Was sick yesterday, down with flu, sore throat, backaches, fever.

Not to worry is not Swine la,

Tomorrow is holiday, YES, eh can go out with us, but Sat & Sun he gotta work.

Shit.

nothing to blog, not feeling well.

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Last Friday was not a good one, as my pill finished as i have said, puking all the way.
Went home earlier, to rest and i KO immediately lols, told son that he can only watch cartoon in the room and not leave the room unless for going to toilet only, other purpose have to call me wake up.

Make milk for him before he ZZ of cause, and water prepared la, in case he is thirsty.

I KO after i took the medicine, and on air con lo.

Only woke up like around 6 plus 7 when he is already back and they are here.

I don't like it lo, they locked my son in the kitchen and his dad just sat there and kept quiet, wonder if it is his FAVE been locked, how will he react.

Nevertheless, i scold them lo, as this is really wrong and what if something happen.
There is window and dangerous etc thing in the kitchen.

I hate them, cant said too much bad things about others now as i am pregnant.
I am bearing with it as in 11 days i am OUT.

He is the only one handling the house now as i cant do much already. Hopefully, he did not insert major damages to the house that i have seriously objected.

Brought son his staircase bed already and he is asking for it daily as he know he can play on top of the bed haha.
Told him, next week. Before 10 will be in the house already.

he is so funny.

I am very serious with him this few days as i teaches his brother kid and he dunno what to do as he have learn it in school DE.
I am scare that son will be like that so i decided to be strict and teaches him whatever he can capture and i realised that what a lazy and bad mum i have been.

i left the duties of teaching to the teacher and the teacher don't do a good job.
My son cant write much due to me.
No one to blame.
So now i am trying my best to make up for the losses that i have accumulate for the past 2 years. when his ability to pick up is much more higher then now, yet i am being lazy.
I M SORRY ISAAC.

Studies is not the same as compared to last time. IT is so much difficult and more attention needed.

he scold me yesterday as his mum called and wanted to talk to me, and i was teaching my son homework, so i never pick up lo, after which i am tired and i went to bed.
his dad cooked the veggie, wrongly. Not nice, she angry and told him that why every time called me i don't want to answer, but pls be reasonable.
I have every rights to answer the house phone or Hp.
His brother is at home, why cant she called him?
you want me to do something, yes i know, but then, i am on leave, cant i entitled to some privacy and own timing?
I am so angry, upon him saying me this lo. I think i did nothing wrong lo.
Sigh.
Anyway, when i moved, i can don't pick up whoever phone also can!
Waste time.
Got HP why are we still hooking to the house phone when i have to walked and my room don have one.
M i right?
Even when i am at home, i don't pick up the phone too
=)
I realised something that we cant be compared to others DE.

Their grandson asked for certain thing to be cooked and YES immediately it is done, when i asked for it, then it will be something else, not the one that i have asked for.
KAO.

Then when i decided to cook, someone will come into the picture, either cook it for me or said something about it.

Since i asked for the food, you cant cooked, don bothered to cook when i purchase it as i will cooked it myself.

Else don't comment on my cooking, each have their individual process and you cant force everyone to be the same.

I don't know why i am nagging so much recently.

Maybe because of the hot weather and pregnant, hope all this will get better in times to come.

Saw the news, now PORK, also got virus and causes some to die, so scary, wonder next time, what will we be left to eat man.

he brought me laska yesterday after i requested for it, not bad la, never eat the ingredients, only beehoon and the gravy. Nice.
Went to bed with a swollen stomach.

recently my face is been balloon up, why AR?

Boss went Malaysia suddenly, MY IDP & appraisal haven do yet.

I think i am so forgetful recently.

I FORGET that yesterday is the MBR meeting.

Son school closed, yet i forget and he fetch him to school then realised, then come back again.

Oh ya, son is not AFRAID to SWIMMING anymore, as we went swimming last Sunday. he enjoyed it very much, this Friday is holiday, we decided to go ECP to let son cycle, as he said i cant cycle now.
=(


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F*** off =(

I am unhappy with everyone and i felt lousy la.

I am not happy.

I am not happy witht he arrangement with everyone.

No one understand.

I am sad!

I dont feel happy to be pregnant.

I feel lousy and i wan to vomit!

I hate the world.

I hate everyone.

I think everyone is selfish and self centered.

I dont want anything to do with you all anymore.

F*** off my life.

=(

Vomitted, Hair loss & in dilemma situation =(

I was sad and angry this morning, i took the bus bravely without my anti vomit pill and guess what, i thought i survive.
The moment i drop off, i run for the nearest toilet at Hotel Rendevous, to PUKE!
ALOT ALOT!

I asked him to buy my pills as yesterday is the last one, till last night he haven, i forgive him as it quite late and i am tired.
So i never bothered and took the bus bravely lo, who knows.
=(

Nevertheless, i text him after i puke and washed up.
HE replied will buy later.
we shall see.

I am not angry he never buy for me as i know he is busy too!
But the feeling of vomitting is really horrible. Esp ur i the bus or early morning. Make u lose all the MOOD lo.
I wonder my morning sickness when will stop and i will be able to seat the bus comfortably without the help of the pill.

Went home for dinner last night.
My mum cook now compare to last time is not as fantastic la, nice, as she no mood liao, but at least i see already i will eat lo, unlike at AMK, once i saw i will just close the cover and went to my room or make maggie if i am very hungry.

i dont blame her, but her cooking style is just not what i want and i prefer lo, i love simple food but not fish everyday!
They have fish everyday and im SCARED of it.

I wonder they will come tonight anot, i hope not as i wan some silence and peace and i want to concernate in teaching son the ABC, as i pay attention with him for one hour yesterday, but he forget.
=(

Chatted with my friend and realised that he have to buck up, else, he cant catches up wtih his peers de. Her daughter same year as son can write and spell very well, unlike son.
It is my fault that he is like that now, refuse to study as i am soft and lazy to teach,
now i have to work double hard to teach him before i due, else wait BB come out where got time to sit down and teach him.

I told him that we have to spare time equally to teach him as i cant be the one, wait he is not scare of me etc.

I tried already to teach him, i know it's gonna be diffcult path now till he really learn but i got no choice i slack too much, now it is time to buck up already.
I got to blame only myself, Im sorry son. making you hve to work double hard now.

I am going to buy the ABC & Number chart and whatever chart that he need to learn de lo.

I dont care already, in current AMK i cant stick all this in my own home i am going to do so.

I hope to move in ASAP.

