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Chinese new year

2011-04-27T00:47:00.001+08:00

Chinese New Year have passed and now is already the 3rd day already. Haha

So fast in a glimpse of eyes it's already 3rd day. A year hve passed which means that wr have to slog our life out again till the Ext new year.
Better salary?
Better increment?
Loving kids and many more la
Well this year is ok as kyden starter walking so not so troublesome haha

Well some pictures to clear my outdated Spider webs....

I'm back

2011-04-27T00:46:00.001+08:00

Hi finally I'm
Back after missing for like a decades?? Haha

Been very busy at work also home thus no mood to even update this rusty blog of mine..

Well tines past fast enough and we are already like coming to half of 2011...

A few update about my kids:

Isaac: still the same michevious and made my blood boil almost daily? Sigh.. He listen when I'm home but I'm not home he dint listen.. I'm quite sad at him at times that I scold him but after scolding I'm always sad and not feeling good... I don't meant to scold him but the thoughts of his actions makes me wanted to do so and so so angry.. He realizes it and will apologize... I told him I would actually die n aged faster at the rate hes killing me softly with..
I don't deny maybe I was the one who actually spoilt him
But who don't spoilt their first and only child right.. Well at least I'm
Making amendments now in teaching him..

He started piano lesson already, so far twice and he is professing quite well as he gave the interest in this so a relief to hear n see... Sad is he's not practicing la... Lazy!!! One word to describe!!!!

Kyden:
Turning 2 in Aug... Times flies la.. He so naughty and very clever too Lo... Never fail to mk me laugh and also angry not to say... Follow what I does... Like makeup or even painting nails... I love kids at this age to about 5 which is so sweet... After that they are not cute anymore... Sad la!!!!

He loves me a lot although my time with him us not that much like with Isaac cuz he's always looking for me haha at the certain timing of the day...

He drink milk like 100 to 150 each time... I'm not around mil give lesser I'm around he's just drink like a mad cow who have been starved!! Night time usually he's sleep throughout unless he's hungry like been starved lo..

5 mins ago he can drink 100 ml another 5 min later he requested for milk lol
I like la... Drink milk good mah... But tired Lo having to wake up to drink

Shrug I type a long post then suddenly all gone

Kns be bk tml

Pictures

2011-01-13T17:21:00.000+08:00

♥ 说好的幸福呢 ♥

A long post

2011-01-10T10:01:00.000+08:00

I'm blogging now as I'm waiting for something...

I'm such a good gal for all this shit lol...

Kyden is already 16 months.. How times flies. In a blink of eyes he's already 1 yr plus. Come to think of that when he was still in my tummy. Moving and growing. Now he's already walking n running around the house like a busy penguin..
cute to the Mac but also irritating to the max cuz he have itchiest hand in the house I think. Touching, biting, moving, climbing etc all around. You don't watch him properly he's gonna fall,.... But the thing is he's not afraid even if he fall
=_=••

He still cannot call me yet which is such a sad case lo.

He called:
Ah Ma
Isaac
Daddy
Mum mum
Ball
Etc
Just not MUMMY..

Wait lo wad else...

As a premature Bb his progress seems fast enough and good but his weight only 10.5kg.
He's down with flu n cough once in awhile. Like it's a trend.. But I don't like cuz when he have that, he will have difficulties to breathe and losing appetite..

He was last admitted in Kkh due to narrow airways... Scare the shit out of me cuz o2 was low, not eating and drinking.. Only medicine.. Medicine that all!!!
We stay in hospital for a good whole 6 days!!!!

Hope in 2011 my baby Kyden will b a better and good boy and called me MUMMY? haha...

How about Isaac..
he started primary one already on 4 Jan..
At first I thought my baby boy will be afraid and cry!!
He did not in fact he's adapting well!!
Proud of him!!!!!!
-[:

He have a buddy in school during recess.. But he's too active.. Moving around and not afraid at all.. Buying food and biscuit is his favorite now!!

I gave him $1.50, his daily saving is only $0.30 haha cuz after eating,, he buy biscuits...

As I told him no entering the bookshops and buy rubbish..

I got all his stationery so if he reali need anything I told him tell me. I will bring him go choose and buy. Don't anyhow buy things and must save the money!! So far not bad la!!!

Well only one incident. He made me so angry lo... His classmate told him that he will bring games for him to play then he must buy something for him.

Omg he did lo... How I find out?

At first I checked his wallet, eh how come got other country currency? Cuz I placed alot in the cupboard. I asked him.

Me: Isaac what did u eat on Friday?

Isaac: a bowl of noodle and porridge..

Me: wa!! U so hungry?

Isaac: erm ya.. I'm hungry... Mummy... Mummy

Me: yes?

Isaac: actually I never eat two items, I used the money to buy something from bookshop for my friends!

At first I'm v angry that he entered the bookshop when I told him cannot.
But I relented upon hearing he admitted and is honest with me.

I always tell him must be honest cuz then he will be a good boy.

Example: he found $0.20 in school and without me telling him what to do (he's in school,I'm at work Ma) he went to the prefect and ask them
To lead him to the lost and found section to report!
(I'm proud of u Isaac)

Nevertheless, he needs attention in his work lo ESP homework, I guess he is still adjusting to the new environment where things are different from k2. More Wk, gotta wake up at 615. Poor boy!!

I'm the one who opt for morning session as I want him to have more time and rest at home after school. Hope he can adjust to the environment soon, by waking and sleeping early..

In a glimpse of times/years
Isaac is already 7!!!
7 years ago as a teenager, I was having this lill baby in my tummy feeling helpless and like a teenager mum haha...

7 years later, he's my baby boy who will care for me like no one else but at times he drive me nuts but I loved him more then anyone else..

I failed to give him a complete family when he's young so Im making up the losses that was lost during The first year.

I will give him whatever I can and I will make sure everything goes well for him.

I'm the one who wants the divorce last time so I won't make my son suffer and feels that he don't have a complete family!

Ps:
I love Isaac and Kyden

Pss: I love my family too

Haha.. I feel EMO WHEN TYPING THIS .. So crapy!!!

Photos cannot be upload here...

View at FB BA...
stupid iPhone

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2010-12-17T16:04:00.001+08:00

On the way home now after celebrating office party...

Not really nice the food but ok lo... Did gift exchange already and I got a sephora scrub set not really my liking as it's smell too sweet..

Have happy Friday for the month of December as all the way till Jan I'm only working every Tuesday thus no different even I'm really to go off at 4 given by company.. thus I took lo... Wad to do...

Mil gg genting again tonight. lol

Maid will have to look after kids tml morning if I'm asleep late lol

I will wake up la since she's still new...

Got lots of candy for isaac company pdt.. not cheap... I took like almost half s carton small carton la..

Lol

My blog is getting more n more rusty Liao since this stupid app can't allow me to load picture via iPhone n I'm so lazy to transfer my pic from phone to pc...

G0sh...

Brb..
So lazy la...

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2010-12-15T21:22:00.001+08:00

On leave for today till Friday... going back office for Christmas celebrate...

Monday would be department dinner at east coast... Korean BBQ my pick... ;))))

Maid here's for 3 days already not bad la... Just sometimes need ask to do work haha...

I went out today, she's ironing then I came back she don't know... Then was listening to Hp music I think... Then she saw me immediately she quietly keep the Hp.. Still ok la...

Kyden get changed and bathed early when he's awoke so I feel better... Isaac and Kyden love her a lot cuz she cn play with them haha...

Clearing leave and so fast 2011 coming Liao. which means Isaac primary one starting soon...

I'm clearing leave but I don't feel it at all... Sigh.... I feel still like working a lot of things not done shit....

Isaac dunno can accept primary one anot... Omg... I taught him lesson today he seems cannot hais... Tml I'm gg to do homework with him again.

Workload is so much higher now lo.. Hopefully my salary goes up too la otherwise it's gg to be sucky...

13 months coming but I'm gg to used up all.. WHY?

I brought a bag..
But I dunno have stocks not... No stock I can save my 13 month haha...
;)

My coll say I slim down after started jogging but recently I did not as ita raining.. I ate a lot today too...
zzz....

I wanna be slim la... Horrible I actually slim down after no2... All bcuz I ate n ate la that y
Now I'm fat again lol....

Shit...

2011::

1. Slim
2. Rebond hair
3: good health
4. Stop
5. A lot more...

Lazy to blog...

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On leave

2010-12-07T15:41:00.001+08:00

Was on leave from Thursday till today as mil went genting.

Time at home with kids is good without them an I can do what I want.

Ie: cook or etc.
Tml will be gg bk work already.

Kyden not feeling well flu n cough. I hate it when this things starts which means ==== choy don't wanna say. I just scared la.

When to seahorse to buy sofa bed for Isaac as I don't like the idea he sleep on the floor with mattress as he's one who won't keep the bed and keep stepping sigh.

Finding where I can buy a mini one for Kyden le?

Anyone know pls tell me ok!

Isaac went for his tution yesterday after a long break. All illness came back again lo. Like tummy pain etc. I insist he go as he is not in k1 or k2 already so must work harder looking at time so fast Dec gg end. Which means school gonna start.
Alot gg thru my mind.

Can he cope?
Can he buy food alone?
Can he pay on his own?
Will he hurt himself and so much more but I can't stop worrying for him lo.

He's 7. So fast my Bb boy is not a Bb n toddler anymore.. He's a boy haha...

Maid coming in on 13, thank god, pls be a good maid so my precious at least can bathe, eat, go school on time. I cant totally blame mil but sometimes when I'm bk I saw Isaac still wearing pj n not eating I'm kinda frustration coming out lo.

Can u imagine whole day inside the room n in pj cuz watching n haven bathe. I can't help but devoid n scold him cuz I can't scold mil Ma. I hate myself keep scolding lo.
Make me sore throat n also Isaac to hate me cuz I keep scold hais!!!

Making Kyden to sleep since 1pm till now 3.37 finally he gg slp but still half awake. He's sick on medications hope my Bb get well soon.

I'm sick too sian. Runny nose in the middle of the night/ early morning like 5am/ suddenly etc make mr irritated, cuz I can't eat medicine as I will bcum drowsy later how to look after kids!!!

Btw I went seahorse buy sofa bed they say need 3 weeks then can collect n delivered omg... So long their company no people meh? Stupid n cannot self collect must pay $29 to delivered their rule. Wth!!! Got discount that y I buy otherwise eat shit lo their staff are all lousy no manners

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A happy note and a sad note

2010-12-01T08:58:00.001+08:00

Have I failed as a mother?
I keep asking myself this question last night till I can't sleep until 3/4am.

Isaac drew on the wall once, I scolded him and I did not punish him. Yesterday he decided to draw it again and this time it's not just small it's one whole patch.

I cane him as he refused to give me his hand although it's already 12am

I dk he will learn his lesson or?

I dk I felt I failed as a mum as I give in too much.

A happy note, maid is coming in by 10-12 Dec, again I see black face in the house. I sometimes just really wonder I pay a maid to look after my son n housework why they are so subjective about it.

This way also good la they know they cannot stay forever de. My house is small it's not semi detc lor...

Pls move to bil house if ur really not happy..

My house I have a choice to put it bluntly I want u out sorry!!!

I need my space etc!!

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Monday Blues

2010-11-29T11:22:00.000+08:00

Monday Blues, not supposed to work today but i cancelled 5 days of my leave as we can bring forward since i will be only sleeping at home and doing nothing i decided to postponed to next year as i can use it until Mar 2011, how i wish it was 10 days instead of 5 only haha.

I will use 3 days for Isaac Primary one since i need to go his school lo.
This Isaac really pissed me off badly at times that i dont wanna talk to him.

I scold him Big Mouth and he say i should not scold him since he say himself and me pretty..
.....
Then i scold him say never drink water mouth like smelly then he say cannot tooo and sulk, then ia sked him y he say cas handsome must include mouth cannot anywhere gt bad or problem de.
=_=""

What else can i say his words this day really make me wonder TV is bad?

He uses "So cool", "excellent" and many more la,. that i cant think off..

OMFG!!! FML pls...

Kids are really a handful man.

