So dead

I am dead i am just so dead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My MD does not want to sign on the LO and now my boss already reply email stating that LO is been signed.

Die i am just so dead!!!!!!

Now i need to convince MD to sign on the LO.

Gosh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God please help!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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=(

very very sad.

Today i got 2 bad news.

One is my hair loss.

Two is my lappy can repair but then all my pictures, everything inside will be GONE!!!!!!!

Which means my pictures!!!!

God!!!!

I have some pictures at my sister com, i am abit relived as it is Isaac baby pictures, but the recent one will all be gone.

What is so wrong with the laptop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Acer is no good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I should have got a PC in the first place.

Will get a PC instead!!!!

Going to sell away the ACER once its repair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I am so SAD

Mum is still angry with me i think, call her she press "NO", nvm, mood swing fantic.!!!!!!

Just went lunch with him and i drank my favourite soup again!
salted veg with duck`

Not going to visit that stall again already, he told me something which i was like WTF!!!!!!

He saw the man prepare the soup and they add one small teaspoon of salt to each bowl of soup!!!!! The worst part is they will really measure and make sure it a full spoon!!!
I am drinking salt!!!
No wonder it is so tasty!!!!!
=(

He keep looking at me when i was drinking so i asked yes
when he told me that he dont understand why i am njoying the soup like it is so delicious and the story behind it.
I pushed the soup away immediately!!!!

not going to that coffeeshop anymore!

Hate u


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=( Hair loss

This morning i took the mrt and i saw a man who is standing with his whole body elan on the pole like he own the mrt or whatever.

i took a pictures of him, will load tml as my card reader is gone``

His face is damm annoying lo.

OMG

Last night my mum went haywire again. Sometimes i wished that she mute at least it make her look so sweet & nice, i did not talk back as my sister say just let her nag.

Recently,
My hair drop is so much worst then last x and i am stressing out!!!!

Going to cut my hair and also see if there is any HELP for it!!!!!!
I think i am going bald!!!!
=(
I never experienced this type of super lots of hair lost before except when i was in my teenager age when i was on diet, then did not eat properly then hair loss alot worst then now or even better? Cant really remember!!!!

When i gave birth or pregnant with Isaac i diont drop hair too.

How come now, suddenly i hair loss so serious and it started from like Nov till now?

I did not eat salty or MSG food as i am allergic to MSG.

WHY.
Can someone please let me know if you happen to know why!
Tks =)

I said i am allergic to MSG, not to mentioned onions!!!
Once i eat this 2 products, i will have sever migraine.
Outside food contains lots of MSG, so i will have bad migraine, i will have to pop the PILL to ease the pain lo. Actually the MSG i intake a certain amount then i will have sever headache, onions is the worst just a single bite i will get it, but i love it not raw la. So once i eat it, i will have panadol stand by. =)

I have to said and incident which i can always rem, dont know is it this that caused my hair to drop soseriously.

The person to blame is Zen Ang Kia Hock

We were supposed to cook fried chicken in the same way as Malay nasi lemak.
We were looking for corn flour and there was this white type of MSG look-a-like like corn flour in this container, i asked him, U SURE THIS IS THE CORNFLOUR?
He say yes, of cos la, this is cornflour then what else u think it is!!!!!!
I keep putting till it coated the whole wings and the worst part is the chicken came out so delicious. we did not think about it, then weeks later we do a 2nd try on the wing, this time the container of flour is not there in the kitchen already.
There was a fresh packet of flour, but the outcome of the chicken is not so tasty and nice like the 1st time.
We were puzzled!!!!

Few days later, the mum talked to us, asked we have any ideas who used up her MSG in the "Particular container, HE say is supposed to be cornflour"
I was in shock and claimed that.
It's US!!!!!

His mum keep laughing i was shocked.

I know the answer to why i was having sever headache since the day i ate the wings taht i cooked the 1st time, i am having headach for 1 week to be correct!!!!!

The morale,
Always check the things that u found to be used, regards its food or things.

i am so sad now, still thinking could my hair loss be caused due to this MSG thing

=(
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Last night did not sleep well.
Sleep early la!

Suddenly around dunno wad time wake up my nose blocked for no reason the most serious moment.

Then i drag myself to take tissue and blow my nose then i proceed to stuff the tissue into my nose la.
Cant be bothered already as i am really very tired!

=(

Woke up at 7am lol, but lazy la, then slowly drag till 8, go smoke then bathe.
Yes i know i should not be smoking already, but sometimes i just cant help it.
Hais

I am trying my best to quit already.

Aunty is not here yet.

=(

Went to see the steamer yesterday, then he dont want to buy as he find it expensive!
Kao!!!!!!!

Actually i find its not lo, maybe is more than the noraml by 10 to 15 bucks only!

Hais, forever like that, So Gek Xin!!!!!!!

