Last weekend was spend going to grocery shop with him as son is not around and we 2 was lazy piggy till late afternoon.
He suppposed to go back office but never lo.

He got a raise in the pay again but it is still not sufficent as the start of the month its gone.
Meaning he got to commit more time in work and i really see him rarly now at home, only night time from 9-10pm onwards or later on days where there are project going on lo.

Day time worst, only his kiss, haha.
Sunday sometimes la.
Saturday no need say wke till 6pm.

This work required alot of his time, got good and bad la, pay increased alot since the 10 mths he wk la.
But i cant see my husband!
At least he is wking no outside playing or with gal still
=)

Our trip to HK seems &^&*^^&^*
Still thinking now la, hais. What to do with the stupid SWINE thingy going on.
I am so sian lo.

Was on leave yesterday as son 1st day of school and i brought him there and he was happy as he got lots of friends.
Afterwhich i meet my sister where they came and fetch me to Singapore Expo.
I wanted to see if there was any sales for BB items and sad to said, there was non, a few items catches my attention la.
Like playpen which i need for my maid lo. Mattress etc,but i think i bring him to see better else wait he said i waste $ again.
I told my sister and mum i wanted the playpen but they never said anything, see got anyone buying for me anot lo.

I went home only like around 6plus as they were at EXPO looking and asking the guy to demo the wok and cooking and in the end never buy.
=)

Lol u should see the guy expression haha. I wanted to laugh man!
Well it is expected la.

Son was well behaved in school i suppposed, as i was not allowed to go in due to the strict checking and i was worried he cant adapt to it and no i think he can do it very well. That is my good boy.

I scream at him yesterday as i wanted him to sleep so can wake up early for school and he was like jumping around etc, gosh, i was so tired already that i asked him to read the story book la, no energry already since i m the one always doing the reading it time he do something already, since he dont look tired haha.
While reading they are quarreling and argueing and i was like GOD!
Can just read and stop argueing anot,
YES they did stop only like 10 mins later lo, then continued to read the story book when i wanted to KO, i realised that i m having insomia when i was super tired. Then i fell asleep like 1 hour later or so?

I can change my air ticket i think waiting for him to confirm got sales fare.
=)
♥ 说好的幸福呢 ♥

I am a happy lady yesterday
=)
♥ 说好的幸福呢 ♥

Headach but contented with what i have

She wake up late again today and i just knew it when she asked me what time should i wake my husband up and i say 7am when i know he will wake up on his own at 6.15am.
Indeed she is not awake yet lo, 6.30am then she is awake when she is suppposed to be awake at 6am.

I wonder a person given too much chance then they will take it for granted?

I seriously hate this feeling and actions OK.

Tml i shall see again!

It irritates me so much i tell u, but i don wanna tell her straight at her face as scare no one at home then she will abuse or whatever to son.
Sigh!
Teach me how,
he say nevermind, i was like Deja Vu!!!!!!!!!!

I shall be firece on her already la, she think i am good to bully and she dont know yet who is the worst of all in temper at home i tell u.
=)

I dont care a hood already if she dont like to eat fish or what, i wanted to tell her that her offday actually i will allow her to come back at 8pm instead of 7, now i choise not too already since she is already late for 30 minutes and never even apologise at all.
WTF

Recently i think her attitude is not really good or i got too much to complain.

I hate this la. I hate to see problems!
=(

My sister brought son to watch movie yesterday 3D de, he was happy and enjoyed himself so thanks
Appreciated it =)

I was talking to son last night and i asked him, when i go give birth then can u come home and sleep with Daddy for 2 days while i am at hospital and he say he dont wan haha. Give me a very Ke Lian face and say that he cant leave me alone etc all the rubbish la, wanna stay at the hospital with me etc haha.
I say cant then he say why?
He say dont go give birth liao la, if he cant follow me haha.

He is very attached to me now, but another 5 years down the road when he hit Primary School will he still be so attached to me?
I am so scared that he will not want me when he is older and think that i am not good enough for him or give him too much curfew etc.

Will he ditched me when he got GF? Do not care for me like now?
I enjoyed his pressence alot and i cant leave Isaac off my sights, i guess this is called attachments etc!
I took care of him when he is a baby till he was 3 years old before he was sent to Childcare and i was the one who care for him, i rarely when out after Isaac is born, where i go if he can go i will bring him, else no choice la.

I gave up alot of things for him, i feel its great it not like forcing nor what the feeling, when i see some parents can leave their kids at home and go clubbing or what. Maybe that what they called Social life?

I think i have not stepped into the Disco since like 1 year coming close to 2 years already, dont say bcas im pregnant now la, I just dont want to go out.
At start i will be very entu and wanted to prepared but once i made Issac to bed, i looked at him, i will not want to go out anymore.
The guilt is there like i go enjoyed then he ZZZ at home, so Ke Lian.
=)

So our Par Tok is always 3some de haha, we go celebrate all kinds of anniversary, Valentine Day, Birthday & travel together de.
If i dont bring him along, there will be no one looking after him and if i really needed someone to help, offer & ideas given will be like thrown here and there and i felt that why should my son be treated like a ball, so i choose to bring him along else we dont go at all. All this are before my maid come la, now my maid come already, i will still care and bring Isaac along if i can, but without the maid la. Haha.

