Part 2

Just edited some pictures, cant watch the DVD as the disc is faulty la, sigh.
Mum disc always spoilt my mood.
=)

She say she watch is fine, dunno real anot.

honey is at JB pumping petrol, he came alone just now without Mr Pok, haha as he went to his place then he called me said wanna come see me then i say cant as he got ulcers and honey is already here thus cant go bk and fetch him, he sound sad then i told him that i am going to buy sweet for him bcas he cant come, then immediately he is fine already. GOD!

He missed me i know haha. I also missed him bt honey said try not to let him come often as he is still young then gt virus this i agree la.

No choice, 15 days more u can see mummy everyday already with DIDI also OK.
Bear with it Isaac and NB!!
Uploading pictures of Isaac later haha as i found in my laptop.

The lady beside me is back already, think she have given birth, when the day i give birth i wonder Will i have enough slp like what i am doing now haha. Eat sleep.

Maid is irritating, but thanks for her help rendered la.
=)

i wrote a list of things for honey to do and buy haha, u cant trust man if u don't write isn't it.
Haha they tend to forget.

I was talking to him about video caming the BB delivery and he seems scared haha. he said DON NEED la etc. i think he is scared almost all man are scared de la.
Haha i tell him don't faint le.
Hee

I'm actually counting down to the arrival of my BB as I'm pretty excited to see how handsome he look like as he is pretty active inside me haha. He seems to be sleeping now as he never kick me le.
Hmmmm
Sometimes i am scare if he never kick me but he kick me too much i will be in pain. Haha.

I wonder what time honey will be back from JB, this noon i got take nap thus not so sleepy now haha, but i woke up again same in SWEAT!!!

I saw alot of BB in the room so cute la.

As i was seeing Thu son BB pictures and realised that he is so cute last time and so chubby now he is still chubby la and cute but soon he will be a big boy already, think i will missed his look le. Haha.

I always wonder what will happen when son is in Primary 1 and he got friends will he don't wan me already, don't stick to me as often then now.
Lesser talk to me.

Or getting jealous when NB is out.
Hmm all this flashing Thu my mind 24/7
I wished my son stay as close to me as possible and also tell me everything that he need/ do.
But well boys are boys they will not stay this way forever if they gt GF, friends etc.
Sad

I am always getting EMO here when i though of this, i though i am strong to overcome this but then i think i am not DE, i am weak in this expressing DE. I cant said it out but i will tend t cry silently if in need but i will not show others, haha this is not called strong i think this is called weak.
I cant let others see my weak side.

Just like that day when son left for home during my 1st 2 days stay, i cried after he left, as i rarely left him alone except when i go trip which is not so long the most is only 5 days.
Then i think back why am i crying when i should be strong haha.
I hold me tears then calm down then called him haha.
Then the following days i get used to it then i stopped crying but when i see his sad face when he is gg home, i tend wanted to cry again, but i know i cant need to be strong fr NB and myself.

Mum went to see master today and he claimed that i will give birth in 3 weeks times, everything will be smooth.
Master also said that mum will be very attached to this BB as the Yuan is there and BB will let her win alot of 4D and listen to her more then Isaac, She seems happy, which is Gd as previous she said she Don like the BB as she scare others bully Isaac when BB is out, u know old people.
I tried to re ensure her times and times but then she cant listen but now what master said have made her wake up lols.
Well hope they can really blend in well and Isaac also la.

Isaac don't listen to her as she always asked him off TV, etc then Isaac complained haha. thus sometimes they both keep quarrel.LOL
Very funny De.

Son will go tell maid that, Hais. Pls tell Ah Ma, why she don't understand me.
Mum will go tell me, Hais, your son hor don't listen to me.
Both complain here and there haha.
Then later they will make up again when they gained something from one another.

I love my family but then sometimes i hate it too when everyone is pre occupied with their own things and tend to forget about family ties.
Now it is getting better already in our family unlike last time everyone do their own things and don't care DE.
Now we at least cared and concerned is being shown which i like.
I love my family this way.

There are times when we do quarrel la again over small matter and rubbish but it is over pretty fast.
I believe everyone grow up as they grow.

now i understand why my mother last time keep nagging as I'm a mother now. It is for our own good but when we don't listen we think they are Nagy.

i really wished to spend more time with my family members, as we never know when it time to depart de.
Ok bad point here.

I mean i finally understand how my mum feel already although last time she hardly take care of me as i was in my grandmother care most of the time as she work and sister with nanny.

I still think of last time and sometimes i still hate her for not giving me the best of my childhood memories but then i cant force certain things.

That is the reason why i am giving my kids the best of what i can give. I don't care i have no $, no food to eat but wan them to have the best memories every when they are young and not blame me when they are old like what i do now.

I know my mum cared for me and i appreciated it but then i cant expressed myself out.

Mummy i love u so much also. Although i don't said it out, deep down i really cared about you. Please stay healthy and strong and happy.

I love u