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I just blog alot of things yet it just went hay wire.
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Darn,

I just felt very tired for everything that i have done.
Am i wrong to do so?

Y am i treated this way?

Will my life be better if i lead it the old way?

I am always taken for granted!

Is it my retributuon for what i have done.

I am confused!

People dont understand what i want and they think that i am been self centred or selfish or even crazy as i flare as and when i want.

The problems here is not this is that i dont know how to express myself!

I cant talk to anyone well! I cant said what i feel.

So i can come here and blog it out!

I always said i dont have the word "REGRET"

Yet times and again i felt it.

Why, is it that man changes after they are married or get what they want?

I dont want to feel regret in my life yet i keep remise it.
Very tired.
People dont agree with one another.
Biased judgement.
Unfair treatment.

Y?

I have alot of unhappiness to said yet i think i will not want to blog it out here.
There is alot and it will take me more than alot to express it out.

People change when things are accepted!

ur not the same u as before.

One day when i cant take it anymore i will let go.

I will let go once the time is right for me to do so!
I can never make myself sad all the way!
I need to find back the sunshine in my life.

Right now there is none!

I hate this typw of life.

I am not asking for rebates nor anything.

I just want care & concern.
I cant have it last time but i have lots of money!
I thought i have found it, IM WRONG!
I found nothing but misery to myself!

U re not the same u.
Ur not the same
Ur not as caring as before
Ur not as loving as before
Ur not patience anymore
Ur not U anymore
Ur not the one when time will prove if U continued.
Iw ill leave!


there is this another issue:
I wanted to hire a maid yet there is no agreement instead all the cold water keep splashing!

I need to work and i dont hv time to look after my son 24/7 or let alone after his school when he finished K2, i might be too Kan Chiong now when he is only in K1, but time flies.

I cant let the maid just come and accept Isaac immediately.

I wanted to change him to normal PAP as i felt he will learn more but then, no help or good words frm everyone, sometimes people js dont understand. WHY

They have not come across this type of isyutation so they wont know why people want to do certain things.

If i am so powerful i will not hire and do all by myself!!!
Why bother wasting all this money adn fears keep coming in.

U dont like to look after kids i understand, i NEVER force u or wadever.

So dont keep saying bad etc!

It just make me frusted!

I need to work and alot of things on my mind, i am going to explode one of this days!

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Worst to add on,
I cant move in the month of Apr 09. as it is the chinese CHin mIng festival.

I have to wait either English Calendar before Mar or after May to move.

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Suddenly i feel that am i wrong to buy the house?

I did wanted to buy the house then i do something for exchange!

Will i regret it?

I am confused and hate the way i lead now!

Nothing is right and my life is ...



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