I am feeling so angry now.
I finally know the defination of SELFISH and LYING!
It is a kind of art taht human conserve in within themself and also they show when the time is ripe.
My coll, i finally seen thru her and i am really sad this time, i thought she change who knows it is not true. I am nice but times i think she really take me for granted and also not true to herself.
There is an incident which happen last nght and i dont wished to talked about it anymore. it kinda pissed me off.
I shall not be nice anymore. To anyone, except my FAMILY and KIDS.
Son made me so angry last night, he was not asleep even at 1am can u imagine as he say he is building his house with my pillow on bed, i was ZZZZ.....
Dots, next, he found a ball and claim that there is no one playing ball with him, hes SAD! No one kick and play throwing with him, then he went to maid, FAINT!
Told him that maid is asleep haha, he came back with a sad face.
=)
I sometimes wonder where he get all his energy from.
He sleep so late, wake up daily at 9 or 10am then go school then later at home play, sleep.
Haha how wonderful is it to be a kids life hor.
=)
I wished i can turned back time too liek last time when i was in Primary school and Secondary school.
Life was easy with no worries about $, anything.
Now i realised that why my mum and dad are so worried about me when i was a teenager and when i created trouble witht the law or school, they are the one who will be attending and supporting me when i think it is the right thing for me to do also.
Think back i am so SCARE that Isaac and BB will behave the same way as me and i worried about alot of other things too.
I know the hardship of being a MOTHER and parents as my mind is always filled with them althought i yearned for free time alone but then when i am out, i think of them, want to be home immediately.
Contradicting la, haha.
Mother is like that i think.
It has been very long time since i let my hair down not to said im pregnant now la, even when i am not, i have never thought of that le, haha, when my sister said im a MOUNTAIN TORTOISE already,. last time that is my hobby le, but i changed and stopped after i have Isaac, just naturally like that. No forcing nor anything de, it is a blessing i think, so i can be a better mother althought there are still people who thinks that i am not a good mother, or too young still dunno how to think, in fact i think so much that i sleep also think!
=)
Make me have sleepness night.
I think because my husband is a busy man with work and he cared, but not as much as before because of work thus there are alot of things that he have missed out and thus i need to fill him in and also do the FATHER part for him too!
Haha
I am a very busy woman OK!
There are times i am lazy too, as i am really tire but nevertheless, i tried my best in all i can fulfil in.
Last time i wasnt like that OK, i hack care let him do the job but now i know i cant as he is BUSY!
No choice one have to be hardworking then the other have to be a KPO like me haha, so this balance.
I told him that BB is out, he dont help me i will chase him out of the house.
Haha.
I told him the maid will make me angry and i confrimed that haha.
He told me see how.
Yesterday i told him i need a change of pants as im wet, he SHOCKED!
Jump up and asked me...
GG to deliver already?
His face turned Green haha.
I said no la.
Just common de haha
then he was back to normal like less then 1 min of freaking out. Oh man!!!!!!
Maid wasnt late this morning.
Good!
I am going to call on son later, this few days he never called me also lo. So sad!~
BB items almost all gotten already except clothings. There are fren who are giving me but i dont hve time to go collect as timing must depend on him de haha.
See how.
Excited to go Eling gal birthday this Saturday, make him took leave already.
Else i will be going with maid again so boring and tiring.
Bye
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