He told me he want to leave the house last night as i scold him then i asked him where he wan go stay he say HIS HOUSE, then i pretend crying then he touch me and say I LOVE U MAH, then i say u love me u still go, he say OK LA i promise one mth once only la.
Then i say OK.

OK now i know he LOVE me at least im not so hurt and sad that i bring him up for 7 years for nothing, but sometimes hes really not sweet at all la. Boys are like that?

How i wished he was a gal at times.

:)

Well today working half day till 4 pm im gg home, i postpone my Happy Friday to today as last week im trying to clear my job.

have my report for the month of Oct actually not done yet la, Sian. Wanted to let the temp gal do but yet i scare she do wrong, sian.

Kyden is jealous whenever i hugged Isaac then he will hit his head or bite him, omg,,, fire man.

Haha
love both my kids la.

♥ 说好的幸福呢 ♥

..continued

2010-11-25T13:41:00.001+08:00

Oh where did I stop actually haha...

Hmmm..
Kyden progress...

Now he's no longer small size and I'm happy too that anything he also eat even chilli lo.!!!

I fed him chili noodle because I'm eating he saw, keep screaming when I say NO.. thn I let him try lo see he scare not.. Wa fainted.. He ate more thn 10 mouth still wan more lo. Omg..

When I'm pregnant I ate alot of chili too haha.. Maybe then on he know and like already haha..

He hate papaya. Vitagen haha.. Love raisin lots.. Can stuff 6 inside his mouth bite till flatten then show me haha...

Ok enough about him..

Isaac:
He's such a sweet baby compared to Kyden..
After milk auto zzz.. KTV no matter how loud he after milk sure zzz.. A must la

He was so much fatter then Kyden lo Kyden 15 months is equal to Isaac 6 months.. Lol but not that tall la... Is the size.. He was an overweight baby but well as he grow older... Hrs underweight!!!FML

Haha.. I look after Isaac myself therefore I feel I'm much more attracted to him although he make me me so angry at times but I till tolerate. As I mentioned before alot of times I don't use cane on him anymore as I believe he is old enough to learn and know things but he know what kind of stare I'm giving him la..

For example he love gg bk to ex hus there.. Not I don't like but hard to explain feeling la.. He one bk keep crapping that Saturday he's gg etc.. I just kept quiet look at him.. Immediately he change topic lol...
That's my baby..

But but hor I realised he seems to sleep walk le...
;(

He's going primary one next year brought him a trolley bag haha as I'm scares that he carry is too heavy lo.. Bt his class is at 1st floor lol... I'm KS LA

Well thinking if wanna let him use school bus back from school as the weather is so hot.. But if maid is successful in coming then no need Liao maid will take umbrella Ma.. I can't ask mil carry that Kyden n take umbrella de la.. Can die!!! This Kyden never stop moving like a devil unless he sleep then he's an Angel haha...

I keep saying I need a maid at least someone will keep my house clean and neat at the same time feed my Isaac lo..

Mil is too focus on many thing and she can't focus on Isaac totally.. Sad case la

Brb to blog on pc iPhone is making me crazy typing haha

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23 nov the day

2010-11-24T22:32:00.000+08:00

Why my blog date is dated 23 Nov...

That the day i dread....

Kyden decided to stop latching on me and fully concentrate on milk powder..

I'm having mixed feeling as I blog this.. I have breastfeeding for 15 months.. It's a long time compared to Isaac.. The feeling between Isaac and Kyden breastfeeding schedule is kinda different...

Isaac I was able to breastfeed him since the minute he's born. While Kyden I was not able to breast feed him since birth thus need the help of a breast pump which I have not used on Isaac before.

Help was asked Ll around ESP Eling who guide me all along thanks babe..

It's was struggling as I was producing mre milk then Kyden can drink.. I need to buy a freezer, bottles n bottles or milk bottles and glass bottle till my whole fridge freezer have nothing except milk n just milk...

I was at first keep pumping during the 3 months stay at home pumping every 2 hours and at Wk pumping every 5 hours.

I was able to pump on total 1.5 liters of milk per day.. But Kyden in take was only each time 60ml haha, each day ard 5-8 bottles as he was premature.. Thus the milk of collection that I have..

Well my effort did not go to waste la. I believe he gain much from the breast milk that I gave him.. But somehow he fall sick quite serious for 4-5 times due to immature of lung growth which is because he was born 2 months earlier..

After the last illnes and stay in Kkh for almost a week..
He's growing much mre now and fatter of cas I guess the bad germ n lung ae growing well now thus I feel glad..

Hr started to latch lesser and lesser as he was introduce to milk powder.. We still mixed milk powder together with breast milk..

Now he fully on milk powder and he decided not to latch on me totally and he will only pull down my shirt and laugh then giggle then close it back..

Of cas I feel sad as I wanted to latch him mre then 24 months that my target but since he decided to stop I will...

His milk intake now pet times is ard 120-180 depending and each time around 2-3 hourly but that when I'm around..

Mil will not feed him this timing as she afraid it's too full but I think otherwise la...

Well she the main care giver I can't say much since I'm wking Ma..

Kyden is smart, learn thing very fast..
Problem is that he only have 3 upper tooth n 2 lower tooth at 15 months old haha...

Learning to walk, can stand in his own without help and also learn words fast..

Sad thing he still have not call MUMMY..
;(

Isaac asking me to read book will continue tml to blog..

Lastly I love my both son.. They are god sent babies..
I love them alot...

;)

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Thursday

2010-11-18T08:32:00.001+08:00

Haven been really blogging for awhile already...

Do wait patiently ok will blog a nice and detailed one. However pictures can be view at Facebook

:)

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Allergies

2010-11-15T18:19:00.001+08:00

I hate allergies..
Isaac Gt allergy so lill dust or dirty will mk his eyes itchy,watery and rashes...

Today he gets it again..
Sian..

Off today lo what else.

Watched mega mind already with Isaac not that bad but I find not nice

Lok lok with sis n cousin last week nice and full..

Brb to blog..

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Happy

2010-11-11T19:49:00.000+08:00

Up to date I have been breastfeeding for 15 months already although I have only breastfeeding during the night time.. Still continuing...

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;)

2010-11-07T21:56:00.001+08:00

Sometimes the change and we won't see it but others feel it.

I don't know bur certainly things have change.

Some thinks it alright but in fact it's not.

I don't wanna blog about what happen but definitely it stay in my memory.

Well forgive and forget is never easy.

That all I can feel..

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Sad

2010-11-05T23:42:00.000+08:00

Idk wad happen to me today I did something stupid and caused me to waste $500.

I'm damm sad now la. My lv bag might have to delay... WTF man..

M I down on luck or what? Work getting more and not increasing

Ph can't go long weekend.. Leave got 19 days can't clear in peace.. Knn

I hate 2010..

I need luck... Lady luck pls shine on me...

Shall I buy iPhone 4/5? Sian...

Going to pick up my coach that I order.. At least something to mKe me loom forward to and ....

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Isaac graduaction

2010-10-23T15:08:00.001+08:00

M at the graduation concert for Isaac haha..

I dunno why I feel so emo lo... Like wanna cry see my son graduate haha only k2 nia le...

Haha.

My son have officially grow.!!!

He's a big boy alr...

Love u Isaac..

TGIF

2010-10-22T19:59:00.000+08:00

I'm at the office now as I'm blogging waiting for FIL and MIL to come fetch me to go Golden Mile to collect the Genting tickets.

This Oct month is a very fast month?
In another week its Nov already and also Sis, mum and Isaac birthday.

2010 is gone in another 2 months, very fast isn't it?

What have i achieved this year?
Pretty much the same, except more trips and also an additional 3 PAC in my house causing disaster certain timing and quiet again..

:(

Kyden is already 14 months this coming 23 Oct, how fast times flies.
In a glimsp of eye he is already 14 months, still remember like last year this time, he was only a baby where just pass his one month celebration and back from KKH.

I always say time don't wait for people and that is so true man.
Once the kid grow and pass, you can never find back the same or feeling/ bonding with a kid anymore.

This is why i always wanted to spend time with my kids and rather then going clubbing, etc.

Isaac is graduating from K2 tomorrow. Sad to Say he is not around, why, he went for work trip and i asked mum and sis if they wanna come, but their answer make me feel disappointed in them.
They rather go out and do their own things la, as usual...

Never mind i go is very enough already,
When maid is still around, Isaac is in sequence in going school etc, now without so many mistakes (abit side track)

So fast Isaac is going to Primary One in 2011, and he is turning 7.

So fast, i have already given birth to him like fr 7 years already...

Still remember when i was pregnant with him i was only like 20. So young and helpless..

Well i believe all people grow and mature and sometimes when u mature too late all things will be different, well its fixed so no more changing....

I'm so random in my post i know,
i wanted to blog about Kyden and Isaac birth but i always don't have the time to do so.
That the life with 2 kids man, see how mother is haha....

Kyden is gaining back his weight already after the last stay in KKH, but he still cannot FLU, once this start will trigger his cough and breathless thing, very scary...

the last one he stay in KKH for 5 days and he slim own immediately and he was not eating and lucky i still have leave otherwise i also dunno how lo.

Good and glad he recover already.. he is very naughty 100x worst then Isaac, he will snatch things from Isaac and if he does not get it, either he Scream or he will PULL/ BITE Isaac...

Else he will try to knock his head on the floor... OMG. Buay Tahan man, then FIL is siding him making him worst with a bad attitude.
I feel like killing them man, for making my son like that, well love and dote got limit de ma, not overdose.
Drugs overdose also will die right?

Hb promised my makeup cabinet but my bday going to be over liao one month i still got nothing lo. Not ready as worker is not free got project liao,
FML....

Its so late la, my cosmetic is full and dunno messy like what already lo.

Well im still waiting,

he is not in Singapore now. Funny, i miss him, when he is in Singapore i dun really haha...

So its good to travel and stay apart for awhile sometimes?
:D

Yesterday, i ask FIL to fetch Isaac to me after he come back from Sch,

Its my sec classmate birthday, so we went 15 Min for dinner chill and chat, thereafter we went to HD at Clarke Quay for dessert and i had the alcholic drink, very very yummy...

Picture with my fren as my HP as usul with Isaac, like it dont belong to me at all, haha....

Im going to change my Iphone to 4 in Nov but im still thinking. Some say its made of glass and sometimes when you drop it, will break.
TRUE?

I always wanted a BB but then cant play games right?
Not sure as non of my fren have it except my boss, haha, i tried to play with it previously, but like so boring le, not like Iphone can play games haha.

Well, i told him i want Iphone 4 as early Xmas pressie and he did not answer me till now... Well..

Nov 2 is Isaac Pri Enrolment and im going to be alone going with him as he is not free.
NVM lo...

I have not have a decent dinner with him and my lill kids for so long already as he is so BZ with work.

is it true that once we are married, the feeling is different from courtship or par tok?

I feel this way lo, anyone feeling the same way as me?
IDK.. so sad like that de le. Haha.

Like lost the kind of love feeling lo, the excited feeling.
Hmmm

i dont like it this way le, like wait the flame goes down how?
Haha
i tried to upload picture using Blog press and it suck man, cant load at all, dunno why it happen to me only, shrugs,

i dont want to pay for the application as wai the same thing happen how? And the person who create this is not helpful as i checked and emailed her, her reply is like making herself a fool lo, i can do that myself lo else iw ont look for you.

Might be hiring the maid back in Dec, bt depend on her current employer and her decision, better is come la, i dont mind paying lo, at least i know i can placed Isaac in someone care and also well fed etc, not tat they dont feed but they are biased.

So i need someone can tell me from A-Z what is happening to Isaac...
And also feed him on time etc...

Dunno what to type already, im growing mushroom now as im typing as its already 8pm no on a Friday, im still at office haha...

Random

2010-10-09T20:19:00.001+08:00

A marriage is like a pair of shoe.

It's not complete without another..

Too random..
Silly thoughts lingering..

Sometimes the more we crave the hardest it get!

Isaac is with him now and I feel so sad. So not used to it without his naggy tone! Miss him so much but he only left one hour ago.. Omg...

He will be back tml.. Sigh

Next weekend we are going genting after the following week I tout wanna bring him go underwater world haha...