His mum commented that i buy my stuffs too like early or what.

Seriously!
I dont see why people need to comment.
I never asked for help nor money.
I am using my own, i see cheap i will buy, no need to wait till last min then i find money or what to buy, cant meh?

Not that her intention is bad nor what, i just cant stand it when people commented on me on something that i do and i felt is right! Unless itake the money from u la, then u comment i dont bloody care because i need ur respect mah!

I am a person very hard to get along with if ur attitude in life is different from mine unless you dont poke into my business then we are fine!

=)

I calculate so far for the new house we have spend alot of money already, if things were not purchase earlier, think we dont even have the money lo to buy it in the later part!

People dont understand and they think i am wrong i am not, maybe it me that i want to do things when i am able to and also i dont like to beg people for help!

Unless i really need it, else i will do it on my own then i wont have to see people face anymore!

To u: Please understand why i am doing so!

Life is never enought of complaints
Life is always full of mistakes
Life is never contenting unless you realised what u want
We can never fulfil our desire
We can never make someone happy
but

We can change our own opionion and made the decision ourself & do what is right and not continued the same old way that we are not supposed to do!

I am nagging yes, i am so fan!
I just cant help it

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=(

I just blog alot of things yet it just went hay wire.
=(

Darn,

I just felt very tired for everything that i have done.
Am i wrong to do so?

Y am i treated this way?

Will my life be better if i lead it the old way?

I am always taken for granted!

Is it my retributuon for what i have done.

I am confused!

People dont understand what i want and they think that i am been self centred or selfish or even crazy as i flare as and when i want.

The problems here is not this is that i dont know how to express myself!

I cant talk to anyone well! I cant said what i feel.

So i can come here and blog it out!

I always said i dont have the word "REGRET"

Yet times and again i felt it.

Why, is it that man changes after they are married or get what they want?

I dont want to feel regret in my life yet i keep remise it.
Very tired.
People dont agree with one another.
Biased judgement.
Unfair treatment.

Y?

I have alot of unhappiness to said yet i think i will not want to blog it out here.
There is alot and it will take me more than alot to express it out.

People change when things are accepted!

ur not the same u as before.

One day when i cant take it anymore i will let go.

I will let go once the time is right for me to do so!
I can never make myself sad all the way!
I need to find back the sunshine in my life.

Right now there is none!

I hate this typw of life.

I am not asking for rebates nor anything.

I just want care & concern.
I cant have it last time but i have lots of money!
I thought i have found it, IM WRONG!
I found nothing but misery to myself!

U re not the same u.
Ur not the same
Ur not as caring as before
Ur not as loving as before
Ur not patience anymore
Ur not U anymore
Ur not the one when time will prove if U continued.
Iw ill leave!


there is this another issue:
I wanted to hire a maid yet there is no agreement instead all the cold water keep splashing!

I need to work and i dont hv time to look after my son 24/7 or let alone after his school when he finished K2, i might be too Kan Chiong now when he is only in K1, but time flies.

I cant let the maid just come and accept Isaac immediately.

I wanted to change him to normal PAP as i felt he will learn more but then, no help or good words frm everyone, sometimes people js dont understand. WHY

They have not come across this type of isyutation so they wont know why people want to do certain things.

If i am so powerful i will not hire and do all by myself!!!
Why bother wasting all this money adn fears keep coming in.

U dont like to look after kids i understand, i NEVER force u or wadever.

So dont keep saying bad etc!

It just make me frusted!

I need to work and alot of things on my mind, i am going to explode one of this days!

=(

Worst to add on,
I cant move in the month of Apr 09. as it is the chinese CHin mIng festival.

I have to wait either English Calendar before Mar or after May to move.

=(

Suddenly i feel that am i wrong to buy the house?

I did wanted to buy the house then i do something for exchange!

Will i regret it?

I am confused and hate the way i lead now!

Nothing is right and my life is ...



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=)

Just went for my 1st appointment this morning and guess wad my monthly installment for the house is $952

Gosh!!!!!

Anyway they say that the final appointment should be by 3rd week of March to 2st week of April.

Hopefully the owner does not want extension of 3 weeks la.

I am going to Genting on 10 April 09 haha. Free hotel. So ok la

I gt more flam then ever omg i keep doing the noise like an old man.

haha

So happy that the house is drawer near.

I was so shocked earlier that his mum suggest that i paint the wall beige or white when i want pink, grey and blue. Then she suggest that the cupboard be in pale colour when i want black!!!
ZZZ
I just kept quiet la!!!!



Anyway i will do what i want so i wont care haha.

I think old people like pale colour la.

I am bringing back my dog soon already.


It have been very long since i saw him and hug him.

He will be mine soon

I love what i hv now.





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I tried to hold back my tears but yet i cant contraol and i lose my cool totally yesterday.

Supposed to be happy because i got my new Hp yet i was sad and low morale.