Want the maid to be in End July or Aug, no later then that.
I need to teach her and make her get used to son as son temper aint very good too.
he is sturborn and i am afraid that the maid will get pek chey of him.

I think that when he is in school, the maid alone with the BB will not be so pek chey bah. Will plan well, and try to get someone to go up as and when, if really cant then i will have to take leave lo. Or i get himt o go up suddenly check lo.

Maid cant be trusted but there are no one that i can trust and wanna look after son de.

I am in a very diffcult choice and situation, if can i dont wanna woek lo, then i can fully look after my 2 kids and not to worried everyday.

I cant now.

There are things which is beyong my limited and i hve limited time and space to spare and etc.

People cant understand and they think i am doing the wrong choice now, by hiring a maid, i got no choice can i still chose?

They think i have another kid now is too early and i dont think so, this is the right time as 4 years gap is enough fro son already, too big gap, they cant really communicate and play already.

I hope all people understand and support my choice.

I need support and help seriously.


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Inner fears

Went home yesterday and he came only around 10 plus closed to 11pm.

Asked my sister to buy food for me as i am hungry and they don't allowed me to eat Maggie mee.
=(

=) as my sister went to buy with her BF.

My mum draw the money for me already and my dad passed me the $ liao.
Thanks.

Without this i wonder how i am going to pay the plaster guy as i spend all my savings already.
Official BROKE!

The other guy is doing the electricity now.

By next week, he claimed can finished and they worst is that he do so ORBIA design for the wire that he have to asked him to remove and redo!
We pay so much, so please do a better job, else i will asked you to redo the whole house.
I cant when i am paying then the person anyhow do even thou he is someone i know or what.

It is so-called service to me so, do it nicely, unless u don't want me to pay, ANYHOW DO!

Son was very bad and i locked him out of the house last night at my mum place.

He was plying DS, then dinner time, tell him to stop, eat dinner first. He whined and cried and sulk which i cant stand it as i don think that is the right way.
I tried talking to him and say u wanna play after dinner lo. He refused.
I got no choice flare lo.
Then my sister brought him back.
I made him seat beside me and finished the whole bowl of rice himself.

My mum wanted to feed him, i SAY NO!

He finished it in less then 10 minutes when in AMK, he can take 1 hour to finished a bowl of rice.

he is someone who need to be fierce with DE.

I am getting impatience with him already as he is so much different from young hais
=(

I saw his video in my sister computer and i nearly teared as i saw the video when he was 2 years old and started calling me "Mummy" and his birthday celebration.

It is so fast that my son is now turning 5 in Dec 09.

Time flies, still remember 5 years ago around this period of time i realised that i am pregnant, insist to keep the BB although there are objection.

I have not regret a single bit in giving birth to Isaac, maybe i failed as a mum in terms of lecture.
I wanted him to have the best, but i am too soft and everything he said i give in that why he is like that today.




























I need to do something seriously.

House rules:
1. no cartoon on weekday.
2. Only cartoon on Weekend provided he finsihed his work.
3. eating only at dining table, no moving around.
4. Brush teeth before sleep, which he do not do, as he brushes his teeth during bathe time.
5. No whinning and crying if nothing is given when asked.
6. Games can be played on max 2 hours on weekend after his tution.

i hve to start on this 6 rules once i moved.

IM DETERMINED!

I saw mum video too and she is so hilralous and i kept laughing till i nearly tear too.

i kept my cool last night and i did not talked back when she nag, but i REALLY CANT stand people who nag la.
Sigh.
How to make her stop?

She called me this morning, talked to me and said she will come up after the house is done or i moved in, i said FINE. Why not.
I love crowded house, but witht he people i know only KK. not stranger la.
I take time to warm up la.
I am nice to people who are nice to me, but not bad/ wicked/ horrible people.

HE brought me breakfast this morning as per requested by me last night.

The worker in the office is fast, my house cabinet & cupboards are all done already, waiting for fitting and then painting liao.

Then Voila.....

Waiting for my mum to see the date for moving in.
Hope it is earlier not later then the one i wanted.

No budhhda table for the time being as the place is not suitable and i dont really pray, so i told him outside the house have 1 can liao.
He accepted.

Now the MAIN worries i have is actually, the MAID and son and BB.

I am going o enrol him into the PAP under my block in AMK.
He shall start in Sep 09, as i asked around and all gave me the same thinking,
this way is to enable him to get used to the PAP unlike his childcare curently.

He can get into K2 life in 2010 easier, i tihnk that is a good idea also.

It is $85 per month with computer classes included lo.
Aircon de.
The best thing is that it is just below my house.
The timing for the class will be from

8.30 to 12.30
OR
1.00 to 5.00
OR
12.30 to 4.30

So i duno when i enrol him, the time for his will be which one.

Meanwhile, i need advice,
If i leave the maid alone at hme with Isaac, will there be problems?
Will she torture him?
All maid or partial?

Then can a maid handle 2 kids at one time?
- She only get to handle 2 kids from morning 8am to only 12.00, from 12.30 to 4.30 she will only look after BB, can she cope?
Will she be bad?

How do i know if she is bad and nasty?

I wanted to bring her to his grandma house daily, but if he is not free i cant make the maid take bus, travel with a BB and son to her place like 4 stops away right?

Then son go there cant nap, study nor what. then i thought like that why still go there.
I shall leave the maid alone at home with the 2 kids, but priority will be the kids then housewk lo.

I cant make her work like a robot also mah, must finished housewk & look after kids at the same time.

Plus no one at home to look after her, waited she throw temper at my kids i duno how?

Hopefully, my mum can come over and look after her once in a while la.

Then i can rest my mind at ease when i worked.
wanna work also sian.
Kids are my everything, i cant dont work now, situation is different from last time, so i cant afford not TO DONT WORK!

I got alot of things to pay and we have already said, we will share the joy and suffering together till the days get better.

This is what married couple should do, if i keep thinking about the abd, then why i get married in the first place, thus i always tell my mum that, dotn keep thinking about the person bad points, think about the good one and the bad one just keep it as memories.

i think i grown alot since i have ISaac, my mentailty mindset expand and i dont think for just now only, i think far ahead maybe 4 years later down the road de.

Paranoid or Kiasu, u may called me, but it works.
If your man need help in seeking his way all the times.

I am going to agency and start looking for maid and see their profile already.
Want them to come and get used to Isaac as he is a handful to take care, i only scared as he dont listen and is sturrborn. Waited the maid angry hit him or what cham.

I might be selfish to transfer him to the school in AMK, as i think that travel is far, but it is for his own good too!