Sometimes I dunno if I should cane Isaac or to laugh at his actions

He can make me very angry but sweet talk me another min

Just like example I wear no sleeves top, or off shoulder, he will pull up to my neck and I asked him why.. He say he don't Like others to look at me haha!!!

This afternoon he just told me:
Mummy can you buy me 0ne iPhone?
Haha... I told him give u mine lor.. He say mine lousy bcas is old de!!! Kaoz!

I simply love him the most la.
He treasure and love me more then his dad!

He's way more romantic and sweet talker then him lo. But but at times he drive me crazy man haha!!!

I still love 林俊杰 haha..

Another lonely Saturday!

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Boring sat

2010-10-09T13:35:00.001+08:00

Woke up at 930 because mr Kyden is asking for milk. He actually woke up at 900, I asked Isaac entertain him awhile... Lol only tahan 30 min bcas of his super itchy hand!!!

Cook his porridge, make milk for both and tidy up my house!

It looks lik a dog mess lor.. Wth!!

Each day I clean yet they treated the room really lik hotel or just purely sleeping? I dunno.. Serious!!!

Gt carton boxes, newspaper etc!

Cannot look at it lo. Imagine I have cupboard inside yet I can't open due to the boxes.

Being kpo I opened and see... Guess what it's??
Plates etc!

For fuck I really don't understand!!! Each dinner time the most u use is only 10 plates that the Max I should say!!

Fuck it la...

I'm very pissed each time I say this de.

Why I allowed them to stay in my house?
In fact I never allow!!

They were asking what if they move in. We were deciding and not even given an answer the next thing they do
accept deposit from the tenant and declare they are moving in on this this date!
Fuck I wasn't aware n I never approved yet lo.

So all this while people call me stupid what can I say...

Shrug!!

Well at e very least I allow them to stay for 2 years after 2 years if they still wished to continue leasing out the house maybe they should go their 2nd son house then. I'm not allowing anymore after 2 yrs I'm firm on my decision call me name wadever I don't really mind anymore!!

It's my home sweet home so I shall declare war!

Ur not being nice to my Isaac too n my hse why should I be nice?

My house ia not a bomb shelter lo. U gt your own son who is not married and can get house why u must stay with me else I buy over ur house u buy over mine la•

Bigger for me and smaller for u which u like Ma..

Shall check in this lo..

Anyway staying with inlaw can kill lo!!

U do this or go out they must make noise crazy!! Wat is so wrong with human being or old fogey??

Stop stepping on my tail else when I really blow up u will know what I'm gonna d0!!!

I'm so sian to blog here like keep ranting bt tht e only way I guess!

He will be back tml!

At least some ranting to b done face to face..

He knows I'm gg blow up soon le that why what I say he keep agree!

Hell.. Pls stay away from me can pls?

I wanna have a nice n warm family stop adding burden to me pls.. I seriously don't like u all at all!!!

Fuck off pls..

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Friday

2010-10-09T00:45:00.001+08:00

Kids are asleep now I'm Alone awake in the house

Previous maid call earlier..

Isaac was elated to talk to her and she wants to come bk n Wk for me again of cas I say yes but I told her that now my house got additional 3 pax are u fine she say ok...

Isaac misses her so much that after I put down the phone he keep asking when is Suli coming back to take care of him etc!

To hire her back the first priority is Isaac then housework u must be puzzled why no nerd Kyden!!!

He have his own share of supporters therefore he needs no additional le

I'm very pissed off today because inlaw went genting snd Kyden need to sleep but his Yao Yao is in the other room...

His brother locked the door thus I can't make him sleep untill like 11plus. F***

I'm do angry I mean it's my house why I can't go into my room right!

Come on u wanna slp yes bt pls la who knows what I wan lo like in advance from that room shit u la...

Kyden snatch toys from Isaac.. Next thing he carried Kyden in and of cas I know who instigated that de

His father is worst before he left the house hr told Isaac

If I come back Kyden complaint I'm gg cane u I was like fuck u!!!

Who are u to cane my son or tell him all this things pls lor...

Kyden is still my son lor... Dote on someone is nice but pls don't go overboard else thing might turn nasty lo..

So since they like to care for Kyden usually weekend I carried Kyden out when he wants milk and I and Isaac continued zzz

U might say I'm a lazy mum but I'm not I'm just trying to let them take care since they so happy!!!

Of Cas I love Kyden if you were to ask me. Who don't love their own kids!!!

Just that I can't neglect Isaac bcas I wanna anger them lo

I own Isaac way too much already compare to Kyden...

I shall not elaborate on this anymore!! Those who know me might know ba...

This time Im serious in hiring a maid o don't care what others thing... They are way too much n pissing me off badly ESP whenn im sick n he's oversea!!!

Double combo man!!!

FML

I repeat thus countless of times but I still need to rant man

Staying with inlaw is a disaster and it sucks hell lot..

I move out from hell they are bk to haunt

Wtf

Life is never sailing well man...

Hope 2 yrs bye bye!!!

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Puzzled

2010-10-07T21:38:00.000+08:00

I always wonder to buy a house and pay monthly installment yet we see like not the owner does it make sense?

I dunno when I first buy this house it was very rush why I say so...
I WANTED TO MOVE OUT OF HIS DAD PLACE BECAUSE I WANT A PLACE SND FREEDOM OF MY OWN...

Now way even before One year of moving in.. they are back with us.

In general I'm not really pissed off but the annoying part is that they asked if they should rent out the house etc. Before we answer the next lightning step they did was collected deposit already!!!

Since they does that what can we do. People scold me stupid what can I say?

Eat e humble pie lo what else!!!!

I totally regretted allowing them in.. But what can I say!!

Why did I blog about all this now!

Because I find that my lovely house have turn from nice to messy to dunno what house!

I can't possibly asked his mum to do all the housework etc!
I have enough already working and by the time I'm home. I'm dead beat lo.. He don't really understand this as he goes out early and come back around 8 plus onwards sometimes even later... He ate dinner bathe and it's almost bedtime for him... What will he need to do right!!!

Hais...
I wanted to hire a maid now because I seriously cannot take it already seeing my house like that in mess and dusty too!!!

Before I wanted to hire a maid I have to go around asking for permission etc!!
I wanted to buy dog also need permission!!!

FML PLS

this is my house right?? It's under my name??

I wanted to hire maid buy dog for say I need permit and I seriously cannot take it!!!

I'm not one with patience!!

I cannot tolerate this any longer!!

I straight told him that day after 2 years lease is up I dun wanna let them continue stay not say I'm heartless!!

I have 2 son myself!! My son need their own space n room and they can't forever sleep with us in the room isn't it??

Then if lik that all cramp in one room might as well last time don't move out of Amk place snd I don't have to worry if monthly enough money to pay house loan and etc not right?

I'm not selfish I think.. I need to spare s thought for my son too lo..

Their actions I hate why... They are biased against Isaac so whatever Isaac do they think it's wring even Isaac never touch Kyden.. Kyden scream they will scold him.

How can I allow this to happen between my son?

Isaac is e beloved of my son.. I cannot allow all this to happen to him.. Not say I don't love Kyden but he got all the attention needed already and my poor baby Isaac is like me being outcast!

Is not being fair.. If that e case I might not even want Kyden in e first place!

Then Isaac will have all e love he can get. To have sibling.. Is to share love and concern and not been biased!!

Plus biased is nt in my dictionary!!

I hate people been biased the m0st..

I have told him umpteen times..

He might b busy or what but just that s person patience is only that much that we can hold.. Once that limited amount is over.. Everything is going to explode and I don't think it's going to be very nice..

I know myself too well.. For me to hate something or someone is easy but to forgive something or someone it takes a very long time just like how long and much I hate his brother!!

I dunning just feel that I'm not leading the perfect life that I want now.. It's not ideal and perfect..

Some might say life is full of up n downs but well... It also depend on how u control n managed ur life.. To achieved what kind of life u want!!

Am I right?

I love a carefree life and life that I want.. I know what I want too...I can give up things just to achieve my goals!

I dunno why I'm ranting but this issue being biased have been bugging me for e lo longest time ever and it got worst after they shifted in and I seriously dunno how much longer I can tolerate before I snap!!

I seriously have no mood to continued anymore!

Tbc

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Thursday

2010-10-07T09:03:00.000+08:00

I went home early yesterday..
Sick so practically no mood to work at all ESP when ur brain is like Lingering away or floating...
;)

Went to SIR BUILDING to submit Kyden passport for traveling next Friday!

Woohoo... Finally can enjoy the cold cold weather Liao and Isaac can play all he want!

Hopefully it's not packed!

We decided to travel on Friday morning rather then night as kids have more time to play.. Also their sleeping time is not much affected!
;)

Hope this is a good trip and I fully recover before I go else I will be so grouchy!

Now otw to Wk.. Woke up late as it's raining and I ate medicine so drowsy!
Boss in vietnam so abit late is fine.. Recently alot 0f people resign.
Its true to earn more, the best way is thru job hopping...

This idea trigger me so many many thousand times but each time I stay put is because of the time flexibility N boss that pull me out of the idea again!

Sigh!! Who don't wish to have better salary N good wking timing..

I'm going for my business studies in Nov... Pending way too long already.. With better certificate N due to when young we did not think properly and do things our own way So here we are lo.. Suffer at older age haha!!!

This course will last me 11 months because I'm doing part time thus it's slow.. Full time only 4-6 months..

With Wk and kids generally you have to give and take de la

That day we were talking... Shall we hav a baby gal haha bt bt bt bt bt was if it's a boy again haha!!

Then we dropped the idea!!!
Lolssss!!!

Infact I only want a gal no more boy lo...

Boy are harder to bond with mum bt Isaac is generally nice la. Just that as they grow older they tend to drift further from mummy and focus given to gf etc!!!

Well I'm nagging la.. Early in the morning!!

I got tonnes of pic to load here bt blogpress is stupid one min can load one min can't! Shit!

I still can't decide if I want to leave this firm
Not..

Maybe after 13 months then after 13 months come another bonus!!

Wahhabi... How to leave...
All this temptation is too much To resist.. Shitty me!!!

Still coughing and with tonnes of phlegm!!

Aw..

Will be back

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My sweetest son ever

2010-10-06T08:56:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was sick after my trip so was sleeping the whole day.

Supposed to take care of Isaac because he's sick ended up I'm the one more sick them him!

I slept all the way from Monday night to Tuesday evening!!

I got flu, cough, fever, sore throat etc kill me pls as it's very uncomfortable lo!!!

In between my slp my phone rang, got SMS!!

I heard Isaac telling whoever that call:
My mother went oversea no water drink that why she's sick cannot talk now, pls call ltr!
Aw... I'm so touched u kn!!!

Then he Kip coming ask me wakeup bt I just cannot open my eyes!! He sat beside me all e while!!

Isn't he my sweetest baby??

Evening time I'm awoke! My sis came n fetch him so he bid gd bye to me!

Awhile ltr he call me!

My voice sound blocked due to my nose n he asked me m
I crying bcas he's nt ard then he can come bk then go tml de no worries bcas he can't allow me to cry!!

I told him I'm not! Just enjoy there since my sis n bf will play with him on Wii rather at home he play alone..

He kept saying dun wan!! He wanna come bk.. Haha.. I say ok

Once he's back he hug me lo say he love me.. Sweet!!!

How can I don't love him??

I told him I'm gg bed then he still watching tv he ensure me will off tv n switch and light etc!
Sensible!!!
My son have grown up!!

I will do wadever I can to protect him n love him as I told hubby alr!

Whoever try to b funny fuck off pls! I don't buy shits!! There's no such things as biased de!!

Thus I told hubby 2 yrs already either they move bk else we moved!!

I have patience for 2 yrs which is alot Liao I givn enuff time n patience out so no longer pls dont stay with us! Bcas it's creating a barrier for Isaac n Kyden which I super hate x 1000000 yet it happen!

I will never Allow mu kids to hav bad n unhappy childhood memories de!!!

As I hve mine before I know how it feels!!!

So counting down to 1 yr plus more and goodbye!!

I heart my Isaac and Kyden !!!