I wanted some help yet that is the treatment that i got.

Damm u then.

I shall not bothered with others anymore and only be nice to myself, i tried saying this so many times yet each time i will relented

Please make me stronger!

he sent me a text message and i think it sound scarastic
" My dad say next time he don dare to move in with you because that if he make u angry, then u will throw his pillow out of the house as the house belong to u"

I dont think it sounds funny.

Yes i dumped him out of the house yesterday night!!!!!

I am seriously angry!!!!!!

I need help yet this is what i get hope u die!
=)

I am not faking it just because i want to do my HP as its new.

I am really feling faint.

go to hell
=)

I love my mum.

y did i say so.

She brought me Hp yesterday haha.

Actually help me in a bit la to get my LG Ice cream HP.

Pink colour, so damm happy

=)

Muack love u to the bits.

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I am back from Bangkok already.

This time is not so fruitful as i think i catn, son wants to be CARRY every minute and the weather is so so hot that it unbearble.

We were so tired plus i was sick when i went to Thailand.

Nevertheless, it was still great at least i have a getaway from Singapore and to unwind myself before starting work fully for the new year 2009.

Friday is my 1st appointment with HDB, so excited , meaning the date will draw near to my colelction of keys.

Hopefully the owner does not want to have extension of 3 weeks so i can move in like in month of April, including doing minnor renovation to the house.

I have decided to paint my room in bright pink, son room in blue & my living room in grey with white and black. This is a thought la.

Then i need to go buy sofa and dining table etc.

Anyone know where to buy cheap de and of course nice also la.

=)

I need to do the kitchen also lo, not much but still i will need to do it as it is my Home Sweet Home so i will need to make it nice.

I think as the date draw nearer i will have to actually pack all the items and unpack it.
Hopefully i can find all the stuffs that i think it is missing since long ago.
Not to mentioned that i alraedy have 9 carton boxes that are not open since like 2007 or 2008 haha. I kept all inside, cant remember what are the items inside.

Clothes, bedsheet and lots of rubbish i think but best part i got 1 storeroom so its ok haha.

Can dump all the shit inside haha.

Now i will need to pay the agent fees in April already andit is 3K n more.

=(

I will be enrolling son in Math & English classes this Sat onwards, he need to learn rather then siting at home just to rot or watch TV. No good for him.

Since i already asked the $ from him to pay so i will make sure that he go for all the classes.

he need to learn how to write and copy words from the whiteboard.
I duno how to teach hi so i will leave it to the teacher, the childcare dont really teach much and also learning, mostly is about looking after ur kids. So i think supplement classes will be great for him.
BTW, i will switch him to AMK art class in April no more going to Crestar as it the same amount and AMK offer 20 classes while Crestar only offered 11 classes and 1 hour only.
AMK de is 1 1/2 hour of lesson, so u calculate is much more afforadble and worth it mah.

BTW, i am going to cancel my AIA insurance as it is not making money and i am at losing end also after paying for more then 3 years and the amount i get back do not tally with the amount i pay every month.

I ratehr open a new bank account and deposit the money in there monthly rather then paying the insurance company. Its is not WORTH it.

WOrst come to worst i will rather find other new insurance company to purchase new policy, its better i think. SInce i am going to HDB this Friday , i will go down to cancel it at one time since its only open from mon to Fri where i cant make it de.

I am thinking which bank to open now.

Maybank seems a good choice to me but then the withdrawal is like one in a million haha. Some say Standchart is no good as the interest is low. Haha.
Will go online and check later.

Btw the way did i mentioned that son is making me crazy, he dont listen to wad i say and he just think i am joking. OMG
He need me to call him or repeat at leat 5 times before he listen.
I thought kids grow up will listen?
Behave?

Hais or he is still at his baby age with baby fats haha.
I think i shall let time tell and also i was wondering when he will go diaper free?
Hes already 5 and he still wear diaper, Sometimes he will say he dont want to wear the diaper and he will wake up to pass urine but then he still pee on bed le.

i dont want to stress him but i think he need to go dipaer free soon le.

Hmm can someone tell me now should i train him to go diaper free?

=)

Chaos


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i have not been blogging for so long.

Too many things on hand to do and tired everyday.

Plus my lappy crash! Crazy!!!!
:(
Sad as the repair fees is high!

Hais

I heard some news that maybe we wont have increment & Bonus this year!
:(

Lucky i got my 13 months already!

Work is pretty much the same.
Report. Report. Report!
Nothing else.

Will be gg thailand soon and we was wondering if we are still going as the place there is not safe now!
Cant delay nor change as the air line refused as we back out then get $0 back!
Damm it!
:(

After the thailand trip will be HDB 1st appointment!

Hope everything goes well!

Yesterday was spend at Boss house for some BBQ, with our department

Lazy bye

So random i know


Bad news is all over!
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