Pissed

Why fo men always think they can leave the job to a woman or helper? They can simply just cast everything in the house just to enjoy etc!

Fuck I'm getting so angry here already!

I always think there's a limited to my patience but currently I'm running out of it!

Any more little actions I guess I won't look back, I wanted to leave everything off my sight just for one day and don't bother at all but I can't!

Bcas of my kids!
Kids is not Just mine alone!

U do need to bear ur responsibility.
I don't fucking get pregnant myself overnight!
I font fucking get extra burden overnight!

Overall I'm just a woman!
Who need care n concern too!
I'm not a robot!
I need a break too!

I will leave if this continued as it's too tired!

No wonder people say:
One day yr not married, ur always a queen!
Once ur married, you are worst then a maid
男人的话哪里可以听

I finally understand this!

Hw I wished I was the one who got u pregnant and not the one blogging here!
Because I will be so much free and happy!
Not like now!

Everything is too late!




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Lazy pig

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Friday

Went Vienna for dinner ystday, just the 2 of us $92 not bad but quality drop. A quiet dinner where it's fussed free and I totally enjoyed it.
No need to chase and scream
One word FULL


















Some pictures only because I ate as I'm so hungry!

Today on leave,went to book basic again! Ok I failed more then almost 10 x lol or abit lesser?
They moved yo woodland already shit!!!!
Means got to go woodland and take exam lo
Decided to be private student, he told me to take auto lol just in case I failed too many times
He told me pass basic first
Zzz!!!!!

At home so going to feed Kyden bee gour later haha!!
He passed motion smelly lol

He weight almost 7 kg now he's 6 months on 23 feb lol
That's a good sign

Ok o e stupid thing, I claimed he's teething
Ok
He's not
It's e deposit of calcium
Haha!!!!
U over reacted!
Paiseh
Gee

After I chat with Eling
I decided yo slow down on pumping milk and used e frozen milk but I still scare wait ge big drinker suddenly how!

Ok
I'm paranoid haha




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Bad year

I think this year is A BAD year, down on luck, sick, experience things that is not my fault when it's the been if someone who's retarted, hopeless and always think they are right!
Sigh, u don't learn if you don't admit ur fault, well I can't change u but u can change yourself!

Back to this morning, so suddenly, now I'm pumping and then I'm watching see got blood or anything anot

My Aunty advise me to latch baby in only, don't pump, as I got s chest freezer full of EBM!
I wanted to do so then I gt time!

But I'm thinking advice scare wait no milk how?

Can do smeone tell me wad to do?

Suck no appetite, tasteless!!! Craving for e lousy food which I can't eat! Darn

Isaac went to shake n push Kyden again because I told maid not to let him watch tv! It's so dangerous because the whole thing neatly collaspe!
Hais!

He's taking this adventage because I don't cane!

Hope he gets the Thai DKNY job, then can book my ticket and hsppily go Thai!
I need a break, seriously

Ever since e birth if Kyden except the data when doin confirnment, I'm partically beat at e end if each day drained totally, maybe sat not so bad as I sleep in till 1pm but still I wakeup at 7 to pump. Milk!

I kept asking myself, y y chould I torture myself but I keep thinking it's for e gd of Kyden!
Shiak

No sign is gd sign

Nw I gt a few things to decide
1) continued to pump?
2) direct latch only
3) be more ficus on Wk
4) teach Isaac with a gd one
5) make him respect
6) alot mre bt I'm saturated

I'm hving migrai e everynight and backache coming back
I so tired to Kip saying all this daily la but no one help
Help only when asked, nt consider helping

I crap too much



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Blood in milk

I was pumping milk this morning and I saw blood inside my milk.
Was scared to wits lo, pinkish red milk!!!!

Asked ard wad happen, zzz

Wad a bad morning!
Supposed to go on mc bt I chose nt to!
Gd worker

I decided to prolong pumping session which is taught by Eling! Hopefully it works

Decided to pump only twice a day, as I hve reserved and I wanted more time with Isaac! After Wk, I ate dinner, pump milk, bathe it's almost 9+
not much time to teach hi
Wk or do other thing.
Early morning 6am I'm awake to pump milk while looking at everyone still sweetly zzz
I lacked of slp
Tired
Grouchy
Sigh

Nw every night I woke to feed Kyden milk directblatch at least twice because he always fall asleep did nt drink thus wake ip an hr agn!