Hk trip

2010-10-04T18:41:00.001+08:00

Today marks the last day of my trip from HK

I WAS VERY RELUCTANT TO LEAVE AND I WAS ACTUALLY SAD TOO

it's was an enjoyable trip for me and I won't even think of going Bangkok anymore Cos it's much much cheaper and nicer things around!!!

We stay at Aunty mum place, she stay alone all e while and only rented out one room to a student that all... Her house is big.. 4 rooms!!! But she's alone and old although her daughter stay above her with her family b mil...

I ask her why she don't stay upstairs together with her daughter since they have 4 rooms and 1 room is spare!
Her answer left me quite sad!
;(
I can sense she wants to badly but then yet there are things which disallow her to do so...

When the first day I went till the last day.. She always wakeup when we are back even very late to pour water for me and asked me where I go and do haha... So cute!!!

She old maybe memory is not that good anymore thus will ask twice or thrice but she's reali v v v v nice!!

She wanted to buy air ticket and come back with me today de but she forget where's her safe key thus can't and she's v v sad and told me her heart is br0ken!

I asked her why she's kept quiet but I know why lo. So I told her don't b like this and take things easier!!! She still look sad!!

She wanted to sent me to take airplane but I told her don't as it's too troublesome and don't want her to get lost!

But I gt her to be scolded again and I hate it!!!

I dunno what actually happen or etc!! Why she keep attacked her...
Even she's nt wrong bt I think that not right too ba!!!

She's old and she's trying very hard to keep N bear all things to herself
Like her pride are all gone!!

She don't want to create a scene as she felt that she old waiting to die and I told her not think this way...
It's not good n right!!!

I seriously hope she better after today...

She wasn't invite to dinner yesterday night and I asked her what she eating and she say she cooked so i went to kitchen and see what she cook!!!

Omfg!! She only had white rice lo, I went and asked her to go up with me and she mentioned that no one cook her rice!!

I understand why she say so,,,
The mil scold her and say why she don't wanna say earlier she want eat, I hurried told her that it's ok u can eat my share..
;)

She felt better...

I wonder is it people who are old will be treated this way!??
Hais...

My motive N goals is my 2 kids lo... I'm bringing them
Bk this Dec or Jan. But maybe Dec ba as Jan Isaac is already in primary one and it's gonna be busy and can't anyhow dont go Sch!!!
Plus the weather is cooling so it should b nice!!

Since we are staying at her place hotel fees are omitted!!

Ok be bk to blog again...

At airport bcas flight delayed!!!!

Chiao...

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Tuesday

2010-09-28T08:45:00.001+08:00

Today is already Tuesday which means 2 more days it's my birthday.... times flies.... I'm 27 this Thursday..

Still remember the days when I was just 16... Birthday means??? DRUNK WITHOUT FAIL. now birthday??? Quiet dinner etc...

Hubby is back from shanghai already.. Nice!!!

Sometimes I think couple need to be away while an they generally treasure each other more? Eg: more caring and loving actions etc I dunno about others. Well that happen to me

Okok.. Thursday my birthday and Friday I'm departing for hong kong an will be back only on Monday.

This year I have travel quite alot. Last time I used to think traveling is a waste of time and money but I'm seriously hocked to this and I even told him that I'm planning to go t least 6 times a year trip and he nearly fell off haha..

Eg:
1. Wedding Ann
2. Valentine day
3. His birthday
4. Mine birthday
5&6. Isaac and Kyden birthday

Just nice right? 6 times haha..
Too random but I like it

I mentioned I bleah my hair? Ok it's nice but sometimes it kinda stupid As it's untamed!!! Horrible!!!

I invested in like so many kinds of hair mask lo lucky it do help abit

Going to stock up my hair conditioner from HK this time the last tome I only brought 8. M going to buy like maybe 20 bottles as it's god damn cheap cam cum nice to use. I dunno la for me it works wonder. Think he gg to scream if I lug bck 20 bottles bt nt like he nv buy for me before haha!!!

Ok back to my kids...

Kyden hair Is so long.. So cute I like it but alot are asking me to cut or trim them. The answer is NO ONE CAN TOUCH HIS HAIR!
yes no one..

Haha.. See my Facebook u will know la..
Ever-since his last admission to Kkh, I realized he gained weight back.. Unlike th other time he was all boney... So skinny!
Sad ;(

Now his weight is bck and his face abit more chubby I'm happy mummy!!

He is still on breastfeeding twice a full one and the rest is as and when he's happy lo.. Like latching for comfort etc.. I'm happy I'm still BF for 13 months already!! Jiayou and continued!

My goal is till he dun wan me anymore lo! Haha... He will cling to me when he got the craving la after math he will push me away lo haha and search for his toys etc! Sad!!!

Isaac le..
Hmm he's getting more and more cheeky lo.. Haha sometimes his words stunned me so much that I'm speechless.. He is a kid thy expresses out an learn thru visual and sound rather then writing therefore his writing skill is not good but his talking WONDERFUL I tell u.. Non stop haha

He's going primary one in 2011, hope he will be able to adapt and learn well.. Y I say so bcas he's still my baby boy forever.. I scare he can't this and that etc la!

Called me paranoid etc but I'm still worrying all e times!

His birthday is coming in dec!!

Last week went to.taka and got him two set of toys and play an hia fav ice cream. He happy I'm happy!!!

Loved family outing although it's was a short one but overall I'm happy I always loved this

Maybe my childhood memory was happy but it was cut short due to certain issues thus I will not allow this to happen to my kids nor family lo..

Blogging while I'm otw to Wk.. Y no pic here.. All in FB

this blogpress sucks lo.. Can't even load a damm pic.. Happening to anyone? I reali dunno.. Pls let me know if this is happening to u too le.. So I know I'm not the only one.. I have not paid for this apps that y???

;)

Gtg

Eyes damm sleepy darn but still got to work what a day

Bye

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Friday night

2010-09-25T01:18:00.001+08:00

Was supposed to meet Germaine but I decided not to go else that Mr Ang will start his nagging power I buay tahan!!!

He's now in plane OTW back to Singapore le.. Reach tml 5plus am ba...

This time he went for one month..

During this period I went out for 3 days and slep at around 2 each day...totally shag!!!
;(

I think alot this week..life is sometimes chosen for you already. Decision etc is done by me.. What else can I say or do..

Just hope for better life lo. Cannot envy much.. The more u does the hardest it hit u and it's just get painful.

I should learn to let go and not reminiscences all the while, it's ain't getting any better after-all..

Life's short and you only live once.. What is reap is what you sow..

Life's get harder but u still have to face it no matter what.
I'm emoing I think..

Haha I finally bleah my hair after 3 years.. Damage my new roots with bleaching... But I love it.. It makes me look younger I guess..

Kyden is asleep beside me now. Slight crying in between slp.

Isaac is drinking milk cum falling asleep

Everytime I look at my both kids, I feel at ease and I totally never regret.

He say once he's bk he will talk to them being biased hopefully he does as I talked to him abt this and he say he sense it too...

Well being apart for awhile is generally doing a married couple good as you can talk and say what u feel isn't it good.

Being married is like clapping hand. U need 2 hand to clasp by using one hams it's useless...

Learn to treasure ur loved one around u..

Dunno what I'm blogging too..

Work generally is good bt there's an increase of workload bt not pay.. FML

DEFINITELY need to buck ip I'm lazing too long le..

Going holiday next Friday.. I'm awaiting.. Birthday is on Thursday..

I'm older by one yr again..

Pls bring me back to
18 can?? Pls... I dun wanna grow old!!!

Going to zzz soon I think as I drank cough syrup!! Coughing is draggy..

Painted my nails with funny colour.. His mum say AIYO!!!!

Going F1 tml with Isaac n him but not Kyden as I felt it's too young and I wanna spend bonding time with him too...

I cannot neglect Isaac de lo. I feel that I love Isaac more then Kyden ...

Is it bcas I take care of Isaac myself and also I feel that they are biased that's why I generally draw myself away from Kyden?

I hate the way I'm feeling now. It's not good at all... Bcas Kyden my baby too.. Hmm

I told him abt this n he feels it too..
Well!!!

Time to change...

Time to slp too..

Bye

Blogpress still sucks!!!! Can't load picture at all. Darn!!!

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Update

2010-09-20T14:15:00.000+08:00

Lantern festival

New bleach hair since like donkey years ago.

haha i have not done so much liao lo since so long, ever since im pregnant and BFing haha.

I think i look nicer rather then in black but i should have rebond my hair it should be nicer, more tame and not like this now. So messy.... ESP after i awake.

Husband is in CHINA now for one month. Working, i told him I'm going out to meet my friend then he say AIYO!

Then i told him off, i haven went out like since how many months, days, years liao then he ZZZ!! Keep Quiet.

Better la, i can meet my GF haha....

But I'm so lazy la

Today i stick fake eyelash as i cant apply mascara as my eyelid are bruised as i over rub it lo sigh.

I keep thinking i look funny but my colleagues say I'm FINE. so i should be alright ba.

Updates on Kyden:

He is still latching on and also on formula milk at night.

He eat Solid now. Porridge, rice with soup. Biscuit, fruits and practically everything.

As long as he see Isaac or whoever eating then he will want to eat haha.

He like to eat from other people plate rather then his own.

He can crawl and stand on his own with support, but cant walk la.

He can grab things with his hand and finger.

He keep making funny noises and follow what others do.

He recognise people.

He likes to go out for walk every evening, if never go out he will be crying and crying non stop.

He know who he can go to and throw temper.

He knows where we placed the cane.

He hates stranger.

He like to latch on me for comfort at midnight esp.

Overall my baby is fine after the illness for that terrible week. Hope he is better and wont fall sick again.

Love you baby and happy advance 13 month this coming 23 Sep. which is on Thursday and I'm going to bring him go Genting in October.

Isaac updates:

This silly boy of mine is so sweet to me la. No regrets giving birth to him lo, he thinks of me when hes in good mood and recently his appetite is good and better. I bring him out with me sometimes but there are times where he wants to stay home just to play and watch cartoon.

Buay Tahan..

He totally forget his studies sigh going to be very strict liao else he cant learn.

He loves Kyden but they fight!

He always say he love me more then others. Bcas I'm doting him more then anyone else.

he is my everything nothing else. Although i love Kyden too la, But im loving Isaac more la. the bonding that i have with Isaac is so different from Kyden. Haha. Maybe bcas i take care of him myself rather then Kyden.

That why...

ILS are still with me now lo, their house is been rented out for 2 years bt i wonder after 2 years how they are going to move back or staying tog again.

They stay with me is nice la. but they are sometimes not convince when they are ard but i can go out to do my things easily la.

But there are pros and cons de la.

I'm at work now and I'm having serious Monday Blues.

Dunno what to blog lioa la.

Oh ya. Isaac Pri One Enrolment is on Nov 2.

So fast he is already 7 already, next year. SO fast I'm 7 years older, compare to last time haha....

7 years after i gave birth haha....

I'm old liao....

I love my kids...

My life...

♥ 说好的幸福呢 ♥

...

2010-09-17T08:29:00.001+08:00

I dunno y.. A lot keep flashing back..thinking back once again.. How would it be if I were to choose that?

Sometimes a lot of thing can change ESP if you choose wrongly but it can't be helped.

What can u do? U don't expect others to say oh .. Poor thing etc

Got to bear with it and continued your life lo what else n pray that it gets better each time.

I hate this feeling.. Bcas I know it's not good. I know myself too well..

Should I say temptation is too hard to resist?

Hais....
I cannot do that I know it..

Please give me sone others motivation to do daily and focus on can?

I feel so lost..

Back to kids:
Kyden

He'd bk home.
Well but still skinny due to the last attack but hope he gain weight soon

Isaac
I found out he is not improving on his work and in actual fact he don't remember what his teacher taught him.

Anyone experiencing this too with kids?

His memory is superb good but when come to work he's lost..

Hmm pri 1 is just next year how would he cope I wonder.

Should I be stricter and no tv n games all the way? I need an advice man

Memories

2010-09-14T08:37:00.000+08:00

Kyden are back from
Hospital..
All seems well now..

I keep thinking back this few days..
I felt bad while typing this la.

How would my life be now if I have not divorce and etc..

Would I be less tired? Happier? Richer? Satisfy?

