Monday, March 30, 2009

=)

Last weekend was spend ok ok la.

I was at home on Saturday at night as he slept thru the night.
Noon was spend in office with my boss and son, 3 of us only haha.

Took a bus there and a ride back from boss.
My boss seriously love him so much lo, can tell he like kids, but maybe due to certain reason he dont have kids.

Son skipped school on saturday as we were late still in office so cant go,
bet he is super happy.

Sunday, he skipped school too!
WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We went Mac in the morning then he have maple syrup all over his body and also,playing at the See Saw then late lo, lazy to go la.

Met his sister at Chinatown there for Bak Kut Teh with his mum & dad.
They said very nice de, but i find ok la.
Maybe i go tpicky tongue and mouth haha.
I love something means it nice, if i never really finish means either it is not nice or im full.
=)

Today i am happy beacuse i am going to HDB for my collection of keys la!
Pretend de lo!
=(
Still happy because 20 days later i can go do my renovations already haha.
Shiok!!!

I went Daiso with him yesterday!
He pissed me off and make me happy as he like to pick my things from the basket and pretend to put aside yet put it back!
Spend quite some money there and at Giant too lo, brought 2 wok haha, lucky i married a strong man!
Who can carry all my stuff haha.

Need to go Yio Chu Kang, i need to buy the small slow cooker, maybe i will get to use it like dunno how many times but then i still wants it.

I can use it to cook my porridge overnight then bring to office!

I always do that when i am at my own place!

I shall start doing so already and maybe i will need the slow cooker for other uses?
Haha, only u know la.
Waiting lo!

met my sister for Fondue at my shop yesterday at Vivo as i am there ma, they loved it but i find it not so fanastic maybe i am not a sweet tooth for this bah, but i love other sweet things, wanted to go eat the porridge at Henderson but too late and his mum got cook so never lo.

Well i brought a miso soup from Giant and it is not back le. In single sachaet de.
I ccok with the Ramen ui brought which turned out to be not so nice, I thought i it will be crunchy and nice.
Nevermind la, 2 bucks only lo.

So lazy to work now as i got no mood at all!
=)

I spend all my saving on the new house and i declare that IM BROKE already.

i am OK as it will be my own sweet place, i always think that money can be earned back if we take time to savw it unless you keep spending and non saving la.
House is forever, a kind of fixed asset that i cant be Chin Chai on it de,
I will try my very best to make it look perfect unless i am really broke till i got no cent with me. One day, i got the money i will do so, i dont care who come and tell me, who pay more or less, it is together de so why bothered to be calculative!

I hate people to said something yet another thing at the same time, which is proscastining. Wasting of time.
Want to give, dont YA YA, just give. Dont just act macho by saying, it make you look like a sick bird!!!!!

KUKU!!!!!!

i trust no one only myself!


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Friday, March 27, 2009

Took cab back yesterday as he is not free to fetch me home, project ending on Saturday.

Cook Spag with my bestie Pesto sauce as i saw the dinner i got no mood again and omg la.

Looking for prawns but then cant find so use mushroom instead lo, haha.
Not bad effect, cook for him too as he came back at 8plus.

Watched Whispered on SCV last night, not bad show, i thought the boy is really an ANGEL, no he is the DEVIL.
He need to kill in order to redemmed his souls.
OMG
I hope that dont exist in reality!!!!
He said wanted to watch with me, ended up he ZZZZZZZZZZZ and i watched myself lo, even when i am really tired but the ending is catchy la, i need to know if the boy die haha.
YES la, he die.

tomorrow is Saturday already lo, Monday is HDB time, might be meeting my sister at TPY, see how.
Called her earlier to ask her meet me for lunch lo, else i will go Daiso to walk walk and get the container for son already.

His car area full and the container i find is not bad lo.

I saw a slow cooker which is small perfect for my porridge and tonic, going get it this Sun, when he can drive me there.
Very cheap, only $14.90, offer la.

my own one, i left in the old house and it's gone la.
=(

nevermind, i can simply get a new one just got money can liao lo.

I think i got to stop Isaac taking cab habit, i find it is wasteful of money la.
Hais, i save but my son spend!

Each day is around $14.00, imagine how much it is for 20 days per month!
It is $280 lo, can pay the maid salary!
OMFG

I shall not hesitate to hire a maid already and i also wont have to be like a mad person, rushing off from workplace, catches the bus sharp, then detour then back to AMK, when i can simply take a train or bus from my office here and it take less then 30 minutes.

if i do the same old way like now, i finished work at 6pm, take bus to son childcare , will reached approx 6.45pm.
Then from there take bus to MRT, 7 board the MRT, latest la, reached AMK mrt at ard 7.35, walked home, reached 8pm!

Can u imagine i spend 2 hours on taht daily when i can just reached home at 6.40 the max if i got the maid!

I have no choice but to hire as there is no one to help and people are not willingly to help as they have no returns, just like my mum for example.

She can go out for as long as she can, as shopping or just out of the house seems to be the pleasure for her.

I need to beg or said lots of times before someone can help me look after my son for me, if it is URGENT!
Else i will just looked after myself, save the troubles.

i thought my mum will changed after she is older and recovered!
I am wrong, she is still the same.
Never change, maybe only durin that period which i think that she is an ANGEL, now no more.

I am always not on good terms with her as i used to hate her tonnes and to the max!

When i was young, she used to send me to my grandmother, aunty house if possible, holidays worst, the 1st day, i will be send there by my dad!
I seriously dunno why she hates me that much when i was kid, and she is my real mother, Not step mum kk.
I used to think she is my step mum is it until i saw my birth certificate. No le, She is my real mother lo.
=(
Well, she might have her reason to hate me, but she treated my sister differently from me, my sister was allowed to stay at home all 365 days per year, yet the funny part was that she was able to join me in my stay at the places i went.
WHY?
She brought her to Primary school, carry her bag for her, queue and buy food for her and i was not getting this non of this at all.
I have to walked to school myself and bring bread to school.

Can u imagine the life of us 2 is so different.

if i want to go home stay during weekends, i have to asked her for permission and also subjected to approval.

I stayed with my grandmother so often that i thought she is always the best in this world as no one cared for me like an unwanted child.
She dont really nknow how to take care of me, so she can only gave me $$, whichh at my age is not the most important yet, is kinda KINSHIP!
Maybe that is the reason why i turned from good to bad then to worst like running away from home, drugs, club, smoke, play truant.

She became nicer to me when i was in Secondary school as i went home and stay.
But things are still the same as before. I am treated like dirt lo, which make me sad and wanted to stay away from home as often as i can.
So i am rarely at home.

I was staying with my Hk bf when i was in secondary school, so meaning YES, no need to go home lo, till the day he went to AUSSIE and study and broke off with me because of a woman.

I was devasted, but i can only go back to my home as i wasnt renting the place anymore.
Life wasnt that good there.
I was treated badly and sometimes good depending on mood and it was biased lo.
=(

Dad doted on me at that time, what i asked for, if he can afford he will give it to me and she will eye red!
I always wondered why.

Then one day something changed, she was no longer the same after she went ofr her badmintion.

All because of one person and the family fromt ehn on was not the same anymore.

I saluate my dad as he can bear with it for so many years till now then he flare and started doing the same.

He dont really care for the house anymore, but i dont blame him at all as he did his part when we were young and bear with all the things that man cant!

Yet all she did was to sneer at him and make bad remarks to others about him when she dont reflect on himself, which is a disgrace!
Shameful!!!!!!

I sometimes wonder why people can cooked up story and make the story seems like she is not at fault and others are!
It is not fair at all.

My sister always tell me her attitude is like that just ignore her.
How can we ignore her when she keep and continued to be like this.
it is like a diease that will continued to spread in times to come lo.
She is old enough to think and learn.
If we dont treat her she will never changed!
But well, since she thinks that this is the best of all now because she is still getting what she wanted!
Only will she realised that what is important just like when she was ill!
She will regret it BIG TIMES!!!


I have out grown of all this now as i have grown older and mature and i have a son to think for.
I will NEVER behave like my mum towards my son, as it is just the actions of a beast!

I never regret giving birth to Isaac nor getting married at young then divorced because i met him and till date.

Life is always unfair if we are going to judge it, it is only how we can make it better and see sunshine each morning when u wake up.

