Thursday

Today is already Thursday haha, time pass fast. So fast work one more day then weekend already.

Son have been beri tired recently as he has to wake up early to go to school no choice for the time been now as the timing is just there we cant do any changes, untill we finally get a new house which is nearer, but still have to wait till 31 NOv then know the result & yet the result does not means anything. Just results.
I am so sad keep thinking about the past why today i am like that why alot of things.
Yet on the other hand i should feel i am happy as there are alot of things which i dontt have to do it myself unless it is Tueday & Friday where mum goes out.
I think alot and i worried alot also.
Money, health, son etc alot of things which make me cant really sleep well at night sometimes that i have to tak flu medicine so that i can sleep throughout.

I am waiting for result & yes i am patience, it is a kind of virtal i guess i learnt.

Son is going to K1 in 1 Dec which means times flies. He is already 5, but currently still 4 in Dec 10 because he is born in 2004 Dec, lag one year haha.

That day, his brother elder kid came over and stay.
At first i was angry as his dad say no time to look after son as i have meeting the whole day scare will be late to fecth him and it was a Tuesday, then when i reached home, i saw him.
Yes i was furiou i text honey, %&^%%^& but after a while i OK liao.
Son eat dinner with him and whatever i gave him, son also want and the best part is that, he finished his rice in like 10 mins and CLEARED, later, he played with him and did not call for me either only when they are fighting for toys.

Then i start to ponder that should son have a sibling?
He seems more happy with siblings then me.
Maybe its kid can play with him etc.
All this cant chase de, nature take it times.
I always believe.

I text HIM yesterday ask him to transfer money to me to buy books!!!
Up to now no reply lo.
I am so sian
I am not rich but my money is not like i own bank seriously.
Sometimes i am tired that i am the one keep giving and not receiving
I cant said too much ain i?
Hope things will be better in 2009?

I wanted to cancel AIA insurance.
I pay like $80 per month and yet the coverage is like so little & my agent did not warned me at all.
I wanted to decreased the amount he said no good, damm u la.
Called the hotline they cant advise me on the amount tha i can cover for.
Cant downgrade over the phone.
Have to go down and queue and take the form.
I asked can you sent?
Yes mandam, i can, then in the first place why asked me to go queue, i think insurance cant be trusted except that the interest is much higher then the bank that all.

I wanted to get another policy for son but now i am thinking already as the previous one is all like shit.

Plus money is kind of tricky issues here as i cant be paying and paying, why not i be the man or the best of the all.
Sometimes i anm really tired but i know i cant fall as i need to be there for son. No one else will except me.

i done go clubbing now since liek dino years ago, as i rather stay home and sleep, watch TV with son. I dont have the urge anymore. I want to be with son as much as i can that all i always have in mind.
Even if it is sleeping or at home i am contented.
I just want my son to be happy & whatever he likes i likes too.

I think clubbing is more suitable for singale ladies?
I duno but married with kids mum can go also de la, just managed the time well then can liao lo.
Dont throw temper at kid if lack of sleep that what i always believed.
Other then that is ok.

I am not saying i am a very good mum, i am not!!!
Nobody is great as the greater will be greatest.
it is the kind of effort that we try to put in that all counts even rich or poor so what as long as you give love & care you will be contented.

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i am draggy ok i know it.