What is wrong with blogger?
cant load pictures.
Arggggg...
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Good news is that Baby Kyden will be coming home tomorrow already, but got to wait for nurse to call at 12 pm.
Tried Latching Kyden earlier but he cant haha, gt to keep trying lo.
Else wait he got this so called Nipple Confusion.
Busy fixing his cot and other things earlier,
haha, as my so busy HUSBAND said no nid so early now he gan chiong lo.
Did some last min shopping at Mustafa earlier haha.
But din buy much as was seeing what are the things we actually need first haha.
Need to go bank tml morning as i need to draw money.
We also went to see the fridge that we want and we will get it either tml or Wed, need a new one really. Storing of milk as i dont want to ferry to his mum place then backt o our home wait i used up the newer one then the older one still there.
No choice $$ got to spend de must spend as i m the one decied to buy the fridge thus i got to PAY la.
=)
I need to store other food too la, as i keep think i got 2 kids now already ma, then also need to store BB food in 4 to 6 mths later too.
Who asked me go buy a small fridge in the 1st place haha.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Monday, September 21, 2009
Very good progress
Went visit Kyden yesterday, he can drink all 40 Ml of milk by himself and yesterday we saw the timing was 14 minutes.
He is off the tube also REMOVED!!
=)
Hope my precious Jia You and continued to drink well and not stopping or relay on tubing then he can come back already pretty soon.
Was sourcing for clothings for him as he is really still small size and his 1 mth need new clothing ma.
Hard to buy haha.
Anyway i brought the long sleeves bib and it is on offer so OK!!!
Not so expensive.
My son got the most is the Mitten, Booties, Bib and towel haha.
Romper he have alot too but no 2 pieces, all given by others and it is still new unworn yet lo as my fren actually got twin thus all set gt 2 pieces.
Now soucring for a new Fridge as my friege is full with breastmilk and it seems like abit weak scare spoilt la, thus need to buy a new one.
I got myself a good pump to fasten my pumping of milk, so far, it cant reali empty all as per Eling mentioned no pump can do so.
This is better as i on use my hand and pump when i was using my Avent manual de haha.
Mine i brought is a dual pump so both breaqst at the same time and save time too, but sometimes the breast dont listen it just take abit long too!
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Maybe there area better ways which i have not find out bah.
My bday is drawing near already, i wan KLyden to be back to celebrate with me also and our family.
His dad brought him out yesterday say wan to go Town, then 15 minutes later he called me and asked me what time i wan to go fetch him when he came like just 25 minutes ago to fetch him.
Then he said he got no car, then wants me go fetch him instead LOL.
Later he called again and mentioned that his brother wilkl bring him go town instead, I say ok lo.
Then his brother brought him to buy toys, go town, chinatown to see lantern and eat dinner which all this his dad cant do it de,
LOL
His brother will make sure that he finished his food and careful and clean too!@
I seriously hope he can have a kids with his current GF then he can don bothered about son since he already does not now then i can fully have son to myself.
Anyway he dont care why should i let him see on Sunday haha.
Going to see and compared fridge already.
Good bye,
Pray good progress to my Kyden when i go visit him later.
=)
He is off the tube also REMOVED!!
=)
Hope my precious Jia You and continued to drink well and not stopping or relay on tubing then he can come back already pretty soon.
Was sourcing for clothings for him as he is really still small size and his 1 mth need new clothing ma.
Hard to buy haha.
Anyway i brought the long sleeves bib and it is on offer so OK!!!
Not so expensive.
My son got the most is the Mitten, Booties, Bib and towel haha.
Romper he have alot too but no 2 pieces, all given by others and it is still new unworn yet lo as my fren actually got twin thus all set gt 2 pieces.
Now soucring for a new Fridge as my friege is full with breastmilk and it seems like abit weak scare spoilt la, thus need to buy a new one.
I got myself a good pump to fasten my pumping of milk, so far, it cant reali empty all as per Eling mentioned no pump can do so.
This is better as i on use my hand and pump when i was using my Avent manual de haha.
Mine i brought is a dual pump so both breaqst at the same time and save time too, but sometimes the breast dont listen it just take abit long too!
=(
Maybe there area better ways which i have not find out bah.
My bday is drawing near already, i wan KLyden to be back to celebrate with me also and our family.
His dad brought him out yesterday say wan to go Town, then 15 minutes later he called me and asked me what time i wan to go fetch him when he came like just 25 minutes ago to fetch him.
Then he said he got no car, then wants me go fetch him instead LOL.
Later he called again and mentioned that his brother wilkl bring him go town instead, I say ok lo.
Then his brother brought him to buy toys, go town, chinatown to see lantern and eat dinner which all this his dad cant do it de,
LOL
His brother will make sure that he finished his food and careful and clean too!@
I seriously hope he can have a kids with his current GF then he can don bothered about son since he already does not now then i can fully have son to myself.
Anyway he dont care why should i let him see on Sunday haha.
Going to see and compared fridge already.
Good bye,
Pray good progress to my Kyden when i go visit him later.
=)
Sunday, September 20, 2009
=)
Kyden is already 2.45kg and YES he FINISHED one whole bottle of milk with 40 Ml fed by him.
As i was watching and my duties is to change diaper haha.
YES MY KYDEN IS SO CLEVER, hope he can continued so can come home soon lo.
WE PRAY!!!
=)
As i was watching and my duties is to change diaper haha.
YES MY KYDEN IS SO CLEVER, hope he can continued so can come home soon lo.
WE PRAY!!!
=)
Thursday, September 17, 2009
It is a nightmare cum memories?