I missed Issac when he is young, so chubby and so cute, when he 1st called me Mummy etc, the every 1st things that i share with Isaac is memories and non erasable and no one can replace him in my heart although he is super naughty now till sometimes i cant tahan him at all.
Grrrr.
He is my precious Baobei, always my No 1, even i got BB now, both is my precious but Isaac is NO 1 loved, i will love both precious de la.

If i have a chance to look after my BB myself i will gladly do so haha, as i can expericence their 1st in everything and i sometimes think it is very sian la, as it will be just your kids revovling around you but i love so, i feel that giving up things for your own kids is the best things in the world a Mother can afford and all this cant be purchased by $ and once its over, there will be regrets only.

My mum did not looked after me when i was young and i was sent to other relative place to stay and Grandmother, thus i dont feel the bond with her at all. Thus i will never let this happen to my sons.
The feeling is not nice and i feel that even when im so old now, i dont feel it when she is trying to mend up the hole that she create and left when i was young but i cant accept it and i feel that it is pointless. Haha.

Maybe im too sturborn bah!

I rant too much already till i feel so emo now, haha, going Cold Storage now la, to buy bread for home so i no need to go NTUC later haha.
See got Cod Fish anot.
=)

I going to booked my BBQ tonight too, cant be lazy. Jia You.
It will be just a small gathering and fun play only if not life is so boring.
I chose to bcas there are alot of factors affecting me thus i cant anyhow spend as i need to really save for rainy days as there aint people to help me at all.
All are selfish de.
They dont know what i am going thru and think that i am so rich lo.
Yes i still can survivie but im not rich!
Im seriously so poor now!
But i wont beg!
I cant still afford for my kids the best that i can give, as for myself i can eat poorly or what but not my kids.

My mum sneered at me why i bring food to work for lunch daily, she think i want?
I got no choice lo.
She thinks i m joking or lying.
Well it is up to individual to think and have fantasy about others, im not lying that a fact, as long as i can feed my son, send him to school, give him the best, i fulfil my duties why care when i myself lived in poverty and never really went shopping for like donkeys years, dress up nicely etc. Why should i care?
This is not my priority
Issac is my priority now till BB is born, then the 2 of them will be my priority.
=)

I dont feel sad that my life is like that now, when i can have $$ last time, but at least i got a family that i really called FAMILY, poor la, but i njoyed it.
I did not make a wrong choice in leaving my 1st marriage where i got big house, $, everything no need worry but im not happy, i dont see a complete family.

Now im poorer by half, need to worry about house bill, $, etc, but im contented as i feel that i have a FAMILY that i caleld my own and i know that whatever happen i got someone to lean on and pour out my sorrow and although at times he dont care as he is busy but overall he is still nice to me, although people say he is no good la!
Well in the eye of the beholder, all people opionion is not the same de.

I LOVE MY ANG FAMILY!!
=)

♥ 说好的幸福呢 ♥

F***** R*******

He is having fever thus at home sleeping.
It time he have a good rest already i think. Daily going out at 6.30 then coming home only at around 10 plus. Not robot le.

Now i am cracking my brain for HK and i feel very moody already, Dont wanna argue with him since he is sick.
=(

I wonder when then can comfirm?
If really no one wanted to go, should i just go with Isaac?
Will it be Mafan?
I hate it when people are indecisive in things and option that they made, when the news create scence when its really fine and so many people came back daily also.
I think if really need to catch this diease, you will not need to go oversea in LOCAL also will catch since she mentioned that Singapore got 100 over cases.
I m just pissed off la.

One minute tell me OK confirm go, then i happily tell him its OK, you can continued to work then when i last call. They changed their mind again, I wonder is it their character is like that all the way?
This is not acceptable.
You agreed then suddenly you changed your mind again.
Flicker minded.
=(
So bloody angry la.

What if i was the one who promise then suddenly i changed my mind and therefore will you get angry?
I think you will lo, spare a thought for others la.
it kinda sian!
=(

I just hate it la!
Bloody ass......

i wanan go my HK la, i hate u all!

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=(

Why cant a person commit when they have already decided to do certain things in fact they chose to dili daly and make things diffcult for others?

When someone asked you a question, aint you supposed to answer?
Or are you supposed to keep quiet and pretend?

I am tired of all this that is revoling around and the feeling aint very espically if it falls on you.
I hope someday this might be a turn for you too. maybe i am bad but sometimes i guess u need to have a taste of the medicine thus you will know what and how it feel!

I can keep saying the same old things but what the use?
People take you for granted and they think its right!
I don think so.
im not crapping before i leave for home but it a matter of fact that i wanna blog.

Human are all selfish and they dont really care from deep of their heart de.
It is just a show or wadever you called/ name it.

Sick of all this.

It happens way too many times till i already knew it before i asked as i predicted.
Call me idiot or what.
It so sickening to really heard it again and again and this is the cause of it or what la.
=(

I wished for the best hoping and praying and i wont give up as im determined to do so!

Idiotic people get out of my life and you reap what you sow that all i know, im not being scarastic nor what, it is a truth!

Last week as not a good week for me la.
I was supposed to go for Mommies gathering at Eling place and i though it was not confirmed then they said it was.
Sigh!

I slept till 12 plus lo. I know about this gathering like on Monday, why my sms never show har?
Hmmmm.
Bad connection M1.....
Thus no choice this is the 2ND time i can go for the gathering already. Gosh!
I so wanna meet up la.
=(

No choice lo.
If i go on Saturday i cant rush back on time too as son have class at 4pm and i woke up close to 1pm already then if i get ready and go i reach will be already 2plus 3 then i will have to leave immediately like that. Thus i never go lo.