We can grumble, complaint and all sorts of things. If we dont make and effort to change, nothing can be changed and u will still be the same u today, tml and forever!

I chose to buy a house even it is costly to stay on our own, but at least i got shelter and i am not afraid that one day someone might not want me anymore or what!

I remember i ahve to beg my mum & sister to let me go back and stay when he is not around and i cant pay my rental flat!

I seriously hate them to the core at that time and i was like, i ened to BEG just to go back?

i cried so much during that period of time till he came back.
I swear that i will never want to suffer this kind of life anymore.

I will make sure that i will not step into that hole again.

I did went back la, but not long i am out again!

it was never easy to be me from all the way till now.
I must continued and give the best to myself and my family!

My back ached when i sneeze, guess it is the backache problem again, i hate it man, so pain.
All because of the epdurial and the confirnment period never watched lo, young mah!

I nag too much today.
EMO days



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Thursday, March 26, 2009

Today is Thursday already and next Monday will be HDB collection of keys, non actual.

Just read my Maggie blog and she had her toe nail dropped off.
She described as very pain and i am seriously very scared for Isaac already.
He take it as nothing but i am worrying every minutes!
Hais.
He haven know the seriousness of the after effect i guess.


Last night no revision too, as i watched TV.
OK
=(
Sorry


I saw on TV the Lor Mee at Bendemeer seems very nice, wanted to go and try Le, but got to wait see he free not.

My man is very busy DE and he wont have time even on weekend sometimes.
Ask him to call or do something also no time, which pissed me off badly at times.
What to do, he is like that and we have to be understanding at times.
I over grown it already being non understanding, maybe i am older as i aged!
=)

After Monday, 26 days later, i will have full access to the house, yes.
I am just waiting man!
=)

Money, time, cleaning, effort is going to be used up in April, May 2009.

After i moved in, not long got to save money for HK trip and yes i will put aside $ for my BKK trip which i have made it a point to go yearly for praying and eating not to mentioned shopping.
This time round, i am thinking if i should bring my Mr Isaac along. Haha

Last experience was not really that good but well still bearable.
He is my son mah!
Giving up tonnes of shopping for him is still worth it,
WHY i said so, because, the last time i went with him, was the least shopping and buying that i did for all the times i went BKK.

Carrying him is enough or equal to searching for cheap clothes plus the weather in BKK is just scrogging hot.

The applause goes to Mr Ang more then me as he carried him 99% and my bags too if there is any, me was 1%, because i am a girl and i am more weak la.

Better said, he Doted on me la!!!!

This HK trip we have already decided to bring a pram haha, so we can be free and easy.
I will want to spend my 5 days quality time there, not just eating and eating.
All that i want

I also have the thoughts to moved to HK and stayed for good because of the food and also the weather, but the living standard there is higher then Singapore. haha.
House is smaller then in Singapore!!!!!!

But, their food!!!!!
OMG BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Their dim sum, porridge, everything is so cheap, i make sure i myself must gain weight before i come back from HK.

=0)

Waiting for him to reply and see if he wants to meet me and queue for the lor mee together not haha, 80% cant DE la, hee.
Dreaming also good lo.

I slept at 10plus yesterday and realised that my HB worked till 3am then reached home.
tsk Tsk

Are u tired?

I am tired despite sleeping at 10plus haha.

Do u know i called my maid agency yesterday.
Asked him if there are maid availability.
he told me something which i want to luff!

Indonesian is having their election and there wont be much maid coming in till Jun or Jul 2009 haha, unless u want transfer maid which is not so good la!!!!

Lolsss, got money also no maid!
He said u hire me now first lo, i was like nvm, call me when their election finished.
=)

Maid so high demand now?
Thought times are bad?
People cutting down already?

I think because Singaporean family all got baby la and got to work that why la.

I am one of them
=)

Am i or AM i not?

Answer is what Le?


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Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Pissed off very badly

I am so pissed off by my office HR manager.
She sucks, and she look like a fucking RABBIT.
I hate her attitude and she is unfair in alot of things she does.
I wonder how she passed her HR certificate and everything.
I wonder why she can bootlick and yet act like nothing have happen!

Such people should just vanish from the air and just die off right on the spot!

She only love to talk to the people that she loves else you will be treated like junk!
She is a piece of dumb shit!

Alot of people dont like her but they cant voice it out as we are lower in post unlike them.

This is so unfair!
=(

I seriiously want some guys to raper her man.

Fuck off from my life!


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I just finished my Burger King breakfast!

Full is the word i can said now.
BTW, it is kinda salty for Burger King, i dont like i prefer LJS or MAC.

I am a happy woman as last night he brought me my favourite Yong Tao Foo from Tampines Market, but i got to cook it myself la.
=)

It was nice but he buy not too many so in the end he asked me one question.

Him: i went to Tampines to buy this, only got like that?
Me: Ya lo, u buy abit wrong lei.
Him: Hmmmm, i went to buy but i ate only 2 pieces!
Me: Oh ya, juts now u walked away i pinched 3 pieces and i packed some for tml lunch for work!
Him: OH OK!
Me: Go buy again la, but call me when ur there.
Him: KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKkkk

Me continued talking, but he ignore him like i am transparent!
=)

I keep talking to him yesterday and he asked me to shut up!
SAD

Hmmm, my son told me something yesterday!

He was eating his apple that i peel for him.

Me: Smoking
Son: Mummy dont smoke.
Me: ? Why
Son: Girl cannot smoke. No smoking
ME: Then u can smoke?
Son: No la, cannot only daddy can smoke!
Me: Why?
Son: Because Daddy is naughty!
Me: Fainted

Aiyo sometimes he just stunned me with words and his actions.

i am so lazy recently that i never bugged him to do his work and learn how to write all because of tjhe Channel 8 show la, Aiyo.

I am a bad mother, lazy to teach hais.
I need to buck up already.
I cant forever be so lazy!

i keep got this excuse that i gave myself, haha. When i move house then i teach him haha. I doubt so i will la, So i need to do so now.

I love my son but sometimes his actions make me angry yet when i look at him, i dont feel so already haha.

I need to renew the dog license too. Expire in April!
GG to neature him also i think as after that the license fees will be cheaper!
$14 and without is $70.

I told himt aht day what if he go F other dog then pregnant how, he refuse to talk to me haha, said i lame!
true what!!!!
Who knows what will happen!!!
=)

My boss suddenly went to Malaysia, dunno wad happen. Hope is nothing serious!

next Monday will be going to HDb, but actual collection is only 20 April, haha. I can only open the bloody door on 26 april haha.
Supertious chinese la, wad to do, my husband is one of them!
=(

nevermind la, i already abit sian already stop worrying about this already.

i sms himt his morning and tell him that shall we bring in the maid earlier?
He said maybe after our HK trip then we will hire already, meaning more expenses.

Hope we can cope with it!!!!!!

Monthly expenses needed for the house will be around 1K including maid i think haha.

Sigh, all are talking about money!!
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Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Poor Isaac

I was in the meeting the whole day yesterday and i only had my lunch at 4pm, can u imagine that!!!
=(

Damn hungry lo, nearly fainted inside, i think they are all beast and bastard who dont need to eat and they dont care about others if they are hungry or not de!
Horrible.

I went back home around 7pm, as he came to fetch me and son lo.
=)

Did not eat dinner till 9pm, while watching TV, i cook Campbell soup to drink and ZZZ at 10.30pm, as he went supper with his boss and collegues.

He claimed he came back at 11pm, haha.

last night as i was looking at son toe, i realised that, the infection is almost gone, but but, the toe nails seems to be drying up because of the cream and causing it to be seperate from the flesh.

Now he dont feel pain nor anything, when i asked him, but i am worried as it seems like a time bomb only when the time is ripe then it will drop off lo.

I am worried can he walk?
Can he wear slipper?
Will it be painful for him?

i am typical mother i know, haven happen think so much already!

I sms him and said, aiyo how come not ur toe dropping off, better then son de, he said i am cruel haha.

I said, YES mah, u adult, he kid le!
So poor thing.

I seriously wonder what trigger this toe infection as i wash his covered shoes reguraly and bathe him, wash his leg whenever he is back home le.