I sent around almost 5 sms to said IM SORRY!
Well i guess it take times to actually wait for her to cool down.
He know about what happen yesterday as son told him already, said he is scare as we were very loud esp me shouting etc.
I was surpised that son will tell him what happen at home while i was pumping milk.
=(
He said his aunty is coming up this Sunday to pass me baby things etc.
I sometimes wonder am i really having post natal depression now?
I suddenly can flare up for no particular reason or just feel like crying etc.
When i was happily laughing awhile ago..
I feel sad easily rather then before and also i am getting more tempermental...
Is there something wrong with me?
Can someone tell me is this the depression that i am hitting?
I even can forgo to go see my precious KYDEN yesterday and i went sleeping instead.
I duno what hit me, reali.
OK i admit i am really bad in chasing her and the shouting, but i duno why i just cant control myside and it reali just flare for that moment then when i cried, sleep wake up for around 1 hour, i feel normal and started to feel so bad that i wanted to make up for it.
I text my sister and she said she is not angry but seems sad. I know la.
I mean if my son next time do this to me obviously i will feel sad also.
I wished it does not happen la.
But well i duno i cant let people agitate me or keep nagging.
I will flare but this time round i think i over flare?
I am stilling feeling moody and restless now.
I cant sleep at all last night but when i cried i know im so tired, my mind keep replaying the same roles of last night over and over again till i finally doze off at 5am but keep waking up and never really sleep.
I woke up to pump milk at 7am then i tried to go bk sleep around 9am and i woke up at 12 plus again.
Im not tired now.
But im feeling heavy in my heart.
My sister always say that my mum is fair in everytyhing.
Sometimes i doubt so because she is not me she don understand.
I have my own family problems to worry about when my husband never LISTEN to me and i have to worry about this and that.
Im so so so so so so so so so so tired.
Sometimes i wished i can go back to be a kid this way i have no worries and i just go school and happily go home after that.
But i know i cant turn back time anymore.
Im already 24 no more going back to 7 years old when i was in Primary one already.
It's over already.
Now im a mother of 2 already there are more huge responsibilities that i have to carry rather then hoping a helping hand from others.
I tried to understand my mother hardship but i simply cant as her thinking is so far stretch from mine.
I cant behave like her the same way as her thinking is more of herself rather then the kids she hve.
I want the best for my kids only.
I dont care if i hve no enough food/ money/ etc for myself, as long as i can provide for them and they are happy im contented.
My mum, worries about herself, my sister more then me, when i was young i remember that i was not able to stay at home during all sorts of holidays.
She will pack my bag and sent me to my father sister house or grandmother house.
While my sister gets to stay at home with her.
If i want to go home, i have to call and pretend that im sick etc, but once im well i will get send back to the house till school holidays are over.
I envy my cousin whose parents are caring and also nice to them well they are nice to me also.
But there are times when they are heartless too and the kids are not fair but who can i turn to?
NO one....
I can only call my dad if he can send me home, but he cant as he got to work and at that point of times i guess he is afraid of mum thus he listen to mum only lo.
No choice that is life....
I always regards my dad the best in the world before i got married because althought he hardly talked or asked or concern about me, he seriuosly cared.
He is the type who dont comment de la.
But i deeply respect him.
Even when i stayed in hospital and after coming home, he went to hospital and called me to ask about me and baby when my mum did not only called and asked about other unrevenlent issues.
She only asked about baby like only last week onwards or when i cant remember.
I cant said she is totally bad nor what as overall she is still my mum but then i reali feel sad.
Sometimes i seriously wonder if im her real daughter or not!
Well it is not the time to talked about all this now already.
i have my own family to worried about.
Please just forgive me if u can!
Anyway 30 Sep is drawing near already. my birthday again.
I remeber it was my birthday too when i was having son but i am still 3 months away from giving birth la.
=)
Memories is always beemn remember but then there are just some which cant be erased.
Now my only worries is not about others anymore, it more about when can my No.2 be able to bottle fed totally on his own.
Please Jia You and learn well ok, Mummy is waiting for u to come home.
BTW, i need to get baby clothings for Kyden as the rest i buy for him is too big haha, when i did not know he decided to come out so early to see his mummy. Haha....
No worries Kyden will be a big boy very soon.
Well i guess it take times to actually wait for her to cool down.
He know about what happen yesterday as son told him already, said he is scare as we were very loud esp me shouting etc.
I was surpised that son will tell him what happen at home while i was pumping milk.
=(
He said his aunty is coming up this Sunday to pass me baby things etc.
I sometimes wonder am i really having post natal depression now?
I suddenly can flare up for no particular reason or just feel like crying etc.
When i was happily laughing awhile ago..
I feel sad easily rather then before and also i am getting more tempermental...
Is there something wrong with me?
Can someone tell me is this the depression that i am hitting?
I even can forgo to go see my precious KYDEN yesterday and i went sleeping instead.
I duno what hit me, reali.
OK i admit i am really bad in chasing her and the shouting, but i duno why i just cant control myside and it reali just flare for that moment then when i cried, sleep wake up for around 1 hour, i feel normal and started to feel so bad that i wanted to make up for it.
I text my sister and she said she is not angry but seems sad. I know la.
I mean if my son next time do this to me obviously i will feel sad also.
I wished it does not happen la.
But well i duno i cant let people agitate me or keep nagging.
I will flare but this time round i think i over flare?
I am stilling feeling moody and restless now.
I cant sleep at all last night but when i cried i know im so tired, my mind keep replaying the same roles of last night over and over again till i finally doze off at 5am but keep waking up and never really sleep.
