
The whole thing is Isaac is born in December so he is so called bad date 1 year from his current age la.
Then honey asked me, Next year Son study what level already har?
I said K1 lo, then he exclaimed with his big eyes.
So fast meh, not K3?
I was like, wanted to slap his face haha.
In Singapore, where got K3?
OMG =]
i explained to him lo.
By right Son should be 4 years old this year.
Next year is 5 already ma, but because he is born in Dec so he will only be offically 5 in Dec.
2 more months, my son will be officially 4 haha, but Jan he is already 5 years old.
Times flies so fast, without realising, son going to be 5 no more small baby already haha.
Seriously if you asked me if i have any regrets giving birth to him. I have non.
Seriously, i felt he is the love, joy and everything that the god gave me, this is nothing that i can have compared to what ever result i have gained all this year. Nothing can be compared to my precious.
Yes he can be naughty, dont listen to me.
Overall, he is my pride, my joy.
I will never let anything happen to him.
I love you son.
Emo agian..
haha, recently always like that like to any how think. hais...
I was never like that before dont know why suddenly like that. Zzz
Son will/ can join the piano class in Dec already.
I am excited haha.
Seeing my son learn Piano...
Like i always dream.
I dont care if i have to spend less every month due to his classes but i need to understand what i have been doing his purely for his benifits in future.
I dont want him to walk the path i have chose.
He need to be a carrer man in future when he grow up regards weather he still care about me when he have a new girl friend or so.
I was sad also to see that my family is not complete.
I mean my own family.
Everybody is busy with their own things.
There is no more warmth anymore.
I sometimes hope how good would it be if i can go back to the age of 7 or 8 till like 10 years old?
My family is close, warmth can be felt without saying but now.
NO
There are always a cause for certain things to take place but we cant fully blame the person.
If the person do not start, i guess today our family might not be like this.
I went back home yesterday, mum was alone at home with Isaac. Sister And dad not around.
It is quiet.
We had dinner together then honey came to fetch me.
The time is 8plus yet dad n sister is not at home.
I can feel the loneliess in her but some how she will get over it as she will get to go out with her "frens" and for that moment she will forget about us like how she used to.
Sometimes i feel my mum is the best woman in this world then sometimes i dont.
Sometimes i hate her.
Sometimes i love her.
I love the warmth in home, yet i cant get, over at honey place it is filled with it all times althought all people are working.
My mum and sister are someone who wont realised that someone is caring for them. that iswhy sometimes i called them selfish.
There are times when i am really angry with them as i needed help yet i cant get any cas they want the times to do their own thing.
I always angry because, i am your daughter n sister, you dont help me who is going to help me right?
I have too much to say already i guess, it can never finished de la.
They dont realised it because they are not the one, and they dont put themselves in others shoes. I will know how it feel as i observed this rule.
Well like the chinese always say,
"A kind of rice can rare different types of people"
This is true thou.
Well i just hope mum will be nice all this way not just for the past few days when she have no place to go them i/son is the one to Pei her. Then when she have time & place to go, me & son out of the picture again.
I seriously hope what i said will not happen and it is not the way i think.
Waiting for 11 plus to take bus NO 7 to Gleneagles, feeling EMO and scared.
Honey i am scare.
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Thursday, October 9, 2008
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Sian yesterday Honey scold me as i am lazy.
I was sad and i went to sleep without talking to him, this morning, he left for work & text me.
Honey: "I'm Sorry, i shouted and scold you as i am really tired"
Me: "You are forgiven"
Haha, this morning while i am still sleeping, i heard alot of noise haha, i was the last one to wake up as usual...
His mum changed son,w anted to drive him to school, honey said no. LOL
Scare she is tired. As she has to work later till 10 pm at night.
I text honey and say that if she wants to fectch son to school, then i shall pay her some money already, how can just let her fetch him for free, she dont owe me anything also.
Yesterday on the way home i heard 2 bad news.
After i heard the news, i was kinda shocked & scared.
I shall not mentioned much about the incident, at least i sms maggie then i felt better.
Thanks dear.
=]
I have to go and do my pap smear tonight if honey is early as i will be going back to my mum place for dinner first.
i have started my diet since Tuesday, hopefully it will take effect.
I am taking in very little food already haha, a few mouthful then i will feel full.
Maybe that is good so i can slim down.
I really gain alot o weight recently, haha, maybe i am lazy that why la.
I wonder how is my HDB news... Excited and might be sad later. If i dont win la.
I really hope to win the house, this way, i can wake up later and it might be easier for me also as well as for honey.
The journey need not be long, near my mum, office but a little far for honey but he drives so still ok. Worth it rather then now.