Damaged and Infected Toenails

Toenails take about 12 month to grow. If they are damaged by trauma or infection, then it will be a full year before you have a healthy nail again. The commonest injury to a toenail is stubbing it or dropping something on it. This can cause a haemorrhage under the nail. The toenail will be exquisitely tender with a blood clot visible underneath. You can get instant relief by making a small hole in the nail and releasing the blood. If you are brave, you can do this yourself with a needle. Most GP surgeries would do this during opening hours. The next commonest injury is bruising caused by repetitive injury in bad footwear, for example after a long walk or an energetic game of squash. This black toenail will take about a month to drop off and a year to grow back again.

Fungal toenail infections are very common, affecting about 1 in 10 people. The toenail will be yellow and crumbly and the surrounding skin may be inflamed. The commonest cause is T. rubrum which also causes athlete’s foot. It can be treated by a special nail varnish which can only be obtained on prescription. It must be painted on the nail twice week for a whole year and is not cheap. You must only start treatment if you are prepared to carry on for a year. Alternatively, there is now a tablet containing terbinafine which can be taken daily for 3 months which does the same job. It is a prescription only medicine which is very expensive. Diabetics should certainly treat toenail infections which cause cellulites if left unattended.

I google, then found this, some site claimed that it takes about 2-12 months for toe nails to be grown back totally!

Can someone tell me, if it affects the walking of a kids if their nails are drop off!

Toenail Fungal Infection

Skin diseases often affect both sexes equally. However, there are exceptions, such as the superficial tinea infections. For instance, tinea of the groin preferentially affects males, as does tinea pedis of the feet. In turn, tinea pedis is a risk factor for tinea of the toenails, making males more prone to this troubling condition.[1]

What Is Onychomycosis?
Onychomycosis (fungal toenail infections) may be caused by yeasts, nondermatophyte molds, or superficial dermatophytes that also cause tinea infections of the skin.[2-4] More than 90% of toenail fungus cases are caused by Trichophyton rubrum, a common source of superficial dermatological tineas.[3] Onychomycosis caused by superficial dermatophytes is known as tinea unguium. Onychomycosis may be superficial, affecting only the tip of the nail, or it can involve the entire nail.[5]

How Common Is Onychomycosis?
Onychomycosis accounts for 40% to 50% of all nail dystrophies.[2] It has a prevalence in Americans as high as 13%.[3,6,7] It is increasing in incidence; T rubrum on the feet of immigrants to the United States from countries with high infection rates may be the cause.[7] The risk of onychomycosis in adults is 30 times higher than in children.[2,7]

Possible causal factors are peripheral vascular disease, traumatic nail abnormalities, polypharmacy, and poor foot hygiene.[5] Certain activities are linked to onychomycosis. Swimming is a risk factor, perhaps because of prolonged exposure of the nails to moisture, with accompanying cuticle and skin maceration.[8] Further, the floors of locker rooms and swimming facilities are usually heavily contaminated with fungi.[3] Certain medical conditions (e.g., psoriasis, diabetes mellitus, tinea pedis) are risk factors for onchomycosis, as is wearing occlusive or poorly fitting footwear.[7]

Classification of Onychomycosis
Understanding the varying forms and severities of onychomycosis helps the pharmacist refer patients as needed.

Distal/Lateral Subungual Onychomycosis.
The most common variant of onychomycosis is distal/lateral subungual onychomycosis, a condition usually caused by T rubrum.[3] The nail is abnormally colored (white or brown) along the lateral edges of the upper distal areas and may be eroded. Unless aggressively treated, the fungus may spread across the entire nail bed. The nail becomes brittle and may disintegrate and flake away with repeated shoe contact. The nail beneath the abnormal area experiences subungual hyperkeratosis with loosening and possible onycholysis (loss of the nail). Thus, the pharmacist must urge the patient to seek treatment from a podiatrist/physician as soon as possible. The pharmacist may suggest concomitant treatment of the surrounding skin, which is also frequently affected with a tinea and can be easily treated with OTC antifungals (i.e., Lotrimin AF, Lamisil AT).

Superficial White Onychomycosis.
This uncommon toenail fungus is usually caused by Tinea mentagrophytes.[3] It initially affects the upper nail surface, extending to the nail bed and area beneath the nail.[7] The nail develops small powdery white speckles or patches, with roughening, crumbling, and/or flaking on the surface. Surrounding skin is seldom affected and the nail usually remains intact.

Proximal Subungual Onychomycosis.
This toenail fungus involves the proximal area beneath the nail bed; it is most common in immunosuppressed patients and is usually caused by T rubrum.

Candidal Onychomycosis.
This may be seen in patients whose feet are constantly wet. With continued water exposure, the cuticle loosens from the nail plate, and microorganisms enter the exposed area. Eventually, the patient develops an overt infection (paronychia). As the cuticle continues to loosen, the organisms penetrate further. To break this cycle, the foot must dry; antibiotics may be needed.

Total Dystrophic Onychomycosis.
In this condition, the nail plate is virtually eradicated. If untreated, any of the four variants may proceed to this degree.

What Mimics Onychomycosis?
Toenail fungus may be confused with other nail dystrophies such as traumatic damage, psoriasis, senile ischemia, a tumor of the nail bed, peripheral vascular disease, atopic dermatitis, contact dermatitis, lichen planus, and yellow nail syndrome (i.e., discolored nails, lymphedema, lichen planus).[2,5] Hypoalbuminemia, cirrhosis, and striate leukonychia can induce whitening of the nails resembling a fungus.

Diagnosis
Treatment for onychomycosis should not be initiated solely based on visual examination, as the most common cause for apparent treatment failure is an incorrect diagnosis.[3] Other nail dystrophies resemble onychomycosis too closely to confirm the presence of fungi. Prior to initiating treatment, the podiatrist/physician may choose to rule out nonfungal causes by examining nail scrapings under a microscope.

Complications
Some patients and professionals see onychomycosis as an inconsequential cosmetic problem. However, because the nail supports and protects the toe and helps the foot work, onychomycosis can affect standing, walking, and exercising.[7] It can cause pain, paresthesia, and loss of dexterity, as well as morbidity interfering with work and school. Older men (especially those with diabetes or peripheral vascular disease) have an increased risk of cellulitis and limb loss.

Treatment Guidelines
Treatment of onychomycosis is often unsuccessful. Some therapeutic options require sufficient time for the nail to entirely regrow, which may take as long as 12 months for toenails.[3] Options include oral or topical medications. Although the patient may be satisfied only if the nail can return to a normal appearance, this may not be realistic, since patients may have a nail dystrophy that preceded the fungal pathology. Thus, eradication of fungi may only return the nail to the appearance it had with the original dystrophy.

First-Generation Oral Antifungals.
For many years, onychomycosis therapy consisted of griseofulvin or ketoconazole. These first-generation antifungals were unreliable, with relapse rates of 70% to 85%; they required prolonged therapy (as long as 18 months); laboratory monitoring was essential to detect organ damage; and each had numerous adverse effects.[6,7]

Second-Generation Oral Antifungals.
The two oral second-generation antifungals currently available in the U.S. are terbinafine and itraconazole. They are more effective than griseofulvin and can cure onychomycosis.[9] Both act by inhibiting ergosterol, a critical component of the fungal cell membrane.[3,6] Both remain in the nail long after they are no longer detectable in plasma, leading to the novel pulse therapy.

Terbinafine (Lamisil) inhibits squalene epoxidase, halting the conversion of squalene to squalene epoxide in the process used by fungi to create ergosterol, causing cell death (a fungicidal effect).[6,10] Squalene accumulation may also be fungicidal.[3] The adult dose for toenail infection is 250 mg orally daily for 12 weeks (six weeks for fingernails).[7] It may also be pulsed at 500 mg orally daily for one week each month for four months for toenails (or two months for fingernails).
In most studies, terbinafine is of superior efficacy to continuous itraconazole therapy, with lower relapse rates.[3,6,11-13] Even then, failure rates with terbinafine are consistently as high as 20% to 30%.[3] Terbinafine is well tolerated by most patients, although urticaria, erythema multiforme, and hepatotoxicity have been reported.[14]

Itraconazole (Sporanox) inhibits cytochrome P-450, which also affects ergosterol synthesis, slowing cell growth as a fungistatic agent. The adult nonpulse dose for toenails is 200 mg orally daily for 12 weeks. The adult pulse dose for toenails is 200 mg orally twice daily for one week, followed by three treatment-free weeks, and repeated for three pulses.