I can said 90% is for his good!

he can learn more in PAP.
he can have his dinner earlier
he can bathe and rest earlier
he dont need to wake up so early and sleepy in noon
he can concentrate more
he can have his free own lesiure time at home, doing his things
not to worried that he turn astray outside

Last point i said is because i wanted to put him into After School Care but i hve changed my mind about it as the kids there are really notti and no manners.

I dont said that Isaac have tonnes of manners la. I know it's better that all.

I am going to be strict with him, from today onwards no matter what.

His mum self declare that she dont want to look after kids and want to work, i cant FORCED her mah, maybe she want to work as he is scare that his HUS might lose his job then got someone to support her lo.

She used to look after kids, but is kena forced as the brother dont want the 2 kids when they are borned and throw to his mother since born till 5 years old, old enought then they bring back.
Thus his mum started working.
Now she dont wan to look after im OK also.
Better still as wont mixed my son with his brother kids, which i HATE!

Please make my faith be strong in whatever i do right now.
I sincerly pray!

I wished the best for son and the newborn, life is peaceful and happy.

I wished my mum can come over and help me look after once in a while after i got my maid to just watched her etc.

I blog way too long already, i am nagging.
Need to release everything inside me as i have too much stuff inside me and i cant talked to people face to face de so i blog my sorrows.



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Late for work today again as the stupid bus is not here yet at the time supposed to be.
Hais
=(

Never got my fav seat today, so sleep abit hard, but never mind as the sun is facing there today. Called it lucky?

Went up to my grandma house last night to collect the water bottle that my mum left it there.

She is old already, very fast and i was like so bad, rarely see her and i was staying with her when i was young, i can tell she really aged alot.
Her eyes got problem and she is almost alone all the time at home.
My uncle wife did not treat her well even she stay so near her.
She is not that type, cant blame her.

i cant look after her as my place is in AMK.
I hope she can move in with me, after i shifted but i think she cant DE la.
Will not get used to it and my grandad will confirm make funny ideas and my uncle might not have dinner to eat.

See how things goes, going called her later.

Suddenly i missed my Lao Ma, whom i used to find her busybody, KPO, etc when i was younger and have not had Isaac.

Suddenly i missed her, as she is very good and not lazy at all. Haha.

She loved to come our house and stayed but my mum always objected in the past as she likes to go out and my Lao Ma like to probes thus she don't like.

She woke up early, slp early, can cook, walk and talk.

She die suddenly one day when she was going to the market in the morning around 6
plus am.

Her death shook me too sudden.
She was gone just like that.
No last word no illness's then gone.

I always think is she is around now, my life might be good man. She will definitely offered to look after Isaac without 2ND thoughts DE.

I just missed her so much.

Hope her life in Heaven is nice and better then previous.

I loved u Lao Ma!!
=(

I talked to him last night, asked him alot of things while on the way back home as he fetch me back late la. Last minute DE.
Cock up!

I told him that i spoke to alot of ple and they tell me the same things, 1 maid cant really handle 2 kids well, especially one newborn and an active kid like Isaac.

i told him, i shall enrol him into PAP for either morning or afternoon session as the timing is like
either-
9-1
OR
1-5
For next year PAP enrollment started now already, so fast hor, as they got limited seat per class that why la.
Per month is $100 with computer included.
I wanted to stop his child care K2, beacuse he dont learn much and they dont teach much, plus i am paying every mth. I rather enrol in PAP so he can get used to it and he Primary 1 can catches up!
I am worried he cant.
I sent him for classes every weekend, to make up for the loss he have when he is in Child care, sigh.
Total amount spend will be more then childcare lo, only thing good is that when i work he got someone EXPERIENCED to look after him, but overall, learning is nothing much!
I am stressed on this man.
He have to finished K1 in the child care this year no matter what.
They need the K1 & K2 certificate in order to go Primary 1.
This is a must must rule now.
just got to know from my collegues haha.
Then PAP cant just go in last min must start from calendar month de!
Will get him to enrol soon. I want a space!
=)
if i am not wrong, at least when he is in school the maid got free time alone with the BB.
Maid can focus this way.
Please hope i get a good maid kk

BTW my ticket to Hk is in July, wonder i still can go ant, how many mths and how big my tummy is man at tha period.
Going to call KKH now to check on earlier date for appointment.

I wanted to asked my mum to come over and look after the maid on every Mon, Wed, Thur, but i think it is hard la, given her schedule now!

I told him if really die die no one look after the maid at home, he have to go up and spot check every now and then as he is the nearest as his office is at AMK.

I am so sian, need to work yet, have to worried about my kids even when i wanted to hire a maid as helper.

can someone tell me what is the best solution?

I am so dead beat at thinking of all this which may only happen like 8 or 9 months later, but i am a person, who must think before hand and no HICCUPS therefore can happen.

I also abit no morale to move in now already as there is some shits that happen la, but i counted yesterday, it should be 17 days more before i can move in.

The guy already finished plastering the wall, now waiting for the Electrician, toilet & his worker then done.
Voila

I on aic con almost every night now, but then like 3-4am. I will wake up to toilet and my nose will have sinus or blocked.

This is irritating as i cant fall back asleep immediately, need abit time la.

Son was sleeping at the end of the bed when i woke up last night, quickly carried him, in case he dropped off the bed again.

Waiting for him to bring back the carton boxes and i can packed my things as the date are drawing near, whereby i wanted to move in earlier instead of the 10 May.
he said will let me know see can ant.

We see lo.

He went to buy the things yesterday for the house and i seriously want to see the outcome of the design by HIM!

He brought me Mac last night as i got craving for it and i am happy, but only ate around 9plus PM.

He never wash my bottle & refilled my water for me.
Thus i am angry with him now.

I just talked to my mum, she said alot of things which i think is beyond exceptions.

She: She asked me why i dont continued to put son at the childcare in Sims Dr.
Me: I worked in Dhoby Ghaut, after work daily, i need to leave at 6sharp to catch the bus 64 to go to his child care, will reached 6.50pm or 7pm the latest, just nice before the school closed. CHOICE ONE: From there, i need to tk a bus which is at least 2 -3 stops to Macpherson, then frm there take bus 135, reached AMK house including walk home 8.30 the latest.
CHOICE 2: same i need to catches the bus 64 at my wk place at 6 sharp cant missed the bus kk. else cab. to son child care then frm there take bus to MRT. Frm Aljunied, i need to take to Cityhall, from Cityhall, i need to take all the way back to AMK, walked home, reaches home earliest before 8.30pm.

Sat down for dinner, bathe, i think close to 10pm already.