I really dunno all I know is that I can only remember and think of the good and easy life that I hve that all..

Now I'm happy too.. Just that I'm not that easily contented with what I have? Whn problems occur?

I seriously dunno...

I need to stop ranting about all this unhappiness that I have man...

Else I dunno what's gonna happen

Path.. I choose I should face it no matter what happen and not blame others..

Kids.. Nah.. Never regret every single minute having them

Partners.. Haha... Secret

Well life still need to continue even hw unhappy ur. U can't just slp thru the day like in the past when ur unhappy. U have to think about ur kids too..

Ok a happy note..

Birthday near soon, sad to say a year older
Can I be 18 all The way?

Travelling in October 1.. Soon...
Not that excited Liao dunno why...

Planning Taiwan soon
Sure very long if going with him

Genting TBC

Isaac primary one orientation November 2.. Excited..

Too Random Liao la.. Will type a decent post later whn I rch Wk..

Btw I am super busy frm 9am yesterday till 930pm at Wk
To make up for the one week leave. Lucky my boss is kind and understanding enough else I dunno how to survive that lat week

Brb

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Kyden high fever

2010-09-07T00:28:00.001+08:00

Was in Kkh the whole day of Monday...

We decided to take leave and bring Kyden to Kkh for doctor checkup as his cough and breathing is getting worst since last visit.

So the whole night if Sunday he's not sleeping well..
He keep waking up so I and him routine till he bring him over as the sarong was in that room and we fell aslp.
Lol

I woke up at 6plus after hearing Kyden cries.. Fed him medicine.. I went back to sleep while latching him till 8plus we prepare to go Kkh

We reach 930.. Went to check in etc... Seen one doc.. Dis blood test and nebuliser..
Went for Mac breakfast as we were waiting for result..

11.. Result out for blood test.. Nothing serious

So we do nebuliser and still it's not getting better.. Thus on spray and oxygen as he's lacking and it's not healthy...

We keep doing this till 3..
Then they say got to admit in Liao as it's low on oxygen..

Do u know wad time then we managed to go to the room since 3?
Near to 6..
WTF!!!

Am so angry that I scold the nurse therefore it speed up a bit otherwise I can't imagine what time man...damn!!!!

Finally we go to the room Liao lo..

Till now... Back to update soon..
Very shag..

Kyden was restless two day ago... Waking up in his sleep every 20-30 min..
I had to scratch his back, latch him, sing song or cradle him.
Today I did the same while in Kkh...

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2010-09-06T00:17:00.001+08:00

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Updates

2010-09-05T23:27:00.001+08:00

Last week was not a good week...

Kyden, Isaac and him are all down with fever.

Now both of them recover except Kyden, His fever since Thursday till now have not dropped at all and he is also teething now..
I wonder is this the cause of it?
His temperature is always up very high at night esp.. and super grouchy and wake up alot of times making me so tired lo.
I rather sleep late then keep waking up to cather to him as this tires me more.

I see Kyden lik this i feel so sad lo as he slim down alot lo, cum now HFMD is on the run so scary...

Somemore he is a baby he cant talk or tell me what he wants just cry.. sometimes it just make me so angry at night as im really so so tired no choice i will shout at him la, but awhile nia la,..
haha

he is still not asleep now as im bloggin lo....
MIL is yao yao him inside sarong....

Tml gg to bring him to KKH again see why he like that therfore maybe i will only wk half day ba..
Kids sick is very tiring lo...

Kyden is very funny need me to scratch his back haha... when he cries or grouchy kaoz.. but he is funny la.

Lucky MIL and FIL is here to help me else i will die man.

WEnt to cut my hair today and fringe abit regret but never mind la will grow long de.

I also did eyeliner tattoo on my upper eyelid haha i find nice la but PAIN.

NO pain no gain ma hor..

Tml is wking day what a week to start with my kids sick..
Sch holiday for Isaac too but he cant go out with me alone as MIL and FIL gg Genting on Thur to Sun and he cant take any leave thus super boring...

Updating my iphone now and its lik one hour plus liao still not yet ready wa the H

Isaac is watching his cartoon now lo, Thoys Story 3.. just buy de...

Let him be ba since tml is school holiday...

So tired la,
Im waiting for him to bring me my bday present guess what... its a cupcoard i requested him to do for me de with the design and requirments tthat i want so i can put my things and arrange nicely haha.
Else always ful and my makeup etc all over.. very irritated.

So fast one yr older in another 24 days.. Gosh i wished i stay 18 forever....

Still rem last time when i wished to grow up faster to end club and etc.. how i wished i can turn back time and be young again..
Nevertheless i got 2 baobei to accompany me this yr and its gonna be a jyful one.

GTG

Kyden is still not asleep.. Faint.

Im FAINTING BEFORE HE DOES,.
:D

Tired

2010-08-19T00:25:00.001+08:00

Kyden is admitted to Kkh again yesterday...

Flu thn followed by the cough then breathless..

Hmm doctor say it's too early to dignosed if it's asthma or etc.. Well just hope it's not else it's bad for kids la..

Spend 3/4 hours there.. MIL was there with me as husband went site visit and off he went china last night at 1am..back only this sat..

Well a gd whole week alone with kids.

We got some new toys at home.. A wii.. Haha.. All of us are glue to it esp Isaac.. It's very nice.. But tiring man..

Kyden birthday is this sun at Aloha Loyang Pool Terrance No 5.. Start from 3pm onwards...

So fast Kyden already one yr old .. Still rem 22 Aug..

11plus after I bid husband goodbye and he went jb.. I tried to slp but toss n turn as I feel lol wanna go toilet so did not think much as it was raining so cooling to sleep.. 2plus am I feel cramp and was sweating lik mad though it's raining.. Then I went toilet see if it's tummy ach..

No hell, it's not I went almost 4 times till last I ring for the nurse.. She pushes me down to the ward with wheelchair haha.. Then afterwhich I was been checked if it's labour contractions yes it is.. Started, but not opened yet.. I looked at the clock it's 230am on 23 Aug Liao..

I stayed in that room and obly called hubby..when it's almost dawn as I was really pain Liao thn let him slp more first then he came and went back then close to noon then came bk again..

The whole duration was not nice at all

Afternoon was still bearable with pain but suddenly fever kicks in..
On panadol.. No epdurial no nothing as they don't want baby sleepy as he was still not supposed to be born.. Too early premature 2 months earlier..

Till 4 hubby offered to buy me porridge from canteen.. I say yes.. HELL!!! never eat from there anymore since I give birth..
Because of this.. I wasn't allowed to be C-SECT as they say I ate thing so cannot... Can u imagine how I felt.. I can only drag till 1030 to the delivery ward..

Yes 1030 to be C-Sect, never forget that night...
Was not able to wakeup after operation and was sent to some funny room with a morphine drip..YES... morphine.. Haha!!
Blur me dint know wad was that am happily clicking on it once I feel pain.. In the end?? Slept till the next day.. And the following day

I wasn't the first one to see Kyden since birth, unlike Isaac.. Husband was the one who seen him first as I was drowsy..sleepy..weak and of cas in pain..

Went to see previous Kyden, 3rd day... Poor baby.. He was so small like nearly my palm size lo.. Wasn't able to self feed on drip, heater and tonnes of needle around his tiny lill body.

It sadden me to see him like this since he's so small.. I don't dare to carry him too lo.

He needs to be fed by tube insert into his mouth and into the tummy.. Omg!!!

He needs to be on heater because his body temperature cannot be regulate..

Gosh.. I can be discharge after 5 days but baby Kyden cannot.. He still can't self feed, regulate his body temperature..

Well I'm home without baby...

He stay at the hospital for one month just nice back few days before baby shower..

We visit him everyday aft daddy off work at 7 and back at around 8-9 because that the end of visiting hours.. Each day he grow a tiny lill bt I dunno y I can't load picture here!!
ZZZ..

That whole 30 days was a torture imagine you give birth yet your baby is not with you by your side haha!! When u miss him, all you can see is his pictures inside my Hp and worst my Hp give way during that time so most pictures is with daddy Hp!!

Thinking back.. Times flies.. As I'm writting this .. both kids are beside me slping.. I feel my heart is so heavy ;)) haha!!

I never regret in life that I give up alot for my both kids ESP Issac.. When I was still young and should be enjoying life lik normal 19 yr old gals..

My kids bring me happiness.. Slthought they nearly killed me sometimes haha.. Without them
I guess I won't be any happier then now.. Giving up my things, pubbing, clubbing and tonnes more is worth while for me..

Some say I'm stupid, rem mum keep telling me I'm stupid to give birth to Isaac where I can enjoy my youth..
I got one sentence for her..

"I SERIOUSLY FEEL HAPPY NOW, BECAUSE I CAN FEEL E WARMTH MY KIDS BRING ME RATHER THEN IN THE PAST I DONT GET IT FROM YOU. I NEVER REGRET AT ALL AND IM GOING TO CARE FOR THEM FOR AS LONG AS IM ALIVE"

I love my family..

Previously I posted that I feel sian right.. My inlaws are with me now.. Somehow I feel blessed, humans are funny I dunno how to explainy feelings now but I'm not pissed anymore.

Maybe 50% of me still prefer my maid and a home of my own..

50% I love my life now with them around me..

Haha!! It's hard to explain nor justify how I feel now..

This blog is getting rusty and my this post is uber long..

Wait till daddy back from
China will ask him load my pic to lappy..

Ps: he's nt v rich nor handsome but he bring a smile on my face 90%, only 10% I'm sad, angry, etc

Pss: I love u zen ang thanks for bringing me joy for this 6 yrs and on going.. Till I die?? Haha!!

Psss: Isaac n Kyden, mummy will love you both as much as there might be difference in certain area. I will not be biased and I will make sure no one does that in our lill family

Pssss: healthy life??

Okok I'm
Gg stop here it's getting too long!!

"life is short, wad happen next you might not know. If you can treasure what is right infront of u rather then regreting later"

(;

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Updates

2010-07-02T18:38:00.001+08:00

Have not updated for very long
Reson
Blogpress suck

Can't load pic and I have tinned inside my Hp

Well

Kyden is teething now

5teeths at one go lo
It's kinda alot
Bite alot

Isaac pre enrolment soon
2 aug

Hope he can get in

He's v naughty

Kyden bday bash on 22 aug
Fren pls attend
Thanks

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Update

2010-06-06T01:17:00.001+08:00

It's a long time since I update!

Myself:
Been busy busy and tired of cas!
Something new....
Mil is cuming to stay with us 1st July 2010!!
They rented out their house and coming to stay with us tog w fil,mil, bil!!!
Well there's good and bad point that I like and hate!
Good point: they are helping me take care of Isaac to and fro from school! Well this way I must make sure that they bathe Isaac after he come back from Sch bcas currently Isaac is nt yet bathed after come bk from school! Even after I come home, well I hope that he will do so in near furture?

Bad point:
I lose my freedom once again and then it's like life back to 502 time, well I don't mind if they come seriously just that it's his brother that annoying (nt the one staying w us), I don't like them nor his kids bcas they are nt nice to my thinking la! I don't lik his kids bcas they teach Isaac bad words,Bully him!

I hate it if during school holidays they will come n play nor stay!

I'm selfish call me, bt I only wants e best for my own kids nt others nt say I will torture la!
Just that I don't like the biased look and feel la!

Well work us getting more n more busy yet pay us so lill no upgrade!

Thought of getting a new job bt market good?
Current job still flexible la well I'm contradicating!

Isaac:
He's refusing food since a week ago dunno y!
;(
I tried all kinds of feed yet it's wasted!
Mum gt him syrup Fr eating Bt I c no result! Sigh!!
Hope he gets better in day to come
Keep complaint abt tummy ache seen doc
Gt fever n tummy medicine bt well
Let's c!
He's a sweet boy wanna hug me n kiss me suddenly n write sweet note for me

I love god for giving me him precious!

Bt sometimes he really drive mr crazy like mad!
Don't listen at all god!

I rant n rant but I LOVED HIM ALOT!!!

Kyden:
He's such a poor boy
Having breathing diffculties!
Went GP & KKH
for nebuliser and Oxygen breathing bcas it's low!
His airway Is tight n narrow maybe he's premature!
Nw on medicine n antibotics!
Total 5 bottles for feeding poor baby!

