Tuesday

Today is already Tuesday which means 2 more days it's my birthday.... times flies.... I'm 27 this Thursday..

Still remember the days when I was just 16... Birthday means??? DRUNK WITHOUT FAIL. now birthday??? Quiet dinner etc...

Hubby is back from shanghai already.. Nice!!!

Sometimes I think couple need to be away while an they generally treasure each other more? Eg: more caring and loving actions etc I dunno about others. Well that happen to me

Okok.. Thursday my birthday and Friday I'm departing for hong kong an will be back only on Monday.

This year I have travel quite alot. Last time I used to think traveling is a waste of time and money but I'm seriously hocked to this and I even told him that I'm planning to go t least 6 times a year trip and he nearly fell off haha..

Eg:
1. Wedding Ann
2. Valentine day
3. His birthday
4. Mine birthday
5&6. Isaac and Kyden birthday

Just nice right? 6 times haha..
Too random but I like it

I mentioned I bleah my hair? Ok it's nice but sometimes it kinda stupid As it's untamed!!! Horrible!!!

I invested in like so many kinds of hair mask lo lucky it do help abit

Going to stock up my hair conditioner from HK this time the last tome I only brought 8. M going to buy like maybe 20 bottles as it's god damn cheap cam cum nice to use. I dunno la for me it works wonder. Think he gg to scream if I lug bck 20 bottles bt nt like he nv buy for me before haha!!!

Ok back to my kids...

Kyden hair Is so long.. So cute I like it but alot are asking me to cut or trim them. The answer is NO ONE CAN TOUCH HIS HAIR!
yes no one..

Haha.. See my Facebook u will know la..
Ever-since his last admission to Kkh, I realized he gained weight back.. Unlike th other time he was all boney... So skinny!
Sad ;(

Now his weight is bck and his face abit more chubby I'm happy mummy!!

He is still on breastfeeding twice a full one and the rest is as and when he's happy lo.. Like latching for comfort etc.. I'm happy I'm still BF for 13 months already!! Jiayou and continued!

My goal is till he dun wan me anymore lo! Haha... He will cling to me when he got the craving la after math he will push me away lo haha and search for his toys etc! Sad!!!

Isaac le..
Hmm he's getting more and more cheeky lo.. Haha sometimes his words stunned me so much that I'm speechless.. He is a kid thy expresses out an learn thru visual and sound rather then writing therefore his writing skill is not good but his talking WONDERFUL I tell u.. Non stop haha

He's going primary one in 2011, hope he will be able to adapt and learn well.. Y I say so bcas he's still my baby boy forever.. I scare he can't this and that etc la!

Called me paranoid etc but I'm still worrying all e times!

His birthday is coming in dec!!

Last week went to.taka and got him two set of toys and play an hia fav ice cream. He happy I'm happy!!!

Loved family outing although it's was a short one but overall I'm happy I always loved this

Maybe my childhood memory was happy but it was cut short due to certain issues thus I will not allow this to happen to my kids nor family lo..

Blogging while I'm otw to Wk.. Y no pic here.. All in FB

this blogpress sucks lo.. Can't even load a damm pic.. Happening to anyone? I reali dunno.. Pls let me know if this is happening to u too le.. So I know I'm not the only one.. I have not paid for this apps that y???

;)

Gtg

Eyes damm sleepy darn but still got to work what a day

Bye


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Friday night

Was supposed to meet Germaine but I decided not to go else that Mr Ang will start his nagging power I buay tahan!!!

He's now in plane OTW back to Singapore le.. Reach tml 5plus am ba...

This time he went for one month..

During this period I went out for 3 days and slep at around 2 each day...totally shag!!!
;(

I think alot this week..life is sometimes chosen for you already. Decision etc is done by me.. What else can I say or do..

Just hope for better life lo. Cannot envy much.. The more u does the hardest it hit u and it's just get painful.

I should learn to let go and not reminiscences all the while, it's ain't getting any better after-all..

Life's short and you only live once.. What is reap is what you sow..

Life's get harder but u still have to face it no matter what.
I'm emoing I think..

Haha I finally bleah my hair after 3 years.. Damage my new roots with bleaching... But I love it.. It makes me look younger I guess..

Kyden is asleep beside me now. Slight crying in between slp.

Isaac is drinking milk cum falling asleep

Everytime I look at my both kids, I feel at ease and I totally never regret.

He say once he's bk he will talk to them being biased hopefully he does as I talked to him abt this and he say he sense it too...

Well being apart for awhile is generally doing a married couple good as you can talk and say what u feel isn't it good.

Being married is like clapping hand. U need 2 hand to clasp by using one hams it's useless...

Learn to treasure ur loved one around u..

Dunno what I'm blogging too..

Work generally is good bt there's an increase of workload bt not pay.. FML

DEFINITELY need to buck ip I'm lazing too long le..

