I duno wad hit me, I always tell myself to control and not to hit/ beat Isaac!
Today I lost control, I can't, he don't listen to me'
that e last straw, noon time already told him to face e wall because he ml me so angry refuse to listen, at night same thing happen.
I tried bot to use cane nor beat because I belive he's old enough and should not beat him but then each day he tried to come up with something new!
ESP when I'm at work and his mum looking after him, he become worst!
Talking don't seems to work, dis I allow him him to do what he like thus today he become lik that?
M I at fault for this today?
I seriously duno'
that e last straw after he pissed n don't listen to me, I locked him in his room and I went in after which I slap him 3 times and there was a deep cut in his upper lip. I felt bad of casbbt overall I'm really v angry, else I would not hit him de!
I always try n I nv touched him for the longest time and I always use by talking but he's taking mr for granted!!!!
I hate that!
I seriously duno what I should do already, looking after both can be v stressful, I need help but then there are things which can't!
I'm stress st wk, bk home he does it again n I duno how long I can take it!
Anyway I'm really dirty any hiting him hut what I done already there's no turning back, he's jumping STD again, people tell me he's lik that should talk to him nicely, tell mr how nicely should I say, when he's taking me for granted thinking I'm saying only each time!
Before he go sad I think I will go crazy first!
Te me what should I do!
M I a failure as s mum?
I duno
did I do the right thing?
I already tried my best in all ways to ensure he's well fed, hve Sch, gd home etc, yet he's still like that!
I'm confused and I'm sorry Isaac for hitting u!
Mummy is sorry to you!
I need a brak seriously!
I'm getting depesdion soon I think
gd bye
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