In July/August 2001, the FDA warned consumers about oral antifungals in FDA Consumer.[15] The agency announced that oral Lamisil and Sporanox were linked to serious liver problems resulting in liver failure, the need for transplantation, and death. New labeling cautioned the consumer that health care professionals should confirm nail fungus through laboratory testing before prescribing the drugs. The FDA also described cardiac events related to drug interactions with Sporanox, announcing that new labeling would warn about the interactions and suggesting that Sporanox not be given to patients with evidence of cardiac dysfunction. The FDA encouraged patients and professionals to report adverse events associated with the drugs to the FDA MedWatch program (phone: 800-332-1088; fax: 800-332-1078; mail: MedWatch, HF-2, FDA, 5600 Fishers Lane, Rockville, MD 20857; Web address: www.fda.gov/medwatch).

Topical Antifungals.
Ongoing uncertainty about safety of oral antifungals makes a topical agent attractive. A topical nail lacquer (Penlac) containing 8% ciclopirox is the first topical antifungal agent approved by the FDA for onychomycosis.[16,17] Its mechanism may involve chelation of iron and aluminum.[18] Fungal cells degrade intracellular peroxides through metal-dependent enzymatic reactions.
When iron and aluminum are unavailable, a lethal accumulation of peroxides may result. In manufacturer-sponsored studies on patients with 20% to 65% involvement of the nail plate of the large toe, Penlac produced a clear nail and negative mycology in 5.5% to 8.5% of patients, and negative mycology alone in 29% to 36% of patients. It is indicated for mild to moderate T rubrum infections that do not involve the lunula.
A professional should remove the unattached, infected nails as often as every month. The patient should not take oral antifungal medications concomitantly. Patients should apply Penlac evenly to the entire nail plate and 5 mm of surrounding skin.
If the nail is free of the nail bed, the patient should attempt to apply Penlac underneath the nail.
During the 48-week therapy, the patient should avoid nail polish and nail cosmetics. Once weekly,
the patient should remove accumulated coatings with alcohol and file away loose nail material with an emery board and trim the nails periodically.

Pharmacists should advise all patients with toenail fungus to see a podiatrist or family physician for proper care.


I shall start praying that his toes is fine and PLS dont drop off!
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Monday, March 23, 2009

Weekend was spend lazing around at home on Saturday as son is with him.

Had dinner at Cafe Cartel, had spaggetti and he had ribs.
Hmm, the rib standard drop la, not so nice already, too sweet to our liking, but over all was cheap as had 15% discount with Citibank card!!
:)

Watched movie at Cathay, Bloody Valentine, 3D de not bad lo, just that the spectacles is damm annoying and it was too small for me.
=(

Keep dropping same for him too, so i was like abit giddy haha.

Went home after that and KO.

Not much into night life now, rather slack at home and watch TV or DVD haha.

Watching my son sleep or move around although he is very noisy, i felt great, he is my everything, i wonder how would i be if i chose to let go off him 5 years back?
Would i be the same me?
Would i feel more happy?
NO is my answer.

I have never regret to keeping son at my side, today he is my everything which in daily life i cant do without him!
He bring joy to my life and sunshine everyday!

He is my everything, my love.
=)

Sunday, we went to purchase the steamer for clothes and also dinning table at Woodland and his car air con got abit of problems, he was like =( black black face.

Then went AMK NTUC to buy grocery and then dinner then home sweet home.

I bathe then talk abit then ZZZ suddenly on the bed and i was like awake at around 10+ while he was watching TV haha.
From then on the worst came.
I CANT SLEEP till like 4am.

today i woke up early la, 7.25am, haha.
Cant sleep no point dragging liao!
=(

I talked to my grandmother yesterday.
I felt great!!!!
=)

It's been a long times since i talked to her heart to heart already since i rarely went up to her place as i was in the North N she was in the East!

I complained and rant. =)

She is still as nice as ever!

Since i was young my mum sent me there every school hoiliday and weekend.
So all i have was my grandmother or my aunty house people to care for me.

Up to today, i still duno the reason why she likes to sent me there and it was one whole month lo.
When she is at home, not working, but she will never sent my sister over.
I was kinda imbalance when i was to go home and stay when i was going secondary school, thus i think this caused me to be rebelious and hate her.

I only stopped hating her when i gave birth and i still do, at times.
Not that i am petty nor what.
is the kind of feeling that u have since as a kids, UNFAIR!!!

So now whenever i see someone been UNFAIR and also baised, i will be damm angry!!!
i cant stand it as i felt that it is no good for anyone!

I swore to give my son the best of what i can when i was pregnant with him and yes i did that but maybe he have a complicated family life but i will make him feel nothing of it!
=(

This is not his fault and i shall not make him suffer for it.

My mum dont like me since i am young i think.
i was like the unwanted child and etc, well i out-grown of it already since i have my own family and i can afford for my son and everything.
I shall not let people defect me!!!

I ahve not gone home like for 3 weeks closed to a month, i dont feel anything, not SAD anymore!

I realised that if someone misses/ care about u, they will called u. If they dont do so!
It shows how they are and i should not be affected by it as i have better things to do also!!!!!!

Maybe she is having the best of her life now shopping and everything.
When everything come to a stop!
She will wake up but it will be too late.
Everything will not be in her favour anymore.

I got meeting later and i am like FUCK.
So annoying, keep ahving this kind of meeting and it is really useless.
Wasting time de lo!
It's from 10-6pm and sometimes it will just drag for nothing because they nv follow agenda!
WASTE of time and a bunch of fools!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I realised that the more i think of my house date to move in the longer it seems, hais i should just stop worrying about it then.

Now, my date that i have said earlier have to be postpon again due to the Chinese March which duno end when. Shit!!!!
=(

Well listen lo, no choice mah. old people keep nagging and he believes and it is going to be my house for like duno how many years, so i dont want got ghost inside la!

Pray pray pray!!!

i love isaac!

♥ 说好的幸福呢 ♥

Friday, March 20, 2009

One after another



I was very very pissed off last night that i lost my cool, normally i take the cane is just for show only. Not for canning, even if i want to cane, i will not use force, Ge Siao de.

Yesterday i just went crazy, locked the door and i screamed till i think the whole block can hear!
=)

I was watching TV in the living room and he came back early, ask me to go inside my room to watch TV rather then living room, so i OK lo.
I got the worst shock ever when i walk to the room.

I saw my son climbing on the window grills!
Not bad enough?
He was at the end, the highest grills to the ceiling.

I screamed at him and he was stunned to see me standing there.
He cried even before i walked to him!

God, i cane him till he can stand and cried till no sound already then i stop!
Haisssss.

Why do kids like to do this type of things when they know they are not supposed to do so.

I talked to him later after his crying and me cooling down.

Me: can u climb the window?
Son: NO
Me: Why u still climb?
Son: Quiet
Me: What will happen if u climb?
Son: Fall & die!!!!
Me: Haisss

Applied cream on his cane mark and carry him, but after about 10 minutes, he went his crazy way again!

I was like.....
Dint i just cane him and he was crying like mad?

Oh Kids are unpredictable just like us adults i think.

He claimed he have chest pain last night and i was singing song and moving around as i cant sleep, this morning he text me and said that lucky i sing song and pat him, that why he dont feel so pain.
I think he is suaning me, maybe i sing badly!!!
=(

I got another news yet after another.

Rememeber i said taht Chin Ming will only last for like 10 days then i can do my things etc already.
Now got latest things, NEW DE!!!

Now the whole month of April is so-called chinese March, which no one will mve house de!
=(

Meaning if i got my hosue at 20 April, i cant move in even i deceided to finish all my renovations by April 2009.

The best date to go in is actually they see calendar and it is on Mothers Day, Sunday, 10 May 2009.

I was like.......
=(

Hais.

We see la.
I also really dont know how long my renovation will take and also, the worker fast or lazy.

Nevermind, just wait till 30 Mar, go HDB and see if the lady decide to take the extension again anot la.

Yes, then wait till 20 April lo, till she move lo.

Then i will need to go see my hosue what are the thing that need to be done.

And meanwhile i will focus on my packing then.

I have tonnes of things in the room and i dont know where to start from.

BTW, i hate moving house as it is reallty tiring!
Packing and unpacking.

i also asked him, is there something where we can just throw all the things inside and then throw into the new house and slowly packed from there anot,
SAD
There is no such things yet at the moment.

