This is random,
I wished to have lots of money
I wished to have a rich husband
I wished i cant dont work and shake leg at home
All i wished,
Suddenly i feel so ke lian for myself. i dont know why, just not in the right mood. Alot of things pile up and yet im helpless in doing anything, just can wished that time stopped at this moment then i can slowly take my time and do what i want and clearing mess?
Well.... Its diffcult.
Everybody think that money drop from heaven when it is not, it is given to you only after a hard month of working and tiredness and in a blink of eye its gone again.
I hate it when people that i cared for felt that i am stingy.
It is not, liek i have said so many times, you all dont have a family to worry etc can spend any amount that you earned and when we have kids and family, they come first rather then ourself already.
i am so sian of this kind of suitation again and again.
Money money. when will people realised that it is not free?
I am working my guts out for thsi amount of money and every month after paying son school etc i left with that peanuts and it is enough for me? NO its is no but what to do, hope for a better life or grumble all the way?
It depend on individual on how u want to think and take it.
People might said you got a rich husband last time but u chose to leave him then now u are poor again and i dont resent my current husband, i divorce because he dont care and he is the type that hack care but can give u money and that is not the life that i want thus i left, i dont regret at all that now im poorer by half, so what at least i lead my life in colourful rainbow poor be it,
my current husband migth not be as rich as my ex husband so what, i have what i want, love care and concern although sometimes he do neglect me but my life is more fulfiling then ever.
Life is never equal i find.
You give or take and it depends on how your mind works, if you want the best then source for it before u commit else dont regret.
Alot of people said i surely regret etc, yes and no is my answer.
Well overall im glad i made this move, maybe 20 years later when my sons are big enough i might regret but no worries as i did my part as a mother and life will be the same and the only thing i hope is that my son next time when he grow old will treat me good like how i treat them now. Not wanting any rewards or what for bringing them up, just want them to be good im glad.
i am so pissed off today, my mood is not there at all.
There are alot of things that cocked ipup, work, office, etc.
It happen not once not twice and i think next time i should just keep my mouth shut and then let others do the rest else today i wont be in this mess again needing to clear up before i go...
Shit work!
I am just feeling bloody moodless!
Small people can just get off my back?
I want a good rest during maternity and before i go, dont want to overwork myself again due to some issue, which is happening again like before.
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I duno what i am craping but i am just so tired of the things around me and i want to be clear headed but i cant. It keep haunting me like nobody business!
F***
Please dont make empty promises if u cant fulfil and dont lie also.
I have enough of lies....
Dont u feel tired?
Dont u feel remoseful?
I hate u, we aint that close afterall isnt it?
Looking for subsitute now, anyone to help?
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Emoing,,,,, writting rubbish!
bye
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