Going holiday next Friday.. I'm awaiting.. Birthday is on Thursday..

I'm older by one yr again..

Pls bring me back to
18 can?? Pls... I dun wanna grow old!!!

Going to zzz soon I think as I drank cough syrup!! Coughing is draggy..

Painted my nails with funny colour.. His mum say AIYO!!!!

Going F1 tml with Isaac n him but not Kyden as I felt it's too young and I wanna spend bonding time with him too...

I cannot neglect Isaac de lo. I feel that I love Isaac more then Kyden ...

Is it bcas I take care of Isaac myself and also I feel that they are biased that's why I generally draw myself away from Kyden?

I hate the way I'm feeling now. It's not good at all... Bcas Kyden my baby too.. Hmm

I told him abt this n he feels it too..
Well!!!

Time to change...

Time to slp too..

Bye

Blogpress still sucks!!!! Can't load picture at all. Darn!!!



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Update

Lantern festival

New bleach hair since like donkey years ago.

haha i have not done so much liao lo since so long, ever since im pregnant and BFing haha.

I think i look nicer rather then in black but i should have rebond my hair it should be nicer, more tame and not like this now. So messy.... ESP after i awake.

Husband is in CHINA now for one month. Working, i told him I'm going out to meet my friend then he say AIYO!

Then i told him off, i haven went out like since how many months, days, years liao then he ZZZ!! Keep Quiet.

Better la, i can meet my GF haha....

But I'm so lazy la

Today i stick fake eyelash as i cant apply mascara as my eyelid are bruised as i over rub it lo sigh.

I keep thinking i look funny but my colleagues say I'm FINE. so i should be alright ba.

Updates on Kyden:

He is still latching on and also on formula milk at night.

He eat Solid now. Porridge, rice with soup. Biscuit, fruits and practically everything.

As long as he see Isaac or whoever eating then he will want to eat haha.

He like to eat from other people plate rather then his own.

He can crawl and stand on his own with support, but cant walk la.

He can grab things with his hand and finger.

He keep making funny noises and follow what others do.

He recognise people.

He likes to go out for walk every evening, if never go out he will be crying and crying non stop.

He know who he can go to and throw temper.

He knows where we placed the cane.

He hates stranger.

He like to latch on me for comfort at midnight esp.

Overall my baby is fine after the illness for that terrible week. Hope he is better and wont fall sick again.

Love you baby and happy advance 13 month this coming 23 Sep. which is on Thursday and I'm going to bring him go Genting in October.

:)

Isaac updates:

This silly boy of mine is so sweet to me la. No regrets giving birth to him lo, he thinks of me when hes in good mood and recently his appetite is good and better. I bring him out with me sometimes but there are times where he wants to stay home just to play and watch cartoon.

Buay Tahan..

He totally forget his studies sigh going to be very strict liao else he cant learn.

He loves Kyden but they fight!

(:

He always say he love me more then others. Bcas I'm doting him more then anyone else.

he is  my everything nothing else. Although  i love Kyden too la, But im loving Isaac more la. the bonding that i have with Isaac is so different from Kyden. Haha. Maybe bcas i take care of him myself rather then Kyden.

That why...

ILS are still with me now lo, their house is been rented out for 2 years bt i wonder after 2 years how they are going to move back or staying tog again.

They stay with me is nice la. but they are sometimes not convince when they are ard but i can go out to do my things easily la.

But there are pros and cons de la.

I'm at work now and I'm having serious Monday Blues.

Dunno what to blog lioa la.

Oh ya. Isaac Pri One Enrolment is on Nov 2.

So fast he is already 7 already, next year. SO fast I'm 7 years older, compare to last time haha....

7 years after i gave birth haha....

I'm old liao....

I love my kids...

My life...

♥ 说好的幸福呢 ♥

...

I dunno y.. A lot keep flashing back..thinking back once again.. How would it be if I were to choose that?

Sometimes a lot of thing can change ESP if you choose wrongly but it can't be helped.

What can u do? U don't expect others to say oh .. Poor thing etc

Got to bear with it and continued your life lo what else n pray that it gets better each time.

I hate this feeling.. Bcas I know it's not good. I know myself too well..

Should I say temptation is too hard to resist?

Hais....
I cannot do that I know it..

Please give me sone others motivation to do daily and focus on can?

I feel so lost..

Back to kids:
Kyden

He'd bk home.
Well but still skinny due to the last attack but hope he gain weight soon

Isaac
I found out he is not improving on his work and in actual fact he don't remember what his teacher taught him.

Anyone experiencing this too with kids?

His memory is superb good but when come to work he's lost..

Hmm pri 1 is just next year how would he cope I wonder.

Should I be stricter and no tv n games all the way? I need an advice man

Memories

Kyden are back from
Hospital..
All seems well now..