I am asking him to source for me card boxes already if not i will order and he said i waste money and petty as he is late in reply.
=)

I told him no drty card boxes!
Else i shall pack him and lock in 501 forever!

I thought i was nearer to my dreamhome, yet it is like another 40 days more.

I can survivie till now to getting my house, paying money, saving money and viewing house.
I am great!

Do u know i am the one who source for agent and house as he is busy and dont have time.

i am the one who arrange the timing for viewing and everyting.
so u can see how eager i am, to want to move out of the house!

His mum is nicet his morning,
She pan fried my ahm for me and egg so i brought bread to work.

When we move, think all the clothes we have to wash ourself already, haha, now i never wash anything, just wear that all.
Not that i am lazy KK...
I wash my own mattress cover etc de.
They have special rule about washing females & males so i cant stick to it and dont listen so im banned from washing lo
=)

ps: IM NOT LAZY!

I already told him that when we move house before the maid come, he have to do the same things as now.
But with more role and responsibility.
MAN ma!
=)

I already fixed a schedule for him already.

there is one issue,
we are discussing, who bring the dog to walk every night!

=_="

BTW i have not gone up to my mum place since like 2 weeks ago.
He fetch me home everyday after my work at 6 and i reached home like 6.20pm, bathe, dinner and i was like ready even before 8pm.

This is wonderful!

Time is more and i can do what i want!

I believ if my maid come, i will be home the same time like now already as i dont have to detour to fetch son everyday!

Save EZLINE $$$ and time also and i can go library after work or even to walk the dog.

I am not wrong so one day she dont apologise i will not go back!

I am not turtle!
u will come to me soon...
When ur party events are over and ur alone.
trust me.
People are never fair and they are deceiving animals!
Espically man.

they lie the most and as often as u visit the toilet!

We shall see.

♥ 说好的幸福呢 ♥

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Not feeling well

This morrning it rain and i dont feel well last night.
Flu & blocked nose before sleeping so ate medicine and very fast KO liao haha till i wake up late due to laziness la, weather cold, sleepy, tired!

Yesterday i cook spagetti for dinner as i dont want to eat the rice that his mum cook.
I dont fancy la, i love the foods she dont eat at home de.
Haha, so i can just eat cereal if there is no food lo.

I dont really fancy steam fish, veggie soup la, as it can be for like whole week same de lo.
Gosh!

A happier note, i got my 2nd appointment letter already and the date is 30 March 2009 at 3.15pm.
Meaning i got to take half day leave liao lo.
=)
I am still happy.

The sad thing is that i have to give her 3 week extension, which i know i have said many times haha. =)

i asked my friend yesterday something whom i thought we were very close with and in the end, i doubt so afterall already.

I realised if someone who is not sincere in telling u things, u should not asked already as it happen to me.

Well, it's over!

Maybe this is what we called selfish bah.
I always thought that information should be shared if we know, but i was wrong.
She was not like that.
Nevertheless.

I have my own affairs to bothered.

I shall not be Miss Nice and let people know more information that i know already.

SELFISH is the word that is most important lesson today!
=(

Well, our house is almost prepared, except for some minnor touch up which i felt that the amount spend is going to be huge.
=(

i am going to bear the agent fees myself, not taking from my mum already as i dont want her to have anything to said about me when next times, things happen.

Called me arragont/ proud or wadever.

I believe i can make it myself even if this is the money that i have hard earned save!

I shall not let people look down on me nor my family.

I shall be whm i am!

I can afford whatever then i will do, else we just wait as per discuss with him last night.
He's tired last night, did not listen to what i said, going scream at him or so called nag again tonight.
=)

I called one contractor yesterday, his hp off then he called so many times. Lols
So hard for sales haha.

Wow, i just found out that one toilet door is so damm expensive, $250 each.
zzz

I just want to install 2x wash basin, 2x toilet door will cost me around $750 to $800.
Gosh!

Need to check with him already regards to this.

Godness
=(

A friend in need is not a friend in deed.

Last statement, depend on ourself rather then others, unless we are really hard up and no choice, then got to suck up to others lo.
If possible, dont be a suckers!

I can only move in end April, after renovations done, although minnor but it take times too.
Money is an issue too.

I wanted to book air ticket but now cant anyhow liao as an when i want already, more commiments.

Plus i am flying to Hk soon after i move into my house, all talking about money, aiyo!

i still want to fly to BKK next year again, which i have decide it ahve to be an yearly affair, to pray and also eat, shop, relax, after a long and hard working year.


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Wednesday, March 18, 2009

=)

My son leg is almost receovering and yes he can wear slipper already.

The teacher called me yesterday and i was sad to hear what she mentioned.

She mentioned that why i still bring Isaac to school when his leg haven recover?
I was like ......
There is no one to look after him at school and i paid so much is to have someone to look after him while i am at work.
=(
he is not down with flu nor fever which can be spread.
It is just his leg and it is non spreadable.
I think it is just the teacher who are lazy that why, they might be scare that someone will step on his toe or what they are not watching.

hais....

Whenever i go work or Sunday come, the worst thing i want to know is that Isaac is ill or what.
I have to called and sometimes beg people to help me to look after my son like please, i dont like to but sometimes there are no choices u see as my leave is limited.

If i got leave i will look after myself just like last week, the thought of begging others is not nice and people take me for granted or like a fool telling me answer tat i can even come up with myself.

His mum, we dont said, because she is unlikely to look after even if son is sick unless is his brother kids.
She will give kind of face if we asked her not to go wk and help.
i can understand la, she wk so can have money we dont give her so it fine with me!!!!
Sometimes they are just biased, when it come to kids.
I know i have said these many times already but sometimes when u are me or staying there u will know the feeling already.

That is why sometimes people said that, blood is thicker then water. It applies to me that it seems true.
he is not like that la. Better.
Sometimes when he come back from work, tired, he will attitude lo.
he is not showering me with love recently, i cant talk to him for long as he will fall asleep.
I am so angry tat i kick him when he is sleeping without him knowing of cas!
=)
he will apologise the next day la, i know he is tired i should not have force him to talk.
Sorry

This week son have not been doing any work plus i am lazy so it kinda my fault too!
=(
I ahve to let him do his work already,
last week he is sick so i allow him to watch cartoon then he thought it is the same this week, hais who ask me want to watch the Channel 8, 9pm show la, really very nice la.
Aiyo i should start to ask him to do his work already.

He will be going over this weekend to stay.
Hope he bring him to all the class.

No news from HDB, =(

Yea, BTW i am late today haha, boss in Malaysia also haha. Slack la.

Waiting to see if he can come meet me for lunch later if he can make it.

Muacks.

Met him for lunch at Bugis lo,
tata

So aimless i know
♥ 说好的幸福呢 ♥

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Just for fun




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:)

Yesterday he cant make it to fetch me home soi took a cab back as per requested by Mr Isaac la.

He refused to seat the MRT nor bus, claiming his leg is pain and there is no seat etc!
=(

I went home last night thou early, but i never eat dinner. =(
His mum dunno cook what or maybe gor kids at home so she cant cook, lucky i got cereal so i ate that with son lo.
Haha after which we eat tibits.
Then watch TV and wait for him to buy dinner back for me.
Brought back the black noodle for me from 339.

I really love the Channel 8 9pm show haha, so funny yet sometimes so Lo So espically the part by Xian Yun.
Maybe she is old but need to act younger by 2 years old that why and her character is like Paranoid type so that explains.
=)

I received a call from my dad and he told me that there is a letter for me and i thought that it was from HDB!!!
=(
No la!
It is TAX!!!!!!!!!!!!!
make me happy for nothing.
hais....

Anyway we have already decided on the sofa for our new house already.
=)
Will be getting from seahorse at Jurong Point.
I never really seat on it nor see it, told by Mr Ang, since got discount, he said nice then we buy it lo.
I told him not to tell me the price already regards to the sofa,
Just buy and i paid haha.

i dont want to keep looking for it then last min like very rush then nothing seems to catch my eyes to be exact!
I am picky la.

there is nothing much for us to worry about for our house already as almost all things are ready and gotten.
Maybe just like cables, painting, floor, toilet , and etc la.
We need to see the actual house when vacant la, else the rest very hard to determine.

HDB never call me regards to this week 20 March, so i think it wont be this week anymore.
:(
Maybe next week, but by next week we know that they never called, means that it will be end Mar liao.
Confirm.