Bt at least the medicine is making him breath better and he's nt like breathless lik before
So sad to see him Like that

He's finally teething alr
On his left side tooth abit on top bt nt all haha!!!
Lik since cny gt symptom till nw
Haha!!!
He's nt drooling that much as Isaac la bt he gt more funny symptom when teething

My breastmilk lik nt enuff for him after he drink I still need make milk for him to feel full bt he still latch on before slp or when abt too
He looks for me when in mil hse!
Love him

He's on walker and he's a terror!!!
He grab everything he see and bite throw and destroy!
Isaac banned him from his play room Alreafy bcas he snatches n throw Isaac toys lol!!!
Thn he come to kitchen n start e same thing
God but he's v cute la

Mil lik to mk him slp in sarong but I tried to stop that bcas I believe he can slp without just lik today I nap with him on bed and yes it a good whle 4/5 hrs?

Mil don't listen when I say tt why Kyden lik tt need admit Kkh till I ask husband scold her then she guai guai listen!

Hais!

I hate her sometimes bit she's the one looking after Kyden that why I 50/50

I rem mum told me before if I send my maid bk his parents will try to stay with me by renting or selling
Her words finally hit jackpot!
Wad to do
When u need someone to look after ur kids n u can't compromise if ur not that rich and worry if ur new maid will I'll treat kids anot

So I rather let them stay then worry everyday about my kids eaten liao ma? Gt been bully but there are more problems to arise de la!

I confirm that!

Bt hopefully it's Nt that fast ba!

Maybe closer to their 2yrs rent gg finish then happen ba!

Nw my main worry!

Will their bro come dinner during festival n during praying mth?
My hse will bcum mre dirty?
Oily?
More messy?
More pots n pans?

Sigh
Worry nw also no use I think
After 1st July will kn

Alotnof ple I asked say they will Nt Allow them to move in

Well I'm been nice?

Try upload pic bt blogger can't le dunno y shrug!

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Sat

2010-05-16T11:50:00.000+08:00

Meet up with Maggie after so long at my place

Her kids had fun haha too bad Issac not ard else more merry

She's so pretty le with e fake lashes!!!

Gosh I'm so tempted to do lo

Bt on the other hand I'm scare my lash will drop
Stupid me

But but but
It's v v nice

Like e eye totally opened up

He got to Wk ltr sian

Mking Kyden slp nw thn sweep floor while cooking porridge thn DVD time n Amk hub ltr as I need to buy nose stud!!!
Drop twice ystday
Wth!!!

Hasten dazs ystday night
Yummy

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Shit

2010-05-12T08:41:00.001+08:00

He brought noodle for me I frget take sigh!!!!!!!!!!!!

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童年

2010-05-09T11:53:00.000+08:00

"童年要有傻笑才会纯真
相簿要有照片才够真实
回忆要有你才会更美丽"
要记得珍惜你身边的每个人.
要记得可以凡事能忍就忍着.
要记得不要对朋友。亲情乱发脾气.
要记得可以成为亲情感恩并不容易.当错过了，想珍惜，想发脾气，都可能没有机会了。五百次的轮回.得来今世擦肩而过.
一千次的逆转.换来这生一次亲情深似海.
要多少次的轮回，换多久亲情缘…我不知道，只知道要活在当下，珍惜一切亲情感恩

Saturday

2010-05-08T12:33:00.000+08:00

Wokeup at 9 after Kyden keep looking and pulling my hair, latch him then proceed to do his noon lunch

Today porridge with threadfin,pumkin,carrot and spinach and nt forgetting brwn rice powder and ikan bills powder haha!!

Alot ingredient hor but I tried it's sweet and nice

Haha he finished a bowl and then Now he's slping while I Yao Yao him haha

Bathe him and he enjoyed it

He knw hw to grab e bath tub now and he will grip so tightly so afraid to fall
Babies are smart ain't they?

Mum n sis say they are coming over but I'm wondering will they Lola always bluff de haha

Son gt class ltr at 4-7
Dinner at 8-10

Packed

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;(

2010-05-07T19:55:00.001+08:00

I lost all I type bcas I ans his call

My blog can't load pic using blogpress why

Tml dinner with family lik finally after cny

Mon on leave as mil gg genting gg to b a busy day not resting

Tml bringing Kyden out is gg be hetic with all his barang barang ong

Hope he's well behaved

Love both my kids
God sent!!!

Waiting for him now to ntuc as I wanna js go walk walk a bit to get away from hm bcas battle is waiting for me from tonight till tue morning

Gosh!!!!
Still tout I can enjoyed tonigh

Isaac refused to go Chinese lesson as he can't cope

In a very bad situtation dunno wanna drop me out or continue bt the problem is that he don't learn anything and he's lik just going for fun time rch time hm
That all!!!

Tell me how

Took leave for June holidays to spend time with him already

Off on every mon n fri
Meaning I only Wk 3 days per week hopefully I will be less tired!!

I dud nt tell mil bcas I tell shecwill Wk thus it mk no sense
I can't spend bonding time with Isaac anymore no point

He's here bye

Blood

2010-05-07T08:39:00.000+08:00

It happened again today

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Feeling sick

2010-05-05T08:16:00.001+08:00

I'm hving sore throat omg n blocked nose!!!!

Like heaty as my flam is drk green in colour shack!!!

Mil look after baby I good but when it comes to food it's he'll

U asked them cook this they say can't

You asked them do that they say tOo early

You asked them feed them this they say can't or too early

Hell

I'm hving sore throat that y I lazy to fight back nor tell him cas it look back

Well I can only cook that on a weekend already lo wad to do!!!

Pathetic but no choice!!!

Gg ntuc later after wkto get carrot, veg n meat for stock making!!!

Great if there were white fish!!
High in calcium and also my ex!!
Make the porridge sweeter too!!

I'm tired and I'm feeling bad bcas my damm throat!!

Why in feelin this way!

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:(

2010-05-04T18:09:00.001+08:00

I'm hving eye infetctions meaning no lens wth

Kyden nt hm Fr 2 days

Packed n cleaned home satisfy with new deco

Neat n tidy spacious of cas

Hopefully Isaac did not messed up

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Mixed emotions

2010-04-29T08:45:00.001+08:00

I dunno I felt lousy at work recently!
Doing the right thing got blame, doing wrong thing obviously worst blame!
Wad e FUCK is so wrong or is people trying to find fault?
Or on purpose?
Or got 小人

I feel so moodless to work anymore
Trying to REN or get a new job or better don't work but that HARD la!!!

Wad should I do?
Get a new job or stay put?

Kyden is down with cough,flu and narrow air way!!!
Bcas he's pre mature thus lung not strong

He can look into ur direction when u call/talk to him
He know that tking/opening door means GAIx2
He knows when u scold him
He knows when got food
He knows hw to blah blah all e time (talking)
He know how to push food out if he don't like it
He know how to choose food
He like to pull people hair
He lik to slap people if been disturb
He have more likes/ know/ etc

My baby is growing up!!
Still on 120ml milk only but solids up to3x per day bcas he refuse milk
When I latch him it's totally fine!
Lol

His birthday celebration is on 21 Aug, at aloha chalet
Date is ard there!
Won't diff so much
lol so fast in 3 mths time he's gg to be 1yr old which means I'm older
Time flies

As for Isaac
I got diffcult time with him
Check with teacher, he got lill time patience/span in school
He gets distracted easier by nitty gritty issue which starts to bother me mow badly but he's so busy even to listen
;(
I told him somthing he would tell me forget
I told him not to watch TV he still does it till I reach home
I called him he just placed the phone somewhere else
I don't wanna lay my hands on him but sometimes it gets on my nerve badly!!!
He's forgetful
He's lazy
He's talktative
He's nice and sweet to me
He's got a foul temper
He's tend to get wad he want else he nag/ throw temper
He's still my baby boy!!!

On top of all this nagging j live my 2 kids
They are my pillar to everything
Without them I won't be here
I do not regret having n giving birth to isaac at 19 yrs old

I have done/ tried my best to give them wad they need
I will try to be better
But sometimes it take 2 hand to clap

Well I'm on my way to boring Wk again wonder wads e main/ irritatble issue today that gonna land on me or it's a peaceful sunny Thursday!!!

I dread work now!!

Seriously I hate it

Btw stung by bee
Called town council to come up with pest control last night
Waiting for their call
Btw today is even bigger n more itchy patch lo!!
Wth

Recap

2010-04-26T14:51:00.000+08:00

Friday
As per usual thing.
Wk.hm.kids.housewk.kids.KO

Saturday
More hard working lo
I woke up earlier to bathe Kyden, cook porridge and lunch

He started on brown rice and Jap rice as I ask Eling on it!
Try out fish, carrot, broth and with white fish and this is the 3rd day already
Also after or before each meal I steam an apple and fed him
I want his motion smoother
Well ge eat la

Bcas I'm at hm to do it mil dunno will do that ant bt I teach her already

Gg get brocolli n carrot n spinach to do for mil n freeze it easier for her and at least Kyden can digest lo if nt always Kyden eat herS thn will puke bcas nt sift n smooth enuff!!!

我的最爱

2010-04-23T08:56:00.001+08:00

I always believed wad make me stay on and persisit till today is my kids

Although they make me
laugh
Angry
Tired
Sad

Overall thy are the one who cared n touched my heart the most

Tell me how can I survive without them by my side?

Can I just get Isaac to myself?

He has been writting love letter to me and that day he wrote me an apologies letter because e He made me angry and I scolded him

So touched la

Was really pissed of and tired bcas of Kyden lo

Well I'm sorry Isaac!!!!

Love my 2 kids I lost my freedom bcas of u but I gained something that nothing or no one can provide which is the joy from U
Love u 2 muack!!!

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Tired

2010-04-21T10:25:00.000+08:00

Gg FHA again
;)

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Sweetheart

2010-04-18T23:25:00.001+08:00

Rashes after viral infection

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Sweet heart

2010-04-18T23:08:00.000+08:00

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Tired

2010-04-15T06:48:00.000+08:00

I think not only U so am I.
When everybody is sleeping I'm still awake trying to finished the balance abdxartend to Kyden!

When u needed help to look after Kyden, U ran off!!

Since we lack of all this communication why did you choose to get married and gave kids

I always beloved having kids us not one people issue nor w0rk!!

You font fucking get pregnant just overnight without ur spouse!

I'm simply just too tired and worn out

How I wished I could just fo what I want and nt return to this home!
It's not giving me the feeling it's SWEET anymore
It SUCKS big time

I wonder why GOD created spouse, can't the man fucking c that we R equal?

I'm not EMO when I'm writting this but it's detp down from my heart it's just a matter of tome when it will explode!
Finally it's does exploded last night!

I finally c what is the meaning, u fo kot deserved me been so nice to u

I do not wake u up when he wake up for milk.

I let u slp while I'm awake mking him slp

I need to eat fast lik ab idiot bcas ge cry no obs attend to

I need to act lol mad bcas I gt tonnes of work to b done

I'm shag lik fuck no one care

I'm also tired

At e end, there's lot more and overall I'm human not robot!

I hate everything now, how I wished I could simply just disappeared!

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High fever

2010-04-12T09:58:00.000+08:00

Kyden is down with high fever of 39.4 degress yesterday and was very cranky the whole day, lucky it was a Sunday and he did not went to work. Else i will give way i think.

I am just so tired everyday. Last time i would look forward to weekend bcas its like my relax day or shopping day. Now i dread weekend, more tired and look like shit, Shag and tired!

My 2 rascal is with me the whole day and he is wlking on Saturday till 6pm.
My No2 just wants attention so much that i cant focus on No 1 then i seems like neglect him.
I hate this type of feeling.

Sometimes i asked him to help he tired then flare at him thus i hardly asked him to teach him work!

Well, shit happen what can i say!

He is nasty to No.2 too! So i wont say its biased!

I wanted to go BKK but darn they are having their stupid riots there now and worst duno when it will last.

I need a break, work have become moodless for me already!

I have no appetie to eat sometime as im really too tired already!
I felt life is like no longer anticipating as before after No.2 well i cant blame anyone, its my call to have him
I just wished i can have at least some freedom back!
I LOST it all once No.2 is born.