I will definitely make it for the next mommies gathering.
=)

Weekend was the same lo except the maid went on her 1st off day and son went over on Sun as usual.

I cooked while the maid is not home.

He spoke to the maid yesterday as she forget alot of things that i told her and he actually heard it and when he asked her, the maid asked Got Meh, he lost it ha ha.
ya la, she is forgetful but when i asked her to write she say she can remember DE so i ponder!

Son is a good boy last week only things is that the spelling i teach him he forget and he blame me for it as i make him cry before his class and he say because of this he forget everything.
OMG!!!
Like that also can?

I told him only if he passed all the spelling then he can get whatever he wants.
Hopefully he can passed lo at least not ZERO la.

My maid, i going to review her tonight, she done hers already as per Eling mentioned i asked her to do it lo.
I saw what she tick la, its true lo, lucky she know it but i will not really rate her bad to decrease her morale la. I will explain to her nicely i guess.

Last week our 4 years just passed like a normal Friday due to Mr Ang busy schedule.
No choice la, he got his drawing to finish, i cant force him, wait no JOB how?
=)

Happy Anniversary again la. 4Th year lo.

Anyway this morning the bus i took SPOILT!
Kao i was late again lo for 30 minutes.
The door of the bus cant closed la.
Thus got to take another bus lo and it was free but crowded, lucky got someone offered me the seat as I'm pregnant now.
Thanks aunt! =)
This type of people will get good rewards DE unlike those who saw me SLEEP immediately. Can u imagine that.

Went to do my grocery yesterday, nothing much after that.

The maid AR, really hor sometimes i really dunno what to say about her.
She was late for home yesterday by 30minutes and she never even apologise lo, called it RUDE?
I really dunno.

Sigh. I told her things she never remember how should i make her remember?
Like washing etc and not treat her like baby?

I out of mind, be right back.

Happy 4th Year Anniversary =)

Today marks the 4 anniversary we are together but he is more busy then usual.
So we are not celebrating like before also.
Abit sad but no choice sometimes, work have to come 1st thus some priorites have to be set aside lo.
Maybe i will want to grab a movie tonight?
If possible la!
Depending on what time he come home.

Yesterday i was having mood swing at night as i thought he forget about our anniversary and i was in foul mood la. Whole night OK!~
Haha.
This morning he kissed me i still so angry lo.
Haha.
I so bad la, i scratch him till he bleed haha, i was so angry la.
Anyway it's over.

I am not so petty la.

Honey Daddy happy 4 year anniversary.

We have come so far despite so much rain & shine that have happen for the past 4 years.

Still we made it and somehow our wish came true and we are slowly realising it all and hopefully there aint much more diffcultilies and the worst will be over pretty soon.

There are things which we might not treasure in the past nor now as we have already achieved it, but we have to make sure that we put 100% of our love in whatever we do and make it happen. We cannot slack and slow down because i love you.

WE might quarrel often and regards BIG or SMALL we make up quick enough haha so it is not affecting our relationship at all.

Recently you are so busy that you might have neglected me that i keep complaining, but deep down i understand why but i still LOVE to nag haha.

Pardon me for behaving like an old woman la.
=)

Hmmm, this anniversary you cant celebrate with me nevermind, we can celebrate in Jan together with our 2 rascals!

It shall be so much more fuiling then now i guess and more tiring then before.
I never regretted loving and met u but just sometimes care for me more, i will be happy.

Im a woman who need love, care & concern all the times and i am behaving like a poilt kid without milk if im not fulfil with all this 3.
We are not rich so what, i dont mind, as long as we cant survive why not and care about been rich. Richness dont bring me anything.

Its you.
The person who make a difference.

We might quarrel over $ issue, kid issue, wk issue, and alot of things, overall you are my LOVE la.
Love you much.

Lastly again Happy 4 year anniversary Honey Daddy.
Isaac and me will love u liek before althought you keep scolding us for nothing like a mad cow!
=)

i dunno what else to say already, so mushy already lo. I so not used to it haha.
But all this are from my heart, truly.

I love u, my family and everything i have although i have qualms about certain things that i cant have and achieved but nevertheless, i love everything i m having now.

Isaac mummy love you so much too.

BTW, my son can learn spelling already
the word is " A Busy Road"
This is a great improvement and i shall go home and teach him somemore tonight.
At least his spelling slowly got marks unlike last time keep getting a ZERO home haha.
Got 1/10 right i also happy for him. At least he tried and i cant push him so hard de.
When the time is ripe they will gradually learn and improved de.
BTW, my son got no much patience thus if he is willingly to learn, i must be patience to teach him de.

Anyway, Isaac is very sweet yesterday.
He called me while i was otw home.

He talked to me and asked me did i buy anything for him, i said yes and he say good.

Normally he will just BYE and hang up just like that, but yesterday he ....
Said
" Mummy, i love you faster come back ok"
I say ok
"Faster come back with DIDI ok"
"I love you and DIDI"

i was so touched by his words, but all this depend on his mood for the day thus i was very very happy.
Even i know he dont really mean it sometimes but i never teach him, at least he show appreciation to me and DIDI. Haha.

I am going to buy a cake for him later.

He love it and i actually used to buy it de, recently i never walked passed thus i never purchased it.

He is going to be very happy when he see it i guess.

=)

Today must be a wonderful and happy day for my family.

I will not let anyone spoilt it.

