Blessful

I felt blessed when i took the train to work this morning.
I was standing and suddenly i EMO again, thinking about my life all this years.
Last time i might not have to work and i got house, money and very thing that i can think of but not love & care. Yet now is the opposite, everything have to be done slowly but i get love & care that i yearn for.

Every morning, i dont have to wake up very early to change Son or make milk for hima s honey and his mum will be doing, i can tucked myself to bed until like 8am then i wake up.
Then i woke up, mostly i will have my breakfast prepared for me and ready.
I will slowly get myself to work.

Yes, at nights, now i might have to take public transport and its kinda long and sometimes its tiring as i have a long day at work. Tired =[
I was thinking earlier, why did i grumble so much when my happiness is right infront of my eyes, yet i dont treasure.

Human are like this i guess.

My mum is extremly good this 2 weeks too, Yesterday she brought son to cut his hair etc, mae dinner.

She is nice and yet sometimes she make me hate her yet love her as there is a man who is disturbing our family.

He is someone who steped in and she changed till like this.

i thought she will change after last year, yes awhile... After that the same again.
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I was thinking sometimes i cant blame her ba, she likes freedom & life which dont need to take care of children de.
Yet i am always thinking, is her only grandson why she cant treasure family life?

I cant force people to think the same way as me as not all people are not the same.

I cant expec much lo.

Well hope she is good all the way and not revert back the old ways.

i am sad to see my sister behave this way. She changed!!!!!!!
I duno the sudden change but i know it is no good and she is not herself when i saw her last night. I dun want her to changed just because she has too much free time now as its holiday. She should learnt to treasure things which are before her eyes, but she is still young. We cant expect much but ....
I dont want her to folo my steps which i think is bad but i dont regret la, =]

HDB called me yesterday and i was =] =]
They say about the queue etc la, in my heart i was thinking if they will call me but all this depend on lucks much more then hoping.
Seriously i keep thinking about the house etc haha, i dream too much this is the way i am behaving like 4 years ago when i am supposed to get the tampines house, i hope i really can get lo.

I have taken doen the price and unit haha. Really hope i can get the house. I wanan move.

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