But if i get my new house, i will have to watch my spending as all are talking about money.
Seriously i really hope to get the house ASAP...
I wanted to own Hamster haha, going to talk to honey later haha, he sure say NO, i think.
Maybe i shall only buy 1 or 2 haha, i guess they wont stink bah, they are cute and need no bathing also, cas got the powder.
I text Daniel yesterday & tell him i am really sorry that woofer is still at his palce after so long and the date i told him have long pass. he is not angry and tell me not to worry as he know i am trying my best already. thanks dear for the understanding.
=]
now i am at work typing all this and suddenly, I MISS u... honey
Haha, corny u should say me but i rarely say i miss him, it is him usually the one who text me that.
Recently i felt closely to honey more then often like the older times, wonder what is wrong with my emotions. I get sad easily, wanted to cry out of sudden, think about alot of things or worry about things that might or not happen and get sad and irritated.
i need to control i guess.
I am really sad for certain reason but there are always 2 person in my life to cheer me up.
*Honey & Son*
Thanks for been there for my up & downs.
I love you both.
I seriously need to quit smoking. My health is not in a good shape, i am scare as when a person who dont smoke also will get it, what does it implies?
START TO QUIT SMOKING...
i need to be more motivated & focus in all the things i said.
I love my dears.....
=]
I was sad and i went to sleep without talking to him, this morning, he left for work & text me.
Honey: "I'm Sorry, i shouted and scold you as i am really tired"
Me: "You are forgiven"
Haha, this morning while i am still sleeping, i heard alot of noise haha, i was the last one to wake up as usual...
His mum changed son,w anted to drive him to school, honey said no. LOL
Scare she is tired. As she has to work later till 10 pm at night.
I text honey and say that if she wants to fectch son to school, then i shall pay her some money already, how can just let her fetch him for free, she dont owe me anything also.
Yesterday on the way home i heard 2 bad news.
After i heard the news, i was kinda shocked & scared.
I shall not mentioned much about the incident, at least i sms maggie then i felt better.
Thanks dear.
=]
I have to go and do my pap smear tonight if honey is early as i will be going back to my mum place for dinner first.
i have started my diet since Tuesday, hopefully it will take effect.
I am taking in very little food already haha, a few mouthful then i will feel full.
Maybe that is good so i can slim down.
I really gain alot o weight recently, haha, maybe i am lazy that why la.
I wonder how is my HDB news... Excited and might be sad later. If i dont win la.
I really hope to win the house, this way, i can wake up later and it might be easier for me also as well as for honey.
The journey need not be long, near my mum, office but a little far for honey but he drives so still ok. Worth it rather then now.
But if i get my new house, i will have to watch my spending as all are talking about money.
Seriously i really hope to get the house ASAP...
I wanted to own Hamster haha, going to talk to honey later haha, he sure say NO, i think.
Maybe i shall only buy 1 or 2 haha, i guess they wont stink bah, they are cute and need no bathing also, cas got the powder.
I text Daniel yesterday & tell him i am really sorry that woofer is still at his palce after so long and the date i told him have long pass. he is not angry and tell me not to worry as he know i am trying my best already. thanks dear for the understanding.
=]
now i am at work typing all this and suddenly, I MISS u... honey
Haha, corny u should say me but i rarely say i miss him, it is him usually the one who text me that.
Recently i felt closely to honey more then often like the older times, wonder what is wrong with my emotions. I get sad easily, wanted to cry out of sudden, think about alot of things or worry about things that might or not happen and get sad and irritated.
i need to control i guess.
I am really sad for certain reason but there are always 2 person in my life to cheer me up.
*Honey & Son*
Thanks for been there for my up & downs.
I love you both.
I seriously need to quit smoking. My health is not in a good shape, i am scare as when a person who dont smoke also will get it, what does it implies?
START TO QUIT SMOKING...
i need to be more motivated & focus in all the things i said.
I love my dears.....
=]
Monday, October 6, 2008
Back from Genting
I am back.
I am not in office today as i feel unwell.
Headache & lack of sleep i guess.
We took the bus on friday night at Goldenmill around 10.pm.
The bus timing is accurate and good thing is we dont have to wait really long so wont feel pekchey, once we got on the bus, i explore as usual.
There is no toilet in the bus unlike the one that i took like many years ago. Haha
Then the bus travel by Tuas, there was no jam la, but the bus was too many till it jam for like 30 to 40 minutes lo. Then after which we finally reached the custom (SG) got to drop and scan passport la, was fast as we are using the scanner for only SG passport holder lo. Then off we go toilet break, wait for bus and set off for Malaysia custom.
