30 September 2008

Today is infact my birthday.

I am so angry just now till i nearly kill him.

Went to Vivo to have Fondue, but actually did not wanted to go as i sprained my back. Pain

i dont know why, but i woke up then my back hurt like mad. Sick...

Thought it will be better like as per normal, but this time round, it hurts so much that i nearly cried out.

He still pissed me off as i dont want to use the medicated oil which i find so smelly... He insist that i used that oil .

I knew that the oil is good, but i just cant stand the smell.

When someone cant stand the smell, how can they want to use the lotion.

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In Giant just now, i nearly cried cas i wanted to buy the cream then he disallowed. I m in so pain then he still like that, sigh, i cursed at him loudly haha.

Then after that, he went to top up cash card, i walked off. He is so stupid.......

SMS me asking wher i am, i tell him at life. Of cas when someone say that, you will know that will be waiting either at the same level where he top up cash card or where we park the car right? He went all around to the next building and with the thinking that i might go to HarbourFront. He still think how come i can walk so fast when my back hurts so much. OMG

i am ok now as he rub my back for me, with LOVE/PATIENCE.. This afternoon, he did not just anyhow rub... That makes me so sad.

The last time he hurts his back, i rub so hard and with LOVE, he did not.

I hate him sometimes yet sometimes i dont.

Love is what!!!!!

Any news is, today HDB called me and tell me that i can go ahead and apply for the ballot for this new listing with his name la. Well after all this is not confirmed if i can even get the house. But the best is can, as it is near my mum place. This way it will ease me, plus near my work place, But all this is .... time can tell me.

i pray so hard that i will get it...

My mum never called me, see if tomorrow if she will called me anot, ITS MY BIRTHDAY.....

Plus tomorrow is Tuesday, she wont be free.

My sister did called me la.

See if i have pictures tomorrow ant.

Bye

Friday

I am nice yet i am not treated the same way as i expected.

I tried to plan things for the weekend and also next weeka s i will be on leave yet it is the cold treatment that i got from you.

I know you are looking for J but then at least entertain me abit else i feel like an IDIOT toking to myself & looking feeling so fucking excited for nothing.

Told you about balloting etc, also i am the fool excited etc.

I am so sick of this type of lifestyle la, before certain people do something, please think for others not only yourself.

I say i can take it if it is like for 1 to 2 months of course, but if like for long i don think i can take it. Imagine you try to do it. I bet you cant and will feel tired like how i used to be before. Rushing and squeezing like mad.

I am not saying you are bad nor what but sometimes please think for me la, i am trying to be nice yet on the oher hand i got cold shoulder from you. Then why should i bothered making the effort, i dont see the needs already.

it is my birthday on 30 September 2008.

I dont feel so excited about it like previous year, it all seems so sad and lonely this year. Not the same feeling any more.

I guess when you stay in with someone the feeling will not be the same again. Last year i even got a chalet with you planning things for me.

Look this year. NOTHING

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When time pass & people are used to one another it will never be the same as before. A i always think it take 2 hands to clap. Well seems like i am the only one with a hand and it is not working. I dont want the same thing to happen again like 3 years ago. It sadden me so much. It is like .... Am i fated to have my life this way with no matter who i choose? I dont have the words regret in my dictionary but i dont wished to feel the WORD strongly.

I love you for who you are. If one day you are gonna change let me know fast so that i wont feel sad. Rather i will choose to remember the good times we have.

I have you by my side but somehow i feel it is lacking of love, Yes no more loving feelings, just a shell.

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Thsi year is not a good year for me and i dont feel like celebrating my birthday anymore also.

Please try to understand why i am eager to move out and why at all cost i also want!!!!!!!!!!!

I dont want to said anymore as you will always think i want to do this and that because of the dog. IT IS NOT. I want a home of myself

Back

I am back from genting for a good 4 days getaway. This is good as i am relaxed after the trip although i am tired and sore on my feets as i very ge kiang go wear heels boots la. nice mah what to do, since Singapore we cant wear it often as people might think you are siao.

I think the person who enjoys the most is Honey & Son lo. Each got to do what they like.

One like casino, the other is the indoor theme park. LOL

I am ok lo, i follow suit, something damm jialat about me.

I wanted to seat the Pirate House or something la, but then, son dont want to seat so i went in alont after mUch hesitation la, mayb 30 minutes or so.

You know what, i was alone in the car so i was scared, really, Once the door opened. I SHUT MY EYES TILL I SAW LIGHT. Haha. damm lame la.

Paiseh :)

I will be on leave again for next week, which means after ork tomorrow, i shall only work next Thursday, =]