Sometimes angry because I'm tired bt no choice

Mummy are really courage lady
























Scary hor!!!
Btw I pour into bowl because needed to capture the milk picture!
Threw away e milk because I duno can drink anot lol

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He cook

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I'm tired

Y can't Isaac just listen for once,I don't like to Kip crapping but he don't liksten, can I just go back to cane?
M reali v angry, sad dun feel lik timing to him already

Shall not talk to him
See if he listen

Sigh

Hungry

Kyden checkup today was gd but expensive
He's almost 7kg now
Still puke milk
On medicine to stop it
Teething is fake
No teething!!!!!
Zzzzzzz

He's off I'm on mc, sick

I so angry with Isaac!
Y y y y y y y
He font listen only when I scream amtheb he's afraid?




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I'm not a gd mother

Sometimes I felt torn between Kyden & Isaac!
I felt I'm nt a gd mother!!!

I lost temper pretty fast, worst Isaac don't listen and will only stop when I really flare!

I don't hit/cane him anymore because I told him, he's old already canning is shame shame,I use shouting but he took me for granted thus I will scre do loud till I sian!

Last night I scold him for bring naughty and told him
"you dont understand or u Dino right or wrong?"
"I don't want talk or see u already"

He's sad of cas after I say that, then when we reach home,I'm pumping milk, he suddenly came in, hug me and demand that I kiss hinnon his face.
I asked why,
He say:
I want be good boy, only do the correct thing and not the wrong thing, I'm know I'm wrong, Sorry!

Then I told him, I angry because he dun listen, mummy sick no voice to shout!
He say he kn m is sorry!

I say ok I love u and he hug me and say he won't do it again!

5 minutes after he left the room he forget n start again!!! Gosh!!!
I was like........ *_*••

Well at least he now kn if it's right or wrong better in it!

I tried to speak or lecture him nicely sometimes he don't get it bcas I nt fierce! It pissed me off badly lo, bt I control bcas I want him to kn I'm lecturing him bt at e same time I loved him tt y I use talking rather thn cane!!!

Buay tahan him la!!!

He my darling yet my lovely rascal!

My both precious are god send from heaven and no matter how naughty or other people might see, they are always my darling precious
你们永远是我的宝贝

Kyden also no good lo, temper worst then Isaac when young!!!
Can't wait!!!
Lost temper
Cries
Gosh

I have 2 diffcult babies!!!

Well....

M sick gg see doctor after work and tmr is Kyden 3 mths checkup at Kkh!

Got time to blog while pumping milk now lo!!

Btw I changed Hp no, did u all rec?

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1st solid food

I started solid food on Kyden just like 10min ago!

I gave him just plain rice with breastmik.
30ml breastmik mixed with 1tablespoon plain nestle rice
Fed him only I small baby scoop
Bcas it's just a start

Hope he can eat better and then promote to porridge and other cereal

He's nt hving fever today already bt I KS I stick the cooling jel n fed him panadol for baby just in case!

He missed him jab today bcas he's nt feeling well then got to wait one month bcas it's full sigh!!

Waiting for son to finish school then headed to his Aunty place for dinner as celebrating 21 yrs old

I latch in Kyden alot bcas he's cranky and I'm off so I tour we Can bond more! Hope this helps

He's crying again

Bye bye

Photo before he gt fever!
;(


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;( tired

I'm so tired!
Totally knock out when Kyden is sick and I'm sick too but well I can't rest because he needs attention more then my rest!

Took medicine which supposed to make me drowsy n sleepy yet I actually woke up every one hr bcas he cries n need my attention and the final straw came wen he wokeup at 5am with fever and crying non stop, luckily he helped!

Managed to grab abit slp frm 6am to barely 730am ge started it again!

Took urgent leave as I can't opened my eyes!

Rested awhile then latch him then pump milk, it's already 1030am, need to reali slp abit thus I pass Kyden to maid while I text him to take PM leave as I scare I can't handle!

Supposed to see doctor but fever went down and tmr going jab so never go!

Evening fever came back and he's such a light sleeper lo!!!

Teething is so tiring for him n me!!!!

I'm drained!

I need help pls yet his mum need to work!

我好累



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Cny plus random

Isaac do not want to wake up go school today and he's sleeping like that after crying. Lols


Isaac took and edit using iPhone without my help


Isaac told me to look down lime that pretending to be watering lol,kids nowaday no need teach them they can operate iPhone










































































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