Stupid maid =(

I am so angry.
I talked to her last night and told her the timing she need to wake up and yet this morning i heard from him it is till 15 minutes late.
I going pass her the big alarm clock tonight.
I wonder i talked to nicely?
I asked around no one maid always Wake up late De Le, especially after so much saying.
She is really trying to test my patience and i shall give her till Wednesday and see what she really want.

Tomorrow she still wake up late, i going to be fierce already in my talking, im nice because i don't want her to bully Isaac when i am not around etc. This cannot be continued like this.

Baby not out yet she already like that keep waking up late then Baby out already how?
Worst lo!
I hate to keep repeat myself and i just get frusted by her that i don't wanna see her face nor talked to her lo.

I hope she can change and don't wake up late again from tomorrow.
Else i will asked her to wake up at 5.30 am to do things which i might not required.
I am bad i know but i got no choice.

When i talked to her yesterday about her waking up to wake him up, she agar agar know what i mean and know she is late already but then she still wake up late despite knowing i hate it De lo.

I going to asked her face to face, are you very tired that why u wake up late daily?
You not enough sleep?
See what her answer is.
I so sian la.

She is not a bad maid Le, just that she sometimes just don't understand and acted she understand.
I hate it la
Jia Chong Ming.

He is so tired yesterday, oh ya i going to ask him why this morning he never kiss me before going to work.
So angry.
=(

He offline already.
Nabiessss.
going text him
=)

I miss him, muacks.

Son is going to learn his spelling with me tonight!
No more delaying already as today already Thursday.
Saturday is the test!

See how he fare and pls make sure my temper is good and not moody!
=)

BTW i overslept today and reached office at 10am when i start work at 9am ha ha.
So tired that i cant drag my body out of bed and i don't wanna take MC thus i sleep till 9am before i finally wake up.

The maid fault!
His alarm ring and recently i am light sleeper as i tin my tummy is getting on the way thus i wake up easily.
I gg pass her the darn alarm clock and make sure she wake up on time 6am!
Will check daily even i will be tired!
He is my supervisor too, as i asked him to see if she is bathing at 6.15 when he wake up then i will know she wake up at 6 am.
AS my rules is that she should always bathe 1st then eat her breakfast then after that wash her clothing or housework that is needed to do!

She don't wanna follow my house rules then bye bye la.
Find a better house to work as i feel that i treat her very nice already lo.




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I am so angry, i cant remember things well and it is killing me la.

Next my maid is always waking up late and her hair! It is not neat and tidy, gonna tell her have to wake up at 6 tml as she need to wake him up at 615 daily.
If not i think she every day also late lo. How can like that when i set schedule and etc for her to wake up and do things, she do it her way lo!
=(
I am just super pissed but i don't wanna show it out to her, wait i scared she abused Isaac or what when my grand mum leave for her home and no one stay at homet o watch her as my sister like don't wanna come already aft the 1st week or so!

So f***** annoying this few issues!

She sleep without telling me too!
How the hell i know she sleep when i need her help. she ZZZ already.
GOD!

Need to asked him speak to her tonight!

I am going crazy regards to this man, keep saying like don't understand.
I try to be nice, but don't take me for granted!
I shall be wicked then, if you are really no good i shall sent u back then, KNS!!!!!!

I keep nagging and i just need to rant if i saw something i dont like and have mentioned to that person before yet they still do the same i will get very very frustured and annoyed.

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Weekend was alright as my aunty came over and look for me and we did cooking and she left after that.
Sunday was at Suntec then awhile later we left as i was super hungry and the place was crowded and i felt lousy haha.
he wanted to queue for the Singtel as can waive off and dunno what free la, he gave up after barely 10 minutes lols
=)
He starting YAYA, said can de la, very fast ETC!
In the end le?
=)

yesterday was meeting day and i was soshag inside and my back hurts like nobody business.
God!
It is just getting worst i guess.

Today woke up late as it was raining in the morning, 6.15am plus plus and i AUTO wake up also dunno why.
Crazy, cant sleep back just trying to be in bed that all.
Maid woke me up alot of times till finally at 815 then i wake up haha.

She did not wake upa t 6am this morning but i never say anything la, only when BB is out then she have to wake up at 6 as the timing will be rushing for her and she will have alot of things to do de. Im so scared that she cant cope thus i will ask her wake up early and if im determined to breastfeed will have to wake up early too and pump before i leave the house daily.
Hopefully i can have this determination for BB as Isaac i breastfeed for 6 months before i stopped when i felt it was tiring.
But that time i was SAHM, now working dunno i can make it anot.
We shall see and take a step at a time lo.

My maid sometimes dunno stupid or what, i wrote the things to cook for dinner on the fridge but she never see still can asked me what are we cooking etc, sometimes i just got splitting headach, thus dont wanna answer her but if i dont later she will cook.
Gosh!
I wonder my writtting not clear?
Hmmm

Shall have a good talk with her tonight already.
Told her alot of things, she did some not all.
Sometimes she is fast but not really very clean la.
Like in a haste thus not perfect.
I know i cant asked so much from her but sometimes i just find it irritating as i have to keep saying when i like cleaniness all the time and when i saw it i just lost it.
Trying my best.