Not really long jam lo.
After a while finally got all the passport thing settle. We were prepared to set off to Malaysia.
We are dropping off at Kl as we gonna pray first then after that we are heading to Genting straight by Taxi.
All the way from JB to KL, the highway are dark with no lights at all, except the buses are decorated till like christmas tree, colourful etc haha, It looks scary if you are unsure of the road or are travelling alone. You wont know what is gonna happen.
I asked Honey, do you dare, haha, he say NO
Usually, he is the daring type unlike me....
Never mind we were trying to catch some wink as once we reached Kl we wont be ablr to sleep till like the next day 9plus in PM ok.
Yes we reached KL in like 5 hours times with interval breaks & etc, shall not mentioned as we have to be eatiung Vegertrain so nothing much we can eat. =]
Once we reached KL bus terminal, there are alot of cab drivers that wanna fetch us to the location but their face look so scary like they dont even know where is the place at all and we are unsure if we are going to take their cab, luckyily there is a chinese driver that approached me and i told his dad about it and surprising he agree to my cabbie haha, safe i guess.
The Journet to the temple is not really long la, maybe around less then 30 minues as the road is not heavy as it is only 4am ++
We reached the temle entrance (ROAD).... So many people. There are alot of people who knew about this temple i guess so it is flooded mostly youngster & elderly.
We pray and them off we set of for Genting already...
Reached there around 5plus to 6am.
Eat breaskfast, check in luggage then take queue number and off we set off to the casino.,
haha, my eyes can barely open man i tell u.,
I earned points with my card playing the Jackpot & got myself i free room. Might be going again in October.
I tell you, his family are hard core gamblers..... Only eat 3 meals that all and they are seen seating on the table as long as they can man,
I fell asleep many times while playing & waiting as i ahve notreali slept for like 2 whole days with interval 3hours plus the most.
It is nice having time to myself as son is not around, so without sleeping for much i dont really feel pek chey, but my mind was on him most of the times. Like, he eat already, bathe, brush teeth, miss me etc.
My son is my joy.
We left Genting on Sunday morning 10.30am, once we hit the bus, we prepared and we ZZZZZ till there are stops etc la, elsewise we will be sleeping.
Today i got basic theroy test again and i am really sick to study as i failed so many times already. Was actually thinking of going to Sushi King haha, i missed the Sotong la, This time when i go Genting did not eat due to some reason haha.
Well, i should be going to learn my basic and also wait for Honey to be back then i need to go see doctor already.
Sian tired to work & i have no moral at all.
Help me please, i need to be activated as before.
Love u
I am not in office today as i feel unwell.
Headache & lack of sleep i guess.
We took the bus on friday night at Goldenmill around 10.pm.
The bus timing is accurate and good thing is we dont have to wait really long so wont feel pekchey, once we got on the bus, i explore as usual.
There is no toilet in the bus unlike the one that i took like many years ago. Haha
Then the bus travel by Tuas, there was no jam la, but the bus was too many till it jam for like 30 to 40 minutes lo. Then after which we finally reached the custom (SG) got to drop and scan passport la, was fast as we are using the scanner for only SG passport holder lo. Then off we go toilet break, wait for bus and set off for Malaysia custom.
Not really long jam lo.
After a while finally got all the passport thing settle. We were prepared to set off to Malaysia.
We are dropping off at Kl as we gonna pray first then after that we are heading to Genting straight by Taxi.
All the way from JB to KL, the highway are dark with no lights at all, except the buses are decorated till like christmas tree, colourful etc haha, It looks scary if you are unsure of the road or are travelling alone. You wont know what is gonna happen.
I asked Honey, do you dare, haha, he say NO
Usually, he is the daring type unlike me....
Never mind we were trying to catch some wink as once we reached Kl we wont be ablr to sleep till like the next day 9plus in PM ok.
Yes we reached KL in like 5 hours times with interval breaks & etc, shall not mentioned as we have to be eatiung Vegertrain so nothing much we can eat. =]
Once we reached KL bus terminal, there are alot of cab drivers that wanna fetch us to the location but their face look so scary like they dont even know where is the place at all and we are unsure if we are going to take their cab, luckyily there is a chinese driver that approached me and i told his dad about it and surprising he agree to my cabbie haha, safe i guess.
The Journet to the temple is not really long la, maybe around less then 30 minues as the road is not heavy as it is only 4am ++
We reached the temle entrance (ROAD).... So many people. There are alot of people who knew about this temple i guess so it is flooded mostly youngster & elderly.
We pray and them off we set of for Genting already...
Reached there around 5plus to 6am.