Peers tell me, if you were me do u think u will still want to continued this?
Or hire a maid at home?

Worst thing is that we have not talked about rainy weather, take cab will cost me around $25 the maximum.

She asked me why i dont want to buy at son childcare there, i was like WHAT!
He study there only another 1 year i buy just bcasuse of this reason, abit stupid right?

NVM, they think talked is very easy de la.

She said she cant look after the maid and son as she need to go out as and when. I said NVM.
Go ahead.
I shall leave the maid at home myself then see what is the choices i can have.

I am disappointed in her. Till this date, going out is still the most important thing in her life.

I think relay on myself is still better then others.

Some people cant understand why people do this kinda of choices as they are not the one who send them to school and back home.

If they are to try this way, i wonder how long, they can take it.
So far i ahve been doing this routing way for almost 2 years.
Now im pregnant, i cant afford to do this anymore already.

She asked me why i wan to have the kid now when son cant fend for himself and there sure will be biased things around. I said NO to biased as i am a person who hates it the most so there will never BE!

She herself can know that son cant read or write, why still wants me to enrol him there to continued, because it is easier and the best choice currently.
I cant do this.

I dont have mood to teach him after i reached home daily as i am very tired already, fromt he standing, carrying and waiting.

I dont want my every night like this in future when i moved.
This is not healthy.

If you dont understand and dont want to help, nvm i wont force u.
Whatever i do just dont pour cold water as it will mk me worst.

Maybe when she is older no one to go out then she can think. That time my kids all big liao just like u know who, u will regret.
I keep saying regret why.
We shall see people.

If my sister is reading this maybe she will understand what i am saying.

I always emphaiss that kinship is the most important thing in this world, other then others, there is nothing more important than this.

She can see but she cant changed.

She needs to adapt to this but then time is not in her favour.

Well, human nature, aint it?

I just depend on myself then.

i can cope with it de, i will find the best solution de.

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Went home for dinner yesterday as my sister nrought Mee Hoon Kuay back from City Plaza.

Not so nice anymore, so salty.
=(

After dinner, saw my sister playing DS challange, i joined too and won less then 5 times. LOLsss
My son worst all the way last player haha.

Then he came at around 8plus i think. Ate some bread then we went back already as he is hungry.

Mum decided to only give me $500 due to duno wad reason, never the less, better then $0.

Called my dad and he is nice.
=)

I told him last night that i wanted to move early possible.
He saw the date, actually i think can but no one help in moving and no lorry as they have to work, so he think he will faint, so waiting for May 10 or earlier lo.
Wanted to move earlier as there are 2 holidays in May ma. No leave needed if move during that time, no need waste ma.
But all must see if he can make it ant lo.

=0)

Hopefully can la.
If ur reading this Mr Ang, i wan to move early.

he gave me a shock yesterday as they are new fittings in the house and he never told me before de, and he told me it is surpise.
OMG!!!

I wanted to see the after effects as since they started, i have not gone up and see as i am not allowed.
M excited and worried at the same time.

Gosh!

Sms Eling yesterday regards to the maid issue.

Hmmm what she said seems true but i think overall depend on maid character and attitude de.
Sigh hopefully i got a good one

BTW, i wanted to do arrangement as in Mon, Wed, Thur i wanted my mum to stay at my place to look after the maid and kids, but i think this chances is hard la.
Rare i should said.

Think the overall thing will be that the maid, son & BB will be all 3 together at home lo.

Hope thing will be smooth sailing.

Lazy, peck chey, feeling shag!
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Weekend was not bad la, change my stupid HP already, dont know the user "ME" got problem or the "HP".

Sigh, anyway, not abd to use la. OK lo, at least he can use it unlike the PINK colour which he avoided. haha.

Supposed to bring son to class on Saturday, ended up, asked him come back and fectch him there as the weather is so so so hot and making me faint, thus i stayed home and watched DVD while he bring son to class and went up to new hse and do some renovations.
=)
Thanks.

Sunday
Was supposed to go Bendemeer for Lor Mee, ended up, NEVER!!

Went AMK to ear Bak Kut Teh & i was like....
Shit.
Eat the anti vomit pill, dont work, sun super hot, VOMITED!
Went home immediately, as i did not finished the meal, he finished.
I on AIR CON, SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so tired after eating the pill and i went ZZZ, i felt lousy before sleep but OK after sleep.
Went NTUC to buy food for wkdays de lo, abit only cost so much, aiyo $$$ is so hard to spend now and hard to earn too.

Hais my mum said want to pass me the $ but when i sms her no reply again. Sigh

I wonder when my morning sickness will finish as it is making me very uncomfortable and sick at the same time.
I cant eat well and feel restless as the pill is casuing this.

I pray that all this will come to an end soon and i can live normally like when not pregnant,

=(

BTW, MY SON TOE DROPPED OFF, HE IS THE ONE WHO WOKE UP ON SUNDAY MORNING AND PUCKED IT OFF HIMSELF AND TELL ME HE IS BRAVE UNLIKE THE DOCTOR, HAHA =)
LOVING HIM MORE AND MORE ALTHOUGHT HE IS MAKING ME ANGRY ALL THE TIME, FOLLOWING WHAT I SAID AND ACTIONS.
EAT DINNER TAKING MORE THEN 30 MINUTES AND CANT SEAT STILL WHILE EATING AND I HAVE TO SHOUT AT HIM DURING DINNER TIME.
OVERALL, I KNOW HE CARES ABOUT ME.

I WANTED TO GO TOILET LAT NIGHT AND TOLD HIM MY TUMMY PAIN AND I WANNA VOMIT WHEN THAT FELLOW IS INSIDE THE ROOM WATCHING DVD, WHILE WAITING FOR ME.
MY SON OFFERED TO HOLD MY HAND AND WAIT FOR ME WHILE I USE THE LOO.
HE SAID MUST HOLD MUMMY HAND AND WAIT.
=)

THAT IS VERY SWEET OF HIMA ND I HEARTS HIM LOTS.
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Yesterday, he came home early as i took cab to his work place and we drove back.
WHY?

Not enough cash la. JAM lo.

I board this RED petrol cab, duno what the name.

I wanted to go AMK from ALjunied. I told him go by Upper Aljunied Road, he insist by highway whihc i tell him NO!

All the way from Aljunied to AMK, he nag, slam, break, sigh and wadever to vent his anger la.

I was like machiam, cant i chose my won way/ route? Even if it JAM!

I just dont wanna pay ERP, which i think is not worth it de, i rather JAM.

I wonder ERP in Singapore got help meh, in smooth traffic?