I keep thinking back this few days..
I felt bad while typing this la.

How would my life be now if I have not divorce and etc..

Would I be less tired? Happier? Richer? Satisfy?

I really dunno all I know is that I can only remember and think of the good and easy life that I hve that all..

Now I'm happy too.. Just that I'm not that easily contented with what I have? Whn problems occur?

I seriously dunno...

I need to stop ranting about all this unhappiness that I have man...

Else I dunno what's gonna happen

Path.. I choose I should face it no matter what happen and not blame others..

Kids.. Nah.. Never regret every single minute having them

Partners.. Haha... Secret

Well life still need to continue even hw unhappy ur. U can't just slp thru the day like in the past when ur unhappy. U have to think about ur kids too..

Ok a happy note..

Birthday near soon, sad to say a year older
Can I be 18 all The way?

Travelling in October 1.. Soon...
Not that excited Liao dunno why...

Planning Taiwan soon
Sure very long if going with him

Genting TBC

Isaac primary one orientation November 2.. Excited..

Too Random Liao la.. Will type a decent post later whn I rch Wk..

Btw I am super busy frm 9am yesterday till 930pm at Wk
To make up for the one week leave. Lucky my boss is kind and understanding enough else I dunno how to survive that lat week

Brb




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Kyden high fever

Was in Kkh the whole day of Monday...

We decided to take leave and bring Kyden to Kkh for doctor checkup as his cough and breathing is getting worst since last visit.

So the whole night if Sunday he's not sleeping well..
He keep waking up so I and him routine till he bring him over as the sarong was in that room and we fell aslp.
Lol

I woke up at 6plus after hearing Kyden cries.. Fed him medicine.. I went back to sleep while latching him till 8plus we prepare to go Kkh

We reach 930.. Went to check in etc... Seen one doc.. Dis blood test and nebuliser..
Went for Mac breakfast as we were waiting for result..

11.. Result out for blood test.. Nothing serious

So we do nebuliser and still it's not getting better.. Thus on spray and oxygen as he's lacking and it's not healthy...

We keep doing this till 3..
Then they say got to admit in Liao as it's low on oxygen..

Do u know wad time then we managed to go to the room since 3?
Near to 6..
WTF!!!

Am so angry that I scold the nurse therefore it speed up a bit otherwise I can't imagine what time man...damn!!!!

Finally we go to the room Liao lo..

Till now... Back to update soon..
Very shag..


Kyden was restless two day ago... Waking up in his sleep every 20-30 min..
I had to scratch his back, latch him, sing song or cradle him.
Today I did the same while in Kkh...




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Updates

Last week was not a good week...

Kyden, Isaac and him are all down with fever.

Now both of them recover except Kyden, His fever since Thursday till now have not dropped at all and he is also teething now..
I wonder is this the cause of it?
His temperature is always up very high at night esp.. and super grouchy and wake up alot of times making me so tired lo.
I rather sleep late then keep waking up to cather to him as this tires me more.

I see Kyden lik this i feel so sad lo as he slim down alot lo, cum now HFMD is on the run so scary...

Somemore he is a baby he cant talk or tell me what he wants just cry.. sometimes it just make me so angry at night as im really so so tired no choice i will shout at him la, but awhile nia la,..
haha

he is still not asleep now as im bloggin lo....
MIL is yao yao him inside sarong....


Tml gg to bring him to KKH again see why he like that therfore maybe i will only wk half day ba..
Kids sick is very tiring lo...

Kyden is very funny need me to scratch his back haha... when he cries or grouchy kaoz.. but he is funny la.

Lucky MIL and FIL is here to help me else i will die man.

WEnt to cut my hair today and fringe abit regret but never mind la will grow long de.

I also did eyeliner tattoo on my upper eyelid haha i find nice la but PAIN.

NO pain no gain ma hor..

Tml is wking day what a week to start with my kids sick..
Sch holiday for Isaac too but he cant go out with me alone as MIL and FIL gg Genting on Thur to Sun and he cant take any leave thus super boring...

Updating my iphone now and its lik one hour plus liao still not yet ready wa the H

Isaac is watching his cartoon now lo, Thoys Story 3.. just buy de...

Let him be ba since tml is school holiday...

So tired la,
Im waiting for him to bring me my bday present guess what... its a cupcoard i requested him to do for me de with the design and requirments tthat i want so i can put my things and arrange nicely haha.
Else always ful and my makeup etc all over.. very irritated.

So fast one yr older in another 24 days.. Gosh i wished i stay 18 forever....

Still rem last time when i wished to grow up faster to end club and etc.. how i wished i can turn back time and be young again..
Nevertheless i got 2 baobei to accompany me this yr and its gonna be a jyful one.

GTG

Kyden is still not asleep.. Faint.

Im FAINTING BEFORE HE DOES,.
:D