Eat breaskfast, check in luggage then take queue number and off we set off to the casino.,
haha, my eyes can barely open man i tell u.,
I earned points with my card playing the Jackpot & got myself i free room. Might be going again in October.
I tell you, his family are hard core gamblers..... Only eat 3 meals that all and they are seen seating on the table as long as they can man,
I fell asleep many times while playing & waiting as i ahve notreali slept for like 2 whole days with interval 3hours plus the most.
It is nice having time to myself as son is not around, so without sleeping for much i dont really feel pek chey, but my mind was on him most of the times. Like, he eat already, bathe, brush teeth, miss me etc.
My son is my joy.
We left Genting on Sunday morning 10.30am, once we hit the bus, we prepared and we ZZZZZ till there are stops etc la, elsewise we will be sleeping.
Today i got basic theroy test again and i am really sick to study as i failed so many times already. Was actually thinking of going to Sushi King haha, i missed the Sotong la, This time when i go Genting did not eat due to some reason haha.
Well, i should be going to learn my basic and also wait for Honey to be back then i need to go see doctor already.
Sian tired to work & i have no moral at all.
Help me please, i need to be activated as before.
Love u
Friday, October 3, 2008
PERSONALITY TEST The Dalai Lama said read it to see if it works for you.
Very interesting.
Just 4 questions and the answers will surprise you.
Do not cheat by looking up the answers.
The mind is like a parachute, it works best when it is opened.
This is fun to do, but you have to follow the instructions very closely.
Do not cheat.
MAKE A WISH BEFORE BEGINNING THE TEST!!
A Warning! Answer the questions as you go along.
There are only four questions and if you see them all before finishing, you will not have honest
results.
Go down slowly and do each exercise as you scroll down.
Don't look ahead.
Get pencil and paper to write your answers as you go along.
You will need it at the end.
This is an honest questionnaire which will tell you a lot about your true self.
Give an answer for each item.
Put the following 5 animals in the order of your preference.
Cow Tiger Sheep Horse Pig (Horse, Pig, Sheep, Tiger, Cow)
Write one word that describes each one of the following:
Dog Cat Rat Coffee Sea
Think of someone (who also knows you and is important to you) that you can relate them to the
following colours (do not repeat your answer twice. Name just one person for each colour.) (Zen-Yellow)
Yellow Orange Red White Green (Zen-Yellow, April-Orange, Mei- Red, Myself- White & Son- Green)
Finally, write down your favourite number and your favourite day of the week.......................
(7, Friday)
Finished?
Please be sure that your answers are what you REALLY WANT.
Look at the interpretations below: (but first before continuing, repeat your wish.)
This will define your priorities in your life.
Cow Signifies CAREER
Tiger Signifies PRIDE
Sheep Signifies LOVE
Horse Signifies FAMILY
Pig Signifies MONEY
Your description of dog implies your own personality.
Your description of cat implies the personality of your partner.
Your description of rat implies the personality of your enemies.
Your description of coffee is how you interpret sex.
Your description of the sea implies your own life.
Yellow: Someone you will never forget
Orange: Someone you consider your true friend
Red: Someone that you really love
White: Your twin soul
Green: Someone that you will remember for the rest of your life
This the test i did jut now and i realised it is so true, haha, see my answer in RED. I really never see the answer.
Going Genting again tonight.
My back still hurts so much after eating and taking jab....
My mum & sister treat me to eat at East Coast, was happy as i apprecaited their love for me haha.
Another thing that make me boiled is my DAD..... He is hais, duno what to said or what the lady fed him or his eyes spoilt/ blind/old what ever i can think of. He is too much. After i thought thru, it or we cant totally blame him for all this to happen. If someone dont do it, i believe, people will never changed. Only one thing at the end of the day, we dont hurt people feelings then we wont have to feel it this way too.
**** Update on my birthday.
=[
Was supposed to have seafood dinner at HarbourFront right?
Never go at all lo. As Honey made me so mad & angry & my back was killing me liek hell. I told him i wanted to go home and SLEEP. Yes.. SLEEP
Cancel my dinner lo, then i took a very diffcult nap which is pain, pain ,pain
Woke up at 6.30pm, went to the kitchen. Saw his dad, he asked me how is my back, at the moment, i wanted to cry as somone really cared?
I say NO, he asked me go see doctor and take a jab might feel better.
I went as told with the annoying honey la. The jab did not take effect immediately, only like the next day with popping lots of pain killer then the pain are lesser. now it has been like 4 to 5 days, the pain is still there, i need the help with painkiller.