Not that im blaiming others or that i crave for clubbing either.
Its just that quiet time with my fren for coffee or shopping would do me good i guess.

A day without my kids shopping might be very nice i guess....
Looking forward to this day!

Work again from Monday to Friday. What a life i have.
Singaporean need to lead this type of life when they are not born RICH?

I hate it man

Well Kyden is on porridge already but then he only eat like 3 tablespoon only, not much big eater.
Reject food as much as he dont like it.
Milk wise still OK. Must force lo else sometimes he went crazy, he dont drink at all, SCARY!

Hes so unlike Isaac!!!!

ISacc is anything also eat and drink, no worries de, fatty bom bom.
Kyden fussy eater and not fatty bom bom.
maybe hes premature?

Isaac grown up le but still very naughty la, dont listen sometimes but sometimes he listen and will do his own things, help to look after Kyden when needed when he saw that im busy!
Sometimes i shout till i nearly 1/2 dead he still refuse.
Well....

Need to start him on his assesment book already.
Primary 1 next year!!
Scary!!!!

Got to buck up and go, bye

Tired n irritated

2010-04-07T07:39:00.001+08:00

I dunno I seriously feel very tired and worn out already which I don't feel lik coming home anymore!

Kyden I setiously dunno wad wrong with him and bcas my mum hais!!!

I need to work yet I need to do housework too after Wk which leave me no time to rest.
Not enough sleep lik 8 hrs
Sonetimes even 2-3 hrs only
I'm totally shag out
I dunno how long my pillar can last but I will try my best

Ple help out only on the surface like his mum
Times up they go home, who care if you has dinner, bathe, sweep or mop the gloor already!
I won't go complaint abt all this. U can feel it de
That's y I kept to myself n try to do all if possible which lead me to frustractions only bcas Kyden dun wan slp Isaac dun wan listen, I nt enuff slp

I told myself yoday if my maid wants to come bk I will not hired her bk bcas she left shen u needed help most and Also who kn wen she wanna leave again
Can't trust

He told me to hire maid again I tout of this but meaning more expenses! I can't kip bth

Dilemma

I just wished all this could come to an end fast enuff

I'm really tired!
Very

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Pictures

2010-04-06T22:55:00.001+08:00

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Joovy caboose for sale

2010-04-06T21:34:00.000+08:00

Selling my used joovy caboose bcas I gt a new one already!
Selling at only 130
It's new n can seat 2 kids, bb or toddler infront while e older one can stand or sear behind

Www.joovy.com

Product Description
Fully equipped with a universal car seat attachment system, this Caboose Stand-On Tandem Stroller in black and grey from Joovy® allows an older child to stand on its rear platform while a younger child rides comfortably in front. If the standing child tires, they can turn around and rest on the padded rear seat. The Caboose can accommodate an infant in the car seat so you can use it as soon as your new arrival comes. It's easy for parents because the Caboose is lightweight and folds up compactly. It also has a large basket and storage pockets. And the rear platform means no more lifting a heavier, older child in and out of the stroller.

Additional Info :-
Child Weight Max: 45 lbs
Type: double
# of Children Capacity:2
Car Seat Compatible:Yes
Extras:Sunshade,Cup Holder(s),Cargo Basket,Tray / Bar,Adjustable Canopy
Best Uses:City,Walking,Shopping,Travel

Picture : Joovy Caboose

Email babykarenlam@hotmail.com if you like it, btw mine is blue

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Pictures

2010-04-03T18:12:00.001+08:00

Still got more but too lag

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Stress out

2010-03-31T23:10:00.000+08:00

I Dunno wad to do already m fucking stress out with Isaac!

All ple only kn how to tell me use nice tones to talk to him but I talked till cow cone home he still take me for grantted!

How I'm seriously losing my last lill bit patience I had with him!!!!!

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Milk issue

2010-03-30T12:18:00.001+08:00

Kyden is nt interested in his milk,more interested in food how?

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...... M I a bad mother or I'm under sresst

2010-03-27T22:54:00.000+08:00

I duno wad hit me, I always tell myself to control and not to hit/ beat Isaac!
Today I lost control, I can't, he don't listen to me'

that e last straw, noon time already told him to face e wall because he ml me so angry refuse to listen, at night same thing happen.

I tried bot to use cane nor beat because I belive he's old enough and should not beat him but then each day he tried to come up with something new!
ESP when I'm at work and his mum looking after him, he become worst!
Talking don't seems to work, dis I allow him him to do what he like thus today he become lik that?
M I at fault for this today?
I seriously duno'

that e last straw after he pissed n don't listen to me, I locked him in his room and I went in after which I slap him 3 times and there was a deep cut in his upper lip. I felt bad of casbbt overall I'm really v angry, else I would not hit him de!

I always try n I nv touched him for the longest time and I always use by talking but he's taking mr for granted!!!!
I hate that!

I seriously duno what I should do already, looking after both can be v stressful, I need help but then there are things which can't!

I'm stress st wk, bk home he does it again n I duno how long I can take it!

Anyway I'm really dirty any hiting him hut what I done already there's no turning back, he's jumping STD again, people tell me he's lik that should talk to him nicely, tell mr how nicely should I say, when he's taking me for granted thinking I'm saying only each time!

Before he go sad I think I will go crazy first!

Te me what should I do!

M I a failure as s mum?
I duno
did I do the right thing?
I already tried my best in all ways to ensure he's well fed, hve Sch, gd home etc, yet he's still like that!
I'm confused and I'm sorry Isaac for hitting u!

Mummy is sorry to you!

I need a brak seriously!

I'm getting depesdion soon I think
gd bye

2010-03-23T23:17:00.001+08:00

Work is getting more and more demanding!
Tired
People are taking me for granted, although work is easy but afterall I felt lousy most of the time this year, bad year?
Wanted to change a new enviornment but then is it flexible?
NO
That is the main reason why I'm still there!!

I can't understand why people like to push the plate ard and boss people to do things, at e end of the day u think u can win?
_|_

I'm so sick of all this but still is earning thus no choice gt to put up with it!

I need s break

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Shagged out totally!

2010-03-17T14:07:00.000+08:00

Brought Kyden for his Jab yesterday and Isaac went along bcas he got no school.
Did not bring pram and i was alone with both of them.
LOL
weather is hot and horrible la.

Well he cried twice bcas got two jab haha.
Well....
Isaac was scared too bcas i told him that his turn soon if he is still so naughty.

Isaac brought his notebook lo alone and told me to spell for him all the injection wording and Kyden name etc.

Went home after that, fed Kyden medicine then i went to make him slp and off i do house work.
So tiring can!
No choice...

Night time then his mum brought food over and i was so shagged out by 11 pm.

Kyden develop fever at 2am so i wake up and fed him medicine and latch him on milk lo, struggle abit la.
Bcas i went to paste that cold gel on him and he cannot liao lo!
LOL

Anyway this morning i woke up the gel is missing i wonder where it went.

Recently we are sleeping in ISaac room bcas its coller and windy not wake up to be sweaty!
But the pro is we have to put the mattress back n fro each night LOL
Better then wake up in sweat

Sometimes at work im so sian, bcas i got bad nasty collegues! Who are selfish and annoying.
Lucky i dont face them daily but i hate them to the core that i wished to have nothing to do with him/ her.
Hope she gets my message and leave me alone.

He asked me to buy PTK LOL, bcas i say im feeling like want to vomit.
I keep dont want to buy LOL
I think there is no la.

Going to take PM leave tml and bring Isaac go swimming then some bonding time alone just both of us since Kyden is borned then he lacked the love and care from me when i used to shower him full attention,
The other day we just went Library and its was a rush one bcas his mum is at home waiting for us and also he reached to fetched us back already,.
well still fun as we each got borrow haha.

Tml we willbe gg swimming and he refused to let us go Jurong Science Centre alone, he wants to follow us on Sunday instead. i wonder with Kyden how to go inside snow city LOL

Going to discuss today!

iM GOING TO PUMP MY MILK NOW LAREADY SHAGGED TIRED AND GOING TO CHASE MY DRAMA
Next Stop Happiness..
I know i very slow but wad to do!
;)

Hope work will be better in coming months and also i will be less tired!
Kyden well behave.
isaac listen

\Oh ya before i forget .....
Nurse say KYDEN IS FAT & SHORT!!!!!!
Not tall enuff!!!!

LMAO

Milestone

2010-03-13T14:16:00.001+08:00

Kyden finally flip on it's own earlier, he's 7 month 1-2 to 8 months.
Have cereal daily 2 times, but his drinking of milk actually decrease& I decrease in pumping at night only twice a day, morning, noon, night is purely latching.
Trying to get used to it

Nw he can blah blah funny languages and look into e direction where ple are talking, laugh when amused, cry when feed cereal too slow, grip e bath tub when bathe, grab ple hair, touch ple face
Alot more..
Tbc

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Kyden poo

2010-03-10T17:30:00.001+08:00

Kyden did not pass motion Fr 4 days this is the outcome

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The day

2010-03-09T08:52:00.001+08:00

Today marks e day Maid is finally leaving, her flight at 1pm
I wonder how would son react!
Lag night he acted not the usual him while I was sleeping after eatin medicine
He hit her which he usually don't etc
I Guess that his way of saying our his frustion on her leaving

Told her we would welcome
Her bk if she wants to come bk but if she choose to go other place i'm also happy for her!

Did nt show much emo already as I somehow got use to it, starting to thin if a person wanted to leave there's no way h can stop or change their mind.
Plus they are overall nit ur cloest kin!

All the best to her and whichever path she choose

Anyway her Fren n new agent will b going airport with her ltr on lol
I Wondef wad she's up to.....

But she seems so happy packing her things lo!!!
Lol
In another 2 hrs son wil wake up n duno hw will he alr

Btw I punished him at naughty corner and it was quiet aft 10 min I wonder y.....
He fell aslp by placing his head against e wall n zzzz
Omg!!!!!
Anyway he need to be punished bcas he's way too michevioua n naughty already!

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Been nice don't pay

2010-03-03T22:31:00.001+08:00

I was nice to absorb my maid levy since she wants to gi back, who know the most shocking matter hit me!

She already got her bio data given to her Fren, knw where she can work after she left etc!

No wonder ple say they are heartless!
Well nevertheless I only absorb her levy pro rated!
Nt gg give her salary!
She's gg to pay Fr her own air ticket!

Nw she already packed her stuff alr l0, wen I just told her ystday ain't that fast?

Anything his mum supposed to come yet she leave again
I'm scare she alone at home might steal etc but then she left
Sometimes I feel lik slapping that person but I can't due she's my mil

Tml if she does that again I'm so gg f***
I dun care already

I'm just hving mood swing la, he's out happy here I'm

Fuck that life!

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;)

2010-03-03T00:02:00.001+08:00

Just had a talk with my maid regards the SMS she sent the other day!
her decision is to go back her home, I told her ok, I'm fine to let her go bk since no point, she no heart to work.
Maybe it time she go back since she started work for 7 years no go Back already!!
She will go back next week

Isaac is sad but no choice

Maid would bs happier I guess nit so stress and at least can relax first!

All the best to me, doing house work etc
Faint!!!

Gosh

My life hmmm......
To be continued

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Finalized

2010-03-02T16:56:00.001+08:00

She going back on Sunday!
He say I can't say to her
I felt bad bcas she also stay with us for almost one yr Liao ma!
Hais
All she create de lo
I try to tolerate her, nv scold her but she nv learn well then no choice
Since she decided to sent me that SMS that day, his mum quit there's no turning back already!
I tried to retain her but his mum finally resign like for almost 6 months of talking
I guess she's nt fated to be with us
Well I honesty say I did not torture or I'll treat her in any way
All e best in ur future work scope or maybe u would want to get married
I guess Isaac will be very sad and crying ba bcas he's v close to her lo
Well not I don't wan u
Is u
I guess all are fated
We canf change e fact that you are gd but problemtic
Well
For e time being no maid till Kyden is 1 1/2
Nw full time by hus mum
Hopefully no scratches or friction of other problems again
I'm drained
Well I try my best to protect h Fr 9 months tok bad u still fail!
I protected her bcas I kn she need money nt I lazy and she gt a gd character too but all maid who Wk longer thn 3 yrs will changed!