I woke up to pump milk at 7am then i tried to go bk sleep around 9am and i woke up at 12 plus again.
Im not tired now.
But im feeling heavy in my heart.
My sister always say that my mum is fair in everytyhing.
Sometimes i doubt so because she is not me she don understand.
I have my own family problems to worry about when my husband never LISTEN to me and i have to worry about this and that.
Im so so so so so so so so so so tired.
Sometimes i wished i can go back to be a kid this way i have no worries and i just go school and happily go home after that.
But i know i cant turn back time anymore.
Im already 24 no more going back to 7 years old when i was in Primary one already.
It's over already.
Now im a mother of 2 already there are more huge responsibilities that i have to carry rather then hoping a helping hand from others.
I tried to understand my mother hardship but i simply cant as her thinking is so far stretch from mine.
I cant behave like her the same way as her thinking is more of herself rather then the kids she hve.
I want the best for my kids only.
I dont care if i hve no enough food/ money/ etc for myself, as long as i can provide for them and they are happy im contented.
My mum, worries about herself, my sister more then me, when i was young i remember that i was not able to stay at home during all sorts of holidays.
She will pack my bag and sent me to my father sister house or grandmother house.
While my sister gets to stay at home with her.
If i want to go home, i have to call and pretend that im sick etc, but once im well i will get send back to the house till school holidays are over.
I envy my cousin whose parents are caring and also nice to them well they are nice to me also.
But there are times when they are heartless too and the kids are not fair but who can i turn to?
NO one....
I can only call my dad if he can send me home, but he cant as he got to work and at that point of times i guess he is afraid of mum thus he listen to mum only lo.
No choice that is life....
I always regards my dad the best in the world before i got married because althought he hardly talked or asked or concern about me, he seriuosly cared.
He is the type who dont comment de la.
But i deeply respect him.
Even when i stayed in hospital and after coming home, he went to hospital and called me to ask about me and baby when my mum did not only called and asked about other unrevenlent issues.
She only asked about baby like only last week onwards or when i cant remember.
I cant said she is totally bad nor what as overall she is still my mum but then i reali feel sad.
Sometimes i seriously wonder if im her real daughter or not!
Well it is not the time to talked about all this now already.
i have my own family to worried about.
Please just forgive me if u can!
Anyway 30 Sep is drawing near already. my birthday again.
I remeber it was my birthday too when i was having son but i am still 3 months away from giving birth la.
=)
Memories is always beemn remember but then there are just some which cant be erased.
Now my only worries is not about others anymore, it more about when can my No.2 be able to bottle fed totally on his own.
Please Jia You and learn well ok, Mummy is waiting for u to come home.
BTW, i need to get baby clothings for Kyden as the rest i buy for him is too big haha, when i did not know he decided to come out so early to see his mummy. Haha....
No worries Kyden will be a big boy very soon.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
It the worst day of my life
I seriuosly cried so badly just now as i think it is the worst day of my life.
No one understand how i feel and the stress that im taking on.
it is not easy and everyone think its easy as just because i never said it out doesnt means that im strong.
Im overall a woman and i need shoulder and pillar too de.
I cant hold all this by myself.
i wished i could too!!!
I am doing confirnment and then thus i cant go out and when i cant manage things myself i asked for help and in the end the help is not deeply done, infact it is worst then not asking.
I am abviously very angry and mood go down then next came my mum.....
Im pumping milk in the room and when she came back immediately she wants me to open the door obviously i will shout and said wait but she cant!
Im already very pek chey about what happen already earlier trying not to think about it then she wants to start again.
Fine she wants the room i gave her the room, i went to son room, locked myself inside hoping to pump milk in peace.
NONO
I heard her saying scarasticv things again which i seriously cant take it as im already half dead going to explode soon in any min and she started it again.
Why cant she keep her mouth shut?
I know people are going to ask me why i cant take it nothing have happen
I cant!!!!
Because i am very sad and disappointed about something that happen again and again de and i feel lousy!!
I know she is nice to me, but please for the whole month i did my confirnement today is the only day u come up then u cant actually do something nice and please me abit?
I have not blame u for not coming up to cook for me etc as i know that 7th mth is very important to u as got alot of activity, cant u think wise for others?
Im rude in chasing u out of the house aint u doin the same?
I tried not to flare each time u shout or create rubbish but if ur in a bad mood and some other people come and do the same to u how would u react?
I bet u will react the same as me also am i right?
People might think that im RUDE, no RESPECT!!
But if u wan people to respect u dont u respect others too?
Im a human being too i need some airr too.
In the noon i already have no lunch as no one is free to bring my food over then never mind lucky my sister brought food for me then later again something happen.
yes u can bring back all the food that u buy for me i dont mind, aint that call selfish!
I seriously cant think of anything now already,
My heart is dead so is my mind.
Im really tired and i don even want to go visit Kyden earlier as i am reali moodless.
Anyway i text her saying im SORRY already.
ANyway what have happen happen, i dont want to talked about it anymore.
If u insist that Kyden 1 mth u dont wan come or my hse i don mind, anyway son last time 1 mth and 1 yr old the same old thing happen also.
Im not important o u in ur heart only when u r free then maybe u will think of me too.
My sister are more important in ur heart and i know that it will always be de.
No matter what she do or shout/ scream at u, overall u still treat her nicely then me.
Nevermind, it is that we dont have yuan that all.
I wonder am i having posy natal depression now.
I dont have this kind of sour feeling when i gave birth to Isaac.