Sometimes, i just like to wonder why HDB take things and do things slowly.
Like example, the house is vacant, they can take months and process and tell u the key available is not ready etc.
Got ghost staying inside?
:)

paperwork is not so much of a hard work, actaully all are been done since 1st appointment. it just take like after
` Submission of "Purchase to buy"----->
` 6 weeks to 1st appointment --------->
` 6 weeks to 2nd appointment

Total it will be like 12 weeks, waiting for nothing.
LOLssss

Well i should stop thinking about it and relax and maybe time will flies by faster!

Hopefully!!!!!!

This week is only the 4th week, still got extra 3 weeks also!

hais,
i think too much.

Suddenly as i blog, my chest is really pain, actually it is already pain since morning when i wake up!
:(

i am scare.

Son is funny, he talked to my tummy yesterday like there is an alien inside or on my naval stud!!!!!
LOL

I should recorded it down, damm hirliaous.

Bye, going to see what is wrong with my PC, i accidently click on something and it went hay wire. Shiat!!!

Sofa brought already :)
Delivery end April! unless changes la.


April is a good month for answer also!
I need to know alot of things!
=)

Yes or No?
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Monday, March 16, 2009

Last week was a very fruitful and nervous week for me.

First, on Wednesday night, while making son to bed, he cried and keep throw temper that want to watch cartoon etc.
I said NO. Continued my TV, suddenly, thought he went to bed as he was silent, covered his face with his blanket.
I had a horror when i removed the blanket.
His eyes is swollen and it is horrible and scary,
i quickly text him and told him. Lucky he is on his way back and we went to the 24 hour clinic ASAP.
People keep looking at my son like he is a monster or what, i stared at them to make them look away!
It worked!!

So no school for him on Thursday, i got to take leave lo.
GREAT!!!

Next came something more shocking,

he told me his right toe is pain, i see NOTHING lo.
So i apply cream for him.

The very next day!
IT SWELL & INFECTED.
I was like OMFG
Then no choice go see doctor again lo. What to do .
He told me it is normal as it dried up then will recover, but i KS la, haha, keep thinking wait got to ampuate his toes etc how. Haha.
Visited the doctor liao, if the infected part have not totally come out by 4-5 days, will have to go to KKH to removed the toe nails to removed the residue,
EEEk
The moment i hear this i am like. WHAT!
Er Xin to ehar la.

Well.

i have been on leave since Thursday, Friday, no work on weekend and here i am at work today!

Shag!!

Have not been sleeping well lately duno why, cant sleep while others are happily in their dreamland, i am still tossing around, brain active and keep thinking, hais i want a break la!
:(

Yesterday at home was so frusting, i saw the horrible side of his dad and i cant said much because i am staying at his place so no matter he is right or wrong, we cant say anything.

he is too BIASED till i think all people cant stand it except himself.
Hais, i just pity the poor kid.

I rather they stay home and dont come at all not that i dont like.
At least at home , their mum might be bad but then still not biased and the oldest son will know what is right and wrong, over here, he keep lie and just lie all the way because he know there is someone to side him, which i think it is wrong!

Kids dont know how to think, how can old man like his age cant think also?

Lucky i am going out of this place and my son wont be affected!

i can never understand why people behave this way.
It is totally not right, either u LOVE or dont LOVE.
They are still kids yet u pratise this type of things, as they grow how can they take it?

Xxxxxx old foggy, u better wake up from ur dreams, u caused your son that u loved alot to behave this way by cheating and lying, stealing, you should realised that it is wrong. I hope u dont want ur future grandson to behave this way same like ur son the one that u claimed you loved and pamper the most.
It's wrong!
WAKE UP

On a better note,
i went to see the sofa yesterday already!
I found the one that i want already.
It cost me around $500+
he claimed it's expensive
=(
I told him i will pay for it haha,
We did saw cheaper one but then the quality and seating patterns not shiok la,
haha.
I love to watch TV, so i need a good quality sofa haha.
i will not cooped inside my room once i moved lo.
=)

I shall walked around the whole house haha.
Till i am tired la.

My dad called me yesterday and told me i got letter, i wonder is it HDB?

today is already the 16 liao. Hopefully i can go by this week, Friday?
Lets pray!!!!!!
=)

BTW he allow mw to buy my microwave already.
So sweet of u hor!
KNS.
U should know why i said so, if you are reading.

I seriously need some sleep and stop thinking about my house.
Too paranoid already, aiyo, KS also.
I just cant stop thinking that i am going to move and into my own house la.
Aiyo why time dont pass by faster then normal.

We both have decide that once we move, we shall hire the maid already as, last week was enough for us.
Lucky because i still got leave!
If we both dont have and DIE lo.

We shall open our eyes and pray we got the best maid!

God pray!!!

Ya forgotten that son did not go to both his class last week as he claim he cant WALK!
He can run and jump at home BTW while playing.
he is a baby couch last weekend on bed.
With both of us sleeping at 12am, waking up at 12pm, napping at 2pm till 7pm from Thursday till Saturday!
:)

He brought me my chicken rice that i saw on TV also!
:)
Greatly appreciated him for that because he have to queue 45minutes for that.
But i am sad because i dont get to eat my Yong Tao Foo as it either closed or very very very long queue.
Guess after the TV fame is over then i eat bah!!!!!


♥ 说好的幸福呢 ♥

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Yummy

Just met him for lunch at Blanco Prawn noodle.
Nice

:)

So full now as we order other thing also.

The noodle standard is the same as the one at East Coast.

My craving is fulfil.
:0)

Haha.

next is till got alot of craving la, need to say meh.

i only like good food, else i will not put inside my mouth DE.
I can starve rather then eat non nice food.

i am starting to think what his mum is going to cook tonight haha.

I wonder, if i move should i boil the soup in the morning, then go back whip up a bit of dishes then can have dinner already.
Obviously no fried items la. Especially FRIED FISH!!!
I don't like because it will leave a pungent fishy smell in the house.

I am sensitive to it la, whenever i go back i smell got that kind of smell in the corridor i will know got fried fish.

His family love fried fish la, so it is kinda like their routine haha, or else steamed fish lo.

I am sian because they are coming on Saturday liao.
Plus the school holiday is next week if i am not wrong.
his brother is in the school down stair on Saturday.
No peace, rude, fight

I love to be alone and no peaceful i will go crazy.

The elder brother like to be cunning and i cant stand it.
Like to mess my room where i cant take it.

I love peace and silent. Son will listen to me and not run about but when they are here, i have to watch to see if they got beat my son anot. As it happen alot of times already.

Like example, they are playing then suddenly they will take the thing and hit my son on his head!

I cant beat them so i Will be pissed off!

I don't like my son to play with them but no choice u know kids if gt ple play with them they wont care what u said DE.

Please i want move out ASAP.
Since they gt classes every Saturday now!

Worst still.

If i move, then i bring son to class is so much nearer. Plus if he finished at 7pm instead of 6 also OK for me because i can just walked there now i got to take bus and walked back.
I can don't worry if it rained also.
Bring umbrella and walked also near haha.
No need worry abt etc. Even if he worked late also no problem.

I need to bring son to the art class held at my new hse there to try out, if its good.
If its good then i wont have to wait till April then enrol him there and the place is really far!
Got to take bus and walked some more is every Saturday 11.30am.
I can make it but my son dunno can make it anot then in the afternoon still got other class.

I want him to learn but not to the extend that i give him too much stress.

I am KIASU i think, but i find that he cant learn, read nor write unless with my help and hes 5 years old liao which make me worry more.

I have to be hardworking and make him learn his spelling tonight.

i went to popular wanting to purchase the ABC & NUMBERS wall chart, on 2ND thoughts i did not.
I rather buy when my new hse is here.
Wait ple complaint i stick things, they come make spoilt, Maybe i am paranoid.
But that true!!!!!
They are really horrible.

Not that i am that bad, please understand!

I wished time flies faster then normal for now till May 2009.

It is my final HSH.

Home Sweet Hme, here i come.




♥ 说好的幸福呢 ♥
Have been feeling so unwell for the past week.

Morning wake up wanna puke.

Night before sleep, like going cough, phlegm, wanna puke.

What is wrong with me?

I smoke lesser now already maybe one day one or two sticks only.

Once i smoke i feel like puking!

