I was sad and angry this morning, i took the bus bravely without my anti vomit pill and guess what, i thought i survive.
The moment i drop off, i run for the nearest toilet at Hotel Rendevous, to PUKE!
ALOT ALOT!
I asked him to buy my pills as yesterday is the last one, till last night he haven, i forgive him as it quite late and i am tired.
So i never bothered and took the bus bravely lo, who knows.
=(
Nevertheless, i text him after i puke and washed up.
HE replied will buy later.
we shall see.
I am not angry he never buy for me as i know he is busy too!
But the feeling of vomitting is really horrible. Esp ur i the bus or early morning. Make u lose all the MOOD lo.
I wonder my morning sickness when will stop and i will be able to seat the bus comfortably without the help of the pill.
Went home for dinner last night.
My mum cook now compare to last time is not as fantastic la, nice, as she no mood liao, but at least i see already i will eat lo, unlike at AMK, once i saw i will just close the cover and went to my room or make maggie if i am very hungry.
i dont blame her, but her cooking style is just not what i want and i prefer lo, i love simple food but not fish everyday!
They have fish everyday and im SCARED of it.
I wonder they will come tonight anot, i hope not as i wan some silence and peace and i want to concernate in teaching son the ABC, as i pay attention with him for one hour yesterday, but he forget.
=(
Chatted with my friend and realised that he have to buck up, else, he cant catches up wtih his peers de. Her daughter same year as son can write and spell very well, unlike son.
It is my fault that he is like that now, refuse to study as i am soft and lazy to teach,
now i have to work double hard to teach him before i due, else wait BB come out where got time to sit down and teach him.
I told him that we have to spare time equally to teach him as i cant be the one, wait he is not scare of me etc.
I tried already to teach him, i know it's gonna be diffcult path now till he really learn but i got no choice i slack too much, now it is time to buck up already.
I got to blame only myself, Im sorry son. making you hve to work double hard now.
I am going to buy the ABC & Number chart and whatever chart that he need to learn de lo.
I dont care already, in current AMK i cant stick all this in my own home i am going to do so.
I hope to move in ASAP.
Want the maid to be in End July or Aug, no later then that.
I need to teach her and make her get used to son as son temper aint very good too.
he is sturborn and i am afraid that the maid will get pek chey of him.
I think that when he is in school, the maid alone with the BB will not be so pek chey bah. Will plan well, and try to get someone to go up as and when, if really cant then i will have to take leave lo. Or i get himt o go up suddenly check lo.
Maid cant be trusted but there are no one that i can trust and wanna look after son de.
I am in a very diffcult choice and situation, if can i dont wanna woek lo, then i can fully look after my 2 kids and not to worried everyday.
I cant now.
There are things which is beyong my limited and i hve limited time and space to spare and etc.
People cant understand and they think i am doing the wrong choice now, by hiring a maid, i got no choice can i still chose?
They think i have another kid now is too early and i dont think so, this is the right time as 4 years gap is enough fro son already, too big gap, they cant really communicate and play already.
I hope all people understand and support my choice.
I need support and help seriously.
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