Need to coach son spelling tonight already as Spelling test on Saturday and this week spelling is his favourite "CARS" hope he can passed.
=)

Last night i brought him down to cycle as i promise him to go in the afternoon when he called me.
He fell asleep at 730pm and woke up at 9pm as he wet the bed. Thought he will forget or what, NO lo.
The moment he wake up, he was like.
"I want to go ride bicycle already, NOW"
I said tomorrow la, now so late wake got bad people catch us how etc he scream and cried.
So i brought him down la.
One round of the park and we are home.
His main motive is not about cycling lo, he wanted to play witht he slope when i feel that it is so dangerous!
=)
called me KS la.

He came back shortly after that lo, had dinner and started his drawing when i go bed.
I asked him massage me and know what.
HE FELL ASLEEP and i was the one who woke him up to continued his work.
KNS!!!*(&*(&(*&(
So angry can, this morning he kissed me before he left for work and i pushed him away haha.

he said will be back late home tonight sian.
I told him when ur work not busy le?
haha

Going to slack for awhile then do my work already.
Simply no morale at all.
Gosh!
Just feel like slacking and doing nothing that all, but i cant la.
Sian x 123456789 times.

Son is very naughty recently as i got to repaet scold him.
He dont like someone or he angry, he will hit that person on the face or what when he know he cant do that.
He will say sorry after that but then, its wrong.
I am trying my best not to cane him already as i felt he is old enough already so canning is wrong already, but he simply trying to test my patience u know.
Sigh!
I told him like 10 millions times already but he just say OK then min later he started it again, goD!!!!

I dont wanna cane him later he jealous as got BB also. I want him to feel normal and balance and i dont want the feeling of unfairness happen in my house as i want to feel normal due to my situation and i hate unfairness de.
I will not rule out any possiblilties there might be some unfairness, but i will control and handle it!
This people will get it from me if i realised this is happening.

BTW, my dad went China and i was sad to know that he behave this way. He is out of control already.
He will finished all his hard earned $$ and cried over sour milk in turn to come. Now not yet as the times is not ripe.
He will regret it but now he sunked too deeply inside he wont see the effect.
Regret will be too late already.
Sigh!
Man are all BASTARD!!!!!

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I wasnt feeling good last night, when to change HP and buy veggie back from supermarket for my maid cooking tonight as i dont want her to go out.

I reached home at 8 and was sweating like mad!

Did not eat finished the dinner as the rice still S***s and i was not hungry already as i was tired and hot, thus i asked her to make me bacon to go with bread while i bathe.
Who knows after i eat the bacon, i was like bloated and i thought nothing of it.

As i was seating on the bed wanted to changed Isaac then suddenly, off i dashed to the toilet and at first it is just normal and little of gastric juice i think then 5 seconds later all my bacon and bread are out lo!
=(

I told Isaac that, i just puked and he warned me and said please remember to go toilet & puked KK not on the bed i was like, =(
He never hugged me like he usually does as i tin he is also tired already la.

Was smsing him and telling him i dont feel loved by him as much as before and he is always not home but i understand etc.
Told him to show me more love & concern till i fall asleep.
=)
On aircon & off aircon due to hot and cold. Crazy already the weather.
Heard the radio claim that this few days the weather will shot up to 36 degress lo.
Can u imagine this?
im getting hot as im typing in office now, do you know why?
Somone went to on the aircon to 28 degress!
Crazy bitch or gays.
Might as well on it to 31 degress.
=)

I ate bread this morning as i told my maid to make new pattern instead of the same usual and it came out quite nice. Shall have this on Monday already but only Mon to Wednesday maxed already i think cant whole week i will go crazy and feel full again lo haha.

Tomorrow is Saturday already and i hope he can be back early as our weekend is always burnt and passed so quickly!

I told son that if he go new school and his tution can get full marks for his spelling i will buy his the Nitento Wii set, he said OK.
We shall see then.
Anyway i love that games too, haha so fun le!
But it is not cheap waiting for the price to drop as it is dropping day by day.

Friday is the day to relax haha.
So lazy to do work lo and i feel so hot now!!!!!!
=(

maid is cooking claypot rice tonight and i am going to bring son to the library to change his storybooks and loan new de after i am home to eat then after library will be collecting of HP.

Home sweet home after that, hopefully he will be back by then!
=)

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I just change my HP yesterday already.
Sony K770, OK la, normal HP lo, better la, since i gg to be very busy after October handling 2 kids haha.

Home seems to have alot of conflicts, everyone is not been concerned and they like to push the responsibility around.
All are actually free DE then somehow they bothered about their own thing. They know how it feel to be left alone and no one to be cared for hais!
=(
Life revolve around all kinds of people i guess!
Life is always unfair la, people gain and lose but they just don't realised until the last min of their life and all things start going around their head and i guess at the point of time, its too late already.

I guess i did my part and i will not feel guilty nor what lo.
=)

Yesterday is a very hot day and it was almost unbearable, i on air con but i sweat when i sleep and i was drenched in sweat can u imagine.
What is happening man, why is the weather so humid and hot?
Heard people commented that the Ozone layer is thinning?
True?

Grandmother went to see doctor already and hope she is really well.
Sometimes i really dunno who is saying the true thing and i always believed that as long as i don't wanna hack into the business and do what i should do everything should be fine.
Guess so.

Sister is working at the IT fair and she will keep me informed of Sing tel broadband sales plan if there are cheap DE lo. I need one at home la.
=)

Going to HP shop later after work to get my memory card and also return the box as i did not bring the full set yesterday.
Need to download the Chinese version too as there is no Chinese.
Although i don't really need it la bt then sometimes maybe there is a need for it lo. Who knows.

He came back late last night and i went into the room without waiting for him as the weather is really unbearable lo.