Just this morning, i ate sour plum on my way to work.
Saw a big packet this morning.
Haha, packet nearly 1/4 into my bag haha.

Wonder whose is it!!
:)

I am really waiting for the answer to certain thing.
Only time can tell.
April i will know.

Wonder will my 2ND appointment be on 16 to 20 March 2009?
Or end of Mar which is like 3 weeks more.
Then got to wait another 3 weeks which is mid April again then can start doing everything.

Time is not fast enough.
Money is not enough.

Oh no to mention.
he came and look for me during lunch time, brought me to Bugis the market there.
Hm the wanton mee i ate not bad la, but the uncle like so Giam Sia!!!

Hope he come today again haha.

Last night did not teach son write his spelling.
Lazy me
:(

Was watching TV la,
Actually i wanted to teach him tonight but i know gt new show come out Le.
Aiyo will faster teach him after the show finish only 1 hour
Because the 9pm show also very nice,
I wonder can we have more time before dinner?
Like can off from work at 4pm, so we have ample of time to do our things, before we relax!!!!!!!!!
:(
Which is no la.

i seriously dunno wad is wrong with me!
Hais
Son don't want to go school this morning again,
searching for his blanket then go back sleep, cried, kick, fighting with him haha, as he is the one who bring him to school and change him while iam still ZZZ till 8am then my turn wake up MA
:)

Sometimes my life is NT so bad la, but only when i have to take the train home from son school, i felt sick!

The maid will be hiring soon!
In April i will know weather the she will come ant, earlier or later only!!!!

30 days more only to know.

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Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Kinship is nothing to me now except My Ang family! :(





yesterday want back to my mum place and everything was going smoothly and i asked if anyone wanted Pizza, then they said yes, so i order and the man would only come at 10.30pm.

It was late already so i thought if i don't bathe at my mum home, i reached home and bathe it would be late, then i asked for the same thing again.

Again, i get the same response!
:(
I was so sad that i cried!

Why is it so important?
Can you bring it to grave?
It's not like you don't have it, nor cant spare!!!!

I was so angry i quarrel with her, took my bag and left.
She told me not to go up again nor will she fetch my son for me.
I said OK.

Seriously, i can go back myself, fetch my son.
The worst i can take a cab back if he is not free to sent me back as my son is refusing to take the train la.
Dunno what wrong with the train, he said scared!!!
:(
it is just that i want son to be close to you all that why i am willingly to go back and even i know that i have to wait till 10 plus till he come over after work!

All this i did no one appreciate.

You can jolly go be with Ur so called Mr Nice.
Hope one day he leave you, don't cried!
I am not being mean here.

People give you the family homely feeling and touch yet you push it away for a filthy person who treats you like dogs.
Serve you right if that day come.

When people start to have their own family and life, we shall see who will still care about you, since in the first place Ur the one who don't want it.

I can still remember vaguely, during son 1st year old birthday.
That was the time when i seriously getting sick of u!

You are the important one in my family, yet people who are least important then u turned up earlier then u.

The person who are supposed to prepared the food for BBQ came with only frozen food with no marination on it.
Nothing just all frozen food!

Guest was waiting and no sigh of food nor anything.

Ended up, i have to get from the nearby Cheers.

The whole thing is not fantastic.

Although i respect u, but u do not deserved that from me, as the role in you was never shown.
That is the reason why i only gave SON the best and not what i have received and gotten when i was young.

People NV understand always think that i am giving in to my son etc!

I am not!!!

I have always hated people who are BIASED because i am been treated like that before so i never like them.
They are just like beast to me.

When i was young i wasn't allowed to stay at home, if u were me how will u feel?
UR at home, not working, yet i cant go back.
I can only o to other people house during holidays and etc days when i am not studying.

U never accompany me to school before and even buy me food, but u did that to my sister for the whole 6 years!

You NV offered to help me unless i asked for it, u automatic offered for her.

I have never received any amount from you, since young, although my dad forget to leave my pocket money!
You refuses to give me i got no choice got to call my dad back home!
You NV did this to her.

You are unfair!

I always emphasis that i HATE unfair, BIASED people.
You knew it why did you do the same.
Behave this way.

Times and times you NV repent

How many years can you continued!
I am not cursing.
Stating the facts!

Well nevertheless,
Things are this way then it shall be continued this way, as it is your character. Your self being.

i am lucky i am married once again and my own place is going to be ready in May 2009.

This is why i insist to have a place of my own even i know that i will be Xin Ku.

no matter how bad Ur are, angry, whatever so. No one can chase u out of UR HOUSE!!!!
We will have SHELTER under my head.

We will not get to see the ugly side of human being as they are uglier then beast!
Hiding under the clothing of innocent rabbit
Fook u!!!!!!!!!!!!

I shall do the same to u the next time, if there is a chance you have to come up my place!
The same treatment to u!
I shall se ehow ur reaction will be.

No wonder alot of people say in order to depend on people why not on yourself when u can simply do that.

Meanwhile, i am starting to find money to pay for my agent!
I have decided not to use Ur money already!
I don't want u to have things to said abt me when Ur angry nor what!
U want to give people money, pls give it with a willingly heart!
Else don't bothered, keep it for Ur own use, or buy coffin use!

I am nasty because u are never nice to me!

People who read this might find that i am very bad.

When u try putting yourself in my shoes u will realise that why i am reacting this way, just because of a small issue.

Because in the first place Ur never nice to me, calculative, mean, stingy, heartless, only care abt Ur own self!
U have good life that enough.

when u have no one to go out with u, u will call me.
I am not spare tyre.
Why, when u call me i rather stay home and sleep then go out with u.
THE REASON IS -
U have no where to go then u call me, am i really something spare?
NO I AM NOT!

A happier note, i love my own family.
Will continued to do so, even he upset me once in a while and son make me angry!
We love one another because we treasure and placed them in our heart unlike U!
U will come to belive on day who are the one that are only good to u, that time to regret is too late.


I love my ANG FAMILY!



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Monday, March 9, 2009

Need to say a big thanks to MR ANG KIA HOCK ZEN for buying me lunch from AMk to office even it is raining.





Actually is i called him and asked de
:)

haha

Muacks


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After teaching son his spelling for the past week.
He fail and pass actually.

I dunno why he add additional words to the ending part hais!!!!

After all, he pass to be easy going to be hard then i would said he failed lo.

His mind is not here i realised that he learn how to spell A CAR is by memorising not learning what the meaning or idea it is.

I think my way of making him write seems abit wrong now.

haisss,
wad should i do?

He went for his 2ND lesson at te EM class, but the teacher see no improvements le, except he keep talking and talking which he is very good at la!
:(

This is no good lo.

They came over last weekend.

They are very selfish ad i felt that lucky i can provide for my son and do not need anyone help at all to support nor what!

They decided to enrol the eldest or so called " LOVE PET" to the same school taht son attend as they said he is too free!

So i thought that they would enrol both at the same time lo, NO, to my dismay!!!

They only enrol the eldest son not the rest!

I was like, either u don't enrol both or u u enrol both lo.
Like so obvious that they are been biased or selfish.

Same incident happen durng dinner time yesterday.

His dad brought out a plate of Agar Agar, then he let the eldest grandson eat, then the 2ND one want to eat, he say NO!!!
cant let him eat.
i was at the dining table and i heard and saw the whole thing.
I was very Buay Song la,
So i walked to take a bowl and spoon and cut some for him lo.

They stare at me but i don care!

The box inside gt only like around 10 longans, his dad allowed his eldest to eat almost all and not the rest!

Lucky daddy make noise, and he stare at the eldest grandson and asked him what is so funny!
Stop laughing!

Serve him right

The eldest grandson is too cunning and i can said he gt 4 face rather then the normal 2 headed snake.
he love to lead and get people into trouble and yet he like to laugh at one corner at others!

Sometimes i wonder his mum beat him also because he is like that, if that is the case then he is OR BEE good!!!

i may be mean but that might be the best way to teach him also.

He got all his attention on him till that right or wrong he also dunno. just now that today he did something wrong, NVM, i just said/ do something, my HERO will come help me.

Lucky i am going to move out already, spare me from all this agony!
i cant stand people who behave this way when they are already so OLD already.

i went to IKEA yesterday, wanted to purchase the sofa, then he said don't want la, go see others first, but the sofa really very comfy to seat lei!!!!
:(

never mind lo.

