Took cab back yesterday as he is not free to fetch me home, project ending on Saturday.
Cook Spag with my bestie Pesto sauce as i saw the dinner i got no mood again and omg la.
Looking for prawns but then cant find so use mushroom instead lo, haha.
Not bad effect, cook for him too as he came back at 8plus.
Watched Whispered on SCV last night, not bad show, i thought the boy is really an ANGEL, no he is the DEVIL.
He need to kill in order to redemmed his souls.
OMG
I hope that dont exist in reality!!!!
He said wanted to watch with me, ended up he ZZZZZZZZZZZ and i watched myself lo, even when i am really tired but the ending is catchy la, i need to know if the boy die haha.
YES la, he die.
tomorrow is Saturday already lo, Monday is HDB time, might be meeting my sister at TPY, see how.
Called her earlier to ask her meet me for lunch lo, else i will go Daiso to walk walk and get the container for son already.
His car area full and the container i find is not bad lo.
I saw a slow cooker which is small perfect for my porridge and tonic, going get it this Sun, when he can drive me there.
Very cheap, only $14.90, offer la.
my own one, i left in the old house and it's gone la.
=(
nevermind, i can simply get a new one just got money can liao lo.
I think i got to stop Isaac taking cab habit, i find it is wasteful of money la.
Hais, i save but my son spend!
Each day is around $14.00, imagine how much it is for 20 days per month!
It is $280 lo, can pay the maid salary!
OMFG
I shall not hesitate to hire a maid already and i also wont have to be like a mad person, rushing off from workplace, catches the bus sharp, then detour then back to AMK, when i can simply take a train or bus from my office here and it take less then 30 minutes.
if i do the same old way like now, i finished work at 6pm, take bus to son childcare , will reached approx 6.45pm.
Then from there take bus to MRT, 7 board the MRT, latest la, reached AMK mrt at ard 7.35, walked home, reached 8pm!
Can u imagine i spend 2 hours on taht daily when i can just reached home at 6.40 the max if i got the maid!
I have no choice but to hire as there is no one to help and people are not willingly to help as they have no returns, just like my mum for example.
She can go out for as long as she can, as shopping or just out of the house seems to be the pleasure for her.
I need to beg or said lots of times before someone can help me look after my son for me, if it is URGENT!
Else i will just looked after myself, save the troubles.
i thought my mum will changed after she is older and recovered!
I am wrong, she is still the same.
Never change, maybe only durin that period which i think that she is an ANGEL, now no more.
I am always not on good terms with her as i used to hate her tonnes and to the max!
When i was young, she used to send me to my grandmother, aunty house if possible, holidays worst, the 1st day, i will be send there by my dad!
I seriously dunno why she hates me that much when i was kid, and she is my real mother, Not step mum kk.
I used to think she is my step mum is it until i saw my birth certificate. No le, She is my real mother lo.
=(
Well, she might have her reason to hate me, but she treated my sister differently from me, my sister was allowed to stay at home all 365 days per year, yet the funny part was that she was able to join me in my stay at the places i went.
WHY?
She brought her to Primary school, carry her bag for her, queue and buy food for her and i was not getting this non of this at all.
I have to walked to school myself and bring bread to school.
Can u imagine the life of us 2 is so different.
if i want to go home stay during weekends, i have to asked her for permission and also subjected to approval.
I stayed with my grandmother so often that i thought she is always the best in this world as no one cared for me like an unwanted child.
She dont really nknow how to take care of me, so she can only gave me $$, whichh at my age is not the most important yet, is kinda KINSHIP!
Maybe that is the reason why i turned from good to bad then to worst like running away from home, drugs, club, smoke, play truant.
She became nicer to me when i was in Secondary school as i went home and stay.
But things are still the same as before. I am treated like dirt lo, which make me sad and wanted to stay away from home as often as i can.
So i am rarely at home.
I was staying with my Hk bf when i was in secondary school, so meaning YES, no need to go home lo, till the day he went to AUSSIE and study and broke off with me because of a woman.
I was devasted, but i can only go back to my home as i wasnt renting the place anymore.
Life wasnt that good there.
I was treated badly and sometimes good depending on mood and it was biased lo.
=(
Dad doted on me at that time, what i asked for, if he can afford he will give it to me and she will eye red!
I always wondered why.
Then one day something changed, she was no longer the same after she went ofr her badmintion.
All because of one person and the family fromt ehn on was not the same anymore.
I saluate my dad as he can bear with it for so many years till now then he flare and started doing the same.
He dont really care for the house anymore, but i dont blame him at all as he did his part when we were young and bear with all the things that man cant!
Yet all she did was to sneer at him and make bad remarks to others about him when she dont reflect on himself, which is a disgrace!
Shameful!!!!!!
I sometimes wonder why people can cooked up story and make the story seems like she is not at fault and others are!
It is not fair at all.
My sister always tell me her attitude is like that just ignore her.
How can we ignore her when she keep and continued to be like this.
it is like a diease that will continued to spread in times to come lo.
She is old enough to think and learn.
If we dont treat her she will never changed!
But well, since she thinks that this is the best of all now because she is still getting what she wanted!
Only will she realised that what is important just like when she was ill!
She will regret it BIG TIMES!!!
I have out grown of all this now as i have grown older and mature and i have a son to think for.
I will NEVER behave like my mum towards my son, as it is just the actions of a beast!
I never regret giving birth to Isaac nor getting married at young then divorced because i met him and till date.
Life is always unfair if we are going to judge it, it is only how we can make it better and see sunshine each morning when u wake up.
We can grumble, complaint and all sorts of things. If we dont make and effort to change, nothing can be changed and u will still be the same u today, tml and forever!
I chose to buy a house even it is costly to stay on our own, but at least i got shelter and i am not afraid that one day someone might not want me anymore or what!
I remember i ahve to beg my mum & sister to let me go back and stay when he is not around and i cant pay my rental flat!
I seriously hate them to the core at that time and i was like, i ened to BEG just to go back?
i cried so much during that period of time till he came back.
I swear that i will never want to suffer this kind of life anymore.
I will make sure that i will not step into that hole again.
I did went back la, but not long i am out again!
it was never easy to be me from all the way till now.
I must continued and give the best to myself and my family!
My back ached when i sneeze, guess it is the backache problem again, i hate it man, so pain.
All because of the epdurial and the confirnment period never watched lo, young mah!
I nag too much today.
EMO days
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