I doubt so lei!

With ERP, it is still JAM PACKED, accidents etc, all this happen WHY!!!!
People forget to insert cashcard, suddenly remember JAM BREAK etc, why cant just go without ERP, the main reason i guess everyone know why ERP is there.

Son toe is not getting better and the skin around it is reddish and i told him to bring him go doctor later as i cant make it. See what the doctor said, i cant believe myself la.

We live in advance world now, which is why doctor is here to help.
LOLsss.
We cant really self medicated anymore as it will be dangerous unlike last time.
Haha

Last time people pregnant where got scan, victmins, etc.
HAHA

We people follow suit de la, we are the biggest copy cat and Kiasu people lo i think.

SMS my mum but there is still no rely, i think
1) She Ge Siao
2 HP spoilt
3) cant read!

Which is never mind.
Dont reply lo, i have to forgo something la.

I hate it when someone promises u something then in the end lie, the feeling just sucks!!
=(

Espically from ur loved one closest to u.

Well this is life, what can we said and do about it? NOTHING

Hmmm, i started on the HK drama liao, i know it kinda late as it finishes long ago, but he never go buy for me mah, so where got to watch, until i borrow from my colleguse.
Nice show la even i just watched 3 espiode.

Shall continued tonight!

Yesterday, did not have dinner until nearly 11pm.

Cant eat, drink, puke when brushing teeth.
Sigh.

Bad and hard pregnacy.
=(

This morning he never buy breakfast for me as his car got problem, now going to send to workshop.

Renovations started already, i cant go up till it finished liao.

Haha.

He design de as i cant go up and see, hope i like it =)

Tml son got class and i duno want to cook anot at home tml night.

Sigh!

His mum cooked fish last night when i told her i see will puke.
But no choice it is their staple food at home.
So sian!

his dad flare yesterday again because of his fav grandson lo, i totally agreed that he is in the wrong and i dont think his mum is wrong.

Can u imagine that he went Genting with his brother and family, got 4 children la.

He doted on one only, rest is normal i should said.

It happen when they are going to board the bus back to Singapore.

He wants the fav to seat with him, so OK lo, actually he had brought just only ONE DRUMSTICK for him, while he never buy for the rest, can u imagine he asked the FAV to seat at the back so others cant see him while he eat.

This is not called BIASED?

Hmmm, i think he should either buy 4 if can or buy 0 as like that no one will feel jealous right.
Agreed?

This is his dad which i hate, his mum not wrong mah, by defending for her rest of the kids and be angry and treat the FAV differently, although is all her kids la.
BUT then, u do it this way so Ming Xian, so disgusting lo as an old aged man!

Lucky i am going to move and i dont depend on others to survive and wont have to see other people face and attitude and watch wad we said!

I learnt this thru my mum as i cant beg her for help.

She agreed on something which is now 2 mths overdue and i think she Ge Siao about it. Nevermind.

It is human nature that hpw they act.

I just care about my own family and baby right now, nothing much to think liao, others are useless and they are just wicked.

Going to brush teeth after eating already and slag as boss is not around!

=)
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My dreams that i dont want to happen de came true.

HAIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In school yesterday, son was laying then he went to kick his toe at the wall accidently, the nail half came off lo, now holding to the part where it was not infected lo.

I feel sad for him as he is just a kid and i wonder when then will the toe fully drop off frm his toe, he said this way is faster to heal as it will dry up.

I asked him pain anot, he said NO when he is watching TV, but YES when not watching TV.
KNS
So angry, hais now got to keep his toe in very carefully way and manner.

I hope it drop and dont at the same time.

Tell me how!!!!

Going to start doing the wire tml or Sat.

Hurray.

10 May, here i come.

Guess they are coming tml sian!

Not i what la, just dont like or so maybe i dont like them as i dont like his father.

When they are here, his father act differently and also biased which i see already, i will go angry de, as i feel it should not be this way, all should be treated equally fair and square as they are all consider GRANDSON mah.

Like machiam they are not ur real daughter or son.

SIAO`

I nag alot when come to this topic la, i just cant stand it lo.
Not the best way to treat kids as they will have a hunting childhood.

Now he allow only one to come, i agreed this way better, so the other wont feel it also la, make him go full attention on the one he like lo.

I can hack care. Just dont step on my tail nor irritate my son can liao.

I haven throw temper only.

Now son toe like that wonder they come what else will happen.

They dont like my son to engage into their play, i dont allow them to play my toys, simpe.

I am very bad HOR!!!!

i dont feel so anyway haha.

They are just not good.

I want to move ASAP

Mr Ang Listen carefully KKKKKK.
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=(

Am so sick for work this morning but no choice got to wk else where got money, wait kana sacked worst, cant afford as my new hse, bb, alot of things.

yesterday, he came and fetch me hme, than came back then buy KFC for me as i told him got craving.

Hungry, as he came back late but i was full and never finish all the food.

Yesterday, i was scold by my boss, sian lo, got my fault and some is the Malaysia side girl la, add things never tell me then i kana also lo, hais!

So angry when he scold me said i never checked my work, sometimes human make mistakes right?
Hais,
He meant nothing DE la, but i am just sad that he scold me and pin point me instead of the Malaysia girl, KNS
^&*^^%&$&

Well past liao don't wanna said again Le, SICK!

My morning sickness is so bad recently, i woke up, want to vomit already.
When i brush my teeth worst, the smell, i will sometimes vomit yellow water. Hais.

No choice, i wanted the kid so i have to bear with it lo.

Then take bus worst, i need to depend on the anti vomit pill else i will vomit lo.

His mum recently cook the food, i really cant stand it, dunno is it i picky or what. I just cant seems to put it inside my mouth and i really will feel full after looking at it, so i just feed son eat then i see what else to eat lo.

I might be picky but now pregnant make it worst lo, i got craving for this suddenly, then next minute i don't want already haha.

So scary!

Now waiting for his sister husband brother to get back to us regards to the electric. I want to do it fast la.

I now realised that because of face there are things that people might willingly to give in.

Let said $, ego, etc

I shall not touch on the story, long and funny la.

Well, son is notti every day, but his look and the ways he talked and acted make me love him much More then everything else.

I simply loved him, but not to worried i will not be biased even now i got another BB coming.

I am not that type of people, plus i going to move out so i wont have to see people face and attitude. Not said they are no good or what.
It might be me myself, having attitude cant get along with others as i like people to do things my way and style, i cant be kept and teaches DE.
=)

Well, 26 days more, i will finally move out, meaning more expenses, but i don't mind, at least now no matter what happen, no one can force me out of the house or afraid got no place to stay if needed,
I experience this before and i don't like it and i realised that if u have no place to stay it kinda scary as u have to beg.

his parents are like that same for my mum too!