Open the Bank for my GIRO deductions and son de saving liao also.
he is the richest now among all of us now!

Another thing, i wen to my favourite Nasi Lemak on Saturday, but before we go something annoying happen. Anyway, it passed!

:)

I still wan to eat my Prawn MEE.

Zen ang when are u bringing me there?

:)
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Friday, March 6, 2009

I am not feeling well this week.

I have the feeling of NAUSEA!

I ate Sour plum, skittles, sweet food.

I have lots of craving! But i not pregnant!

:)

I dunno why suddenly i have this craving for all this weird food that i rarely asked for!

I feel so bad that i puked yesterday, then my son asked me, mummy why you puke ar?
I was like, aiyo!!

Went to my mum place and he cant come and fetch me as work late, so i went home by cab as my son say he don't want MRT!!!!!!!!!
:(

no choice wait for almost 10 cabs, all told me that their nets machine is spoilt or either they don't have the machine installed!

:(

SO i called my sister and told her that i need to borrow money from her lo, my mum house there don't have my ATM bank!!!

Then a cab came and i asked for the last time
"Uncle got accept ATM?"
"YES"
Hooray!!!!

Told my sister no need to come down already, got into cab liao!!!

Yesterday at home was not pleasant!!!!

WAR all over.

Sometimes i just wonder why people do not know how to self love?
is it really so good to be a follower?
Wad do you gain?
Nothing
Unhappiness :(

Then why should we step into some mud which will only drag us further in instead of just landing on your shoe?

We are related!

Please, wake up from your selfish and childish thinking!.
Nothing is forever.
You will only come to regret one day.
Why people choose to ignore you instead of talking/ counseling you.
You have only yourself to blame.

We can keep saying but one day we will be tired!
We cant always be the spare tyre that you are looking for.
The feeling is not right and people will not like it!

Please wake up!

I hate to see and say abt this again and again !

:(

On a happier note:
I am happy with what i have now.
maybe lesser money and more tired then before but at least maybe that is the life i wanted.
Please continued this way!
Else i will call my lawyer Mr Ang!!!

I keep ahving craving for Punggol Nasi Lemak, Prawn noodle at Beach Rd, and super lots of things.

Please tell me why i am behaving like this.

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Thursday, March 5, 2009

Just a while ago, i wonder to myself,
Do i have attitude problems?
Am i sturrborn?
Am i irritating?

Then i wanted to text him and asked, then i LAZY!!!

Yes i think i have attitude problems, i cant take it when people keep stressing things to me or disagree with my advice or etc.

I think this is not proud nor wad.
This is just me.

Just as i was writting this post, i received a sms from my agent!!!!

The owner need the 3 weeks extension lo, KNS
I just wonder have she gone to search for her house, cant she stay with her daughter?
Wonder just what does she wants?

My 2nd appointment will be like in End MAr or 1st week of Apr, plus 3 weeks, god, it like i can move in in May lo, not forgetting renovation lei!!!!

:(

i want to move asap now got problems one after another.

The better note, if my 2nd appointment is on 16 Mar, then plus 3 weeks it will be 1st week of April, but still cant renovate already as Chin ming is there already.

Sigh i think i should just gave her the 3 weeks extension then forget about it and just do my thing all one step at a time. Dont rush and keep thinking about it already!!!!

Think also no use, time dont run faster!

it is still 24 hours per day!!!!

Well let just pray for the best!

Going to sourc for sofa already, want something which is comy to seat as i watch TV more then anything.


This is my own home, i cant be coping inside my bedroom all the way already.

if i still do so i might as well go buy one room haha.

I have a bad incident at BANQUET earlier.

I went to buy chicken rice and they have other store selling noodles etc.
I asked for chilli padi, and the answer they told me i cant accept and i went to look for the manager!
They said, you did not buy my noodles you cant take my chilli.
The thing is that they belong to the same company!
Not seperate stores!!!!!!!
Same boss and same management!
I compaint to the manager and he went and asked them why they refused to pass me chilli, they just kept quiet!
Rubbish bunch of IDIOTS!!!
OLD MAN BE CAREFUL!!!!
I WILL COMPLAINT ABOUT U AND MAKE SURE U GET SACKED!
:)
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Puke blood while teaching














i nearly die when i was teaching son to learn "A CAR" in terms of writting and spelling.

He can spell, but writting is till like lazy and his mind is just not there and not focusing!!!!!!!!!!!

I brought him to the dark room and he is so scared that he pee on his pants!

After that he is more focus for like 10 minutes then after which he is like gone case!!!!!

Hais,
i got no patience and i cant teach and my son dont learn!!!

Maybe i should have made him learn when he is young, i might have make a wrong move in this. Thinking they should play while they can before they go to Primary 1!!!!

WRONG!

Hais!!!!

I rebond my hair and i felt light! Yes maybe my hair dont drop so much already!!!

Maybe it is just my thinking la haha :)

But they say i look cartoon.

Recently my face is so oily and there is no GLOW!!!
Wonder why!!!!
Hais.
I sleep at 10, drink lots of water then suddenly like this.

God!!!!

Please 5 years ago, dont happen to me i dont wanna look like that, if yes i rather forgo!
:(

my mum told me that they saw him at PArkway on Monday, and he was with a dark lady haha, fat!!!

I went up to mum place for curry yesterday!!!!
She again, go cook the curry till watery haha, then balme the A,B
My mum cooking have been very nice before her illness but after that maybe she cut down on alot of salt and etc so that why she cant taste then cant cook well.
She also dont eat alot of things that why she cant cook well.

When i move i gonna make it a point to cook every weekend!!!!!!

Like Saturday!!!

Haha.

I can boil my favorite soup! Cook my favourite dish!
Invent new items!

Its been long since i cook laska, mee siam, mee rebus!!

there are restrictions in his home to cook so i shall be patience to wait till my house is ready and i will start cooking.

But first i think when i move it wont be cooking first, it will be cleaning and unpacking and arranging things!!!

I am a neat freak btw!!!

I keeep things and i dont liek people to move it and touch it without informing me!!!

:)

i am looking forward to my new house!

i will make it my home sweet home!

no pest!!!

but got my beloved woofer, he will be stayign with us already very soon.
bear with it another maybe 2 months or lesser!!!!
:0)




This is my beloved dog "TING TING", but she dead for 3 years, rest in peace you will be forever rember by us!!! We love u!
:(




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Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Buay Tahan Isaac

Wednesday already, i have been a very good gal recently.

I bring son take MRT back to AMK after work since Monday.

Teach him his work, not lazy.
Did not flare at him, throw temper, watch TV.
I am a good mum since Monday, hope it continued.

Yesterday son nearly make me fainted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me: have you learn your spelling for Saturday?
Son: no no no
Me: WHY?
Son: hmmm, because you bring me take MRT everyday, so late reach home, no time lo.
Me: *_*''

Me: Why u walk so fast?
Son: Because you walk so slow la!
Son: Faster walk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Son: You never call daddy?
Me: WHY?
Son: Call him now la, so we no need to walk home!
Me: Why?
Son: He gt car mah, can come faster.

Me: Isaac want to go take ice cream today?
Son: YES
Son: Can bring daddy go?
Me: WHY le? We go ourself can already!
Son: I go with you i need to walk, go with daddy got car!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I seriously buay tahan him already. His words surprised me daily and his actions is so cute and yet OMG sometimes, tell me want to hit him how can i bear to!!!!!

I brought him to his Saturday EM class, teacher said he cant write but can speak very well!!!!

Now at home, i make him do assessment books and also learn.

He can write from 1 to 10 now, but sometimes with some mistakes and help needed la, other wise he is not bad now!!!!

His patience to doing work is not long!!!!

Maybe 110-20 minutes, he will said here pain, there pain, all the patterns come out already.

I told him u want to watch cartoon, CAN!!!!
Provided that you have your dinner, bathe, do some work then you can watch till i want to ZZZ!!!!
Which is like only 30 minutes or so haha.


There was a time i set the alarm clock for him to watch cartoon, then all the way he wants to use the alarm. The part is that when it ring!!!!
He say i mean HP alarm not the clock de
*_*''

He know i always forget to set the alarm,s o kind of like take advantage, :)

My son is so mischievous yet he is my precious!

I can give him whatever i can give to him!

He will get the best from me!!

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