Late for work today again as the stupid bus is not here yet at the time supposed to be.
Hais
=(
Never got my fav seat today, so sleep abit hard, but never mind as the sun is facing there today. Called it lucky?
Went up to my grandma house last night to collect the water bottle that my mum left it there.
She is old already, very fast and i was like so bad, rarely see her and i was staying with her when i was young, i can tell she really aged alot.
Her eyes got problem and she is almost alone all the time at home.
My uncle wife did not treat her well even she stay so near her.
She is not that type, cant blame her.
i cant look after her as my place is in AMK.
I hope she can move in with me, after i shifted but i think she cant DE la.
Will not get used to it and my grandad will confirm make funny ideas and my uncle might not have dinner to eat.
See how things goes, going called her later.
Suddenly i missed my Lao Ma, whom i used to find her busybody, KPO, etc when i was younger and have not had Isaac.
Suddenly i missed her, as she is very good and not lazy at all. Haha.
She loved to come our house and stayed but my mum always objected in the past as she likes to go out and my Lao Ma like to probes thus she don't like.
She woke up early, slp early, can cook, walk and talk.
She die suddenly one day when she was going to the market in the morning around 6
plus am.
Her death shook me too sudden.
She was gone just like that.
No last word no illness's then gone.
I always think is she is around now, my life might be good man. She will definitely offered to look after Isaac without 2ND thoughts DE.
I just missed her so much.
Hope her life in Heaven is nice and better then previous.
I loved u Lao Ma!!
=(
I talked to him last night, asked him alot of things while on the way back home as he fetch me back late la. Last minute DE.
Cock up!
I told him that i spoke to alot of ple and they tell me the same things, 1 maid cant really handle 2 kids well, especially one newborn and an active kid like Isaac.
i told him, i shall enrol him into PAP for either morning or afternoon session as the timing is like
either-
9-1
OR
1-5
For next year PAP enrollment started now already, so fast hor, as they got limited seat per class that why la.
Per month is $100 with computer included.
I wanted to stop his child care K2, beacuse he dont learn much and they dont teach much, plus i am paying every mth. I rather enrol in PAP so he can get used to it and he Primary 1 can catches up!
I am worried he cant.
I sent him for classes every weekend, to make up for the loss he have when he is in Child care, sigh.
Total amount spend will be more then childcare lo, only thing good is that when i work he got someone EXPERIENCED to look after him, but overall, learning is nothing much!
I am stressed on this man.
He have to finished K1 in the child care this year no matter what.
They need the K1 & K2 certificate in order to go Primary 1.
This is a must must rule now.
just got to know from my collegues haha.
Then PAP cant just go in last min must start from calendar month de!
Will get him to enrol soon. I want a space!
=)
if i am not wrong, at least when he is in school the maid got free time alone with the BB.
Maid can focus this way.
Please hope i get a good maid kk
BTW my ticket to Hk is in July, wonder i still can go ant, how many mths and how big my tummy is man at tha period.
Going to call KKH now to check on earlier date for appointment.
I wanted to asked my mum to come over and look after the maid on every Mon, Wed, Thur, but i think it is hard la, given her schedule now!
I told him if really die die no one look after the maid at home, he have to go up and spot check every now and then as he is the nearest as his office is at AMK.
I am so sian, need to work yet, have to worried about my kids even when i wanted to hire a maid as helper.
can someone tell me what is the best solution?
I am so dead beat at thinking of all this which may only happen like 8 or 9 months later, but i am a person, who must think before hand and no HICCUPS therefore can happen.
I also abit no morale to move in now already as there is some shits that happen la, but i counted yesterday, it should be 17 days more before i can move in.
The guy already finished plastering the wall, now waiting for the Electrician, toilet & his worker then done.
Voila
I on aic con almost every night now, but then like 3-4am. I will wake up to toilet and my nose will have sinus or blocked.
This is irritating as i cant fall back asleep immediately, need abit time la.
Son was sleeping at the end of the bed when i woke up last night, quickly carried him, in case he dropped off the bed again.
Waiting for him to bring back the carton boxes and i can packed my things as the date are drawing near, whereby i wanted to move in earlier instead of the 10 May.
he said will let me know see can ant.
We see lo.
He went to buy the things yesterday for the house and i seriously want to see the outcome of the design by HIM!
He brought me Mac last night as i got craving for it and i am happy, but only ate around 9plus PM.
He never wash my bottle & refilled my water for me.
Thus i am angry with him now.
I just talked to my mum, she said alot of things which i think is beyond exceptions.
She: She asked me why i dont continued to put son at the childcare in Sims Dr.
Me: I worked in Dhoby Ghaut, after work daily, i need to leave at 6sharp to catch the bus 64 to go to his child care, will reached 6.50pm or 7pm the latest, just nice before the school closed. CHOICE ONE: From there, i need to tk a bus which is at least 2 -3 stops to Macpherson, then frm there take bus 135, reached AMK house including walk home 8.30 the latest.
CHOICE 2: same i need to catches the bus 64 at my wk place at 6 sharp cant missed the bus kk. else cab. to son child care then frm there take bus to MRT. Frm Aljunied, i need to take to Cityhall, from Cityhall, i need to take all the way back to AMK, walked home, reaches home earliest before 8.30pm.
Sat down for dinner, bathe, i think close to 10pm already.
Peers tell me, if you were me do u think u will still want to continued this?
Or hire a maid at home?
Worst thing is that we have not talked about rainy weather, take cab will cost me around $25 the maximum.
She asked me why i dont want to buy at son childcare there, i was like WHAT!
He study there only another 1 year i buy just bcasuse of this reason, abit stupid right?
NVM, they think talked is very easy de la.
She said she cant look after the maid and son as she need to go out as and when. I said NVM.
Go ahead.
I shall leave the maid at home myself then see what is the choices i can have.
I am disappointed in her. Till this date, going out is still the most important thing in her life.
I think relay on myself is still better then others.
Some people cant understand why people do this kinda of choices as they are not the one who send them to school and back home.
If they are to try this way, i wonder how long, they can take it.
So far i ahve been doing this routing way for almost 2 years.
Now im pregnant, i cant afford to do this anymore already.
She asked me why i wan to have the kid now when son cant fend for himself and there sure will be biased things around. I said NO to biased as i am a person who hates it the most so there will never BE!
She herself can know that son cant read or write, why still wants me to enrol him there to continued, because it is easier and the best choice currently.
I cant do this.
I dont have mood to teach him after i reached home daily as i am very tired already, fromt he standing, carrying and waiting.
I dont want my every night like this in future when i moved.
This is not healthy.
If you dont understand and dont want to help, nvm i wont force u.
Whatever i do just dont pour cold water as it will mk me worst.
Maybe when she is older no one to go out then she can think. That time my kids all big liao just like u know who, u will regret.
I keep saying regret why.
We shall see people.
If my sister is reading this maybe she will understand what i am saying.
I always emphaiss that kinship is the most important thing in this world, other then others, there is nothing more important than this.
She can see but she cant changed.
She needs to adapt to this but then time is not in her favour.
Well, human nature, aint it?
I just depend on myself then.
i can cope with it de, i will find the best solution de.
♥ 说好的幸福呢 ♥
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