I once hate them for letting me down on my darkest period but then never the less, its over, i can forget and i shall keep it inside my heart and bring it with me.

no one understand me at that point of time when i needed them. They think it is easy but its not because they never experience it before, i m not cursing la.

I decided to change my HP already la, it is kinda like bored or something wrong with me.

I am showing signs already and i am tired easily recently during 1st trimester and i really like not enough sleep but i sleep alot. Think this is the stage la, where else last time i never work so dunno the pain haha.

Might be going KKH 24 hours later after work, my tummy cramp pain like on and off, wonder is it OK ant. Worried and my next scan date is actually on 21 May and on his birthday haha.

Du no wait so long good ant so waiting now lo.

See tonight what he said.

The thoughts of his home cooked tonight i am going to faint i think.

Scary.


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I am back to work yesterday, but inside meeting whole day so sian cant blog.
Today abit fre as i clear all my stuff already.

Here i am blogging, i wanted to sell my LG hp due to some reason, anyone wants to buy?
With waranty.







anyne want to buy let me know, email me at babykarenlam@hotmail.com

I am going to sent another electrician up today, as the previous one quote too high and too expensive already.

Think he think im robert!

Now he is with honey at the house wonder what the outcome, haven call me yet.

Went for lunch with honey just now, ate the porridge which i wanted to try very long and then it is not bad lo, so next time if i want to eat can walk there if he cant meet me la, but hot and long way haha.

Went to temple and return prayer too.
=)

Might be going for scnning this week or next week waiting for call lo, so long de, sian.

Wonder they sleeping or what man!

Going to call personally now.

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Did not go work yesterday as i went to POLY to get the referral letter and i waited for 4 hours there. OMG

Horrible that i will not go back ever again, if not for the letter.

Son is sweet yesterday, i told him my back hurts and he said come hold my hands and he said must walked slowly kk, then he passed me my shoes and wear for my as the doctor said that i must wear shoes at home to prevent getting cold so it will not hurts.

Then he asked me to on cartoon for him then he watched quietly, without disturbing me as he know my back hurts.

Then he came home at around 10 plus, where i heat the Marconi for him as i cooked that for dinner.

Took abit also when he is eating la, i got craving for MAC CHOC SUNDAE.

He said will buy for me today, dunno true ant.

Today is holiday so not wkingg, now waiting for him to come back then go out lo, but he said 2 plus i think.

Now got project so no choice lo, but i am kinda bored la, plus i cant really packed anything nor what as he have not brought me any carton boxes till date!

Haha, electrician will only go up to the hse on Monday to do as he is not free tomorrow!.

Once he is done then, can do the wall
Hacking and painting then yes i can move in lo.

Eager la, then going to make son room to the perfect room.

BTW i saw the maid abuse video and i am scare to hire a maid and i wonder how ar like that. Hiasssss.

I told him i shall install video all over the house to observe the maid, i always think Ur nice to maid will they still abuse Ur kids?
Or only when they have low patience then they will beat and abuse the kids?
Hais
I am just so worried

i always wonder why my life is so bad without the help of my own mum, where i don't even want to speak to her, never mind.

I wonder how will she be when she is older and left without him?

She have not called since the day and not even a gesture of asking lo, never mind.

I don't mind, she don't care but it is my life, i chose and lead what i want.

I might be soft headed and listen to the advise given when i refuse to think when got problems, but then this time round i am going to listen to only myself and no one else.

Listening to others might NT be the best choice after all DE.

I have stopped getting things for the house as i think it is almost ready?
Nothing much except the basic items lo, plus my room look like it super busy lo.

Now waiting for him to come back lo, wondering wan to go where later.

Sian, i just don want to stay home.

Maybe bring son go ride his bicycle as per promised!

I got craving for crabs, but i know i cant eat Le.
=(

Son is sweet and he is still as lazy as ever, lazy to write and always got things to said to me when i ask him to write and sometimes i let him go, hais i know i should not have done that.

I shall buck up, i know i keep saying that.

He have spelling test tml noon and so far he have wrote and i think he don't know how to spell yet le, hais.

Shall i hire a personal tutor instead of going to group classes?

Pls give my some ideas.
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Hus is very nice today, he brought me all my favourite food that i mentioned yesterday haha, so when i wake up i text him ask him.
U did something wrong is it that why u so nice, haha, he said because i asked for it mah!

Anyway the noodles that i requested, i did not finished all la, maybe i feel naueous and no appetite, this month always like that.

I brought the nasi lemak & carrot cake that he buy for me, it will be my lunch then.

Muacks.

Last night, he fetch me home and also buy dinner & Popiah for me but i never finished as usual.

Tml might be going KKH for scanning depends if i can get the letter ant and do it on the same day.
If got to wait then i tin i shall go without it, other time then.

Wanted to go company doctor but then, abit lazy to walk there la.

So maybe later or wad lo, depend la.

He massage for me yesterday and i dont feel so pain after that, nothing much on son update as he is naughty.

He cried for sweets and i told him NO, asked him bathe, he said WAIT!
Ask him eat dinner, he claim FULL.
Buay Tahan.

Going make him write his spelling tonight already, test is on Saturday and haven pass before!
=(


So sad!

I am too soft on him that why he refused to learn now which is no good!
I ought to be fierce right in the start.
My failure as a mum and refusing to listen to others.

Sigh!

I got to work double hard wad else.

Electricity will be starting this Saturday i guess, then the wall , kitchen then last floor.

Now i dont keep counting the dates to move already as my back and other thing are bothering me much more then this haha.
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Went for lunch with boss earlier and i told him i am pregnant already as i need to go check up haha.

i still have craving for little smoke per day maybe 1 to 2 puff, i know it is bad but then i will be damn uncomfortable if i don't!

I will try not to!
it is BAD!!

I have the worst nightmare yesterday!
i took a cab home yesterday and the traffic is spoilt and i was jam in the cab like for 30 minutes then i have no choice but to call 999!
God!!!!!

I spend so much on cab yesterday when the fare should be lower.
Damn it!!!!

I asked him to come fetch me tonight la, cant afford to seat the cab all the time then got this type of things happen!
Sigh!!!!

I just found out my fren is also pregnant haha.
One More earlier then me la.

I am feeling sad as i felt that i was treated as dirt!

Since the day i know, there are congrats coming in yet nothing from my mum and she is my REAL MUM!