Bye bye surnami!
Thanks for working with us and tbear with my rubbish
Thanks for taking good care if Isaac and Kyden when I'm at work
Hope u get wad u wanted
Thanks for all the work and I hereby say gd bye!
I duno if I can face u on Sunday anot I scare I cry, then u cry
Hais I hate thus type of thing why did u do that or SMS me?
I can't ask u why u SMS bcas ah ma quited her Job and to b fair to her I can't Kip u
I wanted to Kip u but I'm scared that 3 months later u back to square one bcas so far no one trusted u as much as I do!
Maybe I'm nt a gd owner to u but then I still appreciated what u did for me
Keep in touch if ur in Singapore
Take care
Isaac will miss u alot

Back to tiring life

2010-03-01T22:18:00.001+08:00

We decide to send our maid back to Indonesia already after that SMS she sent me!

I felt uncomfortable and she's taking me for granted!
I also felt she don't have the heart to work already!

Overall we are going to share house Wk burden again

Sigh!!!!

Wad a life!!!!

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Arg

2010-03-01T14:51:00.001+08:00

So angry with my maid, make me late again when I told her a million times I can't b late!

Let her slp early n wakeup late when I deed Kyden myself! Totally took me for granted!

She woke up at 8an on sat n sun while I fed Kyden at 5,7am myself?!!

Gg mil house eat dinner, she just carried baby then never packed the bag and walked off!!

I become the packer cum maid!!!

Need yo remind her times and times again!

There will b a limited

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Pissed

2010-02-27T23:23:00.000+08:00

Why fo men always think they can leave the job to a woman or helper? They can simply just cast everything in the house just to enjoy etc!

Fuck I'm getting so angry here already!

I always think there's a limited to my patience but currently I'm running out of it!

Any more little actions I guess I won't look back, I wanted to leave everything off my sight just for one day and don't bother at all but I can't!

Bcas of my kids!
Kids is not Just mine alone!

U do need to bear ur responsibility.
I don't fucking get pregnant myself overnight!
I font fucking get extra burden overnight!

Overall I'm just a woman!
Who need care n concern too!
I'm not a robot!
I need a break too!

I will leave if this continued as it's too tired!

No wonder people say:
One day yr not married, ur always a queen!
Once ur married, you are worst then a maid
男人的话哪里可以听

I finally understand this!

Hw I wished I was the one who got u pregnant and not the one blogging here!
Because I will be so much free and happy!
Not like now!

Everything is too late!

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Lazy pig

2010-02-26T21:01:00.000+08:00

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Friday

2010-02-26T16:31:00.001+08:00

Went Vienna for dinner ystday, just the 2 of us $92 not bad but quality drop. A quiet dinner where it's fussed free and I totally enjoyed it.
No need to chase and scream
One word FULL

Some pictures only because I ate as I'm so hungry!

Today on leave,went to book basic again! Ok I failed more then almost 10 x lol or abit lesser?
They moved yo woodland already shit!!!!
Means got to go woodland and take exam lo
Decided to be private student, he told me to take auto lol just in case I failed too many times
He told me pass basic first
Zzz!!!!!

At home so going to feed Kyden bee gour later haha!!
He passed motion smelly lol

He weight almost 7 kg now he's 6 months on 23 feb lol
That's a good sign

Ok o e stupid thing, I claimed he's teething
Ok
He's not
It's e deposit of calcium
Haha!!!!
U over reacted!
Paiseh
Gee

After I chat with Eling
I decided yo slow down on pumping milk and used e frozen milk but I still scare wait ge big drinker suddenly how!

Ok
I'm paranoid haha

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Bad year

2010-02-24T13:54:00.001+08:00

I think this year is A BAD year, down on luck, sick, experience things that is not my fault when it's the been if someone who's retarted, hopeless and always think they are right!
Sigh, u don't learn if you don't admit ur fault, well I can't change u but u can change yourself!

Back to this morning, so suddenly, now I'm pumping and then I'm watching see got blood or anything anot

My Aunty advise me to latch baby in only, don't pump, as I got s chest freezer full of EBM!
I wanted to do so then I gt time!

But I'm thinking advice scare wait no milk how?

Can do smeone tell me wad to do?

Suck no appetite, tasteless!!! Craving for e lousy food which I can't eat! Darn

Isaac went to shake n push Kyden again because I told maid not to let him watch tv! It's so dangerous because the whole thing neatly collaspe!
Hais!

He's taking this adventage because I don't cane!

Hope he gets the Thai DKNY job, then can book my ticket and hsppily go Thai!
I need a break, seriously

Ever since e birth if Kyden except the data when doin confirnment, I'm partically beat at e end if each day drained totally, maybe sat not so bad as I sleep in till 1pm but still I wakeup at 7 to pump. Milk!

I kept asking myself, y y chould I torture myself but I keep thinking it's for e gd of Kyden!
Shiak

No sign is gd sign

Nw I gt a few things to decide
1) continued to pump?
2) direct latch only
3) be more ficus on Wk
4) teach Isaac with a gd one
5) make him respect
6) alot mre bt I'm saturated

I'm hving migrai e everynight and backache coming back
I so tired to Kip saying all this daily la but no one help
Help only when asked, nt consider helping

I crap too much

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Blood in milk

2010-02-24T10:41:00.000+08:00

I was pumping milk this morning and I saw blood inside my milk.
Was scared to wits lo, pinkish red milk!!!!

Asked ard wad happen, zzz

Wad a bad morning!
Supposed to go on mc bt I chose nt to!
Gd worker

I decided to prolong pumping session which is taught by Eling! Hopefully it works

Decided to pump only twice a day, as I hve reserved and I wanted more time with Isaac! After Wk, I ate dinner, pump milk, bathe it's almost 9+
not much time to teach hi
Wk or do other thing.
Early morning 6am I'm awake to pump milk while looking at everyone still sweetly zzz
I lacked of slp
Tired
Grouchy
Sigh

Nw every night I woke to feed Kyden milk directblatch at least twice because he always fall asleep did nt drink thus wake ip an hr agn!

Sometimes angry because I'm tired bt no choice

Mummy are really courage lady

Scary hor!!!
Btw I pour into bowl because needed to capture the milk picture!
Threw away e milk because I duno can drink anot lol

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He cook

2010-02-23T19:12:00.001+08:00

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I'm tired

2010-02-23T17:14:00.001+08:00

Y can't Isaac just listen for once,I don't like to Kip crapping but he don't liksten, can I just go back to cane?
M reali v angry, sad dun feel lik timing to him already

Shall not talk to him
See if he listen

Sigh

Hungry

Kyden checkup today was gd but expensive
He's almost 7kg now
Still puke milk
On medicine to stop it
Teething is fake
No teething!!!!!
Zzzzzzz

He's off I'm on mc, sick

I so angry with Isaac!
Y y y y y y y
He font listen only when I scream amtheb he's afraid?

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I'm not a gd mother

2010-02-22T13:35:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I felt torn between Kyden & Isaac!
I felt I'm nt a gd mother!!!

I lost temper pretty fast, worst Isaac don't listen and will only stop when I really flare!

I don't hit/cane him anymore because I told him, he's old already canning is shame shame,I use shouting but he took me for granted thus I will scre do loud till I sian!

Last night I scold him for bring naughty and told him
"you dont understand or u Dino right or wrong?"
"I don't want talk or see u already"

He's sad of cas after I say that, then when we reach home,I'm pumping milk, he suddenly came in, hug me and demand that I kiss hinnon his face.
I asked why,
He say:
I want be good boy, only do the correct thing and not the wrong thing, I'm know I'm wrong, Sorry!

Then I told him, I angry because he dun listen, mummy sick no voice to shout!
He say he kn m is sorry!

I say ok I love u and he hug me and say he won't do it again!

5 minutes after he left the room he forget n start again!!! Gosh!!!
I was like........ *_*••

Well at least he now kn if it's right or wrong better in it!

I tried to speak or lecture him nicely sometimes he don't get it bcas I nt fierce! It pissed me off badly lo, bt I control bcas I want him to kn I'm lecturing him bt at e same time I loved him tt y I use talking rather thn cane!!!

Buay tahan him la!!!

He my darling yet my lovely rascal!

My both precious are god send from heaven and no matter how naughty or other people might see, they are always my darling precious
你们永远是我的宝贝

Kyden also no good lo, temper worst then Isaac when young!!!
Can't wait!!!
Lost temper
Cries
Gosh

I have 2 diffcult babies!!!

Well....

M sick gg see doctor after work and tmr is Kyden 3 mths checkup at Kkh!

Got time to blog while pumping milk now lo!!

Btw I changed Hp no, did u all rec?

(;

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1st solid food

2010-02-20T17:12:00.000+08:00

I started solid food on Kyden just like 10min ago!

I gave him just plain rice with breastmik.
30ml breastmik mixed with 1tablespoon plain nestle rice
Fed him only I small baby scoop
Bcas it's just a start

Hope he can eat better and then promote to porridge and other cereal

He's nt hving fever today already bt I KS I stick the cooling jel n fed him panadol for baby just in case!

He missed him jab today bcas he's nt feeling well then got to wait one month bcas it's full sigh!!

Waiting for son to finish school then headed to his Aunty place for dinner as celebrating 21 yrs old

I latch in Kyden alot bcas he's cranky and I'm off so I tour we Can bond more! Hope this helps

He's crying again

Bye bye

Photo before he gt fever!
;(

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;( tired

2010-02-19T23:04:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired!
Totally knock out when Kyden is sick and I'm sick too but well I can't rest because he needs attention more then my rest!

Took medicine which supposed to make me drowsy n sleepy yet I actually woke up every one hr bcas he cries n need my attention and the final straw came wen he wokeup at 5am with fever and crying non stop, luckily he helped!

Managed to grab abit slp frm 6am to barely 730am ge started it again!

Took urgent leave as I can't opened my eyes!

Rested awhile then latch him then pump milk, it's already 1030am, need to reali slp abit thus I pass Kyden to maid while I text him to take PM leave as I scare I can't handle!

Supposed to see doctor but fever went down and tmr going jab so never go!

Evening fever came back and he's such a light sleeper lo!!!

Teething is so tiring for him n me!!!!

I'm drained!

I need help pls yet his mum need to work!

我好累

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Cny plus random

2010-02-17T19:20:00.000+08:00

Isaac do not want to wake up go school today and he's sleeping like that after crying. Lols

Isaac took and edit using iPhone without my help

Isaac told me to look down lime that pretending to be watering lol,kids nowaday no need teach them they can operate iPhone

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Teething

2010-02-17T19:12:00.000+08:00

Kyden teething now at e age of 6 months! Take note he's a premature baby!
Baby nowaday are really high tech I should say, progressing faster then before g0sh!

This year is a tiring new year for me! Kyden fever,cranky,grouchy but nevertheless it's worth it.

3rd day cny passed! Darn!!! Fast

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¸.•*´¯)¸.•*´¯)★"I don't have to be perfect to be loved"★(¯`*•.¸(¯`*•.¸

Chinese new year

I'm back

Pictures

A long post

On leave

A happy note and a sad note

Monday Blues

..continued

23 nov the day

Thursday

Allergies

Happy

;)

Sad

Isaac graduaction

TGIF

Random

Boring sat

Friday

Puzzled

Thursday

My sweetest son ever

Hk trip

Tuesday

Friday night

Update

...

Memories

Kyden high fever

Updates

Tired

Updates

Update

Sat

Shit

童年

Saturday

;(

Blood

Feeling sick

:(

Mixed emotions

Recap

我的最爱

Tired

Sweetheart

Sweet heart

Tired

High fever

Tired n irritated

Pictures

Joovy caboose for sale

Pictures

Stress out

Milk issue

...... M I a bad mother or I'm under sresst

Shagged out totally!

Milestone

Kyden poo

The day

Been nice don't pay

;)

Finalized

Back to tiring life

Arg

Pissed

Lazy pig

Friday

Bad year

Blood in milk

He cook

I'm tired

I'm not a gd mother

1st solid food

;( tired

Cny plus random

Teething

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