I keep want to cry very easily recently over the slighest thing that happen and there are a lot of things that i wanted to said but then i cant.
It is bolted insied me so hard that i think im gg to explode.
I seriously hate everyone including myself too!
Kyden updates:
I did not go today is he text me de.
Kyden weight 1.920 kg today and drinking same 40Ml every 3 hours.
that all..
I think maid is so scared of me just now when she reali saw me flar up the 1st time so seriously!
She is so scare to talked to me also.
I am having headache.
going to rest soon after i pump my last pump.
Everyone is not wrong the person who is wrong might be me myself i guess in order to make others happy!
Life is never fair!
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No one understand how i feel and the stress that im taking on.
it is not easy and everyone think its easy as just because i never said it out doesnt means that im strong.
Im overall a woman and i need shoulder and pillar too de.
I cant hold all this by myself.
i wished i could too!!!
I am doing confirnment and then thus i cant go out and when i cant manage things myself i asked for help and in the end the help is not deeply done, infact it is worst then not asking.
I am abviously very angry and mood go down then next came my mum.....
Im pumping milk in the room and when she came back immediately she wants me to open the door obviously i will shout and said wait but she cant!
Im already very pek chey about what happen already earlier trying not to think about it then she wants to start again.
Fine she wants the room i gave her the room, i went to son room, locked myself inside hoping to pump milk in peace.
NONO
I heard her saying scarasticv things again which i seriously cant take it as im already half dead going to explode soon in any min and she started it again.
Why cant she keep her mouth shut?
I know people are going to ask me why i cant take it nothing have happen
I cant!!!!
Because i am very sad and disappointed about something that happen again and again de and i feel lousy!!
I know she is nice to me, but please for the whole month i did my confirnement today is the only day u come up then u cant actually do something nice and please me abit?
I have not blame u for not coming up to cook for me etc as i know that 7th mth is very important to u as got alot of activity, cant u think wise for others?
Im rude in chasing u out of the house aint u doin the same?
I tried not to flare each time u shout or create rubbish but if ur in a bad mood and some other people come and do the same to u how would u react?
I bet u will react the same as me also am i right?
People might think that im RUDE, no RESPECT!!
But if u wan people to respect u dont u respect others too?
Im a human being too i need some airr too.
In the noon i already have no lunch as no one is free to bring my food over then never mind lucky my sister brought food for me then later again something happen.
yes u can bring back all the food that u buy for me i dont mind, aint that call selfish!
I seriously cant think of anything now already,
My heart is dead so is my mind.
Im really tired and i don even want to go visit Kyden earlier as i am reali moodless.
Anyway i text her saying im SORRY already.
ANyway what have happen happen, i dont want to talked about it anymore.
If u insist that Kyden 1 mth u dont wan come or my hse i don mind, anyway son last time 1 mth and 1 yr old the same old thing happen also.
Im not important o u in ur heart only when u r free then maybe u will think of me too.
My sister are more important in ur heart and i know that it will always be de.
No matter what she do or shout/ scream at u, overall u still treat her nicely then me.
Nevermind, it is that we dont have yuan that all.
I wonder am i having posy natal depression now.
I dont have this kind of sour feeling when i gave birth to Isaac.
I keep want to cry very easily recently over the slighest thing that happen and there are a lot of things that i wanted to said but then i cant.
It is bolted insied me so hard that i think im gg to explode.
I seriously hate everyone including myself too!
Kyden updates:
I did not go today is he text me de.
Kyden weight 1.920 kg today and drinking same 40Ml every 3 hours.
that all..
I think maid is so scared of me just now when she reali saw me flar up the 1st time so seriously!
She is so scare to talked to me also.
I am having headache.
going to rest soon after i pump my last pump.
Everyone is not wrong the person who is wrong might be me myself i guess in order to make others happy!
Life is never fair!
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Tuesday, September 15, 2009
TUESDAY
Went to visit Kyden earlier then after that to Sheng Shiong to get grocery, recently never online thus never blog about Kyden growing up.
I slept till almost 2 to 3 pm daily as i woke up to pump my milk which is so full each day at around 6am to 645am, and the whole pump last around 1 to 1/2 hour which i infact very tiring to me la.
Im using a manual pump OK!!!
I m thinking to invest on a electric pump as really if im going back to work i cant afford to waste time and then be late for wk just because of pumping haha.
At work i might use manual hand express or manual pump rather then elecrtic as there are currently no room for pumping la.
See how.
Im actually very depressed by this la. Keep thinking how to pummp now.
Will go search for electric pump already, my hand is really really very tired!!!!!
=(
Sister are coming over tomorrow with mom and Gor..
Kyden updates:
He is currently 1.915kg and still on 40 Ml of milk lo, no increase.
He can bottle fed only like around 10 to 13 Ml of milk then he very tired and sleepy already.
No choice.
Doctor is training him on this la, hopefully he can Jia You then faster bottlefed then can come home already.
I dont really have much patience to bottle fed him, but husband tried and he nearly fell asleep that day while feeding him la.
So funny la, as he really drink very slow la!!!!!
haven upload his pictures but he is still about the same, no much changes la.
Haha
he grown abit fatter la, more chubby!
All thanks to my breast miilk hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaHAHAHAHAHA
My hard work la!
=)
I let Isaac drink my breast milk too and he like it too, i tout he will reject this milk instead haha.
He is already asleep haha, fall asleep around 8plus, guess he is really tired sleeping so late every night!
Scolded by him to bed last night.
He is very naughty and talktative but he is super clever la.
i loved him la but he make me angry sometimes.
Haha
Do u reliased that there are like Haze in Singapore recently or this few days?