She is busy with her outing and everything in her life except maybe me and Isaac!
I felt lousy as she have not even call to asked me how i am etc!

It is sometimes that i feel i am been taken for granted.
=(

His mum cared for me la, more then normal or i can said my mum.

I sometimes wonder in this world where got this type of mum DE, my dad i NV told him so he dunno, he is busy so i don't think he got time for me too.

Last time, he is NT like that, but things changed after what my mum did and it happen way too long ago.

I can never forgive my mum for behaving this way as when i was with Isaac she is like that too,

For example,
i remember very clearly that Isaac was down with high fever, i called my mum for help as i was helpless.
Just gave birth knowing nothing and no experience.

I called her at around 12pm to asked her come with me to bring Isaac to the doctor as i cant handle alone.

She said she is outside now and will come later, so i prepared and waited for her.

2pm liao, still never see her so i called her again, she told me soon as she haven settle her things.

4pm, still no sight, at that time all the clinic closed so earliest is 7pm.

7pm, i still don't see her,never called her again as i went to the doctor myself fearing that my son fever is still there.

9pm, she still haven come my place.

Guess what time she came over to my place?
10.30pm!

From 11am plus i called her, till 10 plus then she appear.

I was like don't even want to open the door for her and i cant be bothered to pick up her calls also.

i was like WTF!!!

Never mind, i thought to myself that since people don't care why should i hack care also.
I am seriously sad and disappointed with her as she is my mum and yet this is what i get from her.

There are still lots of issue that i have yet to raise about her if i said so everyone will agree with me on how BAD she is.

I don't really care anymore now although i am sad, i just treat that i do not have a mum, that all, it seems bad but u have to stand in my shoes then u will realised why i react this way!

I am glad that i married him, at least he care for me and never give me the unwanted feeling, thou sometimes lonely la, as he have work to do!

Nevertheless, i am happy with he things i have now, maybe i used to think that i regret to divorced etc, as i grow i realised that money cant buy anything!

I might be poorer then before not that rich want this can have and etc, but i am a happier person with the love and care granted on me and son!

This is my greatest wish that son is been well loved by him and his family as i don want them to be biased.

This is what my greatest wish!

I have the worst backache and leg cramp yesterday and i have to ask him to massage for me for around 30 to 40 minutes before i can fall asleep.

It is so pain that i want to cry!

His mum more funny saw him massage my back and told him cant press too hard or anyhow massage haha, wait the baby there, i was like never mind, continued, because after massage i feel more shiok!

I wanted to have dinner with him tonight but i don't think he can make it as he got new project now, maybe in May then not so busy liao.

Going for my check next month.

Now still early i think haha.

I was thinking how good if my baby is a girl which i always wanted.
But let nature take it course la,
No choice keep thinking and then it's a boy haha.

I just hope that the maid i going to hire will treat my kids good!
Not a bad maid!

Given a choice i also don't want to have a maid but no choice need to else who look after and how to work!

I cant be juggling between work and 2 kids DE!
No one can take that lo.
Especially my kids cant feed for himself, just like a small baby which need my attention the most.

Suddenly i got baby now, i don't regret la, take it as a blessing from GOD!

People might take years to have kids but then still nothing, so i will not abort it

I have to stooped the one to two puff smoke to Mk my baby a healthy one!

I AM DETERMINE TO STOPPED

Even after i gave birth i think i will not smoke bad (TRY VERY HARD)

Since i can quite for 9 months why cant i quit forever!

For my kids i shall do so.
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Weekend pass by again and it is so fast.

Son went class on saturday and not on Sunday as he cant wake up and i have decided to stopped enrolling him there already since his Saturday classes gt Math & English and his wicked dad do not want to give more and we had a bad argument too on Saturday.
Waste my time!!!

Son went over on Sunday and he was hooked on the Nitendo WII and i was so angry that he asked me to leave 1st so taht he can continued to play,
My heart was shattered and yet angry at the same time, but i managed to bring my son home without shouting,
=)

I belived son did this because he is still a kid and all he want was just to play that all.

This kids is giving me a lot of problem,
cant eat well, gain and lose weight fast!!!!!

Was gaining 5kg then lost 4 kg again, hmmm....

Have not went for my scan yet as they said is too early, so will go by April then.

I was feeling so dead this morning, in the bus i was fine actually, then sudenly i feel warm, sweating and vomit soon are flying inside my head!

I was like controlling, try not to vomit!

That was the hardest 15 minutes ride that i ever have!
GOD!!!!

WOnder this type of systom will alst how long.
It sucks....
=(

His brother is bringning his dad to Genting and i wonder he do not have $ for the kids to go school or even tution which cost $40, how come they can bear to spend this type of wastful $ to go Genting when they can provide for the kids a better education and life!

Horrible parents!

He got $ to go GEnting then better pay off the loan first then go, dont wait lose $ come back then said no $ to do this and that, all his family members are horrible la.

His dad brought crabs yesterday and i wondered why he buy so small size, the facts is he want to give to his grandson to eat!
That is not been nice to him nor treating him the best, it make him feel that he can recieved this type of treatment only when he is here and he can do wadever he want.

I still dont like him since the 1st times i saw him!
Mei Yuan ba, i dun like him at all, used to find him Ke Lian, yet now i got 2nd thoughts already as i felt that is he deserved it de!
Not i wicked when you re me then you will understand liao!

He dad try to keep the crab from me lo, since im pregnant now, but no one can stopped me from eating things that i want de la haha!

Not nice so ate abit only as the flesh not tender and fresh!!!!

Brought hotdog from Giant yesterday as i am so sick of ham everyday, actually wanted to buy pancakes and bring to work but i dont have time to do la, haha, maybe when my maid is here?
LOLssss

We talk about changing car and the factors affecting the whole and we need to discuss further!

This weekend he is going to work and son is not home, i will be damm bored!
KAO!!!!

I cant seperate with my son for half a day de although he is very noisy and make me angry!!
He is my everything!

Renovations haven started yet as he haven called anyone yet!
=(

Sometimes, i am eager as i need to know due to certain reason and i dont like it when he keep draggin it till i flar up, then some thing which is non important like genting booking he can called immediately where else calling someone up, he cant, must i nag till i sian then he will do,

This is what i hate abt him, not been pro active in the things that he do and only when i flare then he do, which i think is not right!

Maybe he is busy but if busy then all things should not have time already not to say so non important thing which i find la, hais.

Should you not change, i am going to change that all i can said when my temper is up and down.

i nag too much

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Yesterday he came to fetch me and i wait in the office till 6.30pm lo.

