Appreciated

I am having sever headache now and i just popped 2 panadol and it don't seems to work at all. i am still feeling pain.

Today, i go without the anti vomiting pill and so far after 2 bread and a cup of Milo, i am still OK!
Hope it last, but my head is spinning like the Twister gosh!

I appreciated what others have done and i know you all care, but other then saying is there a better solution that you might/ can come up with like really keen on helping not just by saying or talking. It makes no difference.

Don't promise me things that you think u cant or don't want even to commit or cant be bothered situation, i trust but i am scared of been played out.

The feeling sucks when you are desperate, feeling helpless as you counted on it and yet you get nothing in return and you have to think of a solution at the end of the day again.
This feeling sucks.

Maid is coming tonight, i dunno why i don't feel happy at all unlike last time.
I guess it the stress that is making me going crazy all this time.

well~~~~

My 1st pregnancy i gained weight like nobody business and this pregnancy i don't gained much and to be frank i cant eat much, feel stress always stopped me from eating as i will feel unwell.
I hope my BB is growing well and healthy.
I realised that so far for 5 mths i only gained like 3KG, which is like with Isaac i am already at 10kg over.
Different this time.
I do wished i can eat well etc but the situation don't always allowed.

Yesterday i took a cab back and the fare was like $14.90.
=(
No choice as i wanted to cook for son as eating outside is no good and the MSG is alot and also dunno what to eat also.
Thus i chose to cook lo, by the time i am done with the cooking it is already 8 plus, lucky is that i cook the soup before i went work thus we have soup for dinner haha.
It was a simple meal but i enjoyed it even i am tired & hot.

I saw my son eating healthy food and it made my day after all this hard work.

Wash shagged after the cooking but i chose to sweep the floor and wash the clothes before setting down to watch TV and waited for him to be back from his class before we tucked into bed at around 12 plus.
No wonder i am tired everyday!
Well at least i can still make it.

Son wrote his name again yesterday and it was neater then before with no much of flying words or worms look-a-like, WHY.... he wanted to play game lo. I refused to let him watch cartoon ma, so he chose to do wk then play game for a certain time lo.
He always wanted me to play with him his car but then i am not into it always reject him and he will give me a very sad face, =(
Sorry Isaac.

I was bathing yesterday and he came to me and tell me can i hurry up, so i asked him why and he say that outside got kids playing and he wanna go out and see and see can play with them ant.
By the time i came out from shower, the kids are gone and he wear his slipper and walked and checked as he don't believe what i said.
He gave me a super sad face.
So i told him tomorrow lo, see if they are still here.

I choose to gave birth at this time is also partly this reason as you can really see him very Ke Lian when no one entertain him and he play and talked alone and he is really bored lo.

I hope this BB can make him happier and also a companion too.

People said i am stupid should not have gave birth as i already very relaxed now but then when u looked at your kids at night and realised that they are not really happy & bored, you feel the pain there.
I know i have to start the trouble to look after a BB again since i did so 5 years ago.
I wont regret it.

A mother is always the best as they have to carry the BB for 9 months in their stomach and till the day the BB is born, the mother played a very important role.
Right from the day the BB is born, till they learn to crawl,talked, walked, i wished i will be the one to see all this but i cant as i need to work.
For son i did see the very 1st of everything and i feel blessed and when i watched back his video when he is younger i feel like crying as it really cant describe De feeling although now he is making me so angry and so naughty.

Once again i loved son.
Emo again bye

Head is still killing me so badly now!
i cant focus

♥ 说好的幸福呢 ♥