Like so cloudy le!
i want to go watch DVD already bye bye.
I slept till almost 2 to 3 pm daily as i woke up to pump my milk which is so full each day at around 6am to 645am, and the whole pump last around 1 to 1/2 hour which i infact very tiring to me la.
Im using a manual pump OK!!!
I m thinking to invest on a electric pump as really if im going back to work i cant afford to waste time and then be late for wk just because of pumping haha.
At work i might use manual hand express or manual pump rather then elecrtic as there are currently no room for pumping la.
See how.
Im actually very depressed by this la. Keep thinking how to pummp now.
Will go search for electric pump already, my hand is really really very tired!!!!!
=(
Sister are coming over tomorrow with mom and Gor..
Kyden updates:
He is currently 1.915kg and still on 40 Ml of milk lo, no increase.
He can bottle fed only like around 10 to 13 Ml of milk then he very tired and sleepy already.
No choice.
Doctor is training him on this la, hopefully he can Jia You then faster bottlefed then can come home already.
I dont really have much patience to bottle fed him, but husband tried and he nearly fell asleep that day while feeding him la.
So funny la, as he really drink very slow la!!!!!
haven upload his pictures but he is still about the same, no much changes la.
Haha
he grown abit fatter la, more chubby!
All thanks to my breast miilk hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaHAHAHAHAHA
My hard work la!
=)
I let Isaac drink my breast milk too and he like it too, i tout he will reject this milk instead haha.
He is already asleep haha, fall asleep around 8plus, guess he is really tired sleeping so late every night!
Scolded by him to bed last night.
He is very naughty and talktative but he is super clever la.
i loved him la but he make me angry sometimes.
Haha
Do u reliased that there are like Haze in Singapore recently or this few days?
Like so cloudy le!
i want to go watch DVD already bye bye.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Tuesday
Went visit Kyden today as yesterday he is working so i cant tagged along.
He is so naughty and i scold him haha.
I carried him then he cried then i put him down he OK then i carried him he cried again.
Then i scold him haha.
Kyden updates:
He is 1.7kg now, feeding on 38ml per 3 hours and he is transferred out to the normal nursey till he gain weight and can learn to be on bottle fed.
It is a good thing that he can move out of the Special Nursery, meaning he is progressing well lo.
Now i can only hope he can learn to bottle suck then can go home already of he can gained more weight.
=)
BTW i just checked with KKH, they mentioned that Kyden still got 40 over bottle of milk left in the firdge OMG.
My fridge is full so i shall bring over to his mum place and placed the milk, shall not sent so much to KKH liao, keep the rest then when Kyden is back can drink.
He is working OT today, wont be back early but i got to wait for him as he is gg to massage my hand as i tin i accidently hurt it and it is swollen and super painful!
He is supposed to massage yesterday but he fell asleep while massaing half way.
So i got to wait for him to be back as he PROMISE me to massage for me.
Maid is drinking cough syrup again and i told her there are cough syrup which is not drowsy she can drink but she dont want, worst she take it with the Flu medicine when i see her fine and strong.
I wonder why she like to drink that and i realise that the cough syrup i brought back gt 4 bottles i tin now left with only 1 bottle lo.
Can u tell me she got kick in drinking har!
She is sleeping like a pig now i presume.
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Son is on school holiday and everyday he is so noisy now.
He just been scold by me.
he rub his eyes then its RED!
He got beri senstive eye and a little bit it will be RED!
I hate it when his eyes is RED, he will keep RUB!!
hais.
Doctor said its like that as he gt senstive skin and eyes.
Once he got swollen eyes till i can see his eye ball scared the shit out of me, but once then twice i actually know how to handle it.
I tried to keep his blanket and pillow clean by washing once a week but he like to step on it which made me very angry!
I will cane him but i never la.
that day he was squeezing my conditioner and the maid complained to me, i cane his hand then now he still remember, never did that but must consitintly remind him. No wonder my conditioner so fast finished.
So naughty!!!!
I want to buy new fridge liao in order to store my milk and bigger capacity also.
Got 2 kids need bigger fridge then now and my current fridge i think gt some problems but not sure also.
My bday is drawing near after Kyden 1 month then i asked him where he want to bring me for dinner haha. He can read my mind la.
Seafood at Ah Yat.
=)
He said he will tk halfday leave.
Dont know gei siao anot.
Stupid boy!!!
I also duno when Kyden will be back need to order the 1 month cake, buffet, venue etc, all this need to confirm when Kyden is back then i can order sigh!
Please make him come back faster!
He is so naughty and i scold him haha.
I carried him then he cried then i put him down he OK then i carried him he cried again.
Then i scold him haha.
Kyden updates:
He is 1.7kg now, feeding on 38ml per 3 hours and he is transferred out to the normal nursey till he gain weight and can learn to be on bottle fed.
It is a good thing that he can move out of the Special Nursery, meaning he is progressing well lo.
Now i can only hope he can learn to bottle suck then can go home already of he can gained more weight.
=)
BTW i just checked with KKH, they mentioned that Kyden still got 40 over bottle of milk left in the firdge OMG.
My fridge is full so i shall bring over to his mum place and placed the milk, shall not sent so much to KKH liao, keep the rest then when Kyden is back can drink.
He is working OT today, wont be back early but i got to wait for him as he is gg to massage my hand as i tin i accidently hurt it and it is swollen and super painful!
He is supposed to massage yesterday but he fell asleep while massaing half way.
So i got to wait for him to be back as he PROMISE me to massage for me.