Went back home, squeeze son leg as got infection again then he cried like no tomorrow again lo, bathe him, dinner.

Me saw the dinner, no mood at all lo, FULL!!!!!!!!!!

he is coming bk home early so i asked him to Ta Bao from downstair Chicken rice but sold out so Western food burger. OK only la, think very soon will closed haha.

Supposed to go to the new place yesterday to check and tell him what are the things that i want to do and also dismantle.
Lazy so, tonight we shall go, so Saturday he can start dismantling and doing lo.

Projected to move in End April or early May 2009.

I have no ideas on colour now for my new house, suddenly just want plain colour haha.

I have stopped taking the pill already as it causes me to have dry throat and mouth and uncomfortable feeling, i will continued to le the feeling come la, dont want to eat the medicine already. More uncomfortable then ever.

I told him last night that this baby is not easy man, not the same like son, but alot of people tell me all pregnancy are not the same.
Haha.

his mum told him confirm that this one is BOY haha, as their family is more boys then girl, i hear liao was like OMG!!!!

I wished for a girl la, but if boy also no choice mah!
best is must be healthy and that the most important thing la.

I haven start packing my things yet, as i duno start from where.
Too much already.
Sigh.
haven got my carton boxes also!
=(

boss will be in today and its Friday, sian hate him to be in on friday as sometimes he have no time discipline de!!!!

This always happen to people who have no kids nor comminents after work that why!

I waited for bus this morning planning to be early to catch the bus yet i waited for so long then the bus driver sucks.

Going to complaint now already.
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I am feeling so uncomfortable and it is killing me softly,
cant eat well, drink also want to puke.
Eat the medicine, throat so dry and mouth dry too!
=(

I got my favourite food infront of me yet i am full by looking at it!

I might ahve to go home myself this evening, i am fine with it, just that now i am at work, i just feel sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I need more love and attention i guess!
He is working late often this few weeks due to CK project so im kinda neglected as im a person who need love and concern lots lots de!

Son is fine, just that he like to throw temper which is unreasonable and i hate it.
I scold, he dont listen, only when i shout and stare then he realised. SIGH!!!!

His Sunday class are changed to 9.30am instead of 11.30am, wonder he can wake up anot, still thinking want to register him anot there to continue, as he is attending the same thing with math included on Saturday haha.

I wanted to enrol him in swimming but then he is afraid!!!!
=(

I need to go check his art is which day, if got sunday then myabe let him go on Sunday instead.

i am so angry with him last week, wanted to asked him can let me take son anot as i want to bring him out, but then he refused!
KNN
Nevermind, i shall not hesitate to be rude in near furture!
ever be nice to others!!!!

MIL & FIL are nice to me haha, keep asking if i cant take this or that anot, the smell ok anot. LOlssss.

I think maybe because of the state i am now so they are nice?
OK, i am being paranoid again.

The giddy & vomiting feeling is making me ill!

I wonder what MIL cook tonight!!!
Scary!!!!

Electricity is on already, all things seems to be fine, except for the stove and the water in the room seems wrong la, can start renovating already so now waiting for that MR ANG to open his mouth and start lo, since i cant be there, i got to "KAO" on him, i wonder my temper so bad recently i can tahan him how long, if he drags!!!!!!!!!!!

My mood is changing all the times, haha. I can be nice and suddenly crazy.
Hormones is causing it!!!!!

Seriosly i hope i dont look like when i am having Isaac, i will rather die man!!!!!

=)

MR ANG BETTER HURRY IN DOING THE HOUSE, DONT MAKE ME CHASE AFTER U, IF I DO, I WILL NAG AGAIN
=)
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I am back from MC already since Monday.
2 days MC in total.
Was in terrible tired mode where i cant sleep and toss around here and there.
Today still same not so good in mood as i ttok flu medicine to sleep yestday as i nap from 2pm to 8pm, haha, when i am supposed not to nap at all, but cant tahan la.

Appetiate is not good recently, cant eat much although i have certain level of craving for it, will feel full after looking at it.

I went to the GP on Tuesday and i am PREGNANT, LOlssss,

I think it is a good blessing from the gods now?
I got my house already as the owner self auto move out without wanting extension and i can renovate my house now, plus i got baby.

TWIN HAPPINESS!

What i am sad is that my mum know that, but she has not called me yet since then, i am terribly sad!
Nevertheless, i shall not be so bothered by this and continued to do my best in everything that is on coming for me.

I am somehow the QUEEN now in the house haha.
I just dont feel well la.
=(

Having Isaac was not like this, i got wonderful appeitate haha, eat slp no problems.
This time round, i cant eat much nor slp much.
=(

I cant be in the house now when they are doing things etc haha.
I can only QC when they are ready.
It seems good for me so i can relax mah!

His dad went to see some medium or something i not sure, he claimed that we can renovated our house during this time but we just can moved only after 26 April and which ever date is better then we can moved.
I dont mind this haha.

This means that i can move in earlier then the expected date mah.

There is another thing that is bugging me for the longest time ever.

Since i am pregnant now, will they be biased with Isaac, when the baby is out?
Will he dont love Isaac as much as now?
There is alot of will or not!
Hais
I really hope that they will not behave this way and they know how my temper is and i will not hestiate to scold or prevent anyone from nearing my babay if they are biased.
Both will be my precious no matter what, they can never be replaced in my heart espically Isaac!!!
He will always be my NO 1 loved Baobei!!!!
I always think, having a kids is just like a kind of blessing from God, some may have to try for years but to no vain, when it is time for you to have one, you will generally have it, so i will treat my this pregnancy as a gift from god.
I will not abort it even when there are negative comments about it haha.

His mum is like a police watching me now and then, making sure i dont smoke haha, but she wont said me la!
I will not smoke till neccessary la.
I know it is not good what!
When i was with ISaac, i think i stopped almost overnight haha.
maybe that time already hitting my 4th month, so kinda of allergy to smell and things already, just like now.

I feel naueous when i smell certain things, see or even brushing teeth turned me off, but no choice have to wad.
My eyes will be red after brushing teeth lo, as i want to vomit la, I have not gained much weight now as i am still not hitting 3 or 4 months if i am not wrong have to see the GYNC next Tue to confirm.


I duno as i am tying this i feel faint and dizzy!!!!!!
Why?

when i was having Isaac, i was so good with appetiate and everything, no problems at all, just vomitted only once, now is every now and then, i wanted to vomit!
=(

I dont ffel good at all also.



♥ 说好的幸福呢 ♥