Tuesday

Weekend have pass which means this week i will be going Genting already =]
Last week was the mid autumm mooncake festival, well spent and enjoyable.
I still prefer my side family members as they know me and i know them also. My cousin will help me in looking & playing with Isaac but still bully lar haha
Kids are kids but Isaac was happy and he did not sleep till like we reached home after we bathe.
Sunday were spent playing lantern & candle at void deck due to rainning weather =[
Supposed to go Bishan but raining so cant lo. Still happy la but son is too scared to play with fire cracker haha. Still young i supposed

Monday was a sotong day for me and i think i really need to built up my brain haha.
I tout the school is closed haha, who knows NO NO. It is not closed and i even took half day haha. Son eye was swollen then the teacher call 13 missed calls, scared the shit out of me man. When i tout school closed how come got people called me L0L.....

Daddy scolded me and i felt silly too. Never mind la, take it as a day off since weekend play so much already.

My precious is here, i love it so much but daddy say i will only love it for a while after which i shall forget totally about it hmmmm. *_*

Monday night daddy wanted to do see Gei Tai L0L....
It was not nice at all, i brought son bicycle to ride as he rarely have the chance also. he was happy & he ate an ice cream, after a while we decided to go back as it is really boring.

Went home, bathe son and he watch cartoon as usual. He fell asleep without me screaming at him, guess he is really tired after the short bicycle ride l0l

This morning he is active and energentic guess because he slept early, this is good. He shall have to sleep early everynight then during weekday.

I went to his parent meeting day and i was sad & angry at myself for the very first time that i realised that i spoilted him too much till he is a spoiled brat already.

1. Grades dropped
2. Lazy
3. Not attentive
4. Forget everything that he have learnt in term 1
5. Wants to buy everything that he see and when he have the same one at home
6. Always wanted to go shopping
7. DOnt want to do homework
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His grades dropped so much is all because of me, i am lazy to teach him to write. I rather watch TV, plus i have no patience also.

He wants to learn but i never take the opportunity to teach him. Not firm enough on him and too easy on him when he cry i will give in.

This time round after the parent meeting, i tell myself i cant do this anymore as it will only make him turn bad & its is his furture i cant be so selfish already.

What a bad mother i am. M so sad bascially i am not good.

I shall devoted most of my time to him, giving him the best does not means everything that he wants even if its wrong.

I finally understand what my mum means already when everytime she nag i think she very FAN. I will not want Isaac to end up like me, never finish studying only care about playing and today i regret badly but no choice only can self improve ownself. No one can do this to change yourself only you yourself.

I feel very restless this few days, i have been dragging my PAP smear as i am scare of the result. People please tell me this is not right i have to go for it no matter what.

I am scared really. I have bad nightmares recently and it sucks to the max.