Maid is drinking cough syrup again and i told her there are cough syrup which is not drowsy she can drink but she dont want, worst she take it with the Flu medicine when i see her fine and strong.
I wonder why she like to drink that and i realise that the cough syrup i brought back gt 4 bottles i tin now left with only 1 bottle lo.
Can u tell me she got kick in drinking har!
She is sleeping like a pig now i presume.
=(
Son is on school holiday and everyday he is so noisy now.
He just been scold by me.
he rub his eyes then its RED!
He got beri senstive eye and a little bit it will be RED!
I hate it when his eyes is RED, he will keep RUB!!
hais.
Doctor said its like that as he gt senstive skin and eyes.
Once he got swollen eyes till i can see his eye ball scared the shit out of me, but once then twice i actually know how to handle it.
I tried to keep his blanket and pillow clean by washing once a week but he like to step on it which made me very angry!
I will cane him but i never la.
that day he was squeezing my conditioner and the maid complained to me, i cane his hand then now he still remember, never did that but must consitintly remind him. No wonder my conditioner so fast finished.
So naughty!!!!
I want to buy new fridge liao in order to store my milk and bigger capacity also.
Got 2 kids need bigger fridge then now and my current fridge i think gt some problems but not sure also.
My bday is drawing near after Kyden 1 month then i asked him where he want to bring me for dinner haha. He can read my mind la.
Seafood at Ah Yat.
=)
He said he will tk halfday leave.
Dont know gei siao anot.
Stupid boy!!!
I also duno when Kyden will be back need to order the 1 month cake, buffet, venue etc, all this need to confirm when Kyden is back then i can order sigh!
Please make him come back faster!
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Sunday
Went to visit Kyden yesterday and today.
Slack at home the whole day. Was raining in the morning when i woke up my lazy body to pump milk as my breast was as hard as rock haha.
He was still sleeping then he woke up at 9am to go JB.
I fell asleep after that and woke up at 1 plus to pump milk before having lunch.
Hungry.
My weight now is 55kg which is the same as before im pregnant. But i am hoping to lose the weight till around 45kg. So another 10 more kg to go, hope my breast fedding do help in losing weight.
Finally pay off the loan that i have already. Sigh a relief.
Kyden updates:
He is weighting 1.658kg now, drinking 35ml every 3 hours.
I tried to bottle fed him, he CANT!
Abit lazyla, haha, small.
He very fast then like asthma haha after a few mouth of sucking.
The nurse is trying to bottle fed him now daily to see if he improved.
I hope he can bottle fed soon lo. which means he reali grown up lo.
He did not put on weight today.
Weight measured is of Saturday not Sunday.
Sunday remained the same
Tml is Monday again, almost 2 weeks after i gave birth already. So fast.
Wound is healing almost OK, but still slight pain la.
I will wan to start bathing tml already.
Asking him to get my Herbs and also the neccessary things.
He finally collected my HP!
=)
My HP is been repaired, first time in my life i repair Hp, usuali i will just hange a new one.
Maybe my life is revolve in my kids so no more wasting $$$ on all this thing.
So now i will start to save hard for my both son haha. What a mother.
OK, he is out from shower and wan to use the lappy already as im lazy to on my own lappy haha.
Tml is wking day for my sister i think she will call me in the morning again lo.
=(
I shall wait and delay the timing for my pumping and can wake up at 6am when he go wk lo haha, i want Kyden to be back home now le. I feel like wasting my maternity leave and he is not home, sigh!
He said is OK as i can rest more now then wait for Kyden to be back then very busy liao. Also true la.
BTW im itching man from the plaster of the wound but i remove beri long ago le.
Im scratching so hard!
Gt abit blood!
=)
I wanna bathe tml!!!
=)
Slack at home the whole day. Was raining in the morning when i woke up my lazy body to pump milk as my breast was as hard as rock haha.
He was still sleeping then he woke up at 9am to go JB.
I fell asleep after that and woke up at 1 plus to pump milk before having lunch.
Hungry.
My weight now is 55kg which is the same as before im pregnant. But i am hoping to lose the weight till around 45kg. So another 10 more kg to go, hope my breast fedding do help in losing weight.
Finally pay off the loan that i have already. Sigh a relief.
Kyden updates:
He is weighting 1.658kg now, drinking 35ml every 3 hours.
I tried to bottle fed him, he CANT!
Abit lazyla, haha, small.
He very fast then like asthma haha after a few mouth of sucking.
The nurse is trying to bottle fed him now daily to see if he improved.
I hope he can bottle fed soon lo. which means he reali grown up lo.
He did not put on weight today.
Weight measured is of Saturday not Sunday.
Sunday remained the same
Tml is Monday again, almost 2 weeks after i gave birth already. So fast.
Wound is healing almost OK, but still slight pain la.
I will wan to start bathing tml already.
Asking him to get my Herbs and also the neccessary things.
He finally collected my HP!
=)
My HP is been repaired, first time in my life i repair Hp, usuali i will just hange a new one.
Maybe my life is revolve in my kids so no more wasting $$$ on all this thing.
So now i will start to save hard for my both son haha. What a mother.
OK, he is out from shower and wan to use the lappy already as im lazy to on my own lappy haha.
Tml is wking day for my sister i think she will call me in the morning again lo.
=(
I shall wait and delay the timing for my pumping and can wake up at 6am when he go wk lo haha, i want Kyden to be back home now le. I feel like wasting my maternity leave and he is not home, sigh!
He said is OK as i can rest more now then wait for Kyden to be back then very busy liao. Also true la.
BTW im itching man from the plaster of the wound but i remove beri long ago le.