He buy breakfast for me today but then just now but i got no mood to eat going to eat later lo.
Now hungry already.
GG eat!

I miss my notti son, he speaks very well now and sometimes he drive me crazy just like yesterday i dunno why he went to draw the sofa cushion with pen omg, i just buy it like less then 1 month plus!
Never beat him, talked to him and asked why he did that lo.
Sigh, lucky can washed away but still got stained abit la, but not so obvious la.
Sigh, hope the maid can cleaned la.

=)

On a better note, my sister called me and said that they GG HK already and will chang the name after her IT show and i think she's confirm?
=)
pray la.

BTW i need to do my passport too la, expire in September.

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=(

My hand phone is officially spoilt and the things is it's spoilt yet it can keep talking and singing even when there is no missed call or missed sms.
Goodnes!!!!

I am going to change the Hp later, lucky i choose one without needing to top up $$$.
I am broke i cant top up now.
i will have to walk there after i dropped off at AMK lo, then hope it can be fast la. Will be hungry de le!

just change a simple HP liao la, can take good pictures can liao since it is 3.2 Mega pixel!
Can use to take my BB picture la.

Now as im typing the HP keep repeating!
=(

I just called Jetstar and they said i can travel as long as i bring along the doctor letter. now only problems is my sister side.
They keep like delaying and waiting then the air ticket keep rising and they need to pay the additional fees of the fare and not only the change of name.
Sigh!
I dont want them to tell me ok then last min they all say dont want to go then i will be like FUCK/ SCREW up again lo.
=(

Things are not smooth.

grandmother is at home now.

Maid is ok as i spoke to her and told her will give her the timetable and do appraisal for her based on 3 to 6 monthly and told her it is not a bad thing but think i better start first else she think negative jialat.

I told her now is easier as the BB is not out, when the BB is out, she will be more busy and maybe more stress and i need her to let me know if she can take it anot.
She is really not bad but then sometimes she really like forgetful le, can someone tell me is all maid like that?
Or is it wrong?

I took the schedule and timetable from E-ling already and i think hers is very good as i can really amend and let the maid followed and see/ revert if she dont understand.
I already told the maid please do not need to really follow the time accordingly, just plan well and main priority is the children not the housewk.
housewk can wait till i am home, look after the kids already then she do or basic housewk can do daily then the rest can be on a weekly basic, now of cas she can do daily la, because the BB is not out and Isaac got no school now, so free.

Will need to tell her will revised as time come.
Hope she can make it.

Wonder my grandmother is making the maid stress anot as she wake up alot in the night time to pee and the maid look tired to me la.
I asked her she said NO

My grandmother, she dont eat what the maid cook and i was like GOD, then what you want to eat like that. Maybe she is sick ba, shall not force her, but if she dont eat what i cook for her, she will fall sick faster and no nutrients and vitamin as i cook is good for her de, sigh, i dont wanna force la. I dont wan Isaac to force me when i grow old too.

i think my grandmother should change her attutide towards life and be more out going and if it really happen, she can really enjoyed life as there will be alot of activity for her lo, but i guess its too late to change already.
=)
We pray and hope for the best bah!

Son school shall commence in Jul 1 2009.
wonder how will he react and behave in school?

Recently i asked him do his homewk and he did pretty well and really paid attention to it and can remember. Hope he can continued to excel and have the best of the best result and i am trying my best to juggle my time to accompany him and i want to be fair and i dont wanna him feel jealous and i will try all the way although i will be tired.

I wonder how will my HK trip turn out to be, waiting for my sister call la, Hope it is not a diaster bah!
Please please!

i gained 2 KG as i weighted yesterday.
Got double chin and i look bloated.
I am tired and heavy more then ever,
harder to drag myself outta of bed and back ached like madness.

i was so angry with him last night, as i asked him to massage my back and yet before i dozzed off, he ZZZZzzz already and my back was barely massaged for 10 mins or lesser.
I told him why my husband like that and i was like pulling a long black face like "Bao Chin Tian"
He going to get it from me already if it happen a second time.

There are times i wonder why having kids are not guys job and let them understand the hardship of pregnancy then they will come to understand that why woman grumble, nag, crap and attitude when pregnancy.
It is not easy been pregnancy and big and having to do all things by yourself but your husbnad is not home almost all the time or nearly sleeping time then they come back or even offered to help. Or when they offered to help also like got attitude and they just cant be bothered also.Chin Chai like that.
Sigh!
I hope next generations, guys shall be the one to have and bear the rsponsiblity to be pregnant and not just enjoyed and wait for 9 mths later. or 12 mths later someone to call them Daddy!

I grumble too much.

hope the HP i gg buy is good and not spoilt at all.
Please!

I dont wanna change anymore HP already, I wanna save the money for Isaac toys, food and BB needs.

I am so not used to it without having no saving like got to start frm scratch and the feeling sucks la.
=(

Well bye bye.





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Maid

My maid sometimes drive me crazy i think, told her something and yet in the morning when i wake up, it is wrong again and she do another thing.
Sigh, dunno she is forgetful or what, have already told her that if she cant remember then she will have to write it down. She say no need she can remember etc. So i said OK la.

Nevermind, i shall wait and see what is her progress and i will tell her i will do apprasial with her soon as mentioned by e-Ling.

She is not bad but then she forgets to refill this and that which sometimes i got to do for her.
Dunno she now forget bacause my Grandmother is here or what but then if my grandmother she cant cope then BB out how?
Worst?

