Tired

I decided to use CANE back on Son
as son bigger already, I try not to use cane when I know he will know what I'm trying to said when I talk, but I don't know why he is so notti, don listen & rude now, towards me, my mum, sister, my friends, everybody except the teachers. :(
I told him I don like tor repeat for the things I said or want him to do.
if I need to repeat, he still the same, show attitude & rude he will get it from me very seriously!!!!! When i say something, I mean it.
I actually don't want to cane him most of the time. But when i am seriously angry and teaching him, I try to use my hands until i cannot take it i FLARE.
but since his 4 years old birthday, I tell myself, if I don't use the cane,son attitude & behavior will still be the same and he is in K1 already lo. I don't like his brother kids attitude and i don't want son to end up like them. That is why i try not to let him mix with them but no choice they are kids and they come over i cant run away. That why i need to move away. Their kids always teaches son bad stunts & words, yet i cant scold other people kids! Fed Up & he don't understand! Said i paranoid!!!! :(
I am not paranoid and i just don't like them as they have no manners yes sometimes they have but then, overall they cant behave as they will come into my room and ask my son to take things for them when son know i don't like, at least he will asked DE! :)


I cane him very serious last month and he cried till he cant talked lo.
I already told him that if he continued and do the same i wont spare the rod!
I use very lightly and heavier with he cane when his face remains the same.

My son is a very proud with high ego DE.
He wont admit hes in the wrong DE until u seriously use the rod.
That is why he is only afraid of me no one else in the house as he know i mean what i said!!!!
I wont joke, yes sometimes la!
When i want something done i mean it DE!
I got no patience and cant wait and keep repeat myself!
Even when i talk to him, he don't pay attention & need me to repeat i will flare!
This SO something not so good about me la.

They played all son toys till all spoilt lo. I paid with my own $$, not been sponsor DE OK!!!
Tell me will u be angry?

Got good things why i don't see that they will give us a share?
Claim i am loaded so i don't need all this things?
ZZZ
Lame Lame Lame
U don't want to buy for son don show!!
BTW
Son clothes is not theirs!
My mum brought for son DE, even want to wear got to wait till son wear it first!
Son cant be 2ND handed DE OK.
Sorry i getting EMO here but sometimes i just felt biased la, maybe my feelings is spread DE!
That is the reason why i am scared to get pregnant again.
I am scared they will be biased but then son is really loney!
Haisss

WE depend on fate la, see what is the outcome.
I believe if its a gift from God u will have it someday without asking much or thinking.
Anyway son is my greatest love and darling and will always be!

I will giv my best to him when i can i wont be stingy on him DE!
I will b stingy on myself but not son!
The people i loved i wont do that unless i hate u or i am really BROKE!

I nee more patience in the year of 2009.

I need to actually need to spend more time on son as i cant keep watching TV and he don't learn.
He wants me to read and teach him DE but i am just PLAIN LAZY!
I admit!
Sorry!!!!
Will buck up and try my very best OK!


After my leave for so long, i am getting so tired & lazy every morning.
Making myself wake up is so horrible then i imagine.
I think i better sleep early, stop watching the SCV already!
The drama now is so nice lo, i am just struck to the TV la.

Yesterday went Tiong Bahru to eat porridge again as he wants.
After that went to Seahorse and get the mattress as it got 50% off.
Need to get the mattress as the new bed will arrived on Saturday.

I am looking for items that are on discount that i need for my new hosue de lo.
Else later my new hse is empty, i will cry & rather dont move.

Currently i got fridge, washing machine, bed, tv console.
Anyone wanna sponsor me other things?
Please feel free to let me know ok haha.
:)
I love to dream, aint i?


Sometimes people dont understand me & they think i am been Kan Chong.
I am not!!!!!
I asked or wanna do something is because that if we dont check etc how do we know if we have enough anot or what.
Dont u all agree?

I dont like last minute then said this cant that cant!
I dont like that kind of scence de.

I am a person, i like everything to be done in order if it is within my needs/ or wadever!
I dont like cock ups.
I hate that!
Will feel damm miseable or sad de if its not what i want lo.

So i am a kan chong freak when it comes to my things, i want the best althought cant be perfect!

Blame it on my own attitude la!! Cant help it its in me so either u pretend to like it/ me, go along with me OR just hate me then!!!!

I never like boot licker also.

I tout as friends, we should be honest with one another.

Recently i go a friend whom i thought she is but then the truth turned out to be the real opposite and she really make my eyes opened wide just for her & i think i wot be able to trust her anymore as it's not a friend or should i said it's just a passing by ghost haha.
Bad word!!!
God!!!!
Well this suit her la!!!!!

My report is almost done and i am just so plain lazy and tired la!!!

Boss will be back tomorrow and its Friday!
Sian i dont like him to be around on Friday de!!!
I want to leav on the dot or even earlier but he just come no choice la. I cant chase him away right?

BTW, i scream at him last night, claiming why he never said my cookings is good and he never said he miss & love me?
Crazy!!
I never like to said this type of things de haha


I am just plain lazy & toking rubbish bye


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