Im scratching so hard!
Gt abit blood!
=)
I wanna bathe tml!!!
=)
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Friday
Visited Kyden with Isaac too today but not happy incident la.
He keep crying while i was feeding milk to Kyden in the room as he was not allowed to enter thus husband is outside with him carrying him.
The nurse came and scold him and told husband that Kids are not allowed in the NCU. then he is angry la, so i quickly feed Kyden then asked him to go in and see bb then i bring Isaac to outside and sit while he played his game lo.
Kyden update:
He is weighting 1.618kg no, feeding on the same 35 ml per bottle every 3 hours.
No bottle fed yet as he is still young, but they will try tonight as the nurse tell me.
Hopefully he can drink from the bottle then maybe i can go down and latch him see if he can drink anot lo.
He can open his eyes to look at me when i called his name and tell him that mummy is here but he is too sleepy close back the eyes and sleep back haha.
Nurse said it is normal for their age now as they are still very lazy de haha.
Sleepy all the time.
Son is watching Bee in the room now while drinking milk as tml no sch ma only tution.
he is so naughty and too clever already la, haha. I buay tahan him.
He get jealous just now when we are at KKH, i can feel it de haha. Because i am feding Kyden then he cant come near me so he cried so poor boy, think i will not bring him there already wait he gets more jealous worst.
Haha
When Kyden is back maybe it is not the same as he can touch him and be near to me even if i feed him ma, unlike jsut now.
Pumping milk is so tiring to me and sometimes it pisses me off badly. Sometimes i can pump so much somtimes it just so little i wonder what is so wrong with the bloody breast or pump. Making me boil man!
But i will not give up la.
I will continued to pump milk and breast feed. My goal is at least 1 year of breastfeeding.
Isaac i stopped at 6 months as i was lazy la. I need to have more energy.
Currently my weight is at 56kg, which means that i have lost 10 kg this few weeks le.
Breast feeding help?
I gained only like 10 + kg ma, so i am continuing to lose weight now but i am eating wad i should in order to have good breast milk for my BB Kyden.
i wanted to give Isaac the breast milk too but i am scared that he willl feel the difference haha.
I shall try tml!
=)
My breast feel abit sore now man.
I wonder what is the correct ml of milk that i should have now.
Last time i never pump just feed Isaac by latching weven when we are outside so i never know how much milk i actually have de.
now i have to pump and it is slowly killng me lo.
I am scared that i can have enuff milk for my BB Kyden and sometimes the pumping goes up and down thus making me worry!
I drink lots of fluids and eat fish daily lo.
Can this increased my milk flow?
Any idea what is the amount of milk that i should have now to consider normal/ healthy?
Someone plese tell me ok.
I am pumping every 3 hours already except night time when i am sleeping la i never.
I will wake up at 6 am daily to pump before going back to sleep unless i am really very tired then i oversleep till 9am then i pump will; have more then 150 ml.
After which the whole day is around 70 to 90ml only.
Normal anot.
I am using Avent manual breast pump.
Bye
He keep crying while i was feeding milk to Kyden in the room as he was not allowed to enter thus husband is outside with him carrying him.
The nurse came and scold him and told husband that Kids are not allowed in the NCU. then he is angry la, so i quickly feed Kyden then asked him to go in and see bb then i bring Isaac to outside and sit while he played his game lo.
Kyden update:
He is weighting 1.618kg no, feeding on the same 35 ml per bottle every 3 hours.
No bottle fed yet as he is still young, but they will try tonight as the nurse tell me.
Hopefully he can drink from the bottle then maybe i can go down and latch him see if he can drink anot lo.
He can open his eyes to look at me when i called his name and tell him that mummy is here but he is too sleepy close back the eyes and sleep back haha.
Nurse said it is normal for their age now as they are still very lazy de haha.
Sleepy all the time.
Son is watching Bee in the room now while drinking milk as tml no sch ma only tution.
he is so naughty and too clever already la, haha. I buay tahan him.
He get jealous just now when we are at KKH, i can feel it de haha. Because i am feding Kyden then he cant come near me so he cried so poor boy, think i will not bring him there already wait he gets more jealous worst.
Haha
When Kyden is back maybe it is not the same as he can touch him and be near to me even if i feed him ma, unlike jsut now.
Pumping milk is so tiring to me and sometimes it pisses me off badly. Sometimes i can pump so much somtimes it just so little i wonder what is so wrong with the bloody breast or pump. Making me boil man!
But i will not give up la.
I will continued to pump milk and breast feed. My goal is at least 1 year of breastfeeding.
Isaac i stopped at 6 months as i was lazy la. I need to have more energy.
Currently my weight is at 56kg, which means that i have lost 10 kg this few weeks le.
Breast feeding help?
I gained only like 10 + kg ma, so i am continuing to lose weight now but i am eating wad i should in order to have good breast milk for my BB Kyden.
i wanted to give Isaac the breast milk too but i am scared that he willl feel the difference haha.
I shall try tml!
=)
My breast feel abit sore now man.
I wonder what is the correct ml of milk that i should have now.
Last time i never pump just feed Isaac by latching weven when we are outside so i never know how much milk i actually have de.
now i have to pump and it is slowly killng me lo.
I am scared that i can have enuff milk for my BB Kyden and sometimes the pumping goes up and down thus making me worry!
I drink lots of fluids and eat fish daily lo.
Can this increased my milk flow?
Any idea what is the amount of milk that i should have now to consider normal/ healthy?
Someone plese tell me ok.
I am pumping every 3 hours already except night time when i am sleeping la i never.