During the days, when my back hurts so pain, i have wanted to cry out as it is really unbearable, but somehow or rather, i did not. The tears are jammed up in my eyes duct. =]
Or maybe i tried to pull a stong act? I dont know but i just really hope that this pain will not come back anymore as i really cant stand it and it makes me so bad tempered and cant sleep or move well.
At one point, i am really scared that maybe i will die straight away?
Choy =]
I might want to go take the cancer viral preventations jab, it cost about $200 per jab for 3 times.
If it can save a life why not, since the money i will still waste & spent on things that i might not need, will get the report from Doc Christ & see how it goes after i come back from genting.
BTW, i m having the basic theroy again on Monday, cant remember how many times i have already failed
Shameful haha
Very interesting.
Just 4 questions and the answers will surprise you.
Do not cheat by looking up the answers.
The mind is like a parachute, it works best when it is opened.
This is fun to do, but you have to follow the instructions very closely.
Do not cheat.
MAKE A WISH BEFORE BEGINNING THE TEST!!
A Warning! Answer the questions as you go along.
There are only four questions and if you see them all before finishing, you will not have honest
results.
Go down slowly and do each exercise as you scroll down.
Don't look ahead.
Get pencil and paper to write your answers as you go along.
You will need it at the end.
This is an honest questionnaire which will tell you a lot about your true self.
Give an answer for each item.
Put the following 5 animals in the order of your preference.
Cow Tiger Sheep Horse Pig (Horse, Pig, Sheep, Tiger, Cow)
Write one word that describes each one of the following:
Dog Cat Rat Coffee Sea
Think of someone (who also knows you and is important to you) that you can relate them to the
following colours (do not repeat your answer twice. Name just one person for each colour.) (Zen-Yellow)
Yellow Orange Red White Green (Zen-Yellow, April-Orange, Mei- Red, Myself- White & Son- Green)
Finally, write down your favourite number and your favourite day of the week.......................
(7, Friday)
Finished?
Please be sure that your answers are what you REALLY WANT.
Look at the interpretations below: (but first before continuing, repeat your wish.)
This will define your priorities in your life.
Cow Signifies CAREER
Tiger Signifies PRIDE
Sheep Signifies LOVE
Horse Signifies FAMILY
Pig Signifies MONEY
Your description of dog implies your own personality.
Your description of cat implies the personality of your partner.
Your description of rat implies the personality of your enemies.
Your description of coffee is how you interpret sex.
Your description of the sea implies your own life.
Yellow: Someone you will never forget
Orange: Someone you consider your true friend
Red: Someone that you really love
White: Your twin soul
Green: Someone that you will remember for the rest of your life
This the test i did jut now and i realised it is so true, haha, see my answer in RED. I really never see the answer.
Going Genting again tonight.
My back still hurts so much after eating and taking jab....
My mum & sister treat me to eat at East Coast, was happy as i apprecaited their love for me haha.
Another thing that make me boiled is my DAD..... He is hais, duno what to said or what the lady fed him or his eyes spoilt/ blind/old what ever i can think of. He is too much. After i thought thru, it or we cant totally blame him for all this to happen. If someone dont do it, i believe, people will never changed. Only one thing at the end of the day, we dont hurt people feelings then we wont have to feel it this way too.
**** Update on my birthday.
=[
Was supposed to have seafood dinner at HarbourFront right?
Never go at all lo. As Honey made me so mad & angry & my back was killing me liek hell. I told him i wanted to go home and SLEEP. Yes.. SLEEP
Cancel my dinner lo, then i took a very diffcult nap which is pain, pain ,pain
Woke up at 6.30pm, went to the kitchen. Saw his dad, he asked me how is my back, at the moment, i wanted to cry as somone really cared?
I say NO, he asked me go see doctor and take a jab might feel better.
I went as told with the annoying honey la. The jab did not take effect immediately, only like the next day with popping lots of pain killer then the pain are lesser. now it has been like 4 to 5 days, the pain is still there, i need the help with painkiller.
During the days, when my back hurts so pain, i have wanted to cry out as it is really unbearable, but somehow or rather, i did not. The tears are jammed up in my eyes duct. =]
Or maybe i tried to pull a stong act? I dont know but i just really hope that this pain will not come back anymore as i really cant stand it and it makes me so bad tempered and cant sleep or move well.
At one point, i am really scared that maybe i will die straight away?
Choy =]
I might want to go take the cancer viral preventations jab, it cost about $200 per jab for 3 times.
If it can save a life why not, since the money i will still waste & spent on things that i might not need, will get the report from Doc Christ & see how it goes after i come back from genting.
BTW, i m having the basic theroy again on Monday, cant remember how many times i have already failed
Shameful haha
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