I am at home to look after her for only 3 months then after 3 months?
I did the schedule for her to see what she need to do etc, hope she can make it.
I expect too much?
I asked him if she is slow and forgetful, he claimed YES too.
Tell me how, what to do!
Sigh!
=(

I asked her to cook and she dunno got listen to me anot then say now cooked har, i was like OMG!!!!!!
I told her listen, if im too fast imform me. She said NO.
God!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was trying to be patience.

Nevertheless, i will be patience and not so nice to her already as she might think im nice then can step over me, so far she is only afraid of him.

I shall be nice onlyw hen it is needed only.
Zzzz

i think it dont pay to be nice man,
waiting for E-ling her format then i shall do it on her already.

cannot delay liao.

So tired and BTW i asked her cooked my porridge and it was wrong again, goodness!

Luckily i cooked last night myself, asked her to added the pork and wrote her the paper and instructions, yet still wrong.
No wonder others say that cant trust maid fully.

Dunno she tired or what, but additional Grandmother i dont think she can be so tired or forgetful suddenly or just plain LAZY?
I wanted to trust her already then suddenly she becume like that, i got reserve again to fully trust her and she wake up late daily too. sometimes like at 7.00 or over when she is supposed to wake up at 6.30am.

The toilet she never really cleaned too and i was like hmmm, when i happen to used the kitechen toilet.

i asked him to speak to her already, but he come back late daily thus haven but soon.

This maid really got lots of free time de lo, after doing things but if she start to misused this i shall make her do more then usual.
Not torture her but make sure she know what her status is and what she should do!

=)
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=)

Weekend passed and here i am working again lo.
So tired that i cant wake up on time today, delayed 15 mins again and again.
=)

Grandmother is at hme now staying with me lo, as there are issues that i dont wanna raise already.
=(

She is like been kicked by a ball when her son is not around thus i think the best is not to make the matter big la.
Hope she can get used to my house and really rest well since she just got a fall last week.
She is too used to be alone thus im so scared she cant get used to it,
i think she should move around more often and also not sleep so much and also sociate more but it kinda hard for her as she is already old already.
We should try to help her then.
=)

Sister is coming for interview later at 12 pm to cover me when i go maternity leave for 3 months, hopefully she get the job, but boss not in now leh.
Hmmm...
=)
Maybe meeting lo.

Tonight i asked the maid to cook but then hope she cooked well, sometimes she dunno but she dont wanna call me.
Sigh scared to bother me or?
I dont know.
Ask him to speak to her yesterday about what are the work she need to do daily etc. Hopefully she gets it and done lo.
I cant stand people who dont listen to my instruction de haha. I want it to be done means done, so please pray she listen.

I was not sleeping well last night and i was turning and tossing like mad since 12am till 3plus am?
Gosh!
Tonight i gonna turn in early already
=)

Will call hme later to check on everything, think son wont be waking up so early too as he slept late last night.

Will go NTUC after work to get my fresh veggies fr home since i only stock up fish haha.

Frm my mum & his la.
But now i avoid fish like serious mad!
No wonder no milk haha.
I used to love fish, but my BB now seems to hate it and love veggies and not meat too.

He went M'jong yesterday and i played Nitendo Wii, haha, fun and sweaty la.
I enjoyed myself also la, thus im so tired now lo.

I wonder why there are so much friction etc! Why cant we actually live in harmony?
I think that im so struck here!
=(
Did i just stress myself out or what?
I think i should just leave all people out de la!

EMO now again!
=)


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left the office yesterday at 7pm and went Kallang Airport to eat as sister came to fetch me after their ride at ECP.
I wanted to go cant la, got to work.

After that home sweet home and she stayed over.

She will b working later at 5pm, thus Sat & Sun she wont be here, next week got to see her working schedule again lo.

I asked my boss if she can take over me when i go maternity, he asked her to see him, maybe got chances la, if have also good la, she can work, get paid and i got someone i know to work for me, Better mah.

Spend almost $20 on dinner yesterday for 2 adults & Isaac, the food there damm expensive la.
;(

Ya was so angry with the toilet auntie at Kallang Airport.

I went to the toilet with Isaac and i pay her $0.10 as son wanted to pee.
She went in to check to see where i was and where Isaac was standing.
I did not know till i went out then she asked me said u use the toilet too right?
I was like stunned...
What did you said i asked.
She say i saw the shadow you use the toilet then i tell her that a small kid u wanna charge?
She said of cas then i asked her, my BB inside my tummy u wanna charge?
Then i walked away..
Of cas i never paid her as her attitude is bad and her toilet is not clean at all too!
Darn all this stupid aunties.
Think theya re just money grabber!
I shall call NEA later and check on this and hopefuly she cant get to work there and collect $0.10 from others and make herself jobless
;)

i have yet to called SBS to complaint too.
Will do so now.

i am having sever moodswing recently and i think it the pregnancy affecting me la.

BTW i just complaint about the SBS bus NO 64 haha, although the incident happen on 27 May and i hve not forget about it.

Going o do my report already.
Sian.
Back ached.

Son is well behaved yesterday when he is out with sis and he know his ABC, sigh! Why everyday not the same, know his ABC well and i can teached him more thing rather then be lazy?
Did he follwed my genes?
iw asnt like that when i was young?
Only when i hit teens then i was lazy etc le, sigh, kids nowaday are pretty hard to teached and also to understand them more i guess we need more patience.
I hoped he actually know what im saying but just plain lazy thus this is still good.
he played so much but then still not tired after he took a nap in the car yesterday.
Power..
i cant imagine kid who are hyper-active..
Hope this BB is not so hyper like son.