I will wake up at 6 am daily to pump before going back to sleep unless i am really very tired then i oversleep till 9am then i pump will; have more then 150 ml.
After which the whole day is around 70 to 90ml only.
Normal anot.
I am using Avent manual breast pump.
Bye
Thursday, September 3, 2009
My son have grown up already
I am blogging now because i was watching TV earlier and i found Isaac in the kitchen so i kept quiet and see what he is doing.
He is trying to pour water and drink.
Then later he walked to me and said he want to use his milk bottle and drink then i tell him its dirty he know how to wash meh.
I wasnt expecting any rely la.
He shocked me lo.
I know how to wash OK.
I was like OK let go together then u show me and yes he is able to wash le. Pour the water and close the cover le.
He have really grown up already.
I think i am getting more scared as the days passes by, one day he will leave me etc.
=(
Kyden updates:
He gained 42grams in total for the last 2 days.
He drink 35 ml of milk now every 3 hours not on bottle yet.
Still have to see if he can suck ant lo.
I hope he can bottle fed soon so he can drink when he come home, not using the tube to pump into his stomach!
=)
God pray.
Im still bringing 7 bottles of milk to him daily as it is enough for at least 14 feeds ma.
Then i realised that KKH have not finsihed the last few bottles that i briught to him so i keep first. All i pump i will give only 7 or more then enough to last him lo.
I really loved my both son, im just very scared that Isaac will be JEALOUS when Kyden come back as he will have to share half his time and everything with Kyden already and i am scared he will not get used to it lo.
Hope my 3 mths at home can make him understand and behave well and not getting jealous and i will try my best to make sure that fairness is been rule out.
I need to go liao , as im using his laptop and he is doing work and staring at me now!
=)
He is trying to pour water and drink.
Then later he walked to me and said he want to use his milk bottle and drink then i tell him its dirty he know how to wash meh.
I wasnt expecting any rely la.
He shocked me lo.
I know how to wash OK.
I was like OK let go together then u show me and yes he is able to wash le. Pour the water and close the cover le.
He have really grown up already.
I think i am getting more scared as the days passes by, one day he will leave me etc.
=(
Kyden updates:
He gained 42grams in total for the last 2 days.
He drink 35 ml of milk now every 3 hours not on bottle yet.
Still have to see if he can suck ant lo.
I hope he can bottle fed soon so he can drink when he come home, not using the tube to pump into his stomach!
=)
God pray.
Im still bringing 7 bottles of milk to him daily as it is enough for at least 14 feeds ma.
Then i realised that KKH have not finsihed the last few bottles that i briught to him so i keep first. All i pump i will give only 7 or more then enough to last him lo.
I really loved my both son, im just very scared that Isaac will be JEALOUS when Kyden come back as he will have to share half his time and everything with Kyden already and i am scared he will not get used to it lo.
Hope my 3 mths at home can make him understand and behave well and not getting jealous and i will try my best to make sure that fairness is been rule out.
I need to go liao , as im using his laptop and he is doing work and staring at me now!
=)
Wednesday
i just type a whole lot of thingand it when missing,
Shrug blogspot.
Always got alot of problems!
=(
KYDEN Updates:
he is drinking 32 ml of milk every 3 hours now and he is off the drip but still can bottle fed as his sucking reflex is still weak, thus till on the tube to pump milk inside his stomach.
He gained 20 gram yesterday when i visit him and he can recongnies my voice when i talked to him and he smiled when i touched his cheek so cute la.
But he is being wrapped up like a small dumpling haha!
he changes his cap on and off.
I talked to him and he opened his eyes but then awhile more he closes as he is tired still small la.
But at least he can recongnise me haha.
I missed him.
he is supposed to be back next Sat but now waiting for doctor see what doctor said lo.
I wished he can come back faster too!
Can do more bonding rather then wasting my maternity leave now mah!
So fast like 2 weeks of maternity leave over already.
He won lottery yesterday on Kyden No!
Haha
Not much but not little his sister and aunty won too haha.
All the 4D freak haha.
Good for him la, he is very happy OK!
I scold my sister just now as she call me while i was sleeping then i was drowsy la then she asked me about work haha.
SORRY la.
Waiting for him to bring food back now and bring milk to KKH, wonder if he need to work late tonight anot.
i miss him although i see him daily but time is not enuff la.
Shrug blogspot.
Always got alot of problems!
=(
KYDEN Updates:
he is drinking 32 ml of milk every 3 hours now and he is off the drip but still can bottle fed as his sucking reflex is still weak, thus till on the tube to pump milk inside his stomach.
He gained 20 gram yesterday when i visit him and he can recongnies my voice when i talked to him and he smiled when i touched his cheek so cute la.
But he is being wrapped up like a small dumpling haha!
he changes his cap on and off.
I talked to him and he opened his eyes but then awhile more he closes as he is tired still small la.
But at least he can recongnise me haha.
I missed him.
he is supposed to be back next Sat but now waiting for doctor see what doctor said lo.
I wished he can come back faster too!
Can do more bonding rather then wasting my maternity leave now mah!
So fast like 2 weeks of maternity leave over already.
He won lottery yesterday on Kyden No!
Haha
Not much but not little his sister and aunty won too haha.
All the 4D freak haha.
Good for him la, he is very happy OK!
I scold my sister just now as she call me while i was sleeping then i was drowsy la then she asked me about work haha.
SORRY la.
Waiting for him to bring food back now and bring milk to KKH, wonder if he need to work late tonight anot.
i miss him although i see him daily but time is not enuff la.
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