In pain

i took the courage to tear off the sticker/ gauge yesterday night as the itch is killing me la.
Then i tried to sleep after my last pump at 1am then he is still working so i asked him to wake me up at 3am when he going bed, haha he is sneaky, tried not to wake me up i tin because im too tired or what, but i realised he is in the room, slack for around 30 minutes then i wake up to pump my k\milk and managed to pump 50ml, which is good.

First few days is less then 10 ml then 20 ml then 30 ml then 40 ml then 50 ml till date when it is already like 6 days after i gave birth is it normal to have just this amount i reali not sure as i last breast feed is 5 years ago and son actually latch on rather then pumping so i cant guage the ml.

Well hopefully the milk level increase lo, more la, but no more engoged please.
I leak this morning abit only la, but then after when i wanna handpump, not much milk. LOLssss

I am going to get the breastpump soon like maybe by tomorrow or wad, double de lo.
I think it is better and it save time.

I calculate already even if i breastfeed for 6 months it might still be worhwhile la the amount. I actually asked my sister to sponsor me the breastpumo but i think the chances are slim when i need it urgently now.
I cant hand expressed daily as mhy hand are reali tired and my muscle are getting so big man, the amount of force needed to hand express as the milk is blocked and harden reali tires me off.
Somtimes ir ealli wished to stop breastfeed but when i think of Kyden in hospital i wanted to continued.

I want him to hve the best of all he can get now as he is really small and poor boy in hospital alone.
My milk will serve him the best then the formula that the nurses give him, but i wonder will the nurse really feed him?

he cant finsished 50 ml throw away after feeding i also happy at least he drink my milk rather then formual got no antibotics mah naturally.

I will continued to pump as much milk as i can till the day he reached home and i can latch him on then it will better thus i can still pump when i get back work etc.

hopepfully Kyden can come home fast.

It seems funny ma when u give birth then ur house got no babies cries and fuss haha.

No choice la

Now counting down as Sep is drawing near already.
another 14 days or more? depending on how much weight he gain!
=)

God pls pray that he can gain weight fast enuff and reaches 2kg pretty soon.

Im goign to be busy thinking about the BB 1 mth, cakes, etc, arrival of him to home and also the maid to remind her not to be so careless and espically when Kyden is home.
She cant rem things that she did or asked to do.

I want honey to do apprasial with her as i cant stand to do with her i tin, she is getting from bad to worst in term of her memory. WHY IS THIS SO?
can someone tell me?

Going to pump milk Good bye

Im a full time milk cow!