BTW, my maid seems abit blur at times or im in bad mood cant stand things not done accordingly to what i have said?
We went out and she just sat there watched son while he stand at the railing.
Instead of walking over and stand beside him, she just sat there and drink her water and until i showed a Pek Chey face then she walked over.
Like not Zhi Dong le.
Maybe she is still new and slow.
I asked him to talked to her tonight already.
i keepn saying till the cow come home same issue not resolved!
She is doing her work well anot in perfect i cant said as i have not really checked but i know that there area places that i spotted not cleaned at all la, simple housewk she do nice lo, maybe abit lazy la.
I guess this maid really need someone to be home to watch her or well just more camera la.
i think maid are good but they cant be trusted as they will be lazy too.
I treat her well, but she reprociate anot i wouldnt know.
it up to her, if she is still no good i shall change her away already.
i dont wanna keep saying the sam old thing when i have no patience at all.
;)
Hope she get better, will talked to her tonight.


Tomorrow is Saturday already but dunno he have to work anot. Sigh!
;(

Wanted to go Expo fair but im broke!
Can someone help and planted $$ for me as i am really very broke this month till i dunno how to survive.

Mum buy grocery for me better abit but daily needs how?
July can come faster?

July im going HK shit!
Will i be broke again, cant spend much but still need go as ticket already booked since last year!
Sister & Gor will be going with me instead of him & son as he got work and i cant bring son along myself and if that the case sis sure wont want to go with me de.
Haha

Son sorry we shall go Disneyland next year ok.


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i am back from my leave already after a week rest at home.

Teaching the maid and teaching son. How i wished i can dont work and be a SAHM, but i cant la, so no choice today i am here again lo working.

Maid is ok la, after i seen her for a few days but then u wont know if a person is really good anot when we are not at home la. All humans are like that de ma. Once they can relaxed, they will not really cared that much de wad right?

Well we shall prayed for the best and see how good she really is lo.

Sister is at home now with the maid and son, Son school holiday now, asked my sister to come and watch the maid while i go work lo.
Need to watched her for a period of time before i can judge her personality.

this maid to be frank, is good, but wad worried me more is that she is pretending when im at home as i think she feel that i am the most fierce at home :)

She is sometimes forgetful, abit slow and might need me to tell her what to do then she will go do lo. Maybe she is still new and i expected too much?
Like i need to tell her to wash my toilet window twice as she clean once and there is still spider web but she nvr clean again till i said so.
Is this normal?
I nvr expected her to climb out of the window nor what la to clean etc. just from inside the house.
I need to tell her to wash the clothes else she will wait like that ;)
I need to remove the clothes from my room laundry basket then she will wash the clothes.
Hmmm. i think all this take times.
He cant tell her or teach her much as he got project now and very busy at work, home late everyday!
;(

The maid like to learn how to cook la, act or not no1 knows.
Well,... we shall see.

She feed son well too but too big mouth like wanna faster like that la. So i always tell her slowly.
She played with Isaac, write with him once only till yesterday as i am there lo.
She will cleaned the toilet everyday la.
What is no good is that she used too much water and also, she i dunno la.

Son is at home now all the way for the whole month of Jun as school hoilday and he never go Pu ti as the maid is at hme with him mah, maybe he will go next week till end lo. Better then he stayed home la.

I taught him to write and read and i tell u i nearly puked BLOOD!
Either he is not listening or he just dont care as he is not scared of me and my sister.
i called his tution teacher and she told me to relax as some kids dont really learn till they are really in K2 moreever he is only 5 in Dec, thus he is not ready now, but i am worried as i am too relaxed on him before and i really nvr teached u see.
I let him played as and when he want and also not strict and bend on teaching. thus now he is like that dont like to read and write.

I belived son can do all this and he just dont pay attention to what i said or wad, but when it come to his teacher he can lo.
I hope to stressed him as he will be in new school in Jul and i am really scared he cant catch up and feel more stress and cry when he needed to go school just like his tution class.
I want him to enjoyed his childhood at the same times learn also.

How can i justify this and make this fair?

BTW, i went for my scanning yesterday and the result?
BOY!!!!
;) & ;(

As i actually wanted a gal la, well no choice GOD gave me this so i have to accepted it lo.
As long as my BB is healthy i am glad already.
;)

i am already 5 months into my pregnacy and im due in Oct lo.
Doc say cant weight the BB yet as now is still growing and is weight in grams rather then KG so wait for the next scan and doctor visit lo.

i am surpised that this pregnancy i gained 0 KG till date. Unlike son, i gained almost like 10 over KG at this point already and in total i gained 20KG.
I wonder why, actuaklly if my BB is big and i dont gained any KG is good haha, so i can slim down faster also!
;)

They are going to cycle later i think or gg movie with Isaac la.
Hope they have fun, i wanted to being son out too also but cant as he got work and weekend also burned suay!
Always got project and no project then sian too!
Timing is always not right!
So sickening la.
Hopefully this week he can go out but he already mentioned that he might have to work la.
&^$^$%^$
See how la.

I am so tight on cash this month le, everything needed to be pay and im gg crazy soon. Hope things will turn better for Jul onwards!

I am praying!

;)
Going clear the dump pile of shit on my desk tat have been acculmlate for the past week im on leave.



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