Im back to work after a good rest of 3 months but not exact 3 months.
Could not take the last month as my boss need me to be back.
Work is still the same but maybe more tired de to night feeding that i have to wake up 2 times per night sometimes 3 times or more depend on my Kyden mood.
Husband did help in the feeding when i am reali tired cant move or open my eyes.
Now each morning i wake up at 6.30am instead of last time i used to wake up at 7.45am or even later.
WHY!!
I need to pump milk, transfer milk, washed up and get dressed, all this are taking more then one hour to get one with lo.
People are asking is it mafan to actually breastfeed?
YES and NO.
I tout want to stop too de when i was so tired having little slp every day and even with my maternity leave i dontget much rest.
I did not stop breastfeed, it is the best that i can provide for my baby and i need to have the determination to continue.
Althought i dont latch Kyden often or sometimes only at night when he wake up for milk and i am too lazy to warm the milk but i tried not to do it all the time because he is still nt getting the grip well due to he is a premature baby thus it might take some times for him to get the hold of it.
I went to Lacation centre an the nurse say he is trying hard but then he loses his grip fast enuff once the Letdown comes in. When feeding Kyden u have 2be very patience as he can fall asleep fast enuff while drinking and he need to burp more often then normal breastfeed baby. He go tonnes of wind!!
WHY?
My goal to breastfeed Kydden is more then a year or even longer if time and work permits me to.
So far workplace pumpin is still smooth although im back for work for 5 days already. Every morning i will carry my own bag with another big bag full of pumps, bottles, and fridge to go.
It is troublesome but when i think that my son is getting the best from me the thought just went off.
I actualy love to latch Kyden on but he cant yet, so got to wait lo.
I realised that if u just direct pump and no latching, there is reali not much bonding with the baby as i felt different from Issac where i am directing lathing him all the ways for 9 mths nv on bottle unless water, the bond is very very strong.
With Kyden its not that strong, it take times.
Maybe bcas i actually don wk when Isaac is a baby and i hve 24 hours for him all the way and Kyden i got to work and then make time for him and also Isaac too, then husband also.
I need more time then now, 24 hours is not enuff.
I remember having this talk with Eling and she mentioned that this is the woes of working mum, yes i agree on this nw and sometimes u tend to neglade either one or even ur husband, Sigh.
Hope things get better when Kyden get older and bigger.
A note to add, my MIL are at my house from Monday to Friday to look after the baby and also oversee the maid lo, as i dont allow her to bath the baby only feeding and changing clothes etc, as i still feel her experience is too little and she is too forgetful and might hurt my baby, and she is having fever at the moment, but MIL will come every Monday to Friday from November onwards unless i got leave or PH then she will not have to come and she can continued to work her FEP shop.
My maid requested to go JB last week before i start work and it causes alot of problem but then solved as she decided not to go in the end but then husband wanted to sack her de but i give chance as i can tell that she is nice to the kids and will not abuse them and i dont want to risk myself finding a new maid and then can do alot of housework or cook but then willl abuse my kids.
Lucky for her she decide not to go in the end else i will sent her back.
But after her Sunday trip outing she is sick now, ZZZ
I duno why maid suddenly will request for such stupid reason to go oversea and need their passport and that her fren employer gave the maid her passport which out of 10 people who i talked to mentioned that is BULLSHIT!
Well we will not let her go oversea de la unless with us, it is so not nice of her to ask to when she work barely for us for only less then half a year somemre le.
Well maid can climb up ur head if you are too nice to them and now i try to actually be firm in my decision and also nice only not too nice so she will get her point tat im ur employer not ur friend. Although we can talk la.
=)
So far im heading 3 months of full breastfeed and i am not going to give up anytime soon although it sometimes reali make me very very very tired and go out got to carry big bag, place restrain for milk storage as Kyden is feeding only 4oz thus i got provide more milk then he need.
I need space for milk i need more time need mre sleep.
Kyden can take up to 10 bottle of 4 oz per day sometimes lesser then 10 bottles, all depend on his body and his mood. he weight aound 5 kg now and i can see he grown fatter and got more flesh already haha, but then his skin colour is still dark colour haha. Unlike Isaac who is so fair at birth and till now also, but i realised that Kyden got one of his dad features, which is their super long and curly eyelashes.
It is so nice and its not like mine as mine is long but straight. haha.
BTW, husband brought me a new Iphone for Xmas present as i complainted that he hve not reali buy me any present already and he bcum Ah Pek haha.
Im addicted to Iphone as it is reali nice but sometimes too selfish already la, haha. Wont hve the thoughts of changing away this phone la, since its agift and then its nice.
Thanks honey.
=)
Water bills actually went up and it bcas i got to wash my 3 set of pump and tonnes of bottles as im very particular about the bottle hygience and once it used and Kyden wan more milk i hve to use new bottles i cant used back the old one i cant!
I hope my kids can stay healthy and also cheerful and Kyden to grow fatter and healthy and can wake up only once